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How Did I Fall in Love With You
Chapter 17
Bella's POV
As I was walking down the aisles of Office Depot, I couldn't help but notice how utterly amazing my day was going. I mean, I just confessed my love to the most wonderful person in the face of the earth, unbelievably he felt the same towards me, and to top it off I don't have to feel guilty hiding this from my best friend Alice. Of course I still felt guilty that I had to hide this from Carlisle and Esme, but Edward reassured me that it was for the best.
I didn't really know where Edward and I stand between our relationship. We were married by law, but I guess we fall into the dating category for now. I've been itching to ask Edward were we stood as a couple, but I didn't want to push it. I wanted to wait and just see what the future waits for us. I was also curious to what happened with his mystery blonde girlfriend. I mean, the last time I saw them together was at Hawaii, during the honeymoon. And to my eyes they didn't look like friends, but something more.
My eyes scrolled down the notebook section, when I felt a pair of warm protective arms wrap around my waist. His touch sent my heart racing inside of my heart.
"Found what you were looking for," he whispered to my ear, sending chills up my spine.
Whenever Edward and I touched, it felt like an electric current was passing through us. Sure you get a little scared by the feeling but you soon realize that you grown accustomed to it. It felt wonderful feeling the static. To me, it meant that Edward and I truly belonged to one another.
I turned around to face his ever so loving face and wrapped my tiny arms around his muscular waist. There he gave me unexpected kiss.
By the time he pulled away to give me some air to breathe, my mind couldn't think straight. It felt like Edward erased all my problems by that one passionate kiss. I guess that was one of his many talents. I was a little off balance, but thank god Edward had his hands around me, making it impossible for me to fall.
"Mhm.. Did you know that every time you kiss me, my mind goes blank?" I asked him sweetly.
"Well, that's a very interesting theory. I wonder what else I could do to you?" he told me.
I just rolled my eyes and turned around to get back to business. Who knew that shopping for needed school supplies took a really long time to shop.
As much as I tried to concentrate on finding what I needed, I always ended up thinking about Edward. I couldn't help but think about his flawless features, and the perfect body that matched him. I knew the first time I met him, he was way out my league, that there would never be a connection towards us. But fate had something else up its sleeve.
When I finally got out of the trance I was in, I found the notebooks I needed and went to the register to pay. I handed the cashier the notebook and got my credit card ready to pay.
The cashier was a unnatural blonde who looked like she had extensions on. She had a ton of make up on her face that didn't show her natural beauty. She had way too much black eyeliner on, with thick clumped eye lashes. She didn't even look slightly healthy. I guess this is one of the girls you would call a fake. She was chewing bubble gum in a loud annoying way. The girl looked irritably bored of her minimum wage job.
That's until I felt someone stand next to my side.
I saw in that instant Edward came to my side, her eyes started to brighten up. Like a little kid on Christmas morning. Her eyes narrowed to Edwards body, his muscles and saving his face for last. She forced a flirty smile on her face, and batted her eyes in a weirdly manner. I could tell she was already mentally undressing him.
"Hello, my name is Jodie. Is there anything else I could help you with?" she asked in a fake concerned voice. I didn't miss the fact she was talking to Edward and completely ignoring me. I was not only irritated but fuming flames to her. What nerve she has flirty with my husband!
I knew that I had nothing to worry about because I had a lot of faith in Edward, but I couldn't help myself. I wasn't use to the fact of having a special someone in my life. To top it off, my special someone was a god like figure.
"yes, and no that would be all." I said. I tried my best to hide my voice from exposing what I was feeling inside.
Jodie unwilling looked at me with annoyance and aggravated eyes. But before she could show too much of her emotions, she composed herself.
"Okay your total comes to a $5.12" she told me batting her eyes at Edward. I didn't miss the fact that she was glancing at him the whole time ignoring my presence again.
I rolled my eyes. This chick needed a man in her life, but that's no reason to take mine.
Before I could have handed the cashier my card to pay, a pair of white pale hands beat me to the punch.
