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How Did I fall in Love With You

Chapter 13

Bella's POV

I gently put my luggage into the trunk of the car. Looking back to what was now my home, crushed my heart. Even though Edward and I had to go to Hawaii for our 'honeymoon' I would really miss this place. Even if we were only gone for a week.

Just one week. Just one week with Edward, then you can go back ignoring each other. My heart ached in pain. Pain because I knew Edward wasn't mine and will never be no matter. He would always belong to someone else.

"Bella! Bella! I'm going to miss you so much!" Alice said blubbering up with sadness. This would be the first time that Alice and I would be separated. I was so used to seeing her face at the end of the day and first thing in the morning.

"Alice! Relax. Its only a week. You'll be ok here. Besides you have Carlisle, Esme, Emmett and a whole bunch of other friends." I told her shrugging my shoulders.

"But it wont be the same! When your gone, I cant play Bella-Barbie with anyone else." she said pouting her lips in a childish way.

"I'm sure you'll survive." I said hugging her tightly.

"okay just take care of yourself. And if Edward starts becoming a dick tell me." she said playfully.

I nodded and sat swiftly down at the passenger seat of the car.

Edward walked out of the house flawlessly. I have been trying to avoid eye contact with him and I was successful. He entered the car and sat down comfortably after he said his goodbyes to his family. I waved to Alice and Emmett who were looking directly at us, while Edward drove the car away.

EDWARDS POV

I packed the remaining of my belongings in a small duffle bag. I defiantly kept my hands busy, but my mind was full of space.

I tried not to think of Bella, but every time I try to, she just ends up in my mind. Why was she avoiding me so much. Its been 2 days since the wedding. 2 days that she started to avoid me.

What was going on in her mind?

"Edward, man are you ready to go? Bella's outside waiting for you." Emmett said interrupting my train of thought.

"oh, umm yeah I am actually." I said absentmindly.

"well hurry up. You don't want to keep your girl waiting." he said playfully.

I ignored him shutting the door and walked down stairs. I knew Emmett was close behind me, but kept his distance.

I was about to reach to open the door when someone caught my wrist. I looked up to see that it was Carlisle.

I stared at him with aggravation and hatred.

"what?" I asked rather rudely.

He rested his hand onto my shoulder and looked at me with direct eyes.

"Edward, during this trip you are not to touch Bella. In any circumstances. If you do, I will not only disinherit you, but send you to prison immediately. Do you understand?" he said in a polite but threatening tone.

I just rolled my eyes and walked out the door, not turning back to say goodbye to him. I opened the trunk and put my things in as fast as I could. Then turned to the driver seat to find Bella seat comfortably in the passenger seat. She was so beautiful in my eyes. Perfect just the way she is.

I started the car and drove to the airport.

BELLAS POV

I was walking on the soft sand in the beach. I loved the way the sand feels on my feet. It was soft and yet relaxing. This is actually the first time I've been to Hawaii. My parents used to say that when mom was better, we would come here. To spend time just us.

I walked down the path of the beach. Just relaxing and enjoyed the walk. My mind was drifting, just like it always does.

I always thought that this trip would help Edward and I connect, but I was wrong. It been about 2days that we've been here and his girlfriend came and followed us here. I haven't actually met her, but by the looks of it, they were a match made in heaven. She had beautiful long strawberry blond hair that hung down her back, long full legs, curves that matched perfectly. All in all she was perfect and flawless.

I've seen her a couple of times but, we haven't officially met because I know Edward would be in a awkward position. His new wife meeting his current girlfriend. Yup, awkward with capital letters.

I sat down in the wet sand by the water. Its waves coming back and forth touching my toes. I liked the tingly feeling it gave me. The water bubbles coming from the water and so close that I could touch it.

I was watching the sunset, when I felt someone sit right next to me.

"Hey, I'm Chase. Do you mind if I sit here with you. I'm pretty bored sitting by myself." he said chuckling.

Chase was a cute guy. He had the most dazzling blue eyes I have ever seen. Blonde skater hair that was composed perfectly. He wore blue shorts and a plain white t-shirt.

I smiled at him and nodded. he took a seat close to me, but respect my personal space.

"so are you vacationing here?" he asked.

"yeah, I just got married and I'm here with my husband." I said looking at the blue ocean.

"oh, where is he? I'm sorry I didn't mean to pry."

"No its ok, but honestly I have no idea. He's always busy." And that is true. Ever since we got here we haven't made contact with each other. We lived in different rooms and in different floors. I haven't seen him, ever since we checked-in. I'm guessing Edward spent most of his time with this mystery blonde. He had no idea that I would see him occasionally with his girlfriend. But other than that we have no contact what so ever.

"well he must be blind because a beautiful and you shouldn't be alone. If he doesn't open up his eyes to you, someone's going to take you away."

I flushed bright red and smiled. He truly had a way with people, girls to be exact.

"So do you have any plans tomorrow?" he asked.

That caught me off guard. I have no idea what to say. I mean I was married and here on a honeymoon. The marriage isn't real so this wouldn't exactly be counted as cheating. I decided to just tell him the truth.

