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How Did I Fall in Love With You
Chapter 22
BELLA POV
Its been days since Edward and I have talked. It seemed like the longest years of my life instead of a few days. To be honest, I missed him, a lot. I missed how we were before the whole incident. I missed his touch, his comfort, and most of all his love. I noticed that he would never leave his room, now a days. He would always keep the door shut and did not dare to open the door.
I knew he was suffering and so was I.
"Hey, Bella. Are you alright?" mike, a classmate of mine asked.
"yeah. I'm alright." my voice to me didn't sound very convincing.
"okay. If you need to talk I'm here okay? I'm here for you." he touched my arm lightly and looked back at the teacher who was writing stuff down the board.
Ever since that happened, I didn't ask Edward for rides to school anymore. Instead I walked to get some exercise and time to think things through for now. Alice everyday offered to take me to school, but I refused and said that I was catching a ride with one of my friends.
As school ended I walked down the path way towards my parents cemetery. I visited them more often now, and I new I needed them more than ever. I sat in the grass as I stared at them. Lightly, I touched where their grave stones were.
"Hey, mom. Hey dad." I tried to keep my voice low and stable, but was failing at it.
"umm school was alright today. We did a lab in biology." I answered their unspoken question.
"I'm okay, for now. I miss you guys so much that it hurts. I miss your laughter and love. I know you guys are at a better place, but please come back. I'm so alone and I'm scared. I need you here with me."
I sat there for a few more minuets and then I stood up and then went to the Cullen Mansion. I started walking slowly, watching each and every step I made. Before I knew it, rain started to fall from the sky. Just great! Great.
By the time I arrived the house, I was soaking wet from head to toe. I felt cold and started to shiver from the temperature.
"Bella, honey why are you all wet?" Esme asked me while I passed the kitchen.
"I'm sorry Esme. I am probably ruining your floor. I promise I'll clean it immediately." I promised her.
"Sweetheart, don't worry about it. I'm worried about you Bella I already consider you as my daughter." she told me while giving me a dry towel.
"thank you Esme. For everything. To me you are like my mom." I said.
I saw her eyes sparkle, like diamonds in the sun. Then a smile formed in her lips. Esme was practically my mother, ever since I became married. She was there for me, like a mother is to a child. She was the most giving, nice, sweet, and caring person that I have ever met. Esme was truly a person that was there for me on matter what happened.
"come on Sweetie lets get you cleaned up." she pulled me up the stairs and went to my room to start the hot shower in the bathroom.
The shower was very relaxing and it warmed up all the body parts that were frozen. It was so nice that I didn't want to leave it. If it wasn't for Esme informing me that the hot water will soon turn cold, I would have never came out. I changed into some warm sweats and laid peacefully on my bed.
I noticed that Esme was still in my room. She didn't leave until I was finally alright and content. She walked towards the bed where I was laying and sat down at the edge. She placed her flawless white fingers on my forehead and lightly stroked my hair.
"Honey, are you alright?" she asked worriedly.
"yeah, I'm alright. Thank you Esme for everything you have done for me." I thanked her.
"Honey its nothing."
I smiled at her and then my thoughts drifted off, thinking about the problems that I was in. I guess Esme saw my disturbance because she asked me what was wrong. I had an option of lying to her, but I was a bad liar that there was no way I would get away with it. So it looks like option B was the best one to choose.
"sweetie you can trust me, you know that right" she lightly stroked the frowns on my forehead.
"yeah, I know that I can. But I just don't know how you will react to what I would tell you." I was scared that she will be upset and force me out my house.
"don't worry, Bella. I love you sweetie."
I smiled at her took her hands that were on my head on my own. I looked straight at her eyes so that there would be good understanding between us. I sat up on my bed and laid at the head rest of the bed. I could tell that I was so nervous because my hands were shaking under Esme's.
"okay, well I fell in love with Edward.." I told her quietly.
She did the most unexpected. I expected her to be upset because they warned me ahead of time not to fall for him because he wasn't going to be a good husband. I couldn't deny the fact the Edward did have the reputation of being the bad guy out of the Cullen family. Instead she wrapped her hands around me and rested her head onto mine.
I was about to cry, but she held me together. She kept me in one piece and comforted me by rubbing my back.
"I know, I made I horrible mistake but I couldn't help it. I love him, Esme and I'm sorry."
"shhh.. Its okay honey. I'm not upset, I'm actually happy for you." I let go of her grasp on me and turned to see her straight in the eyes to see if she was telling the truth.