I looked up to Edwards loving innocent face.
"Edward, I could have paid for it myself." I told him confidently.
He just smirked and rolled his emerald green eyes. Ugh! It looks like this man was going to baby me from now on. I mean, I never had a problem with people doing things for me, because they never did. I got used to the idea of me, being independent and relying towards myself instead of someone else. I never had someone take care of me the way Edward was.
I walked out of Office Depot with the bag at my hand. Unexpectedly, Edward slipped his smooth marble hand to mine and it kind of connect together. Whenever Edward touched me, even as innocent as our hands intertwined each other, my heart started to pump as fast as it could. It was a feeling I never experienced before. I loved the way his hands were with mine, it felt like they were made specifically for each other.
We reached his silver Volvo, only because he refused to use my car because of its condition, we were soon driving towards the Cullen house. The air soon filled with his classical music that he loved so much. I swear Edwards room was better stocked than a CD store.
While I was looking through the window of the passenger seat, I couldn't help but ask myself if I would really have a future with Edward. He had the reputation of being a little rebellious towards his parents, and not to mention that he was a complete ladies man. But out of everything, Edward was the most amazing, passionate, loving, intelligent, selfless, handsome, and defiantly perfect person I have ever met. To be honest, he's been the best thing that ever happened to me.
"Bella, are you still mad at me?" he asked me with his smooth voice. I snapped out of the trance I was in, confused to what was now happening. I looked into Edwards flawless alluring eyes. I was so out of it that I couldn't even remember what his question was. It was like I was in my own little world.
"Mhmm.. Did you say something?" I asked him honestly.
"Umm.. Yes I did, but what is it that you are thinking so much?" he turned to me, completely ignoring the road in front of him.
"Edward! Are you trying to kill me! Keep your eyes on the road!" I was practically screaming now.
What is this man doing? Is he trying to get us killed?
"Bella, I'm a hundred positive that we will not or ever crash. I promise I wont let anything happen to you." he told me confidently. What on earth was this boy doing? My heart was nervously pumping in chest. Please, please don't let us crash.
He rolled his eyes and turned his attention to the road.
"Happy, now?" he asked looking directly at the road. The speedometer claiming that the speed was slowly pacing down. I sighed in relief that he was at least trying to pay attention to where he was driving.
"yes, this is much better." I told him smiling. He just smiled back and we went into the peaceful classical music that filled the air. To be honest, I like this type of music. It suited Edward very well. It expressed him with the right balance, he was both timeless and yet elegant.
"okay, enough criticism about my driving, lets get back to the subject. What are you thinking hard so much Bella? You seem like your head is about to explode over what you are thinking about." he pressed on the subject.
Was he ever going to let this go. I sighed, knowing the answer. It was definite no.
I turned to my left and saw the magnificent emerald green eyes that I grew fond of. I had to admit, his eyes where the features that attracted me to Edward the most. I could just get lost in those green pool. Finally I snapped out of the phase I was in and went back to reality.
"well, actually, I was thinking about us." I answered honestly.
That caught him off guard, because he swerved the car. Usually Edward was a fantastic driver that it would be impossible for him to make such a innocent mistake. I looked at his loving face. He's expression was shocked and a little nervous about the subject I have unleashed. He remained looking straight ahead and clutching his hands tightly on the wheel. To me it seemed like a touchy subject for us.
"oh okay. What about us?" he asked hiding what he was feeling.
"I was wondering, what relationship we have. I mean, sure we had an arranged marriage and we're married by law, but are we dating? What exactly is our relationship right now?" I looked deeply in his eyes trying to read what he was going to say next.
I honestly didn't know what to feel. There was a part of me that wanted to confront him and just ask what kind of relationship we have right now. If it was a relationship. But another part of me, wanted to just stay quiet and try not to mess anything up with Edward. Like I was scared if I didn't get the answer I was expecting. To be honest, Edward right now is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I really don't want to mess this up for him and I.
