Chapter Four: Noah
"Edward? Why don't you come with us?"
I can't.
I've tried, God knows I've tried so hard to go with you but there is something keeping me here.
"She has your eyes, Ed."
My eyes…Nina!
Is she the reason I'm here?
"Yes…"
But I…I don't want to be here…I want to be with you…
"I'm sorry…"
No…I'm sorry…sorry for letting you die!
I couldn't save you! I couldn't stop you from dieing!
"It is not your fault, all that matters is that you came back…came back to me."
Back to you…
"When will you let yourself forgive?"
I can't!
I can't forgive myself for letting you die, for not protecting you when I once promised I would!
"Do you cry for me, Edward? Do you love me or was I only a substitute for someone else?"
Is that what you think? That I never loved you?
I did, I still do love you! I sleep with tears in my eyes as I dream of you and our life together. You were never a substitute for anyone…you…you are the first woman I have ever loved, can't you see that!
"And that woman? The woman you call out to in your dreams?"
Winry?
It's true that I once cared for her, more than a friend should,yet...I was never in love with her.
I can't take this anymore!
Everyday I live with the fact that you're gone. Isn't enough that my heart suffers and cries for you! Oh, my dear wife Noah! When will we be together again? I can feel your arms holding me close to you. I can feel your tears as they fall and hit my face.
"Soon my love,soon. I promise..."
Soon?
What can I do? To make time go faster in order to see you again?
"Love. You must let your heart love again. Promise me?"
How can I love any one else?
"You can, Edward, you just have to let yourself love."
But...
"Our daugther needs you. I won't be there to help her when the time comes, and neither will you, if you continue this way. Don't you see that you are not only hurting yourself, your are hurting Nina and everyone around you. Your brother, Mustang, Winry, and that woman Rose. You promised me that you would be there for Nina, promise me that you'll try, Ed. You try to love again...please?"
It'll be hard.
I promise. I'll be there for Nina. I will try to love another until the day you and I are together again. I promise you.
"Thank you."
Noah?
Knock Knock
"Ed? Breakfast is ready?"
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Sorry it took me a long long time to update but here you are chapter four. If anyone is confused just say so and I'll try to explain. Thank you and enjoy!