"nope. Nothing."

"oh, well since your not doing anything. Do you want to hang out tomorrow? We could watch a movie, have dinner and just you know relax."

I smiled at him and said yes. I know he had no intentions about me. He was a great guy and defiantly a good person. Besides it would be better to go out and have some fun then stay at the hotel room bored out of my mind.

I got up from the sand and saw that Chase had a confused expression.

"well, I have to go. Its getting late and I don't want to keep my husband waiting." I lied to him effortlessly.

He got up from the sand as well and stood in front of me. Our faces only inches apart. I swear I can feel his cool mint breath on my skin.

I stared at his blue eye. I had to admit that they were mesmerizing, but every time I saw them, I would instead see green emerald ones. Edwards green eyes. The eyes I loved.

"BELLA! BELLA! What the fuck do you think your doing?!" someone yelled. I knew his voice too well to know that it was Edward.

I turned to look at him, and saw that he was his way towards me. He grabbed my arm in a rough way, but it surprisingly didn't hurt.

"I'm not doing anything wrong, ok? He was just keeping me company Edward. Nothing more." I yelled back to him.

"nothing wrong? Well, I was walking down here and I see you two almost about to kiss!"

"whatever Edward. I really don't give a crap anymore." I said turning towards the hotel. I was beyond pissed that he would accuse me of cheating on him. What was wrong with this boy? He had a wife and a girlfriend and that wasn't a weird picture?

I pressed the button for the elevator and waited impatiently for the door to open. Please hurry before Edward comes and talks to me. Please, please hurry.

It finally opened up and I quickly pressed the 3rd floor. The doors closed and I felt a sharp pang of relief. Relief that I could hold the conversation longer. I really don't want to face him right now.

The elevator rang, and opened its door.

I couldn't believe my eyes. He was standing right in front of me. Looking directly at me with furious eyes. I can tell that he had mixed feelings.

"Bella, who is he?" he asked trying to hide the anger in his voice.

"He's no one." I told him. I shoved him off and walked passed him towards my room. I held out my key so the door would open, when Edward took my wrist and spun me around so that we were face to face.

"Bella, I'm not going to ask again! Who is he?"

"His name is Chase. He's a really nice person. He actually wants to talk to me instead of ignoring me like shit."

"so, what are you cheating on me?" he asked. His expression was pained and his eyes were filled with sadness.

"me cheating on you? This isn't even a real marriage! So I have no idea how I would cheat on you. I'm not the one cheating. You are." I said with as much venom as I could.

My fists shaking with anger. I really hated him having a girlfriend when he had a wife. Even if the marriage isn't real, aren't you suppose to stay honest to one another? Or at least try to?

I tried to shut the door in his face, but he caught in immediately. He stared directly at my eyes.

"I, I have no idea what your talking about."

"really Edward? Are you going to lie to my face? Then who's that strawberry blonde your always with?" and with that I closed the door in his face. I ran to my bed and cried my eyes out.

My throat started to feel like there was a sudden lump, making it impossible to breathe.

With so much pain this caused me, I have no idea how I'll live to see tomorrow.

EDWARDS POV

I walked to my room and set my things in proper order. I really had an OCD of putting my things in there place. I was just about to invite Bella to dinner when someone knocked on my door. I really liked Bella. She was a really an interesting person and I loved spending time with her. But ever since the wedding I wanted to confront and ask what was wrong with her. Unfortunately we never had that conversation.

I walked over to open the door. I wonder who it is.

"Surprise! Edward its me!" Tanya screamed in an annoying high pitched voice. She immediately ran in me and jumped into my arms.

Damn, she was really heavy. I felt like my arms would fall off because of the weight.

I let her back on her feet and looked at her with a confused expression.

"Tanya what are you doing here?" I asked her rather rudely. I hope she didn't notice.

"well, I went to your house to pay you a visit. But I ran into your little big mouth sister. She told me where you guys where and well I got in the plane and followed you."

I was shocked. I mean why would Alice tell Tanya where I was. I mean, I know she hates her so much. And I was positive about that.

"why did you follow me?" I asked her.

"why? Are you not happy to see me Eddie?" she teased.

"don't ever call me that." I said with as much venom in my voice as I could.

"oh come on Edward. You love that nickname. I should no because I gave you that nickname." just as I was about to respond to her comment she pulled me into a kiss.

Her lips tasted horrible. She had not only chapped lips, but a breath that smelled like onions. It wasn't like Bella's lips. No were close to Bella's. I tried to pull away, but Tanya held a good grip on me, so that I couldn't pull away from the kiss. I decided to just stand there and wait until she was finished. Every time her tongue wants to come in contact with mine, I always thought it was Bella.

She finally pulled away and stared at my eyes. I couldn't dare look at her after this. I closed the door as fast as I could hoping that she would go away.

I sat down leaning on the door. Why was my mind suddenly comparing Tanya to Bella? It was obvious that Bella was a better choice then Tanya. After everything Tanya's put me through I realized she didn't deserve a second chance. She was not the soul mate I've been looking for. I've been distracted by her looks and because she was my first everything.

