Finally I've found the motivation to post this. Sorry I know it's been long ^^'

"Mother Confessor, we have a problem. The alliance we made with the towns around Aydindril, we can't continue like that. It was not a good idea."

All the Council was here around the endless table, which was something that rarely happened and clearly wasn't a good sign.

"Well, you can't say that was my idea, I was with the Seeker when you took that decision."

"I know, but we don't have enough money to support them and they always want more. We can't do this anymore."

"But we need to do it; we need to show them they can rely on Aydindril."

"That's exactly what we're telling you Mother Confessor, they're nothing to rely on for now. The best solution is to break the alliance."

They all agreed with that and Kahlan just couldn't believe it. Aydindril had always been an important place where you could find shelter and peace. It was out of question for her to let them down.

"You can't seriously say that!"

"We won't make it. We should at least..."

"No! We will be here for them." Kahlan cut him off.

"I'm sorry Mother Confessor but like you said, you weren't here at that time. This is not your decision."

"Now I came back and I'm the one who takes decisions."

Kahlan felt both angry and helpless. It was all out of control and she couldn't do anything."

"It's useless Mother Confessor." said another old man. "A message had already been sent to them."

"What?! When?! And why didn't anyone tell me?"

"The Council is more powerful since it had to be independent. Aydindril needed to be ruled."

"I know that, but it is not necessary anymore." She paused for a while and looked at them silently. She wished she couldn't read their minds. "I see, I'm not good enough for you. Or maybe you got too attached to your political powers. Do you think I'm foolish enough to see the money's not the problem? Well not the only one I mean. I know what's happening, they want to be more powerful in this alliance. And they're perfectly right. You can't create an alliance only to submit and use your allies. Now tell me, how many other stupid things did you do while I was away? Because create that kind of alliance was a bad idea from the start! Now we're nothing more than cowards to them.

"We don't know yet what they will say."

So much tension is this big room. Everyone against her. Kahlan rolled her eyes.

"I can't believe you're so incompetent. We're supposed to be a great city. But you made promises you can't keep. Besides, can anyone tell me why this alliance had been made?"

"Times are tough." Someone finally said. "The war with D'Hara had a cost and since we protected them they agreed to give us money."

"You protected them because it is what Aydindril is supposed to do! You can't make them buy your protection. So you wanted them to be here for us but when they need you, you just break the alliance. Yes there are problems here but it is worst over there."

"We don't have the choice. We're not happy either."

"They suffer from this crisis at least as much as us. Creator, I'm wasting my time with you."

It was all so wrong. How could Aydindril be in such a desperate situation? Two years ago, when she left it wasn't as bad as this. And there was the war at that time. She just left them, she couldn't take it anymore. What could she do now? The alliance was already broken anyway.

Kahlan passed Cara in the corridor, but she barely saw her. Cara expected her to stop but she didn't. She kept walking through the corridor. The Mord'Sith never saw her like that. And she had never hear "fucking bastards" from her before.

'I'm definitely a bad influence for her. I'm sure she's never said those words before we met. It sounds really bad from her sweet innocent little mouth.' Cara sighed and swore she would make things right. She won't be rude in front of her ever again.

Cara was lost in her thoughts when she heard a door being slammed violently. She had been thinking about how bad it sounded but now she realized thinking about "why" would be more appropriate. The blonde took a deep breath and started to think again.

'Alright, so she's angry. Is it because of me? Did I go too far? Last time I saw her she wasn't like this, and I left Liam and Josh soon after I came back. No, I didn't do anything wrong. Maybe this is something else. I've done something I thought was good but it wasn't. But hey, I never meant to hurt her and she must know that! Well I'm clearly the problem since she ignored me. What did I do? Come on Cara, think!'

For a few minutes she tried to find what was wrong with her or what she might have done wrong until she finally recalled her words. She said 'bastards'. Cara needed to know who she was talking about. And then she would kick their asses!

'Oh Creator I miss that! Kicking asses... Kahlan don't want me to do it here in Aydindril, too bad.'

"Kahlan what's wrong?" Cara asked after she opened the door. She froze when she saw Kahlan picking her stuff and throwing it in a bag. "You're not seriously leaving, are you?"

"Yes I am. They don't need me anyway!" Kahlan shouted.

"What happened?"

"Nothing. Nothing happened since I can't even decide what we should do."

"Hey Kahlan, calm down..." Cara said, grabbing the brunette's arm only to be pushed away forcefully, which surprised Cara.

