AN: Happy Sunday guys! Hope you enjoy this next installment!
Fitz fell into a fitful sleep around 8 not being able to stand the vacant feel of the house. He looked at the time on the bedside alarm and saw that he was only asleep for two hours. He sighed, just about giving up on sleep for the night. Hearing his phone ring he turned on his bedside lamp. Looking down at the caller ID he saw that it was Olivia. He was surprise that she was calling him at this hour. He was glad nonetheless to hear her voice. Answering with a smile he said "Hi, Livvie."
"Hey Legend this is not Olivia."
Fitz immediately stood to his feet. Why the fuck was Bruno answering Olivia's phone? "Why are you using Olivia phone?" Fitz asked no demanded harshly.
"Fitz relax this is not what you think. I'm calling you because Olivia was transported to the hospital."
Fitz interrupted him, "what happened? What's wrong with her?" He asked feeling panicked. His heart sped and his stomach roils from nervous.
"I don't know what happened when I was making my way to my room I saw the paramedics at her door and I stopped to see what's wrong. She was unconscious when they found her" Bruno added remembering the scene of Olivia lying on a gurney with an oxygen mask over her face. Hearing Fitz silence on the line he continued, "I saw her phone on the table and decided to call you. I was going to call the one marked mom but I decided you can do so."
"Thank you" Fitz could barely get out the words. "Can you please get the hospital information for me? I'm on my way."
Fitz moved like a robot unaware of his actions. His mind was completely on Olivia and what's going on with her. His breath was caught in his chest as he called to charter a private plane to fly straight to Spain. This was a matter of urgency and he won't take his chance with a commercial flight. He was able to secure a flight that was ready to leave in three hours. In that three hours' time Fitz packed a light bag and called Alexis on his way to the airport. He relayed the information he'd received after he'd gotten the hospital information from Bruno. He tried calling them for information about Olivia Pope but they were unable to give him any because of no legal relations. That made Fitz furious and his anxiety increased. He was now sitting on a lonely flight praying to God that his Livvie is ok. He couldn't bear the thought of losing her.
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Alexis was in deep slumber when she heard her phone ringing over and over again. She wondered who was calling her that early in the morning. She knew that it couldn't be Liv because of the time zone difference. She worried for her daughter knowing that she and Fitz were having difficulties base on her recent conversation with her. Alexis sighed when her phone stopped ringing, picking up her phone she saw five missed calls from Fitz. She immediately wondered what's wrong and dialed his number to call him back.
"Hello, Alexis it's Fitz Liv is hurt."
"Fitz Fitz" she called out trying to calm him down. She could've barely made out the words that were swiftly floating out of his mouth. "What's wrong Fitz?"
"I just got a call and Liv is in the hospital. I don't know what's wrong they won't tell me. I'm on my way to the airport."
Alexis felt her stomach dropped from the panic sound in his voice. Her baby, what's wrong with her baby? "Oh God" she called out pacing the floor.
"I was looking for tickets in your area and there's an available flight for 8 from Fort Lauderdale's airport."
Alexis could scarcely hear what he was saying as all of her thoughts went towards Olivia. She couldn't lose her baby. She wasn't meant to bury her only child. Oh God please let everything be fine. Snapping out of her thoughts she listened as Fitz tell her that he'd gotten her a ticket for 8 which was six hours away.
"Thanks Fitz. Please let me know of any updates. Be strong for her Fitz. I'll see you soon. I love you son."
If it wasn't such a delicate situation he would've dwell in her openly calling him her son. "I will."
Alexis listened at the dial tone when Fitz disconnected the call. She stood numbed while all the worst thoughts flood her mind. She shook herself and went to pack a bag to head out the door. She didn't care if she had to sleep at the airport.
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Olivia woke up in the ambulance surrounded by two paramedics.
"Ma'am can you hear me?" One of the female paramedics asked.
Olivia nodded feeling the pain in her lower abdomen ease and she only felt small flutters. She'd never experienced such cramps before. She watched as they took her blood pressure and checked her heart rate. She was beginning to feel closed in when she felt the oxygen mask on her face. She tried to follow their instructions to take deep breathes and she did. Feeling her heart rate returned to normal. The ambulance came to a stop and the doors were swung open and the gurney was wheeled out.
