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How Did I Fall in Love With You

Chapter 18

Bella's POV

I felt like I was sinking down in a deep hole. A hole that no one can save me from. No matter how hard I try to get escape it, it always comes, finds me, and drags me back. You can say am suffering and there is no way I found a way to survive.

I had no idea where I was exactly. All I knew is that I was laying down on the wet, cold floor. My conscious slowly slipping away. But the pain was here and it would not dull away. Its like a huge whole that has been punched through my chest.

I cant believe I lost everything. My parents, Charlie and Renee. I lost them forever. They were my life, my everything, and now its gone. I felt so empty inside. So empty that it hurts to breathe.

EDWARDS POV

After I was on the phone with my mother with the news I ran to Bella's high school. I ran like there was no tomorrow. I knew that she didn't know that both her parents were gone, and she needed to hear this from me. I had no idea how she would react, but I know what to expect. She would be broken in my arms, and I didn't know if I had the strength to see her like this. But I have to be strong and be there for her no matter what happens.

I ran to the office, and asked what Bella's schedule is. She had lunch this hour so I rushed out of the tiny over packed office and quickly ran to the cafeteria. I was at the cafeteria in no time, and I quickly scanned the room for Bella's face. I didn't see her face through the crowed room, so I tried it again. But, no luck. Who possibly knows where she is right now?

I asked this girl who was the closest to me. She seemed like a decent and friendly person. Maybe she could help find my Bella.

"Excuse me miss, do you mind where I could find Bella Swan?" I asked.

She seemed surprise about my presence. Like she was shocked that I was actually talking to her. She got up from her seat and faced me directly.

"she was here about 15 minuets ago, but she just ran out of the cafeteria and went towards the forest. I had no idea what was wrong with her. I wanted to ask and help her but she was gone before I had the chance to." she answered me.

What does this mean? Does Bella know what happened to her parents?

"thank you." I told her before running to the direction she told me.

Where could my precious Bella be?

It turns out the directions the girl gave me lead to the forest. There was light in the forest, that I couldn't get lost. I could hear my footsteps hitting the ground roughly. I walked deeper down the forest searching for her.

I walked forward searching where she could possibly be. About an hour and a half later I came a human like figure on the ground. It seemed like it was broken. This had to be Bella. My thoughts immediately went to what happened to her. Is she hurt?

I ran towards her and saw her beautiful eyes closed. She looked so beautiful, but then again she seemed broken to me some how. I put my ear on her chest to make sure that she was breathing. To my relief she was, but sadly she didn't know I was here with her.

I picked her up from the cold ground she laid in, careful not to loose balance of her. Bella was light as a feather in my arms as I took her in. I felt her breathing in my neck, her alluring scent. I could hear her heart beat, it was beating at a normal pace, but I could tell that she was in a lot of stress right now.

I felt so useless to her, because I couldn't take the pain she was suffering from. I wanted to take away all the pain, stress, and unhappiness she was feeling. I wanted to reassure her that everything would be alright and that she was safe in my arms. That I would never let anything happen to her. That I would always be here for her no matter what happens. I needed her to know this and to trust me.

The walked back to the car was faster than I thought. The high school was abandoned quickly, to my guess, school was probably over and that all of the students left. I set sleeping Bella on the passenger seat of the Volvo, not caring that she was staining her cushion. I took one last look at her and kissed her soft forehead before walking to the driver side.

I swiftly sat down and began to drive. Before I knew it, I was home and worried Alice came frantically running out of the house for Bella

Bella's POV

Its been 3 days since Charlie and Renee's death. Three days since they left me here on earth, and finally realized that I was now on my own. Three days since they've been gone.

I felt horrible inside and out. There was always butterflies in my stomach like a feeling I had when I was starting my first day of kindergarten, but only this time it was a negative response to me. It felt like there was an empty void inside of me that couldn't be filled. Always a sudden lump that I couldn't get rid of. The feeling of it was pain fully excruciating. My eyes, now always red and puffy, from crying all the time. You can tell that I was empty by the look in my eyes. Ever since Edward found me in the forest that day, I couldn't find the energy to do anything anymore. I couldn't eat, or sleep. To make it worse, I couldn't even talk to Alice or Edward or anyone as a matter of fact. I was like a living zombie that had no reason to live anymore.

