I've been listening to those sad love songs again so yeah…it'll be a sad/romantic one-shot all at once. Bold memories are Randy's, italic memories are John's.

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Drive

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It's midnight and they're both in a car and they don't care where the hell they're going because John and Randy just want to go away and escape it all and John wants to escape the thoughts of the bet what are you doing to Randy? And he wants to escape reality and all of it I want to fall into those black dreams again where no one can see him and he wants Randy to be there too.

Randy wants to escape too and he wants to escape thoughts of poor little Alanna growing up without her daddy she's really better off without you but you still want her and he wants to escape thoughts of pain and misery because she's not around and he wants the only person in the world to be here be John Cena and he doesn't care where they are.

And as their car move farther into the night, Randy's heart pulses with tranquility and serenity but his mind's shouting at him and screaming at him and every time he hears the screech of the car he tries not to tell the memory over wash him but it does…

Two year old Randy Orton's holding a bright green toy in his hand and he waves it into the air and laughs and makes bubbles with his mouth and when the child lays eyes on four year old John Cena and even if they're really far away, Randy's heart stops because he knows John Cena's a bad person and he waves the toy up in the air and starts crying…tears running down Randy's little blue eyes…

And as John parts those perfect pink lips, Randy's eyes stares only at John's eyes and nothing coming out of John's mouth makes sense anymore and he's all so trapped you thought you can run away? and Randy's stomach sloshes unevenly with pain and acid knots and nausea.

John looks and him and at that face, that innocent little face is the same face that Randy had when he's ten years old…

Ten year old Randy Orton's running away from a group of bullies and his lip's swollen and his eyes are bleeding pain and his veins seem to want to pop out of his head and his arteries are pulsing more agony and terror, and as he stops, holding onto his knees, panting, breathing in and out, breathing in and out, fast and slow, so slow, and Randy doesn't think he has enough oxygen to be alive and as he twists his face to look at the eyes of one of them…

John Cena hears a scream and he runs as fast as he can and with all his might until he reaches the scene, right in front of his eyes and he knows that those people just want to punch the crap out of Randy and seeing the terror and horror in Randy's eyes, John runs over to them and stands in front of Randy in an overprotective manner and they laugh at him as he makes his hand into a fist and snarls at them, "get out of the way, Cena."

"How can I move? You can't see me…"

"What?"

And at the moment, John had out of nowhere charged towards the boy and he tumbles down and John looks back at the rest and they start to run off and the fallen boy stands up and runs off as well and John looks back, crazed with the power that's in his hand and his head's covered by a black hat and Randy mumbles a quick "thanks" before he tries to go away and John's still so very crazed with power that he grabs onto Randy's shoulder and looks deep into his eyes… "Wait, what kind of a thanks is that?"

Randy's body exploded with even more fear and horror and terror as John pushes him up to a wall and their lips cover each other and they're staring at each other's eyes and even as John tries to kiss Randy, Randy doesn't do anything from the terror that's raking his body and the fear that's exploding in his heart and the horror of a boy kissing him…

As John parts and runs off, leaving his hat onto the floor, Randy stares, shocked and terrified, looking down onto the floor and grabbing onto John's hat and the scent's still there and Randy doesn't even want to look at his own face anymore… John had kissed him and his world's spinning out of reach and he doesn't know how to fly anymore and he's all so scared into this world in front of him.

Randy and John stopped the car hours ago and now, they're both entangled in each other, Randy in John's arms and Randy reaching for John's cap, throwing it on his head and burying his head inside of John Cena's chest and they don't care if they fall out as long as they're together and they know that they can't escape reality but they want to so very much and Randy knows it better than anyone.

"I'm trapped, John…"

Randy's body's twitching as he runs inside of his house and locks the door and shuts everything and he lies onto his bed and everything's barricaded and he puts the covers over him and he wants to suffocate and he wants to be alone but thoughts of John Cena keeps on bugging him…

John runs and runs and runs and he stops by that candy store, looking at the pretty little lollipops and candies and he can almost feel them rolling around in his tongue and he wants them and he doesn't know if he's ever tasted anything sweet in his life and when he twists his head, he finds a boy with his black hat and he knows that it has to be the Randy Orton because that's the day he realizes that his hat's missing and he runs towards him.

When Randy sees him, his body explodes with terror and John feels guilt and humiliation and disgrace and he feels like a monster, knowing that Randy thinks of him as one and they're running away from each other, towards each other and they don't know what they're doing until they find themselves onto the floor and John's hot breath's on Randy's cold face…

"Let me go."

"I want—"

Randy shoves John back his hat and he looks away and when everything's gone, John finally finishes the sentence and the hat in his hands doesn't smell like John anymore, it smells like Randy…

And now, that Randy's asleep, John snuggles his head towards Randy's neck and he smells the scent of heartbreak and snowflakes and fear and terror and horror all together in his hat and he knows that his hat's caught Randy's scent and—

The pain flickers through John again as he begins his sentence. "I want—"his nose takes another whiff of his black hat and he closes his eyes and lets the painful, clear and vivid memory over wash his mind.

Twelve year old John Cena places the hat back on his head and he stares as he waits for Randy to return and scream at him and tell him how it's wrong that he kissed him but no one comes and the candy in the candy store doesn't interest John anymore…

"I want—"

He bites his lip, stepping back. Thoughts of Randy entering his mind and his head twists towards the vast emptiness in the road and he's still thinking of Randy and Randy only.

"—you."

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;) Sam

Next chapter. Breathe Again.

Summary: When Randy gets a phone call about Alanna, his world crashes down. He doesn't talk to anyone, he barely eats, he's depressed beyond help and he starts avoiding John at all costs. Can John find out what's wrong before Randy does something drastic to himself?