"what? Esme your not mad?" I confused.
"of course not sweetie. I love you and I love Edward, you guys deserve to be together. Even though Edward had his mistakes in the past, it doesn't mean he does not deserve love. Bella if he makes you happy go for it. don't worry about what I would think honey, think about yourself for once."
"I don't know what to do anymore." I admitted.
"do what feels right to you, and don't have regrets." she kissed my forehead and stood up from my bed.
"I'm going to let you get some rest, because it seems like your exhausted. I'll come back later to check on you, okay?" she continued.
She was about to walk to the door when I called after her. She turned her small fragile figure towards me and gave me the most motherly smile.
"Esme, thank you."
She smiled again and closed the door. I laid there on the bed, with a million thoughts running through my head. What am I going to do? What does she mean what feels right?
I wanted to forgive Edward and pick up where we left off, but I couldn't help but feel that one day he would get sick of me and leave me for someone prettier and closer to perfect than I am. I already know that I cant live with out him and I cant even stand being so far from him.
But what am I going to do?
EDWARD POV
Days passed, it seemed more like years rather than days Bella and I have been apart. Its been killing me inside and out. I never felt so useless, weak and bad in my entire life. My room, which I never left because I cannot bare to see Bella right now, remained in its unusual messy state. The bed was filled with scattered pillows and the sheets wrinkled in different places. I kept my room closed and dark, to resemble my life.
I had to fight the urge to go to Bella this instant and beg for forgiveness. For her to take me back. Beg to forget what had happened and to try and move forward.
But she wanted space right now. Time to think things through.
And I promised her I will wait for her not matter how long it took.
I laid there in my bed trying to forget or at least wait for sleep to come. Sleep was the only way to leave my problems behind and just leave the world behind for a moment.
I laid down for a few more minuets until I heard a knock on my door. I didn't feel like getting up to answer it so I ignored the sound. Finally the door opened and it was the last person I would ever expect to see in my bedroom right now.
"Hello son." Carlisle greeted me politely.
I sat up straightly and stared at him.
He sat down on my bed next to me. I wondered what he was doing here in my room. I mean I haven't done anything wrong in the past month so it was impossible that I was in trouble.
"Son, I want to talk to you about something important." he announced.
I looked up and waited for him to talk again.
"Edward, I have seen a drastic change in you in the past months. And I just wanted to tell you that I'm proud that you have changed your ways and settled down. I'm happy for you and Bella."
I looked at him shocked in the words that were coming out of his mouth. Wait, did he know what was happening between Bella and I? how did he find out?
"Dad, h-how did you know?" I stuttered.
He smiled the warm fatherly smile I haven't seen since I was a child.
"I've seen your behavior change a lot ever since Bella moved in. At first I thought you wanted to use her like the other girls you were with before, but I saw some kind of spark between you guys. I wasn't positive, but I knew that everyone can see it. Slowly I watched both of you closely and the way you react together. It doesn't take a genius to see that you have fallen for this girl."
So he did know. Carlisle knew, he knew all along. He understood how I felt to Bella.
"Edward, I know that Bella just needs some time right now and neither of you are handling it very well. So just be patient okay son? I know she will come around and forgive you for what you have done. I know that Bella loves you more than life itself. She just needs time to think. Everything that happened was going to fast. It will work out son."
I finally understood my father. Now I had more respect towards him than I ever had before.
"thank you dad. Thank you for everything you have done for me, for the family." I smiled humbly to him.
Carlisle smiled at me one more time and walked out the door. He shut the door tightly and I was left with my thoughts.
BELLA POV
Another day, another day without Edward. I sat there alone in the kitchen eating my breakfast. I concentrated really hard on eating and trying not to make a mess.
That's when I felt someone's presences in the kitchen. I looked up to see tiny pixie Alice still in her pajamas, with her short spiky hair messed around her face.
"Hey Bella!" she said enthusiastically.
"Hello Alice." I acknowledged her presence.
She got some milk, cereal, a bowl, and a spoon from the drawer. She then took a seat next to me and started to eat. Silence filled the room and I didn't mind. It was more of a comfortable silence than an awkward one.
"Bella, I just thought of the best idea ever!" she sang.
"and what is that Alice?" I asked truly curious.
"well, I was in desperate need in a vacation, so I was thinking of inviting Jasper, Rose, Edward, Emmett, and you so that we can all relax and have some fun in the sun!" she tired hiding the fact that she wanted Edward and I in the same room. There was no way in hell that I was going. Things between Edward and I were not becoming worse, but to be honest there was nothing happening.
