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How Did I Fall in Love With You

Chapter 21

BELLA POV

Jake and I drove for hours and before we knew it, the sun had rose up and it was morning. We didn't care where we went just as longs as we can put our problems on hold and escape them for a little while. I was tired and I guaranteed I looked like a complete mess after the whole day. I felt like complete crap and all I wanted to do was go to sleep.

But I couldn't. No matter how hard I tried to sleep off thee problem and try to rest, all I see was the picture of Edward and Tanya kissing. No matter how hard I tried to push that though off my mind, it always come back to me and causes me pain.

It was bad enough that I couldn't sleep but now my heartfelt like it was shattered into a million pieces.

"Bells, you have to eat something." Jacob told me once more.

"I'm not hungry." I told him, but to be honest I was hungry. But I just didn't feel like eating.

"Bella, I heard you stomach growl. Obviously you are hungry. Come on, lets go get some McDonalds." he said while rubbing my arm.

I just looked out the window and continued to stare at it. Nothing interested me anymore.

We arrived at the nearest McDonalds and the only in Forks. Jake opened the door for me and held his hand out for me to take.

"come on Bella. If you don't walk I'll carry you." he threatened me.

I took a deep breath and got the feeling of me legs and slowly walked with Jacob to the entrance. Once I opened the door I smelled the grease and oil from the food. To be honest, it was utterly unappetizing.

I stared at the cheese burger that Jake got for me. Eww.. Was all I could say.

I decided to just eat this thing and get over it. I popped it onto my mouth and it slid down my throat with its sticky cheese and microwave essentials.

"okay, Bells, that's good at least your eating." Jake told me.

"yeah." I agreed in a toneless tone.

Once Jake was done with his burger, fries, and double fudge milkshake, we headed for the car. I sat down at the passenger seat, exhausted. The familiar purr of the engine roared to life and I felt safe again. Jake turned up the heater so that I wouldn't get cold. To him I looked unhealthily pale and he just wanted to make sure that I wouldn't die from coldness. If only he knew I was naturally pale.

"Bella, I think its time for you to go home." Jake told me quietly.

"Jake I cant go back there. Not yet." I said with a sturdy voice.

"Bells, I know what he did to you, but I know that Edward wont do that. I really hate the guy, but I accepted the fact that he is your husband. I know the way you look at him and you love him Bells. Bella don't let a misunderstanding get between you two." he was practically yelling at me now.

"I just cant okay? He hurt me a lot and I just don't know if I can face him right now!"

I couldn't believe that I just went off on Jake Jacob was always there for me and we close like brother and sister. I thought he understood me, inside and out. We never got in an argument and we never fought because there was nothing to fight about. He always knew me, the real me. Jake always knew how I felt and he knew me, all of me.

"okay, bells." he said after a long time of silence.

"Jacob, I know that you only mean well but this is my problem not yours, okay?"

He just nodded his head afraid that what he would say would upset me even more. He turned the car in reverse and we soon swept away towards the road.

I rested my head on the head rest, waiting for sleep to come. And it did.

ALICE POV

I sat impatiently for Bella to arrive. Ugh I felt so bad and useless, I mean what kind of best friend am I if I would just sit here in the couch and do nothing but wait. I wanted to go to her, and make sure that she is alright and that everything will be fine again. But the only thing I can do now is wait.

Jasper twined his fingers with mine in an attempt to relax me for a moment, but it didn't work. He brushed my hair and pulled it behind me ears so that he could whisper into it.

"Alice, everything will be alright. don't worry, darling." he assured me.

I just nodded afraid that I would say something wrong and upset him. I didn't want to get jasper mad, he was the only person who actually understood me. Even though we've only known each other for a short period of time I felt some kind of connection between us. It was unexplainable, unavoidable, and it was defiantly a mystery.

