Remus smiled weakly as Allie and Frank bid their farewells, they had all come to visit him today, well apart from Sirius, who was still angry at him, Lily hadn't been able to visit because she was having her stitches changed once more, which almost ripped his heart out itself. Everyone told him it wasn't his fault, and that Lily wasn't angry at him, but he was angry at him, and he doubted he'd forgive himself any time soon.

An hour roughly passed before the door opened, he thought it was the nurse bringing him more potions, but he saw in the semi darkness her standing in the doorway.

"You- you are such an idiot." She said softly.

"Lily?" He asked, maybe he was dreaming, but she walked forward and sat on the bed beside him, she took his hand in her own and smiled at him weakly. He snatched his hand away. "You shouldn't be here."

"Neither should you, you idiot." Lily replied softly.

"Lily I'm being serious, get out now." Remus ordered but Lily just smiled at him.

"No."

"What is wrong with you?" He demanded. "Look at what I did to you." Remus said angrily.

"You didn't do this to me; a werewolf did this to me. You forget I did third year Defence Against the Dark Arts." Lily said softly.

"This isn't the time to play cute Lily, I hurt you." Remus practically yelled at her, but she didn't flinch.

"No, Remus, a werewolf did this to me, you are completely different." Lily said. Remus was about to protest when Lily pressed her lips against his, he allowed himself only a second to memorise it before pushing her away. "Usually a boyfriend doesn't push his girlfriend away when she kisses him." Lily stated.

"It's over." Remus said. Lily looked truly shocked for a second before grabbing hold of him by the chin and forcing him to look at her.

"I haven't turned down the last opportunity to go back to Beauxbatons for you to break up with me over this, now understand this Remus Lupin, it isn't over because of this one incident, because I love you, and I want to be with you, the fact you have a problem doesn't change that in anyway." Lily hissed at him, before kissing him softly once more and smiling at him.

"You can't want to still be with me." Remus said, his eyes watering.

"I do." Lily replied. "And you want to be with me, and until the point when, if ever, we don't want to be together anymore because we just don't love each other anymore, we'll stay together." Lily stated and smiled at him once more. "Now I have to write to my dad and tell him he will under no circumstance be removing me from Hogwarts, wish me luck."

James had been about to visit Lily when she walked into Remus' room, he listened to what they said, and felt a stabbing feeling in his heart when Lily told him she still wanted to be with him. He knew it was wrong, but some little part of him had wanted them to break up. But he knew better then to trust to hope, Lily wasn't that kind of girl. And he knew it.

Sirius was glad when Lily finally returned to her work on Thursday, she came and sat beside him at lunch and smiled brightly, she was wearing a long sleeved shirt, covering up the wounds on her arms, but she assured him they looked no more then scratches, James walked into the room and sat down opposite Sirius.

"Well as Quidditch Captain, I have to figure out the team, and right about now, we won't have long other wise to sort out and get in tune." James said grumpily.

"What positions do you need to fill?" Lily asked.

"Two chasers and a keeper." James stated.

"Well I can play chaser, when are tryouts?" Lily asked, James looked up at her surprised. Sirius nearly choked.

"After everything you're going to join the Gryffindor quidditch team?" Sirius demanded. "Your dad only just let you stay here, and now you're going to join a rough sport?"

"Nothing better then getting down and dirty." Lily said teasingly, she winked at James as Sirius pulled a face, and the pair laughed.

"I didn't realise you could play." James said.

"I kinda had to; the people at Beauxbatons aren't big on Quidditch so I took the chaser position so they would have two even teams." Lily explained.

"You are just full of surprises." James laughed.

"So I am told." Lily replied grinning.

"YOU'RE BACK!" Some one screeched, Lily turned to see Mars and Allie running towards her. Not far behind was Dorcas and Sophia.

"You're not getting rid of me that easily." Lily chuckled as Mars pulled away from the bone crushing hug to kiss Sirius.

"So, erm, what about you and Remus?" Allie asked.

