Alright, here's your warning. This is a TOTAL LEMON. This is their first time; I get to be as graphic and involved as I want to be. Enjoy! But not too much.

Oh yeah, we're back to BPOV.

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Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, any of the characters in Twilight, or anything related to the books and/or movies. If I did, I would be way too busy- doing dirty things with the Cullen boys- to sit down at my laptop and write this story. The scenes and general plot ideas that I did borrow from Stephenie Meyer have been revamped to fit my story.

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Learning to Live Again

Chapter Forty-Two: My First Night With You

Our family had just walked out the back door, leaving me alone with Jasper. I turned to face him, my legs now straddling his. I placed a soft kiss on his lips before wrapping my arms around his neck and snuggling closer to him.

"Did you and Edward have a good talk, darling?" I asked.

"Yes, Bella, we were able to put everything behind us. I'm glad that we could," he answered honestly while moving his head so that his lips were against my neck. He began placing kisses there, leading down to my shoulder. He lowered the strap on my camisole to grant him more access to the skin there.

"Jasper… how long is everyone going to be gone?" I asked, reveling in the feeling of his lips against the sensitive skin of my shoulder. His hands moved to my waist, pushing underneath my camisole and moving up my back to press me tighter against his chest. We both groaned as my nipples hardened against his.

"Edward and Alice are going to keep them gone for a few hours, sweetheart. No need to worry," he said with a seductive edge to his voice. His cold hands traveled down my back, sliding inside my shorts to cup my ass. I was glad that I had chosen to go commando after our impromptu shower this afternoon. The fewer clothes between Jasper and I, the better.

"Mr. Whitlock, are you trying to defile me?" I teased, running my tongue alone Jasper's ear before taking the lobe into my mouth and gently biting it. I moaned when his hands tightened and pulled me against his lower half hard, rubbing his erection against my core. I knew that I was already wet for him and that he could smell as well as feel my arousal. It only made me hotter.

"Bella dear, I'm going to do more than that. I'm going to absolutely ruin you for any other man," Jasper stated. He rose from the chair, pulling me with him. I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist, locking my ankles behind him. The new position had my head right against his hard body, and I shivered at the pleasure that was starting to build within me.

I pulled back to look him in the eye. "You already have, darling," I said before crashing my lips to his. I felt him walking underneath me, but I didn't pay attention to my surroundings. It was impossible to notice anything other than Jasper's hands gripping my ass, moving me against him over and over again, savoring the feel of the friction it was causing both of us. Jasper and I explored each other before, but there was a new feeling to it knowing that we would be making love tonight. "I love you, Jasper," I whispered as I buried my head in his neck.

Jasper stopped his urgent movements and buried his own face in my neck, inhaling my scent. "I love you, Isabella. I love you so much more than I ever thought possible," he whispered. I felt a rush of air and before I knew it we were in our bedroom, the door slammed and locked behind us.

"I thought they wouldn't be home for hours," I teased Jasper as he walked us over to our bed. He caused us to both fall into the middle of it in a fit of laughter.

"Just in case, my dear. I would hate for Emmett to come in and interrupt us before I've gotten my fill of you," he answered.

"Don't you mean before I've gotten my fill of you," I purred into his ear while I pulled him closer against me with my legs that were still wrapped around him.

"God, Bella, you cannot say things like that to me," Jasper begged me. "It's going to be hard enough to fight my cravings for you, but I won't get through it with your dirty, little mouth." He rolled us over so that I was straddling his hips.

I giggled. "But Jasper, I already know that it's hard. And it's nothing that my dirty, little mouth can't help." I don't know when or how I had found this new courage that Jasper brought out in me, but I couldn't help myself. Whenever we were alone together like this, I was a completely different person from the shy, high-schooler who moved to Forks a year ago to live with her father. When I was with Jasper, I was simply a woman in love.

