Hi... hehehe i know it's been a while, but here's chapter five and i promise i will update Fix You next because I love you all so much !
I don't own it Cassandra Clare does!

"You remind me of my mum."
Alec knew as soon as the words were out of his mouth he had said too much. But who could blame him? When Vicky was comforting him, it reminded him of his real mother when she would come and comfort him when he would have a panic attack or and when he'd freak out about the little voice in his head, the voice was there even when he was younger.

"Alec" Vicky said softly.
Alec looked up; the tears in his eyes distorting Vicky's face a little. He realised that he must look pathetic and weak, like he can't handle his own problems. He looked away and sniffled a bit.
"Alec" Vicky said again, making him look up at her again, "Alec are you okay?" she asked.

Alec wanted to say No and tell her everything that has been going on in his mind and what it was like at his real home and what happened at the orphanage, but he didn't he held his tongue and nodded.

"You don't seem fine" Vicky said, smoothing down his hair "do you want to talk about it?" she asked.

Alec wanted to say yes and tell her everything from beginning to now, but he didn't he just shook his head, some of his head falling in front of his face.

"If you ever need to talk to someone" Vicky said, pushing his hair back, "You can talk to me."

Alec nodded, his hair falling back in front of his eyes "sure."

"Do you want to come down for lunch?" Vicky asked, getting up from the bed, Alec shook his head he always hated seeing his siblings whenever he was upset because they would always ask him what's wrong.
Vicky smiled "Okay, I'll come up later to see how you're going" she left the room closing the door behind her.

Alec sighed and got up from his bed and dug around his backpack for his black book. He got it out and grabbed a pen and started to write...

Hi mum, Hi dad!

How are you? I hope you're good there.
Vicky, the new mum, is nice. She's kinda like you, mum.
Vicky asks me how I am and how I'm going; I'm still not going to tell her anything because she doesn't really need to know right? She'll probably be like Alec you have a problem we need to send you to a mental asylum!
Ok… bit of an exaggeration, but she'll probably think I have a problem or something. I don't have a problem I'm fine.
Anyway I love you and I'm sorry so yeah… bye
-Alec.

Alec shut his book and put it underneath his pillow; he lay down and looked up at the ceiling. There were no cracks in the ceiling unlike his old room (which was a broom closet) in the orphanage on many occasions he thought that the ceiling was going to break and fall down onto him and crush him.
Not like you would mind being crushed, the little voice said.
Alec shook his head, shaking the little voice away.

He stayed like that, looking up at the ceiling, for a while. He debated whether to tell someone about the voice or just about his life.

There was a knock at his door around three.
"Alec it's me, Vicky, may I come in?" she asked.
"Sure whatever" Alec said, rolling onto his stomach and burring his face into the pillow.

"Hi Alec" Vicky said walking over to the bed and bringing the desk chair over and sitting in it, "how are you feeling, better?"

Alec nodded into his pillow.

"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked.

Alec stayed still, one part of himself was telling him to talk about it, tell her everything about himself, but the little voice told him to tell her nothing, because if he did she'd only think that he was crazy.

"Alec?" Vicky asked.
"No" Alec said "I don't want to talk about it."
"Oh…" Vicky said, Alec could hear something in her voice but couldn't quite get what it was.

"Tomorrow you'll be starting high school, you'll be a senior because you're that age and your siblings have told me that you're very smart" Vicky said after what seemed like forever, on more than one occasion he had thought that she had left.

"You'll be going to Hunter high" Vicky continued, "It's a very good school, it has a fantastic sport and music program and the teachers there are great!" Alec could hear a smile in her voice, "are you excited about going to school?" She asked.

Alec sighed and pulled his face out of his pillow and looked at Vicky, she was smiling down warmly at him.
"The school sounds nice, I guess I'm excited about it all" Alec said.
Vicky smiled "That's good!"
They lapsed into silence for a bit and Alec was surprised that he couldn't hear the little voice taunting him and laughing at him.