"We're still together." Lily told them, Allie smiled as did everyone but Sirius who frowned, but he wasn't going to say anything just yet.

Unfortunately things weren't working out exactly as Lily had intended, when Remus was released from hospital he seemed tense and up tight, he had also grown a habit of treating her like a china doll. When she got a bloody paper cut he treated it like she had lost a finger.

"Remus stop." Lily ordered as she sat down with him, it was Saturday morning, he's been out not even a day and he was starting to get to her.

"Are you alright?" Remus asked her.

"I understand you are upset over what happened last Friday, but if you continue treating me like this I am going to go mad." Lily told him.

"I..."

"Remus, I am perfectly capable of looking after myself, I'm a big girl, you don't have to worry about me." Lily told him, she kissed him softly and then smiled at him. "Unless you have work to do, do you want to hang out with me?" Lily asked.

"I think I can spare you a bit of time." Remus said teasingly, Lily smirked at him, before walking up to her dorm, when she reached her room; it was to find Remus already sitting on her bed.

"You want to know what I've missed?" Lily asked as she let her jacket fall to the floor.

"What?" Remus asked as Lily walked towards him, she smirked and pushed him so he was lying down on the bed, his legs hanging over the edge, she climbed on top of him and kissed him deeply, stroking his tongue with her own. She pulled his shirt up over his head and kissed and nibbled at every bit of skin she could get to. Remus gasped as she ran her tongue around his belly button. He pulled her up to him and rolled over so he was on top. Lily smirked up at him as he lifted her top up, he kissed her deeply, throwing the material to the floor, he slowly ran his hands up her arms, and then froze. He pulled away from Lily and stared at her, she looked back confused.

"I- I did that?" Remus asked looking horrified at the scars on her upper arms.

"Remus they aren't bad, it just looks a bit like I've caught my arms on something." Lily tried to convince him.

"I-I... No Lily, I can't do this, not when I know I did that to you." Remus said, he picked his top up off the floor and shoved it over his head, running out of the room, Lily grabbed the nearest top and threw it over her head, chasing after him.

"No Remus! Don't do this!" Lily shouted after him, he ran up the boys stair case, and Lily followed. "Remus!" Lily shouted, he ran into his room and slammed the door shut. Lily reached the door and banged on it loudly. "Remus let me in! Let's talk about this!" Lily called through the door; she knew he was leaning against the door. She kicked it hard with her barefoot and cursed loudly. "Damnit Remus! We haven't gone through all this for you to back out now!" She kicked the door again, her eyes started welling with tears, not at the pain, but because she honestly did realise this was it for them. "Remus! Please!" Lily begged, tears falling slowly down her pale cheeks. "Don't do this to me!" She whispered, she leant against the door and sobbed. "Please Remus!" Her heart was breaking, why wouldn't he just listen to her. "I don't care about the scars!" She sobbed. "I care about you!"

Beside her James suddenly appeared, he shook his head and led Lily away from the door, he walked her down to the common room and made her wait on the sofa.

James walked back up to the Boys dorms and forced the door open, flinging Remus aside.

"I wouldn't usually say anything Remus but this is ridiculous!" James snarled. "I'm mad about Lily! Every bloody thought is about her! And now I watch as she tried to convince you to love her back! Remus you are putting her through hell!" He grabbed hold of Remus by the collar and shook him violently. "You are going to wait here! She is going to come back up and you will talk to her! If I see even one more tear fall from her eyes because of you, I swear I will beat the shit out of you!" James snarled. "DAMNIT! Why can't you see what you've got?"

"James, I'll only end up hurting her. You know that as well as I do." Remus said. "I can't be a proper boyfriend."

"Then why even put her through all this in the first place?" James asked. Remus looked away from his friend who shook his head. "You don't care about her enough, or you'd be trying to work this through."

"I care too much, that's why I have to stay away." Remus said.

"I'm only ever going to ask you this once. Try and work it through with her, if only to make her happy."