Kendall and I drove in silence for 45 min. I just stared out the window at the snow on the ground. It was still awkward, I knew he wanted this to be easy for me. The thought of losing my grandpa... no my best friend... he, besides Camille, was the only one that knew I'm bisexual. He accepted me with open arms. Thinking back to losing him, I let a single tear fall. Kendall seen me and grabbed my hand.

"Logan its ok to cry if you want"

"why there's nothing to cry for he's ok he will make it" I tried to lie to myself and Kendall. He just gave me a week smile as we pulled into the hospital parking lot. I got off and ran inside with Kendall right behind me. I stopped at the front desk.

"Hi im here for Hortense Mitchell" I told the lady

"Yes he is in room 203" she said smiling I gave her a fake on in return and me and Kendall ran down the hall.

I seen my parents and siblings along with my aunt and cousins outside of the room I ran to them and hugged them in a group hug. I fulled away and sighed walking in slowly. I opened the door and seen him in the bed with machine hooked up to him. I fought back tears and smiled.

"Hey" I said softly

"Hey horty. Happy birthday" he told me weakly

"Thanks for waiting for me"

"I wouldn't leave without saying good bye"

"No. Not good bye, just ill see you later" I told him holding back a sob

"I've missed you" he said

"I've missed you too. I'm sorry I didn't come see you sooner."

"Is your father here"

"Everyone outside" I told him

"I love you Hortence"

"I love you too" I hugged him, Just see him made tears just fall down my cheeks

"Don't cry for me ill see you all one day"

I nodded not wanting to let go. He was like a best friend to me. Sure as I got older I drifted a way a bit but he still knows me better then anyone else.

He looked up and said "I can see gods face." He paused. I lifted my head and looked at him. "This is my temporary home, its not were I belong, windows and rooms that im passing through. This was just a stop to were im going, and Im not afraid because I know this was my temporary home" he said well the others came in. He looked at me one last time then to the other's and closed his eyes. Thats when the heart rate screen flat lined. We all know there was nothing we could do

I got up and ran out to the waiting room and fell into a chair. I just let go and tears streamed down my face. Kendall came and sat next to me. He pulled me into a hug.

"It's gunna be logie. It will." He said as he rubbed my back. I just kept sobbing into his jacket. My heart was hurting and all I wanted was for the pain to go away.

- A Sudden Change-

These last two weeks have been hell to me, the only thing that has made me happy was Kendall. He has comforted me through this hard time. We have not talked about the party since that morning and im glad.

Last week we went through all my grandpa's thing he has at his house. We found old pictures of him and grandma with my dad and aunt Nancy as a little kid. My dad had told us stories of all the times they had, like when he took them to Niagara Falls and when he built them a tree house in his back yard. All these stories made me remember all the times we had when I stayed during the summer. It was making me to sad. I got up and walked out the room. I had walked into his room and found a little present bag. I read the tag and seen it was for me. I opened it and seen a letter in there, that read

"My dearest grandson, I am happy to see you love to be 18. I feel my time is near, But I want you to always remember me with this gift. I love you always. take care of your father, Mother, brother and sister."

Love grandpa

I opened it and pulled out a watch, it had an engraving that read 'Hortence Logan Mitchell'

I started to cry, this was his favorite watch. My grandma gave it to him when they got married. He always said I would get it for my wedding. I guess now is better.

We were at the cemetery were my grandpa's preacher was giving a nice sermon about him and his life. Seeing him, knowing this was it, the last time I would see him. After that my dad said some words about him. They lowered him into the grave. I grabbed a hand full of dirt and through it in. All my friends were the there. They really helped me out a lot I would be nothing without them.

We went to a little hall down the street for a small party in honor of him. It was about half way through the party I seen Kendall I really wanted to talk to him. I walked up to him "can we talk in private?"

"Ya lets go to the garden out back" he said

we walked out back and sat on a bench by some roses and a pond with ducks In it.

"So what did you want to talk about?" Kendall asked

"About the other night, so did you really sleep with me because you wanted to?"

"Yes. truth is..." he hesitated a little looking down. "I've been in love with you for a long time."

He continued to look down "why didn't you tell me?"

"I thought you would hate me if I did" he said almost sad

I lifted his chin so he was looking at me "I don't hate you, I love you too. you're my best friend and truth is, I've wanted you for so long"

we looked at each other for a while then I leaned in and captured his lips with mine he didn't move at first but then quickly moved with me. I thrust my tongue into his mouth when the kiss became heated. I mapped his mouth out with my tongue and he let out a moan. We pulled away when someone cleared there throat. We looked up and seen Dak, James, Carlos, Lucy and Camille standing there with grins on there faces.

"Bout time" dak said

"Wait, what? You knew?"

"Ya Camille told us"

I glared at her "Sorry I had to tell"

"So what does that make you?" James asked

"Ya" Carlos agreed with him

"I don't know? Kendall do you want to be my boyfriend?" I asked with hope in my eyes

"Hummmmmm I don't know..." he acted like he was thinking "YES!" he yelled. I grabbed him and kissed him one more time. I was once again happy