I ground my hips onto him as I leaned back, resting my hands on his chest. "You feel so good beneath me, baby," I said as I started bunching his shirt in my hands, pulling it up his chest. Jasper sat up slightly so that I could pull it over his head and toss it to the floor. Mine was next so quickly that I barely noticed as Jasper removed it. In that moment, we were both glad that I had decided against wearing a bra earlier this afternoon.

I laughed loudly as Jasper sprang forward and changed our position on the bed. He turned us so that I was on my back with him looming over me. I kept my legs locked around his waist, not wanting to separate just yet. He started kissing me at my mouth and worked his way down my body, stopping to suck each of my nipples into his mouth before continuing to my stomach. My legs fell onto the mattress when Jasper's cold hands yanked my shorts down and off my legs.

His head went in between my thighs instantly. I screamed out as I felt Jasper's tongue enter me in a powerful thrust. I bucked my hips against his mouth as I clutched the sheets of the bed. I could feel the muscles in his face as he smiled at my reaction and arched into his touch. His hands moved to my waist, holding me still underneath him. My legs involuntarily went over his shoulders as he moved his tongue back to press against my clit.

"Jazz!" My voice was low and husky as I cried his name. My fingers tightened their grip in his hair, pulling him closer to me. "Oh, God," I panted out. My head rolled to the side, resting on our pillow. I was fighting to keep my eyes open as I felt Jasper's tongue thrusting in and out of me. When his finger began rubbing my clit, joining his tongue in creating this sweet agony in my body, I exploded. I let out a loud cry as my back arched completely off the bed, causing me to sit up.

I could hear Jasper chuckle, but I was in such a daze that I had no response for him as he continued to lick my release from me. Once he was done, Jasper crawled up our bed and playfully shoved me back down onto the mattress. I realized that his pants had been taken off to reveal his thick erection. I couldn't wait any longer and pulled his body flush against mine, seeking his lips with my own.

I could taste myself on his mouth, but it only increased my need for him. Jasper's tongue battled against my own as I squirmed underneath him. I wrapped one of my legs around his hip, pulling his center into mine. Jasper's mouth broke away from my own and moved to my shoulder. He was taking a breath, calming himself down. I pounced. Without him knowing, I reached my hand down and enveloped his length.

"Bella!" I squeezed my hand around the head of his cock as his deep growl echoed through our room. I began pumping up and down, wrapping my leg tighter around him, digging the heel of my foot into his back. Jasper's head was still buried in my neck, kissing and sucking the sensitive flesh there. I knew he would leave a mark, but I couldn't be concerned at the moment.

I moved my free hand down between our bodies and dipped it into my core, allowing my wetness to coat my fingers. I moved the hand back to Jasper's shaft and smiled when his groans got louder. "Fuck, Bella," he cried out against my shoulder. His hips were thrusting into my hand, his cock rubbing against the inside of my thigh with each movement. "I need you, baby," I whispered into my ear as he sucked the lobe into his mouth.

"Take me, Jasper. I need you, too," I moaned. The sensation he was making against my thigh was almost too much for me to take. I opened my legs wider in invitation for him. Jasper moved slightly and I felt him position himself at my entrance.

"Bella, I can't help entirely with the pain, but I can try to calm you down to help alleviate some of it," he said. I nodded my head at him and felt a wave of calm wash over me instantaneously. My head rolled back as my lust and calm combined. I was in a form of euphoric bliss when I felt Jasper sheath himself inside me.

"Ugh!" I cried out as I was filled for the first time. It hurt as he broke my barrier, but his calming waves soon replaced the pain with pleasure. I felt Jasper's body tighten above me as he held still, letting me adjustor to his invasion. I looked up into his eyes and nodded my head for him to continue. With a deep kiss, Jasper pulled out and thrust into me again, moving my body up the bed.

We both panted as a wave of lust crossed between our bodies. I threw my arms around him, clutching his shoulders to pull him tighter against me. "More, baby," I commanded as my hips started to move against his. "Don't stop." He growled at my words and I felt him move faster, thrusting into me with more strength. He moved his hands down to my legs and wrapped them around his waist again, nestling his body in between them.