So why was I having these mixed feelings for Bella?

I liked Bella. I was both physically and emotionally attracted to her. I mean she was the most beautiful, interesting, funny, kind, soft, smart girl I have ever met. Every time she laughs, her eyes suddenly fill with joy and happiness. The way her cheeks blush red, when she's embarrassed. The way she was never selfish, always thinking about others before herself. Any man would be lucky to have Bella.

What does this mean?

I immediately pulled out my cell phone calling Alice. She picked up on the second ring.

"Hello?" she answered her angelic tone.

"Hey Alice.." I greeted her.

"oh hey Edward. Umm. I'm trying to keep this line open cause I'm expecting a call from someone, so can I call you later?"

"wait! I just need to ask you something Alice."

"what is it Edward?" she asked worried.

"umm.. I really don't know how to explain it."

"why don't you tell me what its about? That usually helps us narrow it down."

"okay.. Umm its about love.."

"okay, what about love?"

"well, I've been having some mixed feelings towards this certain person." I told her honestly.

"what kind of feelings?"

"well, its kind of like a rush. every time we touch each other, it feels like a currents going through me. I always feel happy when I'm around her. it's a confusing feeling. Its like she completes who I am." I told her honestly.

"awh, Edward! Your in love!"

"what?!! that's not possible!" I told her in disbelief.

"yes it is. Look at you. Your madly in love and you don't know it. Your trying not to fall for this person, but whatever you do you cant help but think about her every single day. She clouds your mind all the time."

That was true. Ever since I met Bella she's been in my mind the whole entire time. I was always curious to what she was doing this very second.

"so what do I do?" I asked her.

"well, why don't you tell her how you feel?"

"NO! NO WAY!" That would be the last thing I would do. No matter how desperate I was for her to find out how I felt.

"okay since your too chicken to tell her how you feel. Just spend some time with her. Talk to her like you would take to a friend. Let her fall for you. And when the time comes you'll express how you feel towards her."

I couldn't believe she was actually right. Everything was now making sense.

"who is this person?" she asked.

"I cant tell you Alice. Its private." I responded back to her.

"come on Edward! I'm your younger sister! You can trust me." she pleaded.

I had to consider telling Alice that I felt this towards Bella. I knew that she was the only person that truly knows Bella inside and out. She can really help me.

"okay, but please promise me you wont tell anyone. This includes EVERYONE!" I told her slowly getting the hint.

"okay Edward, I get it. Okay shoot, who is it?"

"uhh.. Its Bella."

The phone went silent for at least 5 minuets. I had to call Alice's name at least 4 times before she would respond to me.

"What?! Bella as in Bella Swan? Bella as in your wife?" she asked in disbelief. She knew me too well that I would never fall for any girl. But to me Bella was different. Its like she completed who I was.

"yeah, Bella."

"Edward, Bella's like the closest friend I have. Please don't hurt her. She's been through a lot and I don't want to see her hurt."

"Alice, I would never hurt Bella. Never."

"your lying." she said.

"what? No I'm not. Right now Bella's been going through my mind and she's been there for the past month."

"yes you are. You have a girlfriend Edward. Of course it hurts. Even if the marriage was fake, that would hurt anyone. What makes it worse that its Tanya. She hurt you a lot in the past and now you took her back like that?"

"Alice-"

"Edward if you really have feelings for Bella, you would dump that slut of the girlfriend you have and try working it out with Bella." and with that she ended the call. I left my phone in my ear for at lest a minuet before I realized it was there.

I knew what I had to do. I needed to clean up this mess I called my life. I finally saw the light that was missing inside of me. I finally smelled the air I needed to breathe.

I ran out of my room not bothering to make sure that my door was locked. I ran like my life depended on it. I pressed the button as fast as I could so that the elevator door would open. It finally did and went inside.

Come on! Come on!

Finally the bell rang claiming that it was Bella's floor. I knocked impatiently onto her door hoping that she would answer, but no luck.

I tried going through my head places she would go to. Finally I figured she wanted to go to the beach. She always wanted to feel the sand on her feet. The waves rushing on her face. Smelling the salt water.

I ran towards the stairs, not bothering to go the elevator. It would be faster to use the stairs then the slow machine they called an elevator.

I ran outside where I immediately smelled the clear blue ocean. I saw the waves pounding towards the sand.

I scanned the beach trying to look for Bella. I saw some girls who were eyeing me and giving me the interested look. Old Edward would be happy and work his charm, but new Edward looked for her. The person that completed who I was.

Finally I saw her sitting in the white sand. Her brown wavy hair blowing around her face. She looked so peace full and content that it would be a crime to disturb her.

I slowly walked towards her trying to figure out a way to talk to her. I was about a few yards away when I saw a blonde boy sit next to her.

I immediately felt a pang of jealously and pain.

Who is this person to sit next to the girl that I had deep feelings about?

I tried yelling Bella's name but I guess she couldn't hear me.

Bella stood up from her place with the blonde boy. There faces were inches apart. From where I stood it looks like they were about to share a kiss.

that's when I had to control over my fury. Anger raged through my veins and I let it take control of me.

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