"Don't you DARE tell me what I'm supposed to do. We're leaving, there's nothing else to say."

"I'm not leaving."

For the first time Kahlan stopped what she was doing and looked at the Mord'Sith. At first there was incomprehension on her face, but then it was replaced by angst again.

"Then stay here."

"And you're going to stay here with me!"

This time Cara wrapped her arms around Kahlan so tightly that she couldn't move.

"Let me go! Why are you doing this?!"

Kahlan had stopped to fight against Cara and against her own emotions. Tears ran down her cheeks and she buried her head in Cara's neck.

"If you leave now you will regret it. This is your home Kahlan. People here needs you, you can't just leave."

"You don't get it Cara, I am the worst Confessor ever."

"Yeah? So what?"

That wasn't the answer Kahlan expected from her. She needed support now and she had hoped Cara could give it to her.

"So you think it too?"

"What do you want me to think? I don't even know the other Confessors that had ruled Aydindril. So, let's say you're the worst Mother Confessor of all time, it doesn't mean what you're doing is bad. Trust me Kahlan you're pretty good at what you do. If others were better then fine, it's good for Aydindril. But now they will have to do with my wonderful Confessor."

As she talked, Cara could feel Kahlan's muscles relax under her arms.

"Cara please, I just want to leave this place." Kahlan whispered.

"No this is not what you want, you're just angry but it'll pass. Damn Kahlan, Aydindril is yours!"

"My Councilors take decisions without my consent because they don't trust me."

"So here are the fucking bastards..." Cara said slightly.

"If we leave there wouldn't be any problem between us."

"Because there are problems between us?" Cara made her sit on the bed. Her cheeks were so wet. Cara tried to wipe those tears with her thumb.

"There is David. And maybe Liam..."

"Liam... I don't know how yet but I'm going to kill this man."

"Really?" Kahlan's smile was back. A small smile, but definitely a smile. "Let me guess, he said there was someone in this world better than you."

"I didn't know you were spying me that much confessor!" she raised an eyebrow with a smile.

"He did?! Aaw I can't believe it!"

It was quite ridiculous, Kahlan knew it, but the Confessor found that so funny that even her problems couldn't prevent her from laughing.

"He talked about you. And he's entirely right, that's not the problem."

"So what did he do that could upset you like that?"

"He said, without your magical powers he would have make you his. You turn him on so badly!"

"And you would kill him for that? I think this is flattering..."

"No impure thoughts about my girl!"

"Cara I thought you didn't like Aydindril and all that it implied." Kahlan was serious again. Honestly she couldn't laugh for a long time since this situation was upsetting her too much.

"I can't say I love Aydindril. It would be a lie, we both know that." Cara paused a second to kiss the cheek of the blue-eyed Confessor. "But I don't hate it either. Leaving sounds good actually, but for us only, not for them. I noticed some people blame you for not being here before. They don't realize you saved their lives. They are fools and I understand you can be upset. However, I think the best way for you to get revenge is to show them they're wrong about you. Would you really run away, letting them think they are right?"

"I admit it may be a bit stupid. But I thought that if we left, we wouldn't have to worry about those things. What they think, what they do and what happens to them."

"Just fire your councilors."

"I can't." Kahlan said almost in a whisper.

"Of course you can, you're the Mother Confessor!"

"Technically I can but it is a big decision. I will need a new Council and..."

"Or you can just confess them, even if we both don't want that."

"You don't? Since when do you care about them?" Kahlan looked surprised, but Cara even more just knowing Kahlan could think that.

"Of course I don't! I don't want to see plenty of people calling you Mistress!"

"Alright I'll change the council. But it will take time. It hadn't been done for centuries."

"I don't have much experience in all this but I think you should do it a bit more in the Darken Rahl's way."

"Wait, can you just repeat this? I must have misunderstood you."

"No you got me right. Your councilors have too much power. Take it back. Actually if you do that you won't have to change the Council."

"I can't work with people who don't trust me."

"A lot of people believe in you. They see in you what others don't. Liam said it earlier, you're closer to your people than any Confessor before you. And the reason why you're closer is that you saw misery, poverty and helpless people destroyed by wars."

"That is a thing I'm afraid they don't understand. They think Aydindril should stop to help other because we are in a crisis too. But they can't even imagine what it's like out there. Maybe I should go and tell them that wasn't my idea so the alliance can't be broken."

"Oh no Kahlan, you're not going anywhere."

"But this is not what I want!"

"And what do you want?"

