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Chapter 29
APOV
"Okay Alice you can do this. You have to have confirmation, and then you will be able to look into Jasper's eyes again…hopefully." I attempt to give myself a pep-talk. Bella and I are going to the doctor after our lunch with the girls. Leah has been joining us as of late. It's always strange to have a new member to your already made group but Leah seems to be the wall flower, worse than Angela. Speaking of Angela, she has been so moody lately. Man I hope I don't get like that. "Enough of this Alice you will be fine. You are a happy person; you are in control of your life, even though it may not seem like it right now. Now pull it together or everyone will know before you are ready for them to know." I wash my face and grab my coat and keys to leave.
"Ali, hi, Hun" Rosalie greets me with a hug.
"Alice, hi" Angela says causing me to turn around. "Holy shit no way. Alice?" Angela looks at me quizzically. Rose looks between the two of us as I stare at the floor.
"Alice what is she talking about?" Rosalie asks.
"Uhhh…." Yep that is my brilliant answer.
"Alice, are you?" Angela drops off.
"Are you…WHAT?" Well… click Rose.
"Rosalie, if you don't shut up…" oh thank you Bella. I turn and dash behind Bella; I know she will shield all their questions, and or comments. "Everyone, sit down and we will talk about this so no one else can be privy to our conversation."
Bella explains what happened Sunday and proceeded on about what Edward's dumb ass did. When she hits the part where he hasn't called or stopped by, it makes me want to go and kick his ass myself.
"Okay I got this check cuz we gotta get to that appointment." Rose hands her card over.
"What appointment?" Leah asks.
"Ali's doctors appointment."
"Uhh…"
"Alice, listen to me. We have all done things together. I wish you guys where with me when I went. As it was I thought it was just the flu, I didn't have a clue babies where involved." Angela comforts me.
After some coaxing and a short convoy of cars, we are all sitting in the waiting room. It looks like a little group of mourners we are all sitting in a circle of silence.
"Ms. Brandon" a blond haired nurse calls. We all stand up together and start walking up to the nurse. Everyone in the waiting room watches as the five of us walk to the room.
"I'm afraid we don't have enough chairs in the room, a few of you might have to…"
Rose interrupts her by holding up her hand "Not happening. So you either get more chairs or we stand." She wasn't trying to be mean; she is just the straight forward one of us.
I look at the nurse pleadingly. She nods in agreement and opens the door for us. We all stay in the room and stay just as silent while they gather around me, as I sit on the exam table. Finally the nurse comes back in and hands me a cup and instructs me on what to do, like I am an idiot that doesn't know how to pee in a damn cup.
It seems like forever goes by before the doctor comes in. "Ms. Brandon?" he looks at all of us and all my friends point to me.
Remember when you where a kid and an adult asks 'who did this?' and every one points to the guilty party and that happens to be you. Well that's what I felt like at this point. All I can do is nod in affirmation.
"Well Miss. Brandon I would normally say congratulations, but you look like I just told you your dog died." I just start to sob uncontrollably.
"Doctorrrr…" Bella takes over politely
"Turner, Dr. Turner." He answers.
"Well Dr. Turner in case you don't realize it, this is highly UNplaned, she is a little overwhelmed at the moment."
"Well, Miss. Brandon," he bows his head to look to my face, "There are other options." He states.
"W…wh…wha…what do y…yo…you mean?" I sniffle out.
"I mean you are only, about eight weeks along, we could still abort the baby."
Are you off your rocker? I don't fuckin think so! "NO! I mean, no I don't want to."
"You are far enough to hear the heart beat then, just barely, but I think we might be able to find it. It might take an ultrasound but I think we can do it."
I look to the girls for and answer. "Alice, sweetie, this is huge." Bella says calmly.
"You think I should do this?"
Everyone nods, but Bella speaks up. "Alice, if you are freaking out now this may put you over the edge. A lot of women cry when they hear their baby's heart for the first time. It is ultimately your choice and we will support you every way." She takes my hand and he hold on to each other tightly.
After a short mental debate I decide. "Yes, I want to try." I nod.
The doctor walks out and returns with a monstrosity of a machine. He lowers the table so I am lying flat and Bella moves to the other side of my head to give him some room. She takes my hand again, and with my life line back I start to relax. I jump slightly at the jelly shit he puts on my belly, that shit is nasty feeling and cold as ice; I don't think I will want to use that again. The doctor gets right to work and hunts for the baby. As soon as it is found, he points it out. This thing looks like a little bean with some strange growth coming from it, and there is a strange swishing noise coming from the machine.