"Alice, thank you for the invite but I have school and I cant really afford to miss it since finals are just around the corner." I prayed that she wouldn't press the subject on harder.
"don't be silly, you have enough time to catch up and study for finals. Its just a week in the Caribbean. Imagine the hot sun with relaxing massages and getting our heads done."
"Alice, I don't know. What if Esme and Carlisle aren't okay with this idea."
"psshh, Bella to be honest, they were the ones who gave me the idea for a vacation. Come on please! Its just a week and it wont make a difference, at all. Please Bella if you don't go it wont be the same without you." she pleaded at me batting her eyes.
I gave in. " ugh okay Alice just a week."
"oh thank you Bella! I promise you, you'll love it there!" she was practically yelling with excitement.
I smiled at her while she gave me a tight but friendly hug.
"what's going on here? Damn you guys are so loud you woke me up!" Emmett yelled walking down the stairs towards the kitchen.
"Emmett guess what! Where taking a vacation!" Alice said a little louder than last time.
"shh Alice your too loud its really early in the morning." Emmett said annoyed.
I checked the clock and saw that I was going to be late. Late if I walked and if I took my slow truck.
"Alice I need to ask you a favor. Can I borrow your car for today? I'm running a little late." I asked.
" sure Bella. But I'm going to need it when you come home. Were going shopping!" she smiled and handed me her beloved Porsche car keys.
"thanks Alie. Love you Bye. Bye Emmett!" I yelled out while I went to the garage and got in the car, before I knew it I was at my first period.
Days passed and before I knew it we were at the air port waiting for the plane to arrive. I considered my options if I sneak out or seem like I was sick, but I knew that I was never a great actor. Alice would see out facade. I sat down in the seat trying so hard not to look at his eyes. Edward was sitting flawlessly next to Emmett and Emmett was holding hands next to Rose.
Trying to distract myself from thinking or better yet staring at Edward, I thought about what I would do in the sunny state of California. Maybe I should tag along with Alice on one of her shopping spree's. As soon as that thought entered my brain, I was now for sure that I wasn't going to do that.
"we are now boarding A 95" the announcer said.
I stood up not really wanting to, and stood behind Alice and Jasper. Alice looked back ,while holding hands with jasper and flashed her pearly white teeth at me.
"Belly Button!" Emmett behind me called while messing my hair up with his bear like fingers. I hated it when he did that. To Emmett I was like his little sister who always attracts trouble. He loved joking around but mostly to annoy me and everyone else.
"Emmett! I told you not to call me that!" I said slapping his hand away from me.
"Jelly Belly, you know you love it!" he stated. I just rolled my eyes at his humor. Emmett will be Emmett.
"Emmett, stop teasing Bella." Rosalie said hitting Emmett's arm lightly.
We entered the plane quietly and I quickly found my seat. To my relief I got the middle isle that had 3 passenger seats. I sat down next to Alice and Jasper. Alice being her bubbly self, tried to help everyone have a good time and relax, but I knew that wasn't going to happen. Jasper on the other hand was a total opposite. He sat there quietly and if asked a direct question, he would answer. He was nice and considerate, perfect for Alice.
I looked behind me too see Rose and Emmett settling down in their seats, with Edward behind them. So I assumed Edward would be sitting next to them.
3 hours later…
I found myself alone in my hotel room that Alice had got for me. I did everything that I could possibly do to keep myself busy but what ever I did, I just kept my hands and body busy but my mind was free. I had no idea what to do with myself. Alice invited me to go swimming with them at the beach but I really didn't know what I wanted to do.
After finally unpacking the things that Alice had packed for me, I sat on my bed and flipped the channels in the T.V. I finally gave up on trying to distract myself with watching T.V. and went to find my cell phone. I got my phone and called Alice.
"hello?" she answered her phone.
"hey, Alice."
"Bella! Oh my gosh your coming to the beach with us! No matter what you say." her voice was firm and sure.
"Alice not matter what you do or say there's no way I'm going to the beach with a swim suit on!" I argued.
Being in a bathing suit never felt comfortable to me. I mean how can you feel comfortable if your basically half naked for the world to see? I defiantly didn't have the body, like Rose to show off in a swim suit.
"Bella, how many times do I have to tell you that you are beautiful and have nothing to worry about. Your going to look great no matter what! I promise you that."
