A/N: I do not own...*sigh*...though Moon is mine!
MPOV
I lost track of the music once I heard Peter's remark about the Whitlock name. I took in a sharp breath quietly before staring at my drink and downing it so that I wouldn't be tempted to speak on that comment. After finishing that shot I grabbed Jasper's beer while giving him a look asking if I could. He nodded slightly so I took a long swig of his beer before setting it in front of me.
I guess Peter took note and left to get some more drinks. Once he started to walk away I caught myself staring at his backside until Bella interrupted my ogling with a cough. My attention quickly shifted to her. "You had him read them?" I hissed at her.
"Well he asked me for a new book series to read." She shrugged it off as if it were nothing big. She fucking shrugged it off! Granted I had picked the name long before I met her but still! What if he found out it was me? What would he do? Would he never want to see me again? Wait a second why do I care?
I was interrupted from my inner ranting as Peter came back to the table with a few beers in his hand. I started to go back into my own personal numb cocoon as I looked at Bella. "How about one more song then we get out of here?" She looked concerned but nodded in agreement as I took a beer and headed towards the stage. I worked my way through the smoky air not even noticing when a man grabbed at my ass. I mean who could blame him in these painted on jeans Bella forced me into. I spoke softly to the DJ and waited on stage for the song to begin.
Finally your time has come
Now's my chance to turn and run
Like I always do
I hated that I always ran. Whenever someone came around that I had any kind of attraction to I always pushed them away from me somehow.
Build a story in my head
It was love before we met
Happy, with my idea with you
That's all he was. I couldn't remember much about him but as far as I knew he was just a wonderful dream I had when I was younger.
Stay where you are
Please don't break my heart
I knew that if I actually came face to face to him he would probably break me.
Love you in my daydream
Don't open your mouth, open your mouth
Everything I'll ever need
Spoil it now, spoil it now
You stood up and I fell down
He spoiled everything! He broke me when I was a little girl. He left me right before I needed him the most!
Watching me, watching you
I know what you wanna do
But I'm afraid of my wish coming true
I am afraid…if he did come back into my life like I've always wished for…he could break me again…and actually finish the job this time…
So I paint a picture in my mind, that
I go back to older times
It's better than being with you
If I just leave him in the past and look upon it then he can't hurt me like he could in person.
Stay where you are
Please don't break my heart
Love you in my daydream
Don't open your mouth, open your mouth
Everything I'll ever need
Spoil it now, spoil it now
You stood up and I fell down
I don't know how to come down
I was lost and now I am found
You stood up and I fell down
Love you in my daydream
Don't open your mouth, open your mouth
Everything I'll ever need
Spoil it now, spoil it now
Love you in my daydream
Don't open your mouth, open your mouth
Everything I'll ever need
Spoil it now, spoil it now
Love you in my daydream
That's all he ever can be for me, a daydream, plain and simple. I was hurting. If he were to come back he would only hurt me more. So in my mind is where he should stay.
I glanced over at Bella, Peter, and Jasper only to see pained looks on all of their faces. I quickly got off stage ignoring the people with teary eyes and clapping. I made as fast of an escape as I could back to the hotel down the street. I ran to my room and locked the door refusing the world my attention.
PPOV
Her voice…it broke my non-beating heart into a million pieces. I glanced at Jasper to see his eyes glistening with venom from unshed tears. Tears none of us could shed for her. How did she become so broken? Her eyes were closed the entire time and right before the end I looked at Jasper again. He simply said, "She is hurting really bad. Right before going up, she was numb to the point of it being bad for her." He looked so heartbroken when he said that to me.
I turned my attention back to the broken woman on the stage only to see her leaving the bar. I moved to go after her when I felt two hands hold me in place. Growling at my 'family' they simply told me that she needed time by herself right now. If I could give her nothing else I could give her time. Anything she wants and she can have it!
I knew from when I met her all those years ago that she was what mattered to me. She made me whole, made me feel human again. I remember her when she was just three years old all the way until she was 17…Right before she turned 18 I made her a promise that I would be back. I had to go do a few things in order to make myself worthy of being with her. I went in search of Jasper. I changed my diet, I mastered my control, and I found the only part of my soul I could that wasn't with her. I made myself better…for her. I would do anything for that girl, but this girl that she turned into…I don't know her anymore…
Somehow we made it back to our hotel rooms while I was thinking on the past. I picked up Luna Whitlock's newest book and started reading it. This book was nothing like her others! Vampires were not something she normally wrote about let alone a romance with them. This woman, though getting certain facts wrong, wrote as if she knew vampires.
The story started with a broken girl. One, who with all her heart wished for the vampire she met when she was younger to come back to her, yet feared that he would just break her in the end. About half way through I put the book down and started to get ready for the day as I continued to think about Moon and the past we had and if there would be a future for us.
A/N: The song is Daydream by Christina Perri...please R&R