"Bella, what we have is something special. Something I have never experienced before in my life. I know we had a forced marriage, but I want you to know that you mean a lot to me. When I'm with you, could just be care free and be myself. When I touch you, as innocent as holding your hand, I feel this electric current that passes right through me. Its like you're the missing piece I was looking for all this time. You're the very best part of my life right now, and I don't want t screw anything up." he told me honestly.
I looked at his eyes and I knew he was telling the truth. I believed him, because if I wasn't really important to him, he would have already found a way to get me to his bed. He really cared about me, and surprisingly he wanted to be with me. This flawless, perfect, amazing, man wants to be with me.
I felt tears swell up to my eyes. I couldn't help myself. This was the sweetest thing anyone has every told me.
"Edward that's all I needed to hear." I whispered quietly and took his free hand to mine. He smiled at the electricity that was flowing through our body's. I guess it now happens every time Edward and I touch.
He smiled and hold a tighter grip onto my hand.
EDWARDS POV
I cant believe it. I fell for the most amazing person in the world. She was fantastic, perfect, flawless, sweet, and kind. Any positive word would fit Bella perfectly.
When I was with Bella, I felt like nothing else mattered but her. She made the world vanish in thin air when I am with her. I know I sound a little weird, but it was all true. I never thought that one girl can flip my world upside down. I never imagined that it would feel this amazing just to be around Bella.
I have never felt the spark that happens when Bella and I touch. Not even with Tanya. When I was still a naive child I always thought that love only happens in the movies, and can never happen to me because of my past relationships. But that all changed when I met Bella.
In a matter of weeks, she became the woman I was forced to marry to the woman that had my heart.
"Bella! Come on! Your going to be late for school!" I yelled up stairs.
I wasn't really happy with the fact that Bella would be going back to school, but I knew that she had to continue her education. I asked Esme if she could be home schooled so that I could be around her more often, but she refused saying it wasn't the same as going to school and learning. I kept pressing on the subject, but she still refused. I knew that she was getting suspicious towards the relationship that was going on between Bella and I, so I couldn't risk it.
Not to mention the fact she was utterly beautiful inside and out, any man would be lucky enough to have her. I was afraid that she would have too many friendly boys around that she might consider dating one of them. That got me nervous to what would happen, but I knew that I meant a lot to Bella and that she would never do that to me.
My train of thought came to a stop when the girl of my dreams came to view. She just took my breathe in that instant and she didn't even know it. My heart was beating so fast in my chest that it seems like it would explode.
Bella wore a nice tight blue top with matching black skinny jeans. It really complimented her curves and her body. She had black stiletto heels on that looked deadly. She had her perfect wavy hair into tight curls that flowed on her back flawlessly. Her make up was kept light, almost close to natural except the eyeliner on her eye, blush on her cheeks not that she needed it, a little mascara, and lastly with pink lip gloss. I knew that Alice like the whole natural look on Bella. She never needed a lot of make up, like some women. She was perfect, to my eyes.
"Hey beautiful," I said pulling her closer and planting a kiss on her glossy lips. Thank god that Carlisle and Esme went to work early today because I don't think I could have stopped myself. She was so beautiful that I needed her.
"HEY! Watch the lip gloss!" Alice yelled behind us. I tried to ignore her, but it looks like Bella didn't. She pulled away smiling at me. Oh god, only if she knew what she did to me.
"Come on, I gotta go to school or I'm going to be late." she informed me.
"why not just ditch today? Lets just take the day off today?" I told her using my silky velvet voice. I was told it always works with out a flaw.
She chuckled and kissed me quickly on my lips. I loved the way her soft, gentle, lips on mine. It was like my first kiss all over again. It felt like I was a heart sick teenager again.
"I cant, I'm sorry. I have already missed about 3 weeks of school and I don't think I can afford another one. Now, come on, we have to go before I'm late." she said in her lovable voice.