"It sounds like my washer at home." I mention.
"Yeah honey that is the heart beat. Your baby's, heartbeat." Bella informs me nodding.
Hearing that one thing and having Bella's hand has resolved me to a few things, one: I am going to be a mom, two: my friends will be here even if Jasper isn't, and three: I can do this. I will do this. Now all I have to do is find a way to tell Jasper. This could be interesting.
When we are done at the doctor's I thank them all for coming with me. After looking at her watch Bella says she has to go get her kids. What a Wednesday this has been.
BPOV
Well what a Wednesday this has been. Alice has her confirmation and is now working on a way to tell Jasper about the baby. I think everything will be fine, Jasper is a good guy. On my way to the school I think about Edward and how he hasn't called or stopped by. Grant it I haven't tried either since Sunday, but still.
On my way to the school I try to call him again. I know I said just screw it and I didn't care but there is something nagging at me to explain things.
"Hello, mama" SETH! What the hell is Seth doing answering Edward's cell?
"Seth?"
"Oh crap!" yeah what the hell are you doing kid. "Uh hey mama how's it goin?"
"Not funny what the hell are you doing! And why, the hell, are you with Edward and where is your brother."
"MOM, you cussed at me!"
"Oh it wasn't that bad, now answer me young man!"
"Well, Edward picked us up for you and is taking us to grandma and grandpa's in a few minuets." I look at my watch and see that I am not running late. "We got out early member?"
"Crap, no I forgot. Why did you get out early?"
"Teacher in service" he says nonchalantly "Hey did you know that Edward has you programmed in his phone?"
"Seth stop going through his phone, it's rude."
"I'm not, when you called the screen said 'my life', and his phone sang 'Falling for You' and he has a picture of you from when we were workin on the house. Isn't that cool? You look kinda pretty, too."
"Seth, why are you guys at the house?"
"We needed to get something."
"Who is it Seth?" I hear Edward in the background; even though it's over the phone a relaxed feeling hits me.
"Your life" Seth laughs.
"Seth that is not something I want her to know." I can just picture him standing there red faced and hands on his hips. I laugh at the thought.
"Okay well I am on my way home so I will see you guys in a little bit."
"Take your time mom we are leaving now too. You can come home, we wanna play with grandma and grandpa and you need a brake. Edward will bring us home in a little bit. Oh and mom, you need to remember he is a good guy and don't yell at him." Seth sounds stern.
"What in the world does that mean?"
"Just remember. I have to go. Love you mama."
"I love you baby."
Okay my son is now working with Edward against me what are they working on? It can't be anything bad because my parents wouldn't willingly help anyone hurt me. What if they don't know? Seth wouldn't hurt me or do anything to make me suffer. Hell the kid has been the definition of angel as of late. Therapy is really paying off. Not the point what do those two have up their sleeves? The closer and closer I get to my house the more and more nervous I get, I actually debate going to my parent's house.
Somewhere inside myself I decide to go to my house. Before I get out of the car I call my parents to make sure the boys are there. My mother confirms they are there and that Edward said he would be back to get them in a while and even left some money for them to get the boys pizza. As usual my mother said she is giving the money back because she will cook.
"It's nonsense to give them grease when I can cook just fine." She says. My mother never fails to make me laugh. Now I know where I get it.
I shake my head and get out as I close my phone. When I get up to the door there is a piece of paper taped to the door with a white rose taped next to it.
Bella,
I know you don't like red roses so this is white,
I am so sorry I didn't let you explain,
I was a fool, I was so wrong,
Please forgive me, and let me make it up to you,
Bella you are my life, I am such an idiot,
I will try harder to be all that you deserve,
Please forgive me.
Forever yours,
Edward
That is quiet possibly the sweetest thing I have ever heard, or read. I open the door and I am smothered in the most wonderful sight and smell. Edward and Mushroom ravioli, I'd know that smell anywhere, and the sight before me makes me almost forget I am mad it him.
EPOV
"How was school, boys?"
"Good" Seth answers.
"You sure your mom isn't going to be mad that I picked you up?"
"No, she might be worried till she knows we are okay but if you do what we talked about she will understand." He sounds so blasé about everything.
"Okay" I am still worried she might charge me with kidnapping, or send Charlie after me and I think that man is just itching to shoot me.
"So your mom's favorite dish is, mushroom ravioli right?"
"Yep, you have the recipe right?"