I always though of the past Charlie, Renee, and I shared. Wanting not to forget about them. They were the most precious memories I have of them. The only way I can remember and see them.

I was so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't even hear my door open.

"Bella, love I have your breakfast." Edward said in his loving voice.

I just sat there in my bed not bothering to make a move, like any other day, motionless..

Edward took a seat next to me and placed his warm loving hands to face. I took a look on his perfect flawless face and saw the emotions that flashed. He felt sad, worried, mad, and most of all hurt.

I wanted to take away all of his pain, and make it all better, but right now, I couldn't even find myself.

"Bella, please eat. Your scaring me, love. You need to eat, or at least drink something." he used his sweet alluring voice this time. The one that I loved so much.

I made no attempt to move and he noticed that. Nothing about my movement surprised him.

He sighed and took a really long breath.

"Bella, please talk to me. Tell me you will alright. Please, I need to hear your voice right now. I cant stand another minuet of this mourning and sadness. Bella, I'm sorry to what happened to Charlie and Renee, but we have to except the fact that there in a better place right now. You must feel very alone right now, but your not Bella. I'm here with you no matter what happens now. I promise you, I will never leave you."

Endless tears started to fall on my face. I had no idea what I was feeling right now. I always knew that Edward would always be with me no matter what, but I couldn't help think about the fact he might leave me one day. That he might just throw me away, like one of his other girls. I couldn't bare loosing Edward too.

He pulled me to a tight protective hug, to assure me that he was here for me.

"Bella, I promise you with all my heart, I will never leave you." he vowed.

"I know you wont Edward. I love you too much to let you go." I told him quietly. That was the first time in a few days I have heard my voice.

He just continued to hug me and occasionally kiss my head with ever so loving lips. Finally in the past week, I have felt like there was hope for the future. Like there can be a new beginning. I will always love Charlie and Renee with all my heart, but its time that I let them go so that they can go on to a better place. Even if it means giving them up.

I sat down at the corner of bed, waiting for Edward to enter my bedroom. I was wearing an all black tight dress that hung perfectly on me, and fitted the occasion flawlessly. Some ballet flats so that I wouldn't fall or slip down. My hair hung down my back naturally, not having the energy to do anything to it.

Today was the day, My parents funeral.

I tried so hard not to cry, but once in awhile a tear would escape my eyes. Its hard to except the fact that both of my parents were gone now.

"Bella, love are you ready?" Edward called softly.

I stayed still not wanting to move. My breathing became unbelievably unsteady, and it felt like my whole world was crashing down.

Edward hurried to my side as soon as he saw me in my state. His bare hands were soon wrapped around me protectively.

"Bella, if you cant handle it, its fine. I know that they would understand." he reassured me.

"no, Edward. I have to go. Everyone expects me to be there, even Charlie and Renee." I told him quietly.

"are you sure?" he asked disapprovingly.

I nodded afraid that my voice would give out what I was really feeling inside. I don't know how much grief I can take anymore. Every night, I would always cry myself to sleep. Edward used to lay the bed with me and stoke my hair, assuring me that everything was alright, but now all I could see is misery in his eyes. I realized I wasn't only hurting myself, but the one I loved too.

Edward helped me out of the bed and towards the stairs. There I noticed a tall, perfect figure, with blonde curls, that seemed familiar to me. I took a closer look at her and noticed that it was Rosalie Hale.

She surprised me with an unexpected hug and kept me in her flawless arms for what it seemed like forever. Then she let go of me to stare directly at my eyes. I knew that she was the person that knew me inside and out. No matter how hard I tried hiding what I was feeling inside, she knew what I was feeling. It was amazing how we connected, in our little amount of time together.

