A/N: Hi people!! I know I tell you every time, but I'm sorry it took me so long to get this chapter up… hope you're not too mad at me!

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Anyways, here is chapter five, I hope you like it and let me know what you think about it!!!

Disclaimer: no I am not Stephenie Meyer, nor do I own the characters in here…

Chapter Five

"Bells, I'm sorry but I can't stay for long, we smelled some leeches near here and –", he stopped in mid-sentence when he saw who was next to me.

His eyes narrowed. "Cullen?"

"Jacob, listen…" I started, but he cut me off and directed a question to Alice.

"What are you doing here?"

"Talking to my best friend", she replied as he laughed coldly.

"The same best friend you abandoned months ago?"

"That was a mistake," she retorted.

"A mistake? You nearly killed her!" he growled, his body trembling with anger.

I bit down on my lip nervously, glancing at the two of them. Alice had risen to her feet, snarling and Jacob was shaking violently.

"Let me guess," he drawled, "he's here too, isn't he? It took him months to realize what he had lost! And now he's come to ruin her life all over again!"

"Shut up dog! You know nothing about what my brother's been through!"

"Stop it! Both of you!!" I hissed. This was getting too dangerous.

They looked at me and then glared at each other again; after a few seconds, Alice sat down on my bed again, while Jacob concentrated on trying to regain his control.

"Alice, I'd like to speak to Jake; I'll let you know if I'm coming," I said softly as she smiled apologetically towards me.

"I'll keep an eye out for your future Bella…" she replied, and with a swift movement, she reached towards the window and jumped out.

Jacob was giving me a look I couldn't decipher.

"What?" I asked.

"You'll let her know if you're going? Going where exactly Bella?"

Here we go…

"Alice came here to ask me to go talk to Ed-him", I explained slowly, hoping with everything I had that he wouldn't hate me.

"You're joking," he snapped, leaving no room for disagreements.

I shook my head no, staring intently at my feet while I could feel a light blush color my cheeks.

Jacob snorted, shaking his head in disbelief. "He left you Bella. He left you hurting for months. You can't even say his name without breaking down, and you want to go and talk to him?"

I couldn't doubt that what he'd said was true. Every word of it was nothing but the truth, and I turned away from Jacob, burying my head in my lap. I didn't know what to do with my life.

All of a sudden I felt his arms wrap tightly around me.

"I'm sorry Bells, I didn't mean to say those things to you", he murmured gently, kissing the top of my head. "Don't cry, please?"

He wiped my tears away with the back of his hands.

"It's just that…" he trailed off, struggling to find the right words.

"Yes?" I whispered, urging him to continue.

He sighed, running his hand through his hair in frustration, and in one effortless movement, he sat me on my desk, forcing me to look at him.

"Bells, please don't go", he whispered.

"Jake, I need this, I have to talk to him", I pleaded.

"He hurt you Bells. He nearly destroyed you when he left, and he could so easily do it again. And yet you want to talk to him?"

"I need to know," I whispered, looking down to avoid his gaze, "why… he left."

"You already know," he said softly. "He didn't want to play human anymore. I guess he finally realized that if he stayed, in the end he would kill you."

"Jake, please."

"No! It's too dangerous!"

"That's not true! –"

"Yes it is! He could lose control any second and kill you! I'm not going to let you risk your life."

I couldn't stop the tears from pouring down my face. "Please, Jake. It's important for me."

He looked away, staring at the wall above my head, pondering what I had just said. After what seemed like an eternity, he closed his eyes.

"Why are you doing this to me Bells?" he whispered. "Why?"

A single tear ran down his cheek and I wiped it away with my hand.

"Jacob…", I started, but he interrupted me, a second tear running down his other cheek.

"Bells," he said brokenly, "please don't leave me. Please," he begged, tightening his arms around me. "What would I do without you? I need you. J-Just don't leave me… not for him. Please."

I stared at him for a long moment.

"Is that what you're afraid of? That I'll leave you?"

"You've been mourning over him for months," Jake pointed out gently, resting his palm against my cheek. "Bells, he's what you want."

"Jake…" I whispered. "Is that what you think?"

He opened his eyes, looking at me for a moment, and then closed them again.

"Yes, that's exactly what I think."

"Jake, don't…"

"Don't what, Bella? Believe that you'll leave me?" his voice cracked at the end of the sentence.

"Do you have no faith in me at all?" I whispered, my hands clutching the corners of his shirt as he left my question unanswered. "I won't leave you. I promise!"

He continued to ignore me, keeping his head buried in my shoulders as if he were afraid that at any minute I would disappear.

"Jake, tell me this," I whispered against his face as he pulled back slightly, "who did I first meet when I got here? Who immediately caught my attention with his looks, his attitude, his voice?"

I could have gone on with the list, but even though his eyes were still closed, I could tell he was in pain.

"Bells…" he groaned.

"Answer me, Jacob".

"The blood-I mean… Cullen." He said the name with disgust.

"Who did I fall in love with? Who did I spend time with? Whose parents and family did I meet?"

"Cullen," he groaned, and winced, probably convinced that he was going to lose me forever. I wasn't going to let that happen.

"And who gave me anything I asked? And a prospect of life that I couldn't wait to have, with him and his wonderful family? Who promised me immortality? A non-ending life as a beautiful girl with him?"

"Cullen," he was getting paler every word I spoke.

"And who took everything from me? Who told me he didn't love me anymore, and that he was tired of me. Who called me a mistake?"

His eyes snapped open, hearing the anger and pain in my voice.

"Cullen."

"And then, who welcomed me after that, and helped me get out of my depression without a second thought, when everyone else had given up on me?"

He looked at me, hope written all over his face now that I wasn't speaking of Edward anymore.

"I did," he made it sound like a question.

"And who picked up the million little pieces my heart had broken into and slowly and patiently started putting them back together, giving me back my heart, whole and healthy again?"

"I did," he said, a bit more confident this time.

"And who made me forget my pain? And understood everything I thought or felt even though he has no super powers? Who made me happy with the simplest, littlest things, and loved me with all his heart?"

"I did."

Tears were streaming freely down the cheeks of us both by now.

"You did, Jacob Black, not him, you! You were there every time I needed you and healed the hole in my chest with your mere presence and a simple smile. All he promised me was an eternity as unchanging as stone, and I would live eternity without my friends and parents… But you gave me the possibility of a life, a human life, and to be happy, have children, grow old together, and never regret any of the choices we made." I told him, my voice soft and tender.

"But you loved him Bells… If I told you a week ago these same things you would have laughed at me or broken down crying. What made you change your mind, even now that he's here?"

"When I fell in love with him," I started slowly, looking for the right words. "It was all appearances; he was beautiful, he was mysterious… and I found him attractive while he found me interesting, because he couldn't read my mind. But when I met you nothing similar happened. You were just the cute boy whose father happened to be my father's best friend. Nothing more, but we immediately clicked together, as if two pieces of the same puzzle. We were immediately friends, and only when I got to know you better I fell in love with you. It was a more powerful thing, more than just appearance. When I saw you – and when I see you now – it's like the flow of molten rock far beneath the surface of the earth, it changes everything in its path, just like you changed me; that's why when I'm with you I feel comfortable, loved and safe… And all of this happened thanks to you."

He smiled the same smile that I had fallen in love with, the tears falling off his face no longer resembling his pain, and he swept me up into his arms as he crushed his lips against mine.

I loved Jacob, and nothing could ever change that.

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