Jace barged into the room "Alec! Max wants you to come down stairs!"
Alec sat up and Vicky gave Jace a look.
"Oh sorry, were you trying to get Alec to talk about feelings or something?" Jace asked, "because yes he may be gay and all but he never talks about himself that's why he's silent all the time."

Alec rolled his eyes and pushed himself up off the bed and walked past Jace and down the hall. He could hear Jace repeating I'm sorry to Vicky as they followed him down the Hall. Alec spun around and faced them, "Where is Max?" He asked.

"He's in the lounge room" Jace said.
Alec nodded and walked down the countless hallways and stairs and eventually got into the lounge room.
Vicky and Jace following him the whole way.

"Allie!" Max yelled jumping up off the couch and running into Alec wrapping his arms around Alec's waist, "Thank the angel you're here, Magnus and Isabelle would not stop talking about shoes or something like that and…" Max motioned downwards for Alec to bend down so that Max could whisper his ear, "Mr Jeffery would not shut up about boats and how fantastic they are."

Alec straightened up and smiled down at Max, letting out a small laugh as he did.
"It has emotion!" Magnus yelled.
Alec's smile dropped and he glared at his very attractive adoptive brother.
"Magnus!" Vicky scolded "Don't say that!" She walked over and smacked him across the head. Alec stopped himself from laughing at Magnus's expression.
"Abusive parent!" Magnus yelled out.
Alec rolled his eyes and looked down at Max, "What do you want to do?" He asked.
Max looked up at Alec, his brown eyes lighting up with happiness, "I want to show you what I got today!" Max said excitedly jumping up and down.
Alec smiled "Okay I guess so."
Max grabbed Alec's hand and dragged him out of the room. He could feel everyone's eyes on him as he walked out of the room with Max.

Max pushed the door to his new room open "Ta Da!" Max said smiling widely.
Alec looked around the room, he could see Max's new clothes hanging messily out of the chest of draws and closet.
"You could've put your clothes away a little neater" Alec told Max, walking over to his little brother's draw and cleaning it up.
"Sorry" Max said.
"It's okay" Alec said shutting the draws and walking over to Max's closet and cleaning it up, "What did you want to show me?"
"Look!" Max shoved a picture book thingy in Alec's face.
"What is this?" Alec asked, taking the book from Max's hand and flipping through it.
Huh, Alec thought the pages are backwards, must be one of those Japanese picture book thingys.
"It's a manga! It's so cool!" Max said, clearly excited, "Vicky bought it for me, she also bought me loads more!"

Alec nodded and handed the book back "that's good." He turned back to Max's closet and went back to cleaning, his little brother really shouldn't be allowed to put his clothes away, the clothes weren't even on the hangers!

"Alec what does gay mean?" Max asked after a couple minutes of silence.
Alec froze "um… it means… uh… a boy liking another boy…" Alec looked at Max to see what his reaction was.
"Oh…" Max said "that's cool, so you like guys not girls?" Max asked.
Alec's eyes widened "What?!"
"In the kitchen, before lunch, Jace said that you were gay" Max said.
"Oh… you heard that?" Alec asked "I thought you were listening to Jeffery talk about boats."
Max smiled "yeah I heard it, I wasn't listening to Jeffery."
"Oh… are you okay with it?" Alec asked "you know you're older brother liking guys?"
"I'm fine with it!" Max said smiling "You're still my brother no matter what, who cares if you like guys?!"
"That's good" Alec said, closing Max's closet door. He turned around and looked down at his little brother "What do you want to do now?"

Max thought for a moment, "Let's explore the house!" He said smiling widely.
"Didn't Jeffery tell you about it when we first got here?" Alec asked.
"No…" Max said looking down at his feet, "Magnus and Jace kept fighting and Jeffery kept talking about…"
"Let me guess, boats?" Alec asked.
Max laughed "yeah… so could we explore?" he asked, his brown eyes big and pleading.
Alec couldn't say no to that face, I mean who could?

They walked out of Max's room and Max jumped onto Alec's back.
"Max what are you doing?" Alec asked.
"My legs are sore so you have to give me a piggy back ride around the house" Max said.
Alec smiled and laughed "okay."
They walked down the halls and Max kept making comments about the artwork and furniture around the house.