Ever since that call we had received from Jacob, best friend, he assured me that nothing was wrong with Bella and that she was fine. I was relived that she was alright and in one piece, but a part of me wouldn't rest until she was safe and at home here with us. Jacob, told me that he found Bella walking at the dark cold night alone and he was afraid that someone would take advantage of her, so he gave her a ride. It turns out that it was more of a night ride than a ride home.

Jacob told me how broken hearted she was and that was the reason she didn't want to come home yesterday. I wanted to yell at Edward for doing this to Bella, making this mistake and causing her so much pain, but I knew that it wasn't his fault. It was Tanya, and I swear she will pay for what she did to us.

For Edward, he couldn't cope with what happened. He stayed in his room the door locked and his windows shut so that darkness filled the room. He was depressed, sad, and angry, but he didn't show it. He just cried in his pillow and never left the room. He couldn't handle not having Bella in his life.

Suddenly the unfamiliar purr of a car came in front of my house and I jumped off the couch and dragged jasper with me to the front yard.

"Rose! Emmett! Bella's here!" I yelled as I made my way to the door.

Rosalie and Emmett ran out with me, eager to see Bella.

"Bella! Bella!" we all yelled together.

The strange man, who I was guessing was Jacob, walked out of the drivers seat of the car and walked out to meet us.

"Jacob?" I asked the man.

"yes, I'm guessing you are Alice." he held out his hand and I shook it.

"thank you so much for taking good care of Bella." Rose thanked him.

"it was no problem. Please just take good care of her. She means the world to me." Jacob informed me.

Jacob turned to the passenger seat of the car, where we saw Bella. Bella to my perspective looked bad. She seemed tired and was suffering a sleepless night. She had dark bags under her eyes and smeared make up from the previous night. Her clothes were different from yesterday, so I was guessing she got some new clothes. Her hair was a mess and was cluttered all over her face.

All in all she still looked like the same Bella we all know, but something was different. Like something was missing.

Emmett carried Bella out of the car effortlessly and toward the house. He placed her gently on the couch and made sure she was comfortable.

"thank you again Jacob." I said.

He just gave me a humble smile and walked off towards his car.

Relief came over me, that I finally knew that Bella was alright. She was in one piece and she was here back home.

I went upstairs to inform Edward that Bella has come home. I knocked on is door and hear his desperate cries.

"Edward?" I asked politely.

"go away Alice. I just want to be alone." he yelled through the door.

I opened the door that was between us and saw that his room was filled with nothing but darkness. It seemed like something was missing, no it felt like someone died.

"Edward." I said his name while making my way towards him.

He still had his hands wrapped around his face so that I could see the tears that he was shedding.

"Edward, everything will be alright." I assured him.

"no Alice it wont. I made a stupid mistake thinking that Tanya was the girl I was meant to be with. Bella she makes me happy and I actually have a reason to smile now. She's my world and my everything Alice. I don't want to loose her." he continued to cry.

"Edward, I know that Bella loves you very much. We all know that your not at fault here. She just needs time to mend right now. She's down stairs sleeping on the couch if you wish to see her."

With that I walked out of his depressing room and closed the door shut.

There I heard him whisper " thank you Alice."

Bella's POV

I felt like I was in one of those movies where your prince charming comes along and you instantly fall in love with each other. That's how I felt until yesterday. Its funny how in a matter of minuets your whole future and perspective can change.

I woke up in the white couch in the living room of the Cullen mansion. I rolled over so that I was no sitting on the couch,

How did I end up here?

All I remember was that I was in the car with Jacob, and arguing with him. He wanted me to come back home so that Edward and I could resolve our problem but I knew that I wasn't ready to face that yet. that's when everything just blacked out.

"Bella?" Alice called me.

Alice walked into the white big living room of the house and sat down in the empty space that was right next to me. She put a hand on my shoulder, reassuring that I was safe here.

"yeah, Alice?" I answered back.

"are you alright?" she asked in a worried tone.

"yeah, I'm alright."

"if you want to talk about it, I'm here okay?"

"I know." I said while nodding.

"okay." she stood up, and left to go towards the kitchen.