"Bella, sweetie. I'm so sorry for your loss. Are you alright?" she asked me in her sweet honey toned voice.

"yeah, I'm alright for now. Thanks for asking. Rosalie what are you doing here? I thought you were still in Hawaii." I asked in my lifeless voice.

"yes, I was in Hawaii, but when you left, I missed you terribly. It felt like you became a really big part of my life, in the small amount of time we were together." rose admitted .

What she said caused me to smile a little bit.

"then I heard what happened to your parents. Bella I'm so sorry for what has happened Bella, and I promise you that I will be here to for as long as you need me." she promised me.

I hugged her tightly and let the tears fall from my eyes. I cant believe that Rosalie with here in Forks. She was always there for love and support when I needed it during the honeymoon, and I know I really needed her with me. I needed as much and support I could get. I never realized that I had so many people who cared and loved me so much. Edward, Alice, Rosalie, Emmett, Esme, and Carlisle. At first I thought it felt like I lost a family, but it turns out I actually gained one.

I hugged her tightly once more and let her go. Edward had his arms securely wrapped around my waist and had no plans of letting go. I loved the way, his one innocent touch sent my heart beating fast and unstable. I truly needed him in a time like this.

Edward lead me towards his silver Volvo and we were soon off to the funeral ceremony. I had no idea if I was strong enough to see my parents this way, but I knew that I could let them leave with out a goodbye. I had to be strong enough to see them for one last time, to let them go. I wanted them to know that I was going to be alright even though they weren't with me here. I wanted them to know that I am happy with Edward and that I finally found the man I was dissented to be with. Even though it hurts me to let them go, I know that there in a better place now.

The car came to a gentle stop, announcing that we have arrived.

Edward and I sat still not really knowing what to do next. Finally he looked at me with his emerald green eyes and began to speak.

"Bella, if you cant do this, just tell me. I know they will all understand. I'm concerned about you, love. What if this isn't the best decision right now? What if it causes more damage to you?" he said in a low whisper.

I looked away from his piercing eyes not wanting to show weakness. I tried so hard to compose my face to an emotionless face.

"Edward, I have to do this. I want to say my final goodbyes to both of my parents." I told him gently.

Edward took a big sigh, trying to calm himself. And with that he exited out of the car and went to the passenger side to open my door for me. I took a hold of his muscular arm and let him lead the way towards the church.

I tried to control my breathing and tried so hard to hold the tears that were starting to swell up. My body suddenly felt weak and impeccable, and my knees starting to buckling up. My throat suddenly had a huge lump, that no matter how hard I tried to swallow it, it was still there. My stomach had an empty void that was impossible to ignore, making uncomfortable to breathe. I hold a tighter grip on to Edward knowing that he was the only one who could comfort me right now.

I can do this! I can do this! I kept telling myself.

I believed I could.

There it was. The final resting place of both my parents. I couldn't help stop the tears and sobs that were escaping from me, but right now I could care less.

I told Edward that I needed a moment alone to pay my last respects to my parents and that I needed to do this alone. Of course he objected, but soon followed my wishes.

I took a closer look at my mothers grave stone.

In a loving memory of Renee Swan.

1967-2010

A loving mother and a loving wife. You will truly be missed.

There I collapsed down to my knees and cried so much that tears were running aimlessly down my face.

" Mom, I love you. I love you so much that it hurts to let you go, but its for the best. Never forget that I will always love you. Its hard to let you go, but your in a better place now. I will always miss you, and miss the times we shared together. Know that no one will ever take your place in my heart and that you will always be with me. Please don't worry about me, the Cullens will take care of me. Mom, I'm so sorry I wasn't there to help you in your time of need. I'm so sorry about everything. No matter what happens now mom, I will always love you no matter what."

I kissed her grave stone and looked at Charlie's, who was now resting in peace right next to her.

In a loving memory of Chief Charlie Swan.

1963-2010

A wonderful father and husband.