"Alice, I don't know."
"here, Rose and I are coming to get you in a few minuets to get you ready ok? There's nothing to worry about." she assured me.
"okay, Ali." I said finally giving in.
"okay, I'll be there in a few. Bye Bells!" she sang on to the speaker. I shut my phone and tried not think of what was going to happen today.
Knock! Knock!
I unwillingly got up from my comfort zone and went to answer the door.
"Bella!" Alice said rushing to my side and giving me a quick hug and kiss on the cheek.
Before I could say anything else, Rose came to the view with bags covering her arms. Uh-oh. This was going to be worse than hell.
"Hey, Bells! Ready for the beach?" she acknowledged my presence.
"umm.. I don't really know what to say Rose." I admitted.
"well lets get started! The boys only gave us a half hour to get ready, so we have to hurry." she told me innocently and I knew I was in for the torture now.
Alice pulled me into the bathroom where the giant mirror was located, and a leather seat that match. To top it all off there was a desk just for putting make up on, that elegantly matched both the mirror and the seat.
She pushed me gently on the chair and began brushing my hair.
"Rosalie! I'm going to need your help!" Alice shouted.
Rose came rushing in and went to Alice's side.
"okay, I'll be doing Bella's hair and you can get started on her make up. Make sure that you don't put to much and don't for the sun screen so she wont get burned." Alice said in her bubbly tone.
Rose just nodded, serious about not wasting anytime getting ready and began putting some sticky substance on my face. It didn't feel uncomfortable, but it felt relaxing. I closed my eyes and tried to forget about the world for a moment and just be in my happy place.
In my happy place, there were no pain, no suffering, nothing. It was a place I can think things through and just escape my problems and the world for a moment. It was a place where I can just let go and be free.
"Bella? Bella? Sweetie, I think you fell asleep on us." Rose shook me a little trying to wake me up.
My eyes fluttered open and saw the flawless faces of Rosalie and Alice. Rose just smiled at me and brushed something on to my cheeks and Alice just giggled with excitement.
"Bella, I cant believe you fell asleep on us! Are we really that bad?" my pixie of a best friend asked.
"no, no. I'm so sorry. I just haven't gotten a lot of sleep lately, and it was the first time in weeks that I actually felt alright enough to sleep." I admitted.
"okay Bella, here is the swim suit that I have gotten for you, and no peeking! I want you to get the full effect."
I got up from the chair and went to the bathroom and changed. I actually took a look at what both Alice and Rose wanted me to wear. I couldn't believe my eyes. It was a blue two piece bikini that looked so tiny that there was no way it would fit my body. The top was too reveling and the bottom, you cant describe it in words. There was just so much skin that was being exposed that I didn't feel comfortable with the idea of wearing this in public. There was no way in hell I was wearing this to the beach where everyone could see me, like this.
Suddenly the door banged open.
"Bella! Come on, we got to go! The guys are getting hungry and impatient." Alice said barging into the bathroom.
"Alice, no way in hell I am wearing this! Its to reveling for me."
"yes you are! No matter what you say you are going to wear that Bella!" her voice sounded definite and sure that she was going to win this argument.
"Alice! No way! Read my lips, no." I argued on.
"Bella, so help me if you don't put it on, I will be forced to physically put that bikini on you." for the first time since I have met Alice she actually looked terrifying.
"NO."
"please Bella? Please? Just do this for me and I promise you I wont play Bella Barbie for a whole week, unless you want to" she put her hands up and pulled her pinky out.
"make it a month and fine I'll wear it."
She finally smiled, the smile that I loved about her and just nodded. I lifted my hand and twisted my pinky with hers, sealing the deal.
"okay now hurry go get dressed!" Alice chimed and left the room to give me some privacy.
Okay, relax Bella. Its just a swim suit, hell its more like wearing nothing. Okay, that's not helping me calm down. Breathe in, breathe out. Okay Bella nothing to worry about. I kept telling myself those mental directions and tired to lower my heart rate.
Finally I got the fabric on and walked out of the bathroom. I looked around the room to see Rose sitting on the bed flipping aimlessly on the channels on the T.V. Obviously she was not interested in the shows that were currently showing. Next I found Alice sitting on the nearby couch close to Rose, flipping though the pages of a fashion magazine. She kept mumbling something like that doesn't match or what the hell were they thinking.
There eyes saw my body in the room and dropped what they were doing.
"do I really look that bad?" I asked nervous that I was going to make a fool of myself.