I knew she was right, and I had to keep reminding myself that this was good for her. Besides its only 8 hours with out her. I think I could survive, but what am I going to do with my free time alone? Usually I would be in a 24 hour bar , just drinking my life away or hitting on this chick I wanted. But I guess this is what happens when your in a really good relationship.
Bella pulled my to the garage door, and we swiftly slide inside the Volvo. Before I knew it the familiar purr of the car came to hearing and we were on our way to her high school. Ahh, high school. Where it all started for me. Suddenly old memories came to my head, memories that I would be better off to forget. I let a sigh out trying to forget the memories I had left behind. I guess Bella heard that something was wrong with me because she touched my cheek with her soft fingers.
"Hey, is something the matter?" she asked me.
"No, I was just thinking about some stuff." I answered her honestly.
"okay, I just wanted to make sure." she said dropping both the subject and her hand from my face. I suddenly missed the warmth of her skin. That one innocent touch sent my heart racing inside of me again.
We made our way to her high school and by the looks of it she wasn't all that happy. Her forehead started to crease in frustration. It was if she was nervous to what she would face later on the day.
"Bella, are you alright?" I asked worried.
"yeah, I'm okay. I'm just nervous that's all." she reassured me.
"why? What's the matter?" my voice was defiantly giving out what I was feeling.
"its nothing. It just feels like its first grade all over again. And the worst part is that you wont be here with me. I just have a feeling that today is going to end badly. Like something bad is going to happen soon." she told me. I saw the way her lips made a little frown. I wanted to comfort her so badly and reassure her that it wont be that bad.
"I promise everything we be alright. Nothing bad will happen today. Before you know it, I'll be here to pick you up." I said taking her shaky hands into mine. Once again the current passed through us..
That made her smile once again and I could tell she believed me. I leaned over to give her a light kiss, not wanting to get carried away. She kissed me back lightly and let out a small sigh.
"okay, I guess I'll see you after school." I heard her say sadly.
"okay, I'll be here." I replied to her. And with that she was out the Volvo.
While I was driving home, I had to make plans to distract myself or I would end up rolled up in a ball stuck in my room all day. But the only problem was I had no idea what to do now that Bella was at school. I tried to think of things I did, before I met Bella, but I ever remembered was drinking and passing out. So obviously that was out my agenda. Maybe I could spend time with Alice or Emmett today. I was just about to call them and ask if they were free, until I figured out that Alice was probably busy designing clothes for Bella and Emmett was probably sleeping since it was 8 in the morning.
I finally reached my house and parked my beloved Volvo at the garage. I decided to just sit at the couch and watch TV. until it was time to pick up Bella. That didn't seem like a hard task so that's what I did. I kept flipping the channels, until the phone started to ring.
RING! RING! RING!
"Edward! Pick up the phone!" I heard Alice yell from the floor above me.
I got up form my comfy spot at the couch and went to the kitchen to get the phone. Ugh, Alice you could have done it.
"Hello?" I asked politely.
"Edward! Edward! Is this you?!" I could tell by her motherly voice that it was Esme.
"yes, mom its me. Calm down. What's the matter?" I asked worried.
"Edward, I don't know how to tell you this, but Bella's mom died this morning." she said slowly making sure that I had time to understand the words that were coming out of her mouth.
"WHAT?! WHAT HAPPENED?" I asked. My voice was defiantly in unreasonable volume.
"I don't really know what exactly happened, but I got a call from your father saying that she was rushed to the hospital. She had a heart attack that was really deadly. I guess she didn't make it."
I was still in shock that this would happen to Bella's mom. I didn't really know her personally, but Bella loves to talk about her family. Her mother was like her guardian, a person she looked up to the most, her world, and most of all her best friend. Bella sacrificed herself so that she could get better and hopefully survive. Bella was willing to have an arranged marriage to man like me to save her mother. Now, how will Bella ever cope with this? How will she take this?
"Edward? Honey, are you still there?" my mother asked form the other line.
"yes. I am." my voice was nearly cracking now.
