I do not own any of the South of Nowhere characters nor do I own the lyrics from the songs Flames by Vast and Amazing by Alex Lloyd

"Sex is more than an act of pleasure, its' the ability to be able to feel so close to a person, so connected, so comfortable that it's almost breathtaking to the point you feel you can't take it. And at this moment you're a part of them."

Three Months Later...

Ashley's POV

These past three months have been impossible. I mean Spence has been totally amazing with the fact that through everything she has been the one to stand by me, even when my own mother wouldn't. The only thing that's been impossible is that I've been as horny as fuck and haven't been able to do anything about it, for the past three months I haven't even been able to pleasure myself. This goes way beyond the point of frustration and she doesn't know it yet but the doctor told me I can do almost everything now, he hinted at me having a boyfriend and then winked so I guess its okay for me now to have sex.

I know I may seem like I'm sex obsessed but nobody can even begin to understand how I felt that night it wasn't sex to me; to be honest it wasn't even love. I can't really explain it all I know is that it felt so right, oh so right and it was that moment when our lips met and we both closed our eyes I knew that you loved me. I want our next time to be as intimate and mind blazingly as our first time, I want us to connect and feel each other within each other. I want this to be perfect especially because Spencer is the person in my life who totally gets me and has the ability of making me complete just when she gives me her smile. The night I'm planning for her won't be about sex it's about how much I want to show her how I feel because I find it really hard telling people my feelings because I don't deal very well with rejection and if I don't open up my heart and my feelings nothing gets hurt. Also she wanted to plan a night like this the night I cheated on her and she came round to surprise me and obviously she never got to carry out her plans.

I start to brainstorm and I write down the way that Spencer makes me feel and I become stuck by how I was going to portray them to her. I tried writing her a poem but I'm now on my 23rd attempt and I just can't seem to find the right words to express how I really feel. My phone vibrates and I see that it's Spencer it's her little good night message that she sends me every night saying "nigh night, sweet dreams, love you xxxxxxxxxxx" That was all I needed for a big cheesy grin to appear across my face and I fall into one of my trances where I imagine going on nice walks in the sun hand in hand seeing her blonde hair shining and her blue eyes glisten like stars, I know I may sound pathetic but it's the sort of feelings I keep to myself because apart from Spencer nobody seems to know my sensitive side.

Next day

I decide that today I'm going to go and buy the stuff I need for tonight cos I've already asked Spencer to come round mine for the night, I just told her that it's because she's having a family day and that I wanted to see her because obviously tonight plans will be a surprise. I go into a mall and all that I need for tonight is in there. I buy some rose petals, candles, and incense for my room and the table were going to eat at. I then buy some food as I'm going to attempt to cook spaghetti bolognaise for us both because the last time we had it Spencer got it all over her face and she just looked so adorable plus it's one of the only things I know how to cook. The only thing left to buy now is something for me to wear. When she comes I want to look my best because this night means a lot to me. So I look around and I spot the perfect dress its white with black butterflies and coincidentally Spencer's favourite insect is a butterfly and to be honest I look damn hot in it. So now I'm all set and I go and get ready for tonight.

Spencer's POV

Today's been a right drag don't get me wrong I love my family but a chance to spend some quality time with Ashley is the time I love most in my life. Just the chance for me to see her eyes light up, for her to hold me in her arms and to just feel whole for once makes anything bad go away and anything that's troubling my mind disappear.

I put on a denim skirt and a vest top and I head out of my door totally excited to see my Ashley. As I pull in the driveway I hear bittersweet symphony playing, it's one of my all time favourite songs. It's just one of those songs that when you close your eyes you feel so fulfilled and it's just so beautiful. Anyway I almost skip towards the front door to knock onto it and I'm greeted by Ashley who just totally blows me away. She looks so fucking hot right now and I came casual, I feel like such a twat. Her dress really enhances her breasts making them look so suckable. Thoughts running through me right now just want her all over and inside of me. Ashley grabs my waist pulls me in for a kiss, as our lips touch I push my tongue so that it's practically begging for entrance. She then pulls me of her lips, grabs me by the waist and turns me around. I now feel a piece of silk press onto my eyes blinding me and her breathing now going up a notch feels so warm as it makes my hairs stand fully erect. She then pulls me in and leads me through the door.

She sits me on a dining room chair and takes off my blindfold. I rub my eyes as I cannot believe my surroundings there are candles everywhere and a trail of rose petals leading the way to the bedroom. I then see in front of me that her glass table now has been done up just like in a restaurant, I feel my eyes start to fill up because I'm just in awe at how she must have put in so much effort into planning all this and it was all for me.

She tells me dinner will be served in a couple of minutes and I instinctively inhale breathing in the rosemary and thyme it smells so good. She comes in with two plates of food in her hand and lays one for me on the placemat in front of me and puts hers onto her placemat. She then sits down and tells me to tuck in. This food tastes just as amazing as it smells, no, wait it tastes even better than what it smells. I stop eating for a second and I ask her what all this is for and she says "you'll see". I don't know whether to feel scared right now because the only emotions that seem to be getting across are ones of pure happiness. We finish eating after some idle chit chat about my day and she sits me in the armchair that's in the living room.