The two stopped at the lounge room and Max jumped down from Alec's back.
"Thanks Allie!" Max said wrapping his arms around Alec's waist.
"No problem" Alec mumble, he felt self-conscious because everyone in the lounge room was staring at them. He pulled out of Max's hug and walked up the stairs to his room, He could hear Max calling for him to come back down stairs.

Alec didn't want to. It felt awkward and uncomfortable down there with everyone; they all looked at Alec like he would break down at any moment. He didn't like it, he also didn't like it how Magnus's eyes would follow him everywhere, Magnus probably thought that he couldn't see it but he could and it made him very uncomfortable.

Alec threw himself down on his bed and buried his face in his pillow. He wished that he could just go back to the orphanage. He hated the attention that was put on him here, at the orphanage nothing like that would happen he'd just get bullied and pushed around then everyone would forget about him.

Alec dozed off at one point. He was woken up by someone yelling in his ear.
"Alexander wake up!" someone yelled.
Alec opened one eye and saw a pair of bright green cat eyes staring at him.
Alec punched Magnus in the face and rolled over.
"OW!" Magnus yelled, "What the hell! Why did you punch me in the face?"
"Go away!" Alec growled, he felt a little bad for punching Magnus in the face, he really didn't know what came over him to do that.
"No" Magnus said jumping on top of Alec.
Alec froze and closed his eyes, he really didn't like people touching him it bought back to many memories, "Get off" Alec whispered.
"No" Magnus said crossing his arms.
"Please" Alec whispered, his voice cracking a little.

Magnus's POV

Magnus heard Alec's voice crack a little and Magnus took that as a sign that Alec was about to cry, Magnus got off Alec and heard the blue eyed boy let out a shaky breath.

"Alec I'm sorry" Magnus apologized, but not really knowing what for.
"No it's fine" Alec said, "I'm sorry I shouldn't have punched you in the face."
"That's okay, it didn't really hurt that much…" Magnus lied, the punch hurt like hell! Magnus didn't know that Alec was that strong; Alec looked as if he would break if you just poked him.
"Why are you here?" Alec asked, sitting up his blue eyes were open and Magnus got lost in them for a moment.

Alec really was beautiful, Magnus thought.
He remembered when he first saw Alec sitting alone in a corner at the orphanage. Magnus felt drawn to him somehow and he just had to talk to him, when Magnus had found out that his parents had adopted Alec and his siblings he couldn't help being excited it meant that he could see more of Alec and get to know him more. So far none of that has happened, but Magnus will just keep trying.

"Uhhh… Magnus" Alec said, tearing Magnus away from his thoughts.
"Yeah?" Magnus asked.
"Why are you here?" Alec asked, looking down into his lap.
"Oh right, dinner's ready, mum asked me to get you" Magnus explained.

Alec nodded and Magnus pulled him off his bed and out the door. Alec pulled his arm out of Magnus's grasp and followed Magnus silently down to the dining room. Magnus watched as Alec took his seat furthest away from everyone as he sat down next to Isabelle. Magnus and her had become fast friends, he really liked having someone to talk about fashion with.

Magnus mum served out dinner, it was roast with potatoes and green vegetables. Everyone dug into their food, but Alec didn't Magnus noticed. Alec just stared at the food with a blank look on his face. Magnus ate some of his dinner and swallowed. It's not poisonous so why isn't Alec eating any? Magnus thought.
Magnus watched Alec from the corner of his eye for the rest of dinner, he assured himself that Alec wouldn't notice because he is a ninja and no one could see a ninja. Magnus saw Alec take a few bites of his dinner, but only when someone told him to.

Magnus really didn't know what was up with Alec. Did Alec not want to be adopted? Magnus thought, Maybe that was it, Alec didn't want to be adopted! Maybe Alec didn't want people pretending to be his parents; maybe Alec wanted his real parents back.

After dinner Alec went up to his room, Magnus watched as Alec left the table and silently walked out of the room. Magnus wanted to know what was going through that boys head and he was going to find out no matter what.

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-Kate.