"Bella, no!" for the first time Alice was actually speechless.
"we did a good job Alice." Rose said acknowledging her work.
"can I finally see myself?" curiosity was obviously in my voice.
"sure Bella go a head." Rose told me.
I walked over to where the humongous mirror was located and I couldn't believe my eyes. Alice and Rose actually transformed the plain old Bella into, dare I say it beautiful? There was no way that this stranger that was standing right in front of me was me. The stranger had the familiar chocolate brown hair that was curled and wildly everywhere. She wore light make up, to match the sunny weather outside. Then I looked down and she was wearing the bikini Alice had given me.
I heard a squeak beside me and found out it was Alice.
"so what do you think?" she asked playfully jumping up and down.
I grabbed her into a tight hug, the same you give one of your closets friends.
"thank you Alice." I whispered in her ear.
She just smiled and that's when I heard someone clear their throat. I looked over to see that it was Rosalie.
"hey! I did half the work!" Rose complained at me.
I gave her a hug the same one I gave Alice.
"Rose thanks." I told her looking at her perfect face.
"oh my gosh! You guys kept us waiting so you can hug?" Emmett asked impatiently.
"girls, come on! Lets go already, you've kept us waiting for a really long time." Jasper came out from behind Emmett and continued to complain.
"okay, okay we heard you. Why don't you guys go on ahead of us and we'll meet you there." Alice suggested.
"Great, come on Jazz lets go eat. I'm starving!" Emmett said rushing out of the door.
"okay bye." jasper mumbled and went out with Emmett.
I went over to my closet and grabbed a random purse, that looked decent enough for the beach and started stuffing necessities for the beach.
"Alice, hey do you have extra sun screen?" Rose asked after a few moments of silence.
"yup, I got it." Alice assured her.
While I was packing, I couldn't help but think if Edward would be there at the beach. What if he was there and he saw me like this?
Finally when I was done packing, I got the courage to ask Alice if his dear brother was going to be joining us at the beach.
"Hey, Alice." I called out for her.
"yeah, Bells?" she called from the couch continuing to read her fashion magazine.
"umm.. Will Ed-wward be at the beach?" I was so nervous that I started to stutter.
Alice put her magazine down and looked at me with direct eyes.
"to be honest Bella, I don't know. I haven't really talked to my brother in a while. I really don't know what to tell you." she admitted.
I honestly didn't know what I was feeling. There was a sense of relief and disappointment. Relief that there was a possibility that Edward wasn't going to see me in this revealing bikini, and disappointment because I wont see his ever loving face.
"Bella? Bella? Are you ready, were about to leave." Alice said snapping her fingers in front of my face, trying to get my attention.
"oh, Alice I'm sorry. I was just at deep though."
"don't worry about it. Come on lets go to the beach!" she sang happily.
Both Alice and Rose eagerly pulled me out of the hotel room and into the lobby where to my surprise the limo waited for us.
"wow Alice really a limo? I cannot trust you with a credit card." I said sarcastically.
"just enjoy the ride." she answered back calmly.
The ride didn't take too long. I found out the beach was only a few minuets away from the hotel we were currently staying at. I had no idea why Alice wanted a limo. I mean the beach was walking distance for god sakes. My sister was in desperately need of help.
"ladies here's your stop." the drive informed us before exiting the car to open the door.
"Thanks Todd. " Alice thanked him, while flashing her perfect set of teeth.
"would you like me to stay here, miss?" he asked Alice.
"no, we will be okay Todd. I'll just call you a few minuets before we are ready to leave.
Todd gave her a gentle nod and went back into the car.
I looked at the beautiful surroundings that I was at. It defiantly took my breathe away. The way the crisp blue ocean, were creating gentle waves. The sun was high up in the sky, making the scenery lighter and it quickly matched the mood of the setting. I looked down where the white and soft sand were lightly placed on my toes.
"Bella! Come on!" Alice called eagerly ahead of me.
"Go ahead! I'll be there in a second!" I yelled at them.
I felt like I need a moment or two by myself. I started to walk towards the water of the beach. I wanted the water to desperately touch me feet. I wanted to forget the world again.
Finally I felt the cold touch of the ocean. It was a nice welcoming touch that relaxed every inch of my body. I sat down on the white sand and watched the waves roaming around the ocean.
I remember coming to some of the beaches back in Forks with my parents. I was the innocent clumsy girl that always found a way to trip everywhere even in the sand.