"Yes, and are you sure the white roses are okay, I heard she don't like roses, I thought blue tipped carnations where her favorite flower."
"If you get her those when you are in trouble, then when you get them for no reason but to be nice she will think you did something wrong. Trust me the white ones are okay. Never get red ones though she hates those."
"You mother is definitely in a class all her own." I smile and shake my head.
"Okay lets go get set up. Did you get the candles?" I nod "The wine?" I nod. "White not red, right?" I nod. "Where is all the stuff then?" He looks in the back seat.
I point to the trunk. "Back there. I needed room for you guys."
"Where is Amanda?"
"With my parents"
"Oh" he looks disappointed.
"Remember if this works we'll be here on Sunday when you guys come home."
"Did you talk to her about her mom yet?"
"No. How did you know about that?"
"I overheard mom, yelling about it to Aunt Ali."
"Oh, want to tell me what she said?" I chance a glance at him, because like Bella his face can be easy to read.
"Well…" he seems hesitant.
"It's okay you don't have to."
"She was mad, she was so mad she cried. I think that that Tina or whatever her name is…"
"Tanya" I corrected
"Tanya," he dismisses the detail, "Better hope mom don't meet her. She said she would make her pay for leaving a child behind, and if she has anything to do about it, Mandy would know that she was always loved, and she will give her all the support she would need. She said she was attached already and she doesn't understand why." That little piece of information made my heart ach with guilt for what I have done to her. "Don't mention it though cuz she might get scared."
"What else did she say?"
"She said she always wanted a daughter anyway, so Amanda is a real treat. Personally, I like her too. She's not a normal girl."
"What does that mean?"
"She likes to get dirty, and play cars, and honestly I don't mind brushing her hair either. She likes transformers, and I don't mind that mermaid movie…The Little Mermaid…think."
I laugh, "Yeah."
"She is nice to Little Bill too." He uses his thumb to point to the back seat. All I can do is smile and shake my head. We pull up in front of the house and he turns to the backseat, "Kay, Little Bill, remember this is a surprise for mama so you have to keep it a secret."
"But mama said not to keep secrets from her." he sounds worried
We all get out and Seth walks up to him and rests his hand on his back, "This is like a good surprise, like for birthdays and Christmas, besides mama only said that so we would tell her what her presents are from everybody. Its okay we won't get in trouble. If she does get mad I got it, you won't be grounded okay." He nods and seems to relax. You can see the bond and trust that is there.
In no time at all we have everything set up, Seth helped me with the table and Billy helped me put stiff away. These boys watch every move Bella makes right down to where things go. It is amazing. After I have everything set up and ready to go for when I get back so all I have to do is start cooking and prepping I walk into the living room, to make sure the boys have what they need to got to their grandparents house, Seth is on my phone.
What is with this kid he just answers phones and talks to people? However if he didn't do that with me and then snuck a call the next night I would still be lost as how to make this better.
"Who is it Seth?"
"Your life" Seth laughs at me.
"Seth that is not something I want her to know." I lower my voice, as my face slowly warms up.
He tells her to come home and I will bring them home later. When he hangs up we leave and I take them to her parent's house. I inform them I will be back in a couple of hours to pick them up. I leave money for pizza on the table and leave. When I get back to Bella's house, I had a note on the door and I start on supper right away. I am about half way though when Bella walks through the door. My stomach flips nervously. I wait to see her reaction.
"Edward what are you doing here?" she looks confused and a little pissed.
"I needed to talk to you, and I thought I would take the boys to you parent's house so we could be alone."
"Oh so now you want to talk, after what three…four days, you want to talk."
"Well, it had been brought to my attention that I have made a huge mistake in things. I would like a chance to fix it, if it is possible. Why don't you go and take a shower and we can talk over supper."
"Fine" she walks away.
After about fifteen more minutes she comes back out. She is dressed in a pair of tight fitting jeans and a tank top with a button up flannel looking shirt over the top of it. She sits down on the couch and puts her socks on and glanced over her shoulder at me. I smile at her but my gut is doing flip flops. I set the wine down and go retrieve dinner. She walks up to the table as I walk out with the food.
"It smells wonderful"
"Thank you, wine?"
"White wine? Hmmm" she looks at me suspiciously.
"I just want to talk, really."
"Okay fine, let's talk." I walk over and pull out her chair and she sits down. When I sit down she starts right in. "So what do you want to say."