Still feeling slightly dizzy as she lay there wondering what'd caused her to react this way. Was it stress? A nurse had taken over from the paramedics and had taken her to the bathroom. Her clothes were changed and she was giving a hospital gown. One of the nurses brought her feminine products as she was still bleeding. She lay in fresh lining sheets waiting for the doctor to arrive after her blood was taking and sent down for lab work.
Olivia felt scared and all alone lying in a hospital bed half way around the world. She felt herself dozing away from the pain medicine she was giving to help alleviate the pain.
"Hello Ms. Pope" Dr. Mendez called as he entered into her room. Doctor Mendez had been one of the chief OB/GYN at the hospital for five years. He was handsome and tall in his late thirties. He had a passion for his job taking care of women and babies. He looked down at Olivia's lab work and based off of the observations from both the paramedics and nurse he'd had to deliver some heartbreaking news. This was part of the job he hated.
Olivia opened her eyes to see the impeccably dressed doctor observing her. He was wearing a white lab coat over his button down blue shirt and black slacks. His stethoscope was hanging loosely around his neck while curly black hair spilled all over his head.
Stepping closer to the bed he continued to speak as he saw her eyes open, "hi I'm Dr. Mendez I'll be your physician this early morning."
Olivia nodded allowing the man to speak. He smiled way too brightly for someone up at 1 am.
"What happened earlier?"
She braced herself up on her elbows before starting to speak, "well I was preparing to sleep when I felt a sharp pain in my abdomen. All day my stomach was cramping lightly which is normal when my period is on its way. But the pain I experienced wasn't my normal period pain. "
"Ok and did you experience any vomiting, lightheadedness or drowsiness as of late?" He asked while making notes in his chart.
"I did vomit earlier in the day. I thought it may've been the empanadas that I ate but I don't know. Sometimes I would feel lightheaded and I would either sit or drink some water. If I'm still it would go away. But for the past few weeks I've been feeling sleepy and my body ached no matter how much sleep I got. What's wrong with me?" She asked in a small voice.
Dr. Mendez knew it was time for him to break the bad news to her and by her explanation she wasn't even aware of the good news to begin with much less haven't to hear the bad one.
"Olivia based on the tests we've run and your symptoms we can confirm that you suffered from a miscarriage. The blood work showed that you were six weeks along. I'm really sorry for your loss" he spoke in his thick accent. He watched as her face changed from shocked to one of pure devastation. He continued speaking, "I'm going to perform an ultrasound on you just to make sure that there's no remaining parts or placenta still inside of you."
Olivia heard him as he explained the procedure of doing the ultrasound. He'd told her that some people experience sudden heavy cramps when the baby is discharged from them. If everything was out of her they wouldn't have to operate on her body. She listened as he spoke about the baby she never knew she was carrying. She was anesthetized and all she could do was nod when he spoke. Her world felt as if it'd stopped moving and there wasn't anything she could do about it. Where's Fitz? Where's my mom? She wanted her mommy to come hold her. Olivia was so shocked that she didn't see or feel when the doctor rolled up her gown and replaced her exposed legs with a sheet. He was saying something about the gel being cold and all she did was nod. Nodding was the only thing she could trust herself to do.
Her stomach contracted when he applied the cold gel across her lower tummy. She felt herself grow stiff even though he told her to relax. How could she relax when she lost her baby? How could she relax when Fitz wasn't by her side? This wasn't supposed to happen to me, she thought. She felt her chest becoming unbelievably tight trying to fight the tears that were trying to erupt from her eyes.
Mendez watched at the screen to see an empty womb. The good thing about complete miscarriages was that no operation would be needed. He would give her some antibiotics to fight off any infections and directions for plenty of rest and sleep. Removing the little wand from her stomach he placed it back next to the ultrasound machine.
"Ok Ms. Pope. I did the ultrasound and it looked like your body was successful in passing everything. I'll give you a prescription for antibiotics to fight off any infections that may develop. The bleeding should completely stop within the next few days. Right now I want you to drink some soup and water. One of the nurses will bring it to you and when you're finish you'll need to rest. I'll keep you under 24 hours observations. Do you have any questions Ms. Pope?"
"Yes..why..why did I get a miscarriage?" She asked in a shaky small voice.
