He placed both of his hands on the side of my face and kissed my lips over and over again. I felt weak at the knees, I felt nervous kissing him. I know I've kissed men before, it was my bloody job! But this just