I didn't know how long I sat there, but it felt like a great deal of time. I was amazed that neither Rose or Alice came to find out what was wrong with me. I guessed they were still occupied by the company of their boyfriends.
that's when I felt someone sit right next to me.
"beautiful isn't it" the velvet voice said.
I turned around to see no one other than Edward.
"yeah, simply breathtaking." I replied.
He turned to look at me with straight direct eyes, and lifted his hands to cup my face. I looked deeply into his emerald green stunning eyes. He still looked beautiful like ever.
"Bella, I'm sorry for everything that I have done. I understand that you need space right now, but I love you so much that it hurts. You're my whole life and I cannot imagine a life without you. I need you, and I want nobody but you. Bella, I love you, forever."
I was stunned to the words that came out of his mouth. I really didn't know what I felt right at this moment, but I suddenly felt complete. The time that I spent away from Edward made me realize that I needed Edward now. He was my rock and my reason of existing.
"Edward I love you with my whole heart." I said taking his hand from my face and twined it with my own.
Just then Edward crashed his lips onto my own and kissed me. This kiss was different from others that Edward and I have shared in the past. I felt his warm tongue begging for an entrance and I happily accepted it. The way he kissed me and held me into place, was all different and renewing. Not a bad different but a good different. I let myself savor the taste and made sure to keep it in my memory for always.
Finally we broke apart, both breathless from the kissed we just shared. I laid my forehead on to his and stared at his ever so loving eyes.
"I love you." I told him.
"I love you too Bella." he said and smiled his crooked smile that I loved so much.
"so finally the couple made up!" Emmett yelled from behind us.
I turned around to see a happy Emmett with his hand glued onto Rosalie's waist. Rosalie had a similar expression on her face. Alice was smiling so hard that it seems like she was going to break her face off. Jasper was just smiling happily at us.
"so I'm guessing everything's alright between you and Edward?" Rose asked.
Edward turned to me, unsure of the answer to that question. Instead I answered for him.
"yeah, everything is perfect." I said smiling.
Edward surprised me, by crashing his lips onto mine. I couldn't resist him, after weeks of not tasting him. I kissed him urgently and forcefully.
I heard a throat clear but Edward and I still didn't break apart.
"okay that's enough sucking on each others faces." Alice said impatiently.
I turned to her and blushed.
"sorry Alice." I apologized.
"its alright Bells. Okay so were going to have lunch over there." she pointed towards to tiny restaurant not too far away from us.
"okay, we'll catch up in a sec, okay?" I informed them.
"okay!" Alice sang, then glued her fingers with Jaspers. They slowly walked towards the restaurant with their hands together, not wanting to separate. Behind them I saw Emmett and Rose in the same position, but Emmett would surprisingly kiss Rose's hands out of nowhere.
I smiled at my best friends, finally finding true happiness.
Edward took the hand that was still connected to mine and placed it gently onto his warm soft lips. I stared at his emerald green eyes and I knew that I found true happiness myself.
"would you like to take a walk with me?" he asked politely.
"I would love to."
We walked hand in hand around the beach. To my surprise, the sun was beginning to set making a wonderful scenery. The perfect match between the soft waves, and the orange setting sun.
"Bella thank you for forgiving me. Your truly the most amazing woman I have ever met." he said after a few minuets of silence.
"Edward you mean too much to me, to loose. I'm sorry it just took me awhile to figure that out."
"Bella I love you. And I am more than willing to wait forever for you." he promised kissing the back of my hand once again.
He stopped and looked at me. Edward placed his hands softly around my tiny waist and brushed the roaming hair that was across my face.
"Isabella Marie Swan, I love you." he said softly.
"Edward Anthony Cullen, I love you."
And with that he placed his lips onto mine once again.
"Bella! Bella!" Alice yelled through my ear.
I really didn't want to wake up at all, especially when it was too early. Its been a few days since our trip from California and I was happier than ever. Finally I realized that a life without Edward was a life not worth living and I truly needed him in order to be happy. No matter what the cost is, I love him.
"Alice please leave." I mumbled in my pillow.
"Bella, if you don't get up in 30 seconds I will force you out of there and believe me I will." I had no idea how someone so small can be both strong and annoying. don't get me wrong, I love Alice. She has always been there for me and has always been my best friend, but if I am sleeping peacefully, do not wake me up.
I was just about to sink back down in dream land, when I felt that I was no longer on my bed. I was on the cold floor of my bed, laying down like an idiot.
"Alice! What the hell?"