He sighed lightly always dreading this question. She was really asking him was it her fault that the baby didn't survive. "Ms. Pope there's something called chromosomal abnormality and I believe that the baby may've suffered from this. During the first trimester, the most common cause of miscarriage is chromosomal abnormality – meaning that something is not correct with the baby's chromosomes. Most chromosomal abnormalities are the cause of a damaged egg or sperm cell, or are due to a problem at the time that the zygote went through the division process. Are you on birth control?" He asked watching her nod her head. "That could've also aided in complicating your pregnancy and subsequent loss. I'm really sorry that you had to experience this but please believe me when I say that this is not the end of the world. You're a young and healthy woman miscarriages are only about 15% for women under 35. What I'd advise you to do is speak to your OBG/GYN when you're ready again to try so you can get off the pills and your system can be flushed from the extra hormones. "
She nodded taking in all of the information he was giving to her. He asked if there's anything else he can help her with and she'd told him, "no" in a hoarse voice.
She watched as he retreated out of the room and the nurse came in with a hospital tray with a bowl of soup and bottle of water. She tried to eat it but by the time she was three spoons in she felt the saltiness of her tears mixed with the warm liquid. Olivia replaced the spoon in the bowl and placed the tray on the bed side table. She brought her hands up to her face burying her eyes as her body wracked from all of the emotions she was feeling.
Her heart mourned for the child she and Fitz would never meet. She cried at the thought of having to tell him she'd lose their baby. She didn't protect their unborn child; her conscience was beating down on her. She felt her heart crumbling in her chest as her sobs become loud. One of the nurses came to her and tried to calm her down offering words of reassurance but it fell on deaf ears. How could God do this to me? Take away the future of a baby she never knew. It hurt her so much to find out that she was pregnant and then to have loss the baby in one day. Her heart couldn't take this. She lay completely back on the bed and wrapped her arms around the pillow hugging it tightly to her chest. Her eyes burned from the tears she'd shed and her head hurt from it all. With a heavy heart and broken spirit she fell asleep.
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A flight that would've took him 12 hours and 10 minutes with commercial airlines took him 9 hours to reach to Madrid. Fitz was a man on a mission it was already noon when he'd gotten into a taxi to take him to the La Paz hospital where Liv was admitted. He'd finally gotten some word on her condition. The nurses were tired of him yelling at them through the phone. They'd told him that she was awake and that she was resting. He was somewhat relieved by the news but he wouldn't be relaxed until he see her for himself.
Making his way up on the fifth floor he rushed to the nurses' station asking for Olivia Pope. One of the nurses told him to take a seat while they went to check on her and asked if she was willing to accept any visitors before letting him in the room.
He hadn't slept a blink on his flight to Spain. His mind was racing at all the possible scenarios that were going through his head. He sat there tapping his foot feeling the impatience rising up from the pit of his stomach. He breathes a sigh of relief when the nurse came back for him. Following her his heart beats faster the closer they got to Liv.
He watched Olivia as the nurse escorted him inside the room before making her way out. She looked extremely small and her eyes were bleak with sadness. He watched as she lay in the bed looking off into space. She didn't look like his Livvie. She looked hurt. Why was she in here? He still didn't know what's wrong. He slowly made his way to the chair besides her bed.
Olivia saw him but she was too weak to acknowledge his presence. All morning she had the nurses' call both her mother and his phone but it kept going to voicemail. She freak out when she couldn't get into contact with them and her phone was still left at the hotel.
Sitting down Fitz gently grabbed one of her hands and held it in between his much larger ones. "Livvie what's wrong baby?" He inquired searching her face for any signs.
Olivia's eyes immediately fill up with tears at his question but she couldn't speak.
"I came here as soon as I heard you were being taking to the hospital" Fitz pause waiting for her or somebody to tell him something. He was becoming apprehensive not knowing what was going on. He was beginning to make his way back to the nurses' station and demand them to let him know what's wrong with his girlfriend but Olivia's small voice stopped him.
Taking a steadying breath Olivia breathes in oxygen into her lungs. All of her energy went into her holding his gaze. Her mouth opened twice but nothing came out, she watched his face etched with worry. His clothes look disheveled he didn't look like her Fitzy and once she breaks the news to him he won't feel like her Fitz. Mounting up all of her strengths she began spilling everything to him.
"The doctor said I had a miscarriage" her voice choked. "I was six weeks pregnant Fitz and I lost the baby" she added quietly while tears run down her eyes.
Fitz felt as if someone knocked the wind out of his lungs. What? How could this be? Olivia didn't tell him she was pregnant. "What Livvie? How?" He asked clearly puzzled.