I pulled my knee's up to my stomach and rested my chin on them. It literally felt like I was falling a part limb from limb. I felt like there were missing pieces inside of me that I never knew were there. I started to sob and cry until my eyes had no more tears.

What am I doing here? I cant be here, not yet. I could face him, I just couldn't. He cause me so much pain. He made me believe in love and that it felt like whenever I was with him nothing else mattered. He practically took a hold of my heart and smashed it between my own two eyes. The pain was unexplainable and it hurt a lot.

I stood up from the couch and went to the garden Esme had decorated herself. It was beautiful, to be honest. It was full of grass everywhere and flowers of different kinds of colors scattered around the field. There was a tree that held blooming apples in it. A fountain was in the center of the garden, completing the picture. The sun was beaming down, causing the garden to sparkle even more.

It was beautiful, and defiantly a precious moment that you should share with another person.

I sat alone in swing that was hanging from a tree in the garden. I just started to stare at the magical place that was right in front of me, when I heard footsteps behind me.

"Bella" his velvet voice whispered in my ear.

I turned around to see Edward standing there behind me. He was still handsome as ever and look perfect. But there was something missing inside of him. Like he lost something that meant the world to him. His eyes didn't seem to sparkle as they did before. His eyes were red from the crying and lack of sleep.

I noticed that he was still wearing the same outfit he had on the previous night. I wanted to comfort him and be there for him, but now was not the time for me to talk to him.

"Bella, we have to talk." he said after a long moment of silence.

"just go away Edward. You caused me so much pain already." I stated. I got up from the swing and tried to walk back towards the house but he caught my wrist and turned me around so that I see his eyes.

"Bella, not until I explain to you what happened."

I just stood there silently and gave him the chance to explain.

"Bella, you already know that I love you. You mean more than the world itself combined. You practically my world and I cant afford to loose you. I love you Bella. What happened yesterday will never change that. I saw Tanya in the club that night. I was looking all over the place for you but you didn't seem like you were in the club, so I went outside. Tanya knew that I was out there so she took advantage of me. She pulled me to her face and kissed me. I didn't kiss Tanya back, Bella. I couldn't imagine kissing anyone but you."

I didn't know if I could believe him, but before I can even think he placed his lips onto mine. This was different from the other kisses we've shared together. The others were soft, gentle, and I knew that he wanted to savior the moment. But this one was entirely different. Edward was hungry for my lips and the way he held me made it obvious.

He kissed me until we were both out of breath and he gently placed his forehead on to mine.

"Bella, I love you and nothing will ever change that." he promised me.

"I love you Edward." I stated the obvious.

I understood that it wasn't his fault and that it was Tanya's but its going to take time for me to get over this. It going to take a while where everything will be back to normal for us. I just needed time right now. Time to think alone.

"Edward, I'm going to need time, alone to think this through." I said quietly.

"Bella, I don't understand." Edward said.

"Edward, I know what happened yesterday, wasn't your fault and that it was Tanya's. But for right now, I need time to think things through. It made me realize that things are just going way too fast, now." I told him gently.

I looked at his expression, it was mix of anger, fear, and last sadness. I felt my heart break once again.

"okay, if that's what you want."

I nodded because I couldn't find my voice to say anything. My heart was shattering all over again. It broke my heart to see Edward like this but it was for the best. We both needed time apart.

He gave me one last hug, and I was tempted to never want to let him go. He traced my lips with his finger and kissed me softly for the last time.

"I'll be here, Bella waiting for you, when your ready." he said and with that he left.

I stood there like an idiot, regretting what I had said.

"I love you Edward, nothing will ever change that." I whispered in the silence.

Edwards POV

I couldn't believe that I agreed to this. I couldn't believe that I was letting her go, but not for good. Just until she was ready. Bella just needed time to absorb what had happened.

I trust her with my heart and my whole life. I love her so much that it hurts. that's why I needed to give her the space she needed.

"I love you my Bella." I whispered as I walked away from her.

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