"I told you I would get you out of bed if you didn't get up. Now come on, get up from the bed you look like a complete idiot ." she stated the obvious fact.
"No, I really don't want to go shopping with you today. I only have a few more days until finals and I'm really tired!" I kept whining and landed down on the floor.
It felt like it was really early in the morning, considering that I wasn't able to sleep until 3 in the morning last night.
"Alice, what time is it?" I asked impatiently.
"about 6 in the morning." she said quietly.
"WHAT? Alice the mall isn't even open yet!" I yelled at her.
"Bells come on just go the mall with me!" she continued to talk.
"Alice, what have you done to Bella!" that voice I would no anywhere.
"Bella come on shopping will be fun! I'll buy you anything you want and all you have to do is come with me." Alice kept nagging on.
"Alice let Bella do what ever she wants. She is not your doll!" Edward entered the conversation.
I just buried my face onto the floor while Alice still continued to whine how I wouldn't go shopping with her and Edward yelling at Alice for trying to make me her Barbie. By the looks of it they didn't even recognize that I was gone. Finally I couldn't take it anymore. I got up from the floor and went downstairs to where the soft white couches existed.
I laid down and got comfortable and finally I dozed off. It was about a few minuets when I heard footsteps coming my way.
"Bella, dear are you alright?" Esme's motherly voice came to hearing. I opened my eyes slightly and saw her loving face.
"yeah, I'm alright." I answered her question.
"if may, what are you doing in the living room couch and not in your room?"
"long story Esme."
"oh I get it. I'm going to make breakfast and I'll just wake you up when its ready okay, sweetie?"
I nodded, because I couldn't find my voice to answer her. I tried to go back to sleep but by the looks of it I couldn't now. I sighed and got up from the couch and towards the kitchen where Alice was sitting down in the table looking through a fashion magazine and eating her morning eggs with milk.
"finally your awake!" she exclaimed.
I smiled at her and helped myself with a plate full of bacon and eggs that Esme had cooked for us.
"so now that you have gotten your much needed sleep, want to go shopping with me?" she asked in a high pitched tone.
"I don't know Alice. Why don't you ask Rose to come with you?" I offered.
" she cant today cause she has work."
"I really don't know Alie, because I have some finals to cram for. And I really need to pass my classes."
"She's finally awake!" Edward came into the kitchen and sat swiftly next to me. He then surprised me by kissing my cheek and then my forehead.
"sorry I was a bit tired from the trip." I smiled at him.
"its fine I was just getting worried that you wouldn't wake up." he joked.
Alice snapped her fingers to get our attention and it worked.
"okay, Bella how about this? You go to the mall with us and Edward can come too?" she made the bargain better.
"fine I'll only go if Edward goes."
"I will go if it makes you happy, love." she lightly pressed his lips onto my forehead.
I smiled and blushed at the touch between his skin and mine. It was like an electric shot that blasted through between Edward and I. I believed that it was a sign that I was truly meant to be with him. I guess you can call it soul mates or fate.
"okay hurry and get ready. We'll leave in an hour." Alice chirped.
8 hours later….
After going through every store that existed in the mall, it finally time to leave. I couldn't believe that Alice not only bought stuff for herself and me, but Edward too!
Each of us at least had 10 bags that we were each holding and we were all exhausted.
"wow best shopping trip ever!" Alice said happily.
"this is the last time I am ever going shopping with you." Edward grumbled.
"ditto." I said.
We walked back to the car and tried to load all the bags back into Edwards Volvo. To my surprise it actually fit, after how there was so much of it.
"wow everything actually fits!" I said unbelief.
"yup! Well that's everything. I'll see you guys at home!" Alice told us.
"wait, your not riding with us? How are you going to get home?" I asked Alice worriedly.
"don't worry, Jasper's coming to get me and were going to a movie. He really wanted to watch this vampire flick that he was dying to see. I guess you can say he's obsessed with them." she giggled at the thought.
"oh okay Alice." I replied.
"okay so we'll see you at home Allie." Edward said ruffling his little sisters hair.
"hey! Stop that! Your going to ruin it!" she hissed at him.
Just then the familiar car appeared right beside the Volvo and jasper came out.
"Hey guys." he greeted us.
"hey jazz." Edward said.
I just smiled and waved at him.
"okay looks like we'll be going if we want to catch that movie." Alice said.
"okay, bye." I waved and helped myself to the passenger seat of the Volvo. Edward did the same thing and sat down in the drivers seat.