He listened intently as she told him what'd happen along with what the doctor had said. She was speaking so quietly that he had to scoot closer to her. Her body shivered as she recalled the moments before she called the front desk for an ambulance.
As she went over the story Fitz's grip tightened on her hand. His heart hurt from hearing that they'd loss a baby that neither one of them knew they were supposed to expect. Not knowing what else to do he reached forward and placed his arms around her holding her tightly against his chest. He held onto her as if his life depended upon it. He felt her body shook with tears and his own came rushing down his cheeks. They stayed like that for a long time holding onto each other for strength.
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When the doctor had come to check on Olivia later that afternoon was the same time Alexis made her way to the hospital room. When they relayed the bad news to her she immediately rushed to her daughter and held her in her arms trying to relieve some of her pain.
Since she was no longer feeling any pain and the bleeding had lighten up the doctor had decided to discharge her early that night. He'd told her that most of her bleeding came down in a spur - that was the reason why she immediately felt the excruciating pain, causing her to blank out for a few minutes.
She took her time with the assistance of her mother putting on the clothes Fitz had gotten from her hotel room.
"Mom, can I go home with you?" She asked as she buttoned her shirt.
"Of course Livvie, you're always welcome home. You need the rest. And I'm sure Fitz won't have any problems staying in Florida for a while. "
"No it'll only be me" she replied.
Alexis watched her silently not understanding why she wouldn't want Fitz there but she didn't question it.
They all made their way to the car and Fitz sat next to Olivia holding onto one of her hands afraid that she would disappear from him. They were heading back to the hotel for the night before leaving the following morning. Fitz asked if any of the people from the tour had visited her but they didn't. He couldn't believe that they were that selfish to turn their backs on her especially in a foreign country.
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Everyone was too silent while they sat in the dining area waiting for room service. Fitz was tired and needed a hot long shower. He'd remember that Bruno had her phone and decided to check with front desk for his room number. It was hard at first for them to disclose the information but after he explained everything they complied with him.
"I'll be right back. Liv I'm going to get your phone back from Bruno and I'll let him know you'll be leaving tomorrow. "
"Ok" she muttered.
It broke his heart to see her so distressed he took a deep breath before heading to the penthouse on the next floor.
Not long after he left room service arrive. Alexis opened the door for them and let them in. Once she'd paid for the food she placed the three plates on the small dining table.
"Livvie eat up. You haven't eaten since noon."
"I'm not hungry" was her reply.
Alexis sighed not wanting to push her but she needed to eat something so she'll feel energized. She knew that the battle she was fighting was more emotional than physical. She decided to let it go for now.
Fitz arrived at the penthouse and saw one of Bruno's bodyguards outside the door. "Good night can I see Bruno?" He asked the tall burly man. He watched as the man spoke into a radio and shortly after the door was opened showcasing Bruno.
"Hey Legend come in" he beckoned with a smile plastered on his face.
Fitz was stoned face while he entered the room. Deciding to get straight to business he asked for Olivia's phone. He saw him grab it from one of the side tables before handing it to him. "Can I ask you something?"
"Go ahead" Bruno replied with his arms folded around his midsection.
Fitz took a long cleansing breath to calm his rage, "my girlfriend was hurt and was rushed to the hospital. Why haven't any one of you went to see her? After all she was all alone in a foreign country and you're supposed to be her employer."
Bruno struggled nonchalantly, "dude that's not my problem. Maybe if she didn't tell me earlier on the tour to not talk about her personal life and keep it strictly business with her then I would've had a reason to visit her. But this is not my concern."
Fitz saw red he couldn't believe that someone could be so heartless especially when it came to his Livvie. Before thinking Fitz launched a punch square on his jaw - by the time it connected to his face the bodyguard came over refraining him.
"That's for being a fucking heartless piece of shit. Olivia is leaving tomorrow so I advise you to find someone else to do her job. And I'll make sure that she gets full compensation for all of the hard work she's done for you. And she will get credited for her pictures." Fitz spoke each sentence with enough passion and venom to make your skin burn.
Once he was finish speaking the bodyguard escorted him through the door and slammed it in his face. His heart was beating wildly in his chest. He was angry - angry at the world but mostly at himself. How could he let her go through this alone? Fitz blamed himself for leaving her, maybe then she wouldn't be stressed and subsequently lose their baby. He wanted to scream or punch a wall but instead he kicked his foot before jumping on the elevator.