"I want Aydindril to be a great city again."

"It will, for sure. You will recreate this alliance. And everyone will know the Council was wrong, it wasn't your mistake, and you just fixed it."

"This is so humiliating. I can't do what I'm supposed to do. Why am I here if I can't do anything?"

"Don't worry, we're going to make sure they won't humiliate you again." Cara gently kissed her forehead. Though she wasn't crying anymore, her cheeks were still wet.

"So? What are we going to do?"

"First, I'm going to kill them." Cara said, kidding though it wouldn't have bothered her. As expected, Kahlan giggled.

"And then?"

"Then we'll talk. But maybe we should give them another chance. They are just stupid after all."

"Another chance? No, I don't want to work with them anymore."

"Who talked about work? I meant a chance to stay alive. I won't kill them."

"Would you if I asked you to? Kill them I mean." Kahlan asked slowly. If Cara didn't know her, she wouldn't be able to tell if she was serious or not. But Kahlan was the kind of people that can't hurt people just for fun or revenge. That kind of people Cara could have been.

"One word and it's done. But you can do it by yourself. Oh yeah I forgot, your conscience always says no."

"You're right. And it's too bad."

"And what if someone kills me? What would you do?"

"What would I do? Con Dar for the rest of my life, definitely! But don't let anyone kills you! That's an order from the Mother Confessor."

"Don't worry about that. And just so you know, orders from Kahlan Amnell mean much more too me than from the Mother Confessor. And, even you, the Mother Confessor – my greatest weakness, you didn't succeed to confess me."

"Yes and this is still a mystery. Because I don't believe in the 'I love you too much to die' theory."

"And why's that?" Cara asked though she didn't believe it too.

"Because everyone in this world loves. Still people dies. My mum died and I know she loved me and Denee. She knew what would happen next for us but death isn't a choice."

"Well I don't have the answer either. If I knew from the start I was immune to your magic, we would have been in this situation long ago."

"How long exactly? When did you start to feel something for me?"

"I'm not sure exactly when, but the day you gave me another chance I felt the same thing towards you that before with Darken Rahl. Loyalty, I would have given my life for you. The difference was it was my own choice. In all of this, you were the one I've always kept an eye on. But I couldn't say anything so I just pretended I was protecting Lord Rahl."

"Just because I didn't confess you?"

"No one would have done that. Everyone hates Mord'Sith."

"If it wasn't for Richard I would have killed you, you know that."

"Yes. But you won the game, my life was yours and you didn't kill me in the end. And I know you also hated me because you were jealous. You were scared that something could happen between me and Richard." Cara started to laugh.

"Ridiculous!" Kahlan blushed a bit.

"Yes, it was ridiculous to think such thing. In fact, you should have feared what was going to happen between a Mord'Sith and a Confessor."

"There's absolutely nothing to fear."

Kahlan gently kiss the blonde's lips, and then her cheek, and then her neck. Cara closed her eyes in pleasure before she pushed Kahlan's back on the bed.

"So, about your councilors..." Cara began, but Kahlan put a finger on her mouth.

"Shut up." she whispered. "We'll talk later." Kahlan pushed gently Cara on her back.

"Sounds good. But you are the Mother Confessor, you have responsibilities. We can't just do this because something bad happened."

Cara sat again on the bed. Kahlan sighed and did the same.

"No please Cara tell me you didn't just say that. You're being too reasonable and I don't like it. Can you be a bit more like a Mord'Sith for me? You used to be selfish before we got here. You wouldn't have let me go, pushing me away like this."

"I'm not letting you go Kahlan. Never. It's just I thought you wanted me to be more like this."

"I wish you were a bit more like the Cara Mason I've met. Doing things I find stupid and sometimes childish."

"Like what? I'm not childish!" the blonde protested.

"Like being tough with people. Challenging them and making them hate you. Acting like nothing matters but you."

"But now there's you. I don't care about myself anymore now that you're here. I have to be worthy of the Mother Confessor."

"Do me a favor, don't be. Don't be worthy of the Mother Confessor. Be worthy of my love, my wants and me, Kahlan Amnell. I want you to be my way out."

Kahlan grabbed her hands and made Cara sit on her knees. Cara put an arm around her neck and kissed her hair. Then she stroked her cheek slowly to comfort her.

"I'm sorry Kahlan."

"For what?" Kahlan said as she buried her head in the warm neck Cara was offering her.