"sweetie, I'm going to have to call you back, okay? There's just a lot of things to arrange right now and its getting kind of confusing right now." she told me softly.
"okay, I'll talk to later than mom."
"Edward, remember that I love you." she said in her loving mother voice.
"I love you too, mom." then the line went dead.
I stood there just wondering what I would do next? How was I going to tell Bella this? Did she want to hear this from me? What was going to happen to her? Will her father eventually know that we had an arrange marriage? So many questions occupying my head that I didn't even notice Alice make her way towards the kitchen.
"hey, who called?" she sang in her musical voice. I still remained silent, trying to figure out a way to tell her.
"Edward, what is it that you are not telling me?" her rhythmic steps now pacing back and forth.
I let a deep sigh out and decided to tell her.
"Bella's mom died this morning of a heart attack."
Bella's POV
I made my way through the familiar hall of my high school. It seems like it was no a distant past since I have been here instead of a couple of weeks. Nothing really has changed since I left, but then again a lot of things changed. People often stare at me now, like I'm some kind of freak. Okay just because I chose to marry someone a few days after my 18th birthday does not mean they have the right to stare and talk about me behind my back. Not that it bothered me, I just don't like being the center of attention.
I have seen some of my old friends like Angela in the hallways, but we never really had a conversation. Throughout the day I remained quite and minded my own business. I made my way to the lunch room when I bumped into Mike Newton. Ever since kindergarten, he admit he had a crush on me. At first I thought that it was really adorable, but as time progressed on it got really annoying.
"oh sorry mike. I didn't ever see you there." I apologized.
"Bella, what are you doing here? Should you be at the hospital right now?" he asked in a confused tone.
"why would I be at the hospital?" I asked him.
Before he could answer me, my phone started to ring alerting me that someone is calling me.
"Hello?" I asked through the line.
"Bella! Bella!" he familiar husky voice was defiantly coming from Jacob.
"Jacob, what's the matter?"
"Bella, I don't know how to tell you this, but your mom died this morning because of unexpected heart attack. The doctors tried their best to keep her stable, but she didn't make it. She's at the hospital right now. And Charlie, he couldn't take it. The stress was too much for him, so he died as well. I'm really sorry, Bella."
The line went silent, then I figured out that I slammed the phone shut not wanting to hear anymore.
Tears started to swell up on my eyes making it impossible to see. There was a sudden lump on my throat that I could get rid of no matter how much I swallowed. My stomach felt like little 6 years old were bouncing up and down on top of me, stopping my breathing. And my heart, it felt like it was ripped out of my chest with bare human hands. It hurt a lot. Finally I couldn't take it anymore. I ran outside to the pouring rain of Forks, Washington. I ran like there was no tomorrow. I didn't care where it lead me, I didn't care where I went to. I just needed to get away.
This cannot be happening. I couldn't loose both Charlie and Renee. I just cant. They were my everything and now there gone. I couldn't loose the life I had with them. They were my world my everything and now gone.
I tripped on my shoes and fell flat on the ground. By the looks of it I was in the forest. It was still daylight outside so you could still see the sun, but to me it felt like I was being sucked into a black hole. A hole that had no way to escape the pain. I couldn't breath, I couldn't think straight, I couldn't do anything.
I crawled up making a ball out of myself. It help the pain a little, but didn't numb the pain that was still inside of me.
Why did it have to Renee and Charlie? It could have been other people. My parents deserved better than death. And yet they aren't here with me. Renee and Charlie were the best parents any child could ask for. They were always there to support me in any way they thought possible. They loved me the way parents should. Made promise they wanted to keep, even though they thought it would be impossible they had faith in me. They were by my side all my life, and I could never imagine a world alone. I was now on my own.
I cried, letting the tears fall furiously down my face. It ruined my make up and probably damaged the clothes Alice let me borrow, but right now, I didn't care about anything else. I just wanted to cry and let what I was locking inside out.
Finally I felt like loosing consciousness of myself, slowly letting the darkness take me away.