Chapter Seven: Winry's Jealousy
It is not fair! None of it is!
I was the one who always waited for Ed to return home. I was the one who worried when he and Al were off doing something stupid and dangerous and I was the one who shared a childhood with them and I was the one who loved him with all my heart, and for a time, I thought he loved me too.
So then how did he every fall in love with someone else? And have a child with her too? Don't get me wrong, Nina is a beautiful and wonderful girl, who is growing bigger, everyday and she's very curious for a two month old baby. But it is not her that I am jealousy of, no it is her mother's memory.
It pained me to hear Ed talk about Noah in such a loving way. His eyes would glaze over with sadness and pain as he told us how they spend their final moments together. His face would go into a smirk as he recalled how he saved her using some kind of rocket thing. I could see the love he held for he whenever he looked at Nina.
That is when I realized, that he never loved me the way he did Noah and he never will. And that is why I am jealous and hurt at Noah's memory, of her love, and of her hold on Edward's heart.
Even if Ed would recover from his sadness and pain, no one would compare with Noah's love and no one will ever possess his heart like she did.
And then there is Rose.
Rose was also saved by Ed not once but twice and I can tell that she means a lot to him. Back when I first met her in Central when she was caring Al, Wrath, and her baby, and told me what happened. Ed dancing with her, Ed dieing, Al bringing him back, and then Ed asking her to take Wrath and Al back to the surface, and how he transmuted himself to save Al, and then how he just vanished.
I am angry that she is the one who is opening Ed's heart, making him smile, laugh and helping taking care of Nina.
A few days after Ed returned, I overheard him telling Rose that she reminded him of Noah and that had hurt me more than anything.
For if Ed ever let his heart love again and the memory of Noah is less painful, I know that he will turn to Rose and that he will begin to love her, just as Noah wanted and that I was further away from Ed's heart.
Yes he loved me as a friend, even as a sister, but never as a lover.