He was only gone for twenty minutes, when he'd returned to the room he felt the atmosphere tense as Alexis ate her dinner quietly while Olivia's own left untouched. He gently sat next to her and pulled her plate to him. "Baby you need to eat something" he tried to reason with her.
Olivia simply shook her head. By the time she could've open her mouth to say no her stomach growled loudly.
Fitz smiled a little when he saw her lightly chuckling at the sound of her rumbling tummy.
"Ok. Just a little" she agreed turning her attention to him. She took in the sight before her and she realized how tired he looked. Have he even slept all this time? And here he was trying to take care of me. As soon as he grabbed the spoon she saw his left knuckles red. Forgotten all about herself she reached out to grab his hand, "what happened babe?"
Fitz tries to shake it off, "it's nothing. Come open up" he said trying to divert her question.
She made a mental note to ask him about this later. She opened her mouth and he spoon feed her.
Alexis looked on contently seeing that her daughter was in good hands. She got up from the table, "I'll see you guys in the morning. I'm going to finish pack Liv's clothing and then retire for the night" she added with a yawn. She came around and kiss Olivia on the crown of her head, "I love you baby" she whispered into her hair. Making her way to Fitz she gives his cheek a gentle touch and mouthed, "Be strong for her" and with that she left the room.
Fitz felt himself choking up because again he felt as if he'd let her down. He felt anything but strong in that moment.
They ate in silence; Olivia didn't realize that she was so hungry until she saw the empty plate sitting before her. She watched as Fitz ate his meal looking anything but enjoying it. He looked as if he ate out of obligations. She sighed knowing that she needs to tell him she's returning home with her mom.
Placing the dirty plates back onto the cart they both got up and went to the extra bedroom in the suite. Fitz asked if she needed a shower and she said yes. He escorted her to the bathroom and she'd ask for privacy. He made sure to take all of the things she needed into the bathroom while she showered. He sat waiting for her to come out as he desperately needed a shower. Once she emerges from the bathroom in her night clothes he made his way inside of it.
As he stood underneath the steaming shower he let the tears fall freely from his eyes. For the first time in his life he didn't know what to do. How can he make this all better? Realizing that he was in there for far too long he quickly soaps his skin and rinses it off. Hopping out the shower he dried his skin before putting on a boxer and returning to the room.
He got in the other side of the bed quietly thinking that Olivia was fast asleep.
"Hold me" her soft voice spoke in the dark.
Her voice startled him at first but he quickly recovered and moved his way over to her. He wrapped his arms around her waist pulling her back against his bare chest. Silence bathes them as the sounds of their breathing were all to be heard.
"What happened to your hand Fitz?" She asked softly.
He sighed not wanting to recall what had happened earlier that night but he know she wouldn't let it go. He retells his encounter with Bruno and he felt her body go rigid from the story.
"Wow I can't believe this" Olivia said clearly at a loss for words. Could someone be so heartless because you turned them down? She just wanted to go home and curl up in her old room and be a child again. Being a grownup was too hard.
Silence fell over them again both having way too much on their minds and heart.
"Fitz?"
"Mmmmm" he answered in deep thoughts.
"When we reach back to the states I'm going home with my mother."
His body went limp - did that mean they were over? After a few seconds he was able to find his voice, "is that what you want Olivia?"
"Yes" she answered simply.
"Ok" was all he could whisper. His heart was cracking under all of the pressure he was feeling. How could he blame her if she wanted to leave him? After all he was the one who left her. He held onto her tightly not wanting to let her go.
"I'm so sorry that I failed you Livvie."
Olivia felt the tears returned to her eyes, she was battling her own guilt too. "I'm sorry too Fitz."
AN: I hate this ughhhh! Most of you guys guessed it. I'm so sorry guys but yeah Olivia had a miscarriage. Please don't crucify me if I didn't get the medical aspect of a miscarriage accurately since google was my friend. I'm sorry if this brought up bad memories for anyone who'd suffer through a miscarriage. :( This would be the last time we encounter douche bag Bruno (I hope he's a sweetheart in real life). Please let me know what you guys thing, just keep in mind our babies will survive the turmoil. Please leave reviews and like always thank you for reading my story. Until next time, XO.