"dad, I never had the chance to tell you that I truly appreciated everything you have done for me. You were my rock and always a person that I can count on for anything. Dad I love you, and I'll miss you everyday that your not here with me. don't worry about me here, I can take care of myself. Dad, I miss you a lot. I miss they way you laugh, the way you always come home from a fishing trip with billy, but most of all I miss they way you hug me tight. Its really hard to let you go, but its for the best. Always remember that I love you with all my heart and nothing can ever change that."

I wipped the pool of tears in my eyes and got up from the cold ground. I tried to compose my face as best as I could so that both of my parents could see that I am alright.

"Mom, Dad, I love you so much. Never forget that." I whispered to them.

And with that I walked towards the car where Edward was waiting for me. There he had his protective arms around me. I knew that I needed Edward no matter what now.

3 weeks later….

I knew that I was getting better as time moved on. It was true what people say, time heals all wounds. Things slightly got back to the way it was before and for once I was grateful. I didn't mope and act all depressed anymore. I actually started to eat and regain the weight I had lost. They purplish bags that were under my eyes started to fade as time suppressed on. I went to school and did my homework. Basically, I did what people expected me to do.

Of course there was still that empty void of missing my parents everyday, but I kept telling myself that it was for the best and they were in a better place. And they were.

Edward was always there for me. He was the person I would see at the end of the day, and the first thing in the morning. He helped me get out of my depression phase and helped me get my life back in order. I was so happy and grateful that a person like him existed for me. Edward was always there for love and support when I needed it the most. He was the most precious thing in my life right now, and there's no way I can afford to loose him.

Rosalie decided that there was no way she would go back to Hawaii. She told me that she fell in love with Forks and decided that she wanted to live here. I was happy for her and I know that she would be happy here. So then she found an apartment close to the Cullen mansion that was in a reasonable price. Before I knew it she had all of her things packed and properly organized in her apartment. I was so excited and giddy that she was going to be within a close range. I knew that I needed Rosalie right now and I couldn't bare to loose her too.

Esme and Carlisle became my parent like figures. They were the ones who told me what was best and most of all they help me cope with the pain. I soon loved them like I did my own parents. They were there for love and support and most of all a protective parent when I needed one.

Alice and I became closer then we were before. I never knew that she cared so much about me. I love her like a best friend and like my own sister. She was a shoulder to cry on when Edward wasn't around and when I desperately needed someone. She was there for advice and most of all someone to talk to about anything.

Emmett became my older brother figure. He was overly protective like an older brother was to a littler sister. Always a joker when we a needed a laugh once in a while. He sometimes reminded me of a bear by the way he acted. He seemed to like Rosalie a lot because of the way he always asked about her. He wanted to know everything that I knew about her. At first I thought he was kidding, but then I figured he was really serious about her.

"Bella, are you ready to go love? Your going to be late." Edward said interrupting my train of thought.

He quickly came to my side and wrapped his hands on my waist. He then surprised me by placing his loving lips on to mine.

"ready to go?" he asked once more.

I sighed, great school. I smiled at him and gave him one more peck on the lips.

"ready as I'll ever be." I said quietly.

He then took his hands off of my waist, but kept one hand twined with mine, and lead the way towards his shiny silver Volvo. The ride to school was quiet expect for the classical Claire De Lune music that filled the air. Both Edward and I never minded the silence, it was a gift rather than a privilege. Before I knew it, we were at Forks High School.

"okay, so I guess I'll see you after school, okay?" I turned towards him.

Edward smiled with his pearly white perfect straight teeth.

"okay, love. Have a nice day." he said before placing his lips on to mine. My mind went black when ever Edward kissed me. The electric current once again came and it felt nice. My heart skipped a beat and remained fast. To me it was a sign that Edward and I truly belonged to one another. I could sit here and kiss Edward all day, but like he said I needed to go to school.

"as much as I want to kiss you, I have to go." I told him smiling.

"okay, I'll be here to pick you up later." he informed me.

I smiled at him and gave him a quick peck and exited the car.

Oh great, another day at school.

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