"I didn't notice, and I should have. I have been stupid to think it was better if I changed who I am for you. Truth is, the Mother Confessor is the most important person in the world. Well, maybe not the most but one of the most. And it was impressive for me to be loved by you. It's like I was loved by Lord Rahl."

"What?! You want Richard to..." Kahlan suddenly left the warm place to look into the two green eyes.

"No of course not! I meant for Mord'Sith that is an honor that even in our wildest dreams we don't dare to think of it."

"I'm no Rahl or anyone you have to be impressed by because of my rank. This is not what I want."

"I know, I understand. I'm sorry I failed you. But I know what I have to do know, don't worry. I'll be the Cara you want me to be. I'll try at least. Mord'Sith are not allowed to be themselves."

"What about this last year with us? Didn't it feel like you were yourself?"

"Actually it felt like I was losing my mind, falling for the Mother Confessor. Being hurt by a stupid thing called love. I felt lost and angry at myself. That was my daily life."

"Didn't looked like that."

"I'm a pretty good liar. It was weird anyway, maybe I've kind of liked it. Without this, I think I wouldn't love you that much. The more I saw you with Richard, the more my wish to possess you grew up."

"It'll come. Even if you don't know it, it's pretty simple to be yourself."

"Especially if you're here to remind me this. But what about your sister? If I'm going to be the bad girl you want me to be-" Cara started but was cut off.

"I've never said bad girl!" The Confessor laughed a bit.

"True. You said it in another way. But it's all the same in the end. So, as I was saying, you're sister is going to hate me, isn't she?"

"I guess you're right. She's the one who wants you to be worthy of the Mother Confessor. I don't want her to hate you, or me."

"We've been through a lot of things lately, we're going to get over this too, don't you think? After all, she loves you. Not even me would change that. She'll accept me, whatever I am. She'll do it for you."

"I'm not so sure. And she'll talk."

"Come on Kahlan, she won't do anything that could hurt you."

"You killed her, I'm not sure she forgave you."

"Actually I'm sure she didn't. She won't. You know what, I think we should just wait and see what will happen."

"I know what is going to happen; Denee will make sure my love for you gets weaker. So you're out of here and I'm still with her, being the good Mother Confessor."

"I must say I'm impatient to see that. You and me, even if it's us against the world, we can't lose." Cara said.

"Here, you're being yourself." Kahlan smiled. "Us against the world, right? I'm not sure we're as invincible as you think. We're only humans. And this thing between us isn't untouchable."

"Do you have doubts? Do you think this is all wrong?"

"No, this is not what I'm saying. It's just I don't think it's 'me and you forever no matter what'. Actually I'm scared to lose you. I always ask myself what if I'm not good enough? I want to fight for you so that you stay mine. Every day, from dawn to nightfall, I want to please you."

"If you fight, then I'm going to fight too. I didn't plan to let anyone else come into your heart anyway."

"You're taking too much space in my heart actually. I'm going to go back now, thanks for the support, it helped a lot. Running away would have been stupid."

"You're welcome Confessor. But give me one last kiss or I kidnap you!"

"Don't be so tempting Cara."

"I thought you wanted me to be more Cara."

The Mord'Sith wrapped her arms around Kahlan's waist and pressed her body against hers.

"You want more than a kiss, don't you?"

"What makes you think that?" Cara whispered.

"Your hands I guess. You don't need to undress me to kiss me. But you are the one who said I have better things to do. So here is your kiss, and I'll see you later."

Despite what she said, Kahlan couldn't help but stay close to Cara. Her hand couldn't let go of Cara's.

"How long do I have to wait for you? Tell me they didn't plan to keep you too long tonight. Because tonight, I'll show you some Cara Mason things."

"Can't wait to see that."

Before Kahlan could reach the door, Cara spoke again.

"Kahlan, I forgot to tell you something... don't say 'fucking bastards' again, it sounds bad from you."

"And why would you have the right to say it and not me?"

"Well, because there's nothing we can do for my soul but yours is still pure. Actually it's what we call balance."

"And what happen to the balance if I stopped to be pure?"

"We'll never know since it's is not going to happen. Never."

"We'll see..." Kahlan said almost in a whisper with a teasing tone.

"Go back to work Mother Confessor!" Cara threw her a pillow.

A last glance and Kahlan disappeared behind the door. Cara couldn't believe she had made her change her mind. Leaving Aydindril sounded very good to her. She wished deep inside that they could have just left this place and lived a normal life. But this decision wasn't a good one. And it would have bothered her to hear people say Kahlan Amnell is definitely the worst Confessor.