"I am a fool and I am so sorry Bella I should have waited and listened to you. I should have let you explain. I jumped to conclusions and I know that is something I have to work on. Really the thought of you with someone else was just killing me and now that I know it was just me being a moron I feel so much worse. I really didn't stop and think I just ran away."
"Why didn't you call?"
Oh crap, now how do you tell you girl friend because I was plotting with your son? All at once I suppose.
I take a deep breath and let it all go. "Because I talked to Seth and he said to let you cool down, because you where mad. Then we planned this as a way to talk to you."
"You conspired with my son?" she tilts her head to the side. "How many times have you done this?"
"Just this once. Honestly it was his idea."
"Edward, do you realize you just tried to pass the puck to my seven year old?"
"Well I am just being honest. He said a grand gesture was in order, and this was the most romantic thing I could think of that you really couldn't run from. He helped be decide the menu and wine. That kid knows a lot about you."
"Yes, he is my son, and apparently a very nosy one at that." She pauses while she eats. "You know he must really like you to help you with all this." She motions her fork around the table.
"I like him too. He is a very smart boy for his age, and a lot like you." She gives me a look to continue. "He told me about the phone call with Aunt Ali." She stops chewing and looks at me. "Bella don't panic its fine. Just please don't hurt Tanya, I think Amanda wouldn't like it to much and I really don't want you in that kind of trouble." She mutters some thing under her breath but I don't question it I think I am pushing my luck enough at it is. "He said he likes Amanda too. He thinks of her as a tomboy type, but he seems to take an interest in her things as well. And why does he call Billy Little Bill?"
She breaths a laugh. "Have you ever seen that show based on Bill Cosby…I think?" I shake my head. "Well anyway it is about a little boy who, if I am right, is supposed to be Bill Cosby as a little boy. His whole family calls him Little Bill, anyhow, they used to watch it all the time together and I guess it just sort of…stuck. Billy…Little Bill, you can see the connection. Seth is the one that calls him that the most; I think it is a brother thing. Those two have been inseparable since Billy came home. I was really worried Seth would be jealous and would resent me or him or both of us but he didn't. He stepped right up and did all he could to help, he really has become a wonderful big brother and a huge help to me. Sometimes Seth can sooth Billy, when Jake or I can't. It really is amazing to watch. However if you are not in his little bubble and you call him Little Bill, I don't think even Seth can save you from the wrath that Billy will bestow upon you." She laughs, it looks like she remembers a time when it had happened, and I can't help but smile at her. This is what I missed most.
"Bella, I am not perfect. I will never claim to be, but please forgive me. I have flaws just like anyone else and I will make a lot more mistakes but I don't want to lose you especially to my own stupidity."
"Edward, I was not mad that you left, I was hurt. What pissed me off was the fact that you didn't answer my calls then you shut your phone off. You avoided me instead of talking to me. I really thought I screwed up. If you would have just asked I would have told you that it belonged to a friend of mine."
I rush around the table and kneel at her feet. "I know and I am so sorry, I will talk to you next time there is a problem, or what I think is a problem. Please forgive me. Bella I don't want to lose you. You are my life now."
"I know it says so on your phone." She smiles widely.
"Yeah, I wish he would have kept that to himself." I feel my face warming again.
She takes my face in her hands. "I think its sweet, I think you are sweet. I don't expect perfection; I know no one is perfect. What I do expect, is you to talk to me about anything and everything that bugs you. You will not lose me because of stupidity like that. You are forgiven, now get off the floor you look like you are going to propose and that just ain't happenin." She giggles.
Not right now, but I will die trying to make you my wife. You will see soon you are all I need and want Bella.
We clean up and go get the boys together. Seth greets us with a smile and nods to his mom. She shakes her head and kisses his forehead. She thanks her parents and her mom hand me back my money, it seems she never got pizza. I don't want to offend the woman so I take it back. On the way back to Bella's however I slip it to Seth and tell him thanks for the help he nods and rushes off to help his brother.
Bella and I say our good byes, she pecks my cheek and I swear I float home. When I get home Amanda is just getting out of the tub. I realize then that Bella and I really do keep quiet a similar schedule.
"Did you fix it with Bella dad?" I look at her and tilt my head. "I heard grandma and grandpa talking." She shrugs.
"Yea baby I did now don't worry." I pick her up and carry her to bed tucking her in and saying good night.
Longer I know but I didn't want to end this in the middle of dinner. I am wondering if Bella should be involved in the talk with Amanda. I worry it might be too soon, but she does like Bella, so I wonder too if Bella will help her cope. Leave me your thoughts in a review.