She's suddenly at my face looking nervous and I just instinctively press my lips onto hers, she pulls away and I cannot hide the beam that now spread across my face, I just whisper to her that I love her. She then tells me to wait a second and she leaves to only come back a minute later with a chair and her acoustic guitar. She sits down and tells me "Spence, I know that these past few months you've been through a hell of a lot with me and having to put up with my pain and shit". She pauses and I can see her hands tremble like leaves blowing in the wind; she then takes a deep breath and carries on "I've tried so hard to write my feelings down but I haven't been able to find the right words so I was listening to my I-pod and this song says only a part of what I feel, and plus the song means a lot to me because it brings back one of the most happiest, precious memories I have, so here it goes". And she puts a song on her I-pod and pick up her guitar.

Close your eyes let me touch you now. Let me give you something that is real.

Close the door leave your fears behind; let me give you what you're giving me.

You are the only thing that makes me want to live at all, when I am with you there's no reason to pretend that when I am with you I feel flames again.

Just put me inside you I would never ever leave just put me inside you I would never ever leave you.

She was looking at me really worried now but she didn't need to be because I know she chose that song because it was the song we first made love to and she feels all those things for me. She now comes toward me and kneels down and wipes my face, I hadn't realised I'd been crying but I'd been so mesmerised by her beautiful voice that nothing but her mattered at this moment in time. Ashley then looks right into my eyes and I can feel them looking into my soul, I know this sounds so cliché but it's so true. I pull her in closer to my lips and we suddenly just connect.

This wasn't as slow as the last one; this one was more violent with pure want for each other. Her tongue circles, twists and turn in my mouth making me moan with total pleasure. She then quickly straddles my waist making my legs instinctively open giving her all the access she could want. This kissing was so damn hot it was already making me all wet; her touch just makes me want to cum for her right now. She suddenly gets up and has a big smile on her face. This isn't any old smile this is THE smile, it's my favourite and just makes me melt. She offers out her hand and I willingly accept.

As we hit the bedroom she quickly grabs the remote for her I-pod speakers and another of my favourite songs come on, it's as if she made a special playlist just for me. The song is of course Amazing by Alex Lloyd. She now turns back to me and gives me her come and get me face. I now feel like an animal as I intensely take her beautiful dress of revealing her almost naked body.

The adrenaline pumping through my veins now is immense as she tears my clothes off me. She now pushes me onto her bed and takes control. I was just so ready for her that I just kept repeatedly saying make me pant and sweat till I'm begging for more, make me cum for you Ash make me cum. Her eyes now went a shade darker and she was all over my breasts sucking and biting. Her legs are presently just below the waist so as she sucks and bites she starts to move forward and backward and forward and backward. This was making me so wet right now.

Her tongue starts to move down my body as she starts to spread my legs, my breathing was so heavy right now but at this moment all I could hear was "And I really didn't want that push today, No, I really didn't want to end this way. But the things that seem to bind us; are the things we put behind us on this day." Her tongue was now at the tip of my clit circling as she leaned in to suck.

I let out a really girly "ohhh" and she increases the impressions. I couldn't hear the music anymore, I was done with hearing all I needed was my sense of touch. All I kept thinking was "You are amazing and we did amazing things and I wouldn't change it, cause we were amazing things" and all of this right now was so true she was touching me in only the places she knew I loved to be touched and I was loving each second of it.

Suddenly her tongue slipped down trying to mop up the wetness but I was just too wet and I carried on panting with closed eyes so I could feel every touch. Right now I could feel my sore clit pulsating under her fingers as she pressed and squeezed it. My back is now as arched as it can possibly go without breaking, and I'm suddenly shaking, I must just be so close to cumming right now. I start to pant "Ash...Ash...Fuck Me Harder...Ash". She suddenly thrusts two fingers into me, I can feel them inside as I start to involuntary tighten. She now increases intensity by now thrusting in three fingers; I'm now sweating like I don't know what but it just feels so good I just don't want this to stop, not ever. I can feel her fingers pressing down inside of me making my open legs stretch even wider she now goes for four fingers and I can feel that I'm so very close to climaxing.

I now hear Ashley's sweet voice give the instruction to cum for her. She literally rams her fingers into me twisting and turning. My screams are louder, I feel so breathless right now I'm so close I can feel it all want to rush out of me. I scream for one last time and I give a big sigh of relief as I finally cum. Ashley finishes off by mopping up what I've created and then comes back up kissing my neck as I'm now recovering.

"Love is the answer, but while you are waiting for the answer sex raises some pretty good questions" – I've found my answer and she's laid right on top of me but we've also raised a whole lot of questions.

Please review and tell me what you think because I really don't know whether it's good enough. I hope you've enjoyed it cos I know I loved writing it.