Our eyes were locked as our hips started slamming against each other. I could tell by the concentrated look on Jasper's face that he was holding back, trying not to hurt me. Reaching up to stroke his face, I leaned forward to whisper in his ear. "It's okay, Jasper. You won't break me. Go harder, and I'll tell you if we need to slow down." Jasper didn't make any movements to increase his force so I continued. "I trust you."

"I love you, Bella. Please tell me if I hurt you. I could never live with myself if I did," he begged me, resting his forehead on mine. He kissed me sweetly on my lips and I smiled when I felt his hips hit mine with more force.

"Oh, God, more," I begged again. My fingernails were digging into his shoulders as my legs clenched around him, pulling him further into my body. "More, Jasper, more."

He started moving faster and harder against me, trying to bring us both to our inevitable release. I felt his teeth lightly scrape the skin on my shoulder as he drove into me faster than any human ever could. His hand moved between us and started to rub my clit.

"Jasper, I'm so close, baby. I'm gonna cum again," I cried out to him in between panting breaths.

"Do it, Bella. Let go," he instructed. "I love you." As soon as the words were out of his mouth, I felt my orgasm rip through my body. My eyes rolled back into my head and my toes curled as I crashed my hips against his washed over him. Jasper didn't stop his thrusting. Instead, he started moving with more urgency.

Jasper's hand snaked around my left leg and pulled it up to rest over his shoulder. I screamed out his name at the new feeling of pulling him deeper inside me. I could still feel tingles on my body from my release when Jasper started rubbing my clit with more force. He plunged into me further and stopped to look down at my face. I smiled up at him before leaning forward to pull him into another lustful kiss.

Jasper took this response as a sign of approval and thrust into me again, deeper and harder than before. He became erratically fast, sliding in and out of me, filling me. His hands were on my hips now, pulling me onto him with every movement of his hips. When his mouth moved down to suck on my nipple, I felt another orgasm building up in me and knew that Jasper felt it too.

His eyes were darkening, showing me that he was close. Lust was overcoming both of our bodies, now glistening with a layer of sweat. "Bella," he growled, "I'm almost there. Cum with me, darling. Let me feel you cum again." His voice was muffled, his lips pressed against my chest. He was trying to hold back his thirst, his animal instincts. I reached down between us and cupped his balls in my hand, wanting him to feel as satisfied as I was.

His head snapped up and our eyes locked again. Without warning, his lips were on mine again, his tongue thrusting deep into my mouth, eliciting loud moans from me. He pumped into faster, harder. With each movement inside me, I felt him graze my clit, sending shivers through my body. As he bit down on my lips, another jolt of lust was sent through us and we both fell over the edge into a blissful state.

"Oh, God, Jasper!" I screamed his name again as I felt my walls contracting against him. I heard Jasper grunt my name when he came inside me. He kept up slow, soft thrusting until I was able to calm my breathing and I stopped shaking from my orgasm. Falling against me, Jasper wrapped his arms around, tucking me into his chest, never leaving my body.

"Bella," he whispered against my lips. "Bella, Bella, Bella," he repeated my name.

"Yes, Jasper?" I teased as my fingers played with the locks of his curly hair. I clenched myself around his semi-hard cock, eliciting a hiss from his lips.

"You are absolutely amazing, darling," he told me, dropping another kiss to my neck. "That was the most amazing experience of my entire existence," he vowed.

"Mine, too, honey," I said. I snuggled closer to his chest, leaving my legs wrapped around him, not wanting to be separated from him just yet. I knew that a time was coming when I would have no choice but to be apart from him, and I wasn't ready to deal with the harsh reality of our life yet.

"You should get some sleep, sweetheart," he advised as he shifted our bodies so that I was lying on top of him, still connected.

"You're right. I do need to get some sleep, because I'm going to want to do that again before I have to go to school in the morning." I smiled against his chest, feeling him hardening inside me before I drifted off into a content sleep, utterly exhausted by our lovemaking but also completely satiated.