Before I knew it we were speeding down the freeway.
"what do you think about having a romantic evening tonight with me, after a long day at the mall?" Edward asked in his alluring voice after a few minuets of silence.
I turned to looked at him and smiled.
"I'd love too." I said quietly after tying my fingers with his hand.
We soon came to a stop, and I noticed the sign above it say that it was called La Bella Italian. This place felt familiar in a way, like I was here before. Kind of like a sense of déjà vu.
The hostess came into the view and her mouth dropped open when she saw Edward. don't get me wrong, this girl was pretty, but not in the high standards of Rosalie's beauty. She had bleached blonde hair that was flowing down her back. She had dark make up that made her eyes pop out, and it seemed a little too dramatic.
"Hi, how many tonight?" she glanced my way and then looked directly at Edward.
"two please." he answered politely.
As the lady started to walk off to the direction of the table, she started to shake her hips from side to side some how trying to attract Edwards attention. Edward played it cool and collected, while I on the other hand was pissed and angry. I mean what kind of person would hit on a guy who's wife was right next to him?
I sat down in the chair and looked to see that Edward had done the same.
The server came out and I quietly thanked god that it was a man this time. Hopefully there wouldn't be anymore flirting with husband for the night.
"hi, my name is Michael. I'll be your server this evening. What can I get you guys to drink?" he asked both Edward and I.
"umm.. I'll have a coke please." I told him quietly.
"two cokes." Edward stated.
Michael nodded and went to the kitchen to get us our drinks.
"well, this is nice." I smiled and looked at Edward.
"yes, yes it is." he agreed.
Michael returned to our table and gently placed the drinks down. He then took out a piece of paper and a pen then turned to me for our order.
"I'll just have the mushroom ravioli." I didn't have time to look at the menu, because of all the time that I spent staring at Edward. I still couldn't get over the fact that this beautiful creature was mine too keep. I scanned the menu and found the one that sounded more appetizing.
"and for you sir?" he asked politely.
"I'll just have a fettuccini Alf redo,"
"your orders will be right out." Michael walked off back to the kitchen leaving me alone with Edward.
"Bella, I love you." Edward said catching my attention.
"I love you Edward."
I looked at him closely and saw the nervousness that was coming from him. He seemed to be at ease but there was something that he wanted to know or something that was missing. He smiled at me, but that didn't really touch his eyes.
"Edward is something wrong?" I asked in a worried tone.
"actually, there is something I wanted to ask you." he said looking directly at my eyes.
"okay, what is it?" curiosity was getting the best of me.
"well, I'm just scared on how your going to react." he avoided the question.
"Edward you can tell me anything, and I assure you that no matter what happens I will always love you." I took his hand on to mine and started to rub circles lightly.
He took a deep breath and pulled what it seems to be a box that contained a ring inside it. I wasn't sure if it was really a ring that was inside, but I was dying to know. What if Edward wanted a real marriage and what we had was not good enough anymore. Or what if he is now ready to take the next step in our relationship.
All my questions were answered when he opened the tiny velvet box.
There the ring laid, perfectly. It was a silver ring that held the gigantic diamond in the middle. The diamond was big, big didn't even cover it. Around the stone were tiny little diamonds that made the attention center around the huge diamond. It was glistening and it defiantly took my breath away.
It was similar to the one that Edward had given me when we were forced to get married, but this one was different. This was better than the one before because it meant a lot to Edward and I could see it in his eyes. I never wore the ring that Edward gave me when he first gave it to me, because I was afraid that I would loose it. I always have a tendency to trip and fall out of nowhere and I defiantly didn't want to take the chance of loose that priceless air loom in their family.
"Bella I know that we were in an arranged marriage, and we were both forced into it for different kinds of reasons. But Bella I want this marriage to be real and I want to start and have a life with you. I know that your young and still studying in school, but I love you so much that I don't ever want to loose you. "
I was stunned and no words could describe how I felt.
He got up from the chair he was sitting at and kneeled down in front of me. He took my hands with his and took a deep breath before talking.
"Isabella Marie Swan, I promise to love you every single day of forever. I promise to be there for you in your good times and bad. I will always be there for you not matter what. Bella I love you with my whole heart and life, Will you marry me?"
Tears started flowing down my eyes and I tried to force them back in but it did no justice. I couldn't contain it anymore and I just cried my tears of joy.
"yes Edward."
He got up and pulled me into a hug and we stayed in that comfortable position, not wanting to leave each others arms.