Chapter 4: Plan and Secret

I had to make a plan in order to make sure that I was prepared in case Sebastian was coming. I got out my sketchbook and started to brainstorm ideas for new runes. I knew that I was powerful that way and needed ideas for protecting Jace. There had to be a way to protect him. I just knew it.

I got to work. I tried a bunch of different ideas but it was like I was having a writer's block. I couldn't figure out the right kind of rune to make. I knew that it had to be a strong one. And I knew it would work if I could just think of the right kind of one.

Then someone knocked on my door… I shoved my sketchbook under the mattress and replied to the know

"Y-yes?" I asked.

"Clary? It's Jace" he said a tinge of worry underneath.

"Come in" I replied.

"Hey! Umm I was wondering if we could talk?" he asked coming and laying beside me on the bed.

"About what may I ask?"

"It's about the nightmares that you've been having and it's about your strange behavior that's been going on recently Clary, because honey I'm worried about you" he said sincerely stroking my cheek. I was looking down fidgeting with a loose thread on the sheet. He pulled my face up to his and stared at me for a moment that seemed like forever. I knew that I should tell him right then and there; however, the incident back in Idris had made me a stronger person and right now Jace was the one that I needed to protect so I didn't tell him. I will soon when the time is right and I have a plan.

"I'm fine Jace, there's nothing wrong with me, and you shouldn't worry because they're just nightmares maybe it's because I feel guilty for pushing you away that night in Idris after we let that angel go.. Or maybe I can't help but think of what Sebastian did to you" I said a little unsteady. He winced and looked away. I know it was a low blow to remind him of that night but I had to protect him. And I know that he didn't like to be reminded of Sebastian because Jace didn't have a chance to finish him off. I know he's worried about when he'll come back.

*** FLACH BACK! ***

"Clary, you should know that of he comes back I will finish him" Jace said angered.

"But what if he comes at you first and your unaware?" I said worried.

"Babe, don't worry. I'm a shadow hunter remember? Besides I'm a pretty damn good one too!" he smiled pulling up my face assuring me that Sebastian would never get past him unnoticed. I kissed him in desperation that Sebastian would never get to him. I needed to know that he'd be safe. He responded and I lost it. I kissed him with as much love as I had pushing myself closer to him until there was absolutely no more room in between us. He responded fiercely at first then he had to stop to catch his breath.

"Clary..." he said with concern.

"What?" I asked unsure of what he was doing.

" if he comes back you have to promise me that you'll get as far away from him as possible and that you won't come back for me, because Clary if he even tries to hurt you I'd never forgive myself if he hurt you" he said seriously looking for my confirmation.

"No, no Jace I can't leave you, I will NOT leave you! Do you hear me? I am not going to leave you, never ever and your not going to fight him alone." I said hurt that he could ever ask me to leave him if Sebastian came back.

"Clary…" he breathed in my hair and kissed it. He looked into my eyes and I knew I was crying but didn't care anymore.

"Clary… I don't care about what happens to me if he comes, but I do care about what happens to you I don't want you to risk your life against him do you understand me? Do you not understand that I love you more than anything else in my life?" he asked furious but still calm.

"Yes I do, but do you understand what I would be going through if YOU died? Do you not know what that would do to me? Jace you are asking me to run away from you if he comes back. And I can't do that I WON'T do that. Do you understand? I don't care if he brings an army with him I am and will NOT leave you" I said calmly to him. Poking his chest each time I emphasized that I WOULDN'T LEAVE him.

"Clary… I need you to be safe I can't lose you again" he said staring into my eyes then he kissed me with even more desperation. I kissed him back fiercely.

"Jace, I will NOT leave you." I said desperate that he's change his mind.

"Clary, you will leave. Promise me you will. I don't want him to find you..." he said desperately.

"Okay" I lied. Kissing him to make it out like I caved in. but I wasn't going to leave him.

I would never leave him. And I'd make sure Sebastian would get hat was coming to him if it was the last thing I had to do.

*** END OF FLASHBACK! ***

"Jace, I promised you that I'd leave if he ever came back" I said with hesitation.

"I know and I hope that you understand that I can't bare to have you in danger ever again" he said peering into my eyes.

"I know and I'll keep my promise to you, because I love you. And I would do anything for you, you know that right?" I said.

"I know" he smiled.

"But I will not leave you unprotected and vulnerable to him" I said sternly looking into his eyes smiling.

"What do you mean?" he asked confused.

"I've been planning incase he comes back" I smiled. Then I leaned over him and pulled out my sketchbook. The time was now and I had to protect him. I would protect him and I didn't care if he didn't like it or not. I would protect him if it killed me. That's how much I loved him.

"Look here..." I pointed at my rough ideas.

He peered down and I stared into his liquid golden eyes.

"I need your help and won't take no for an answer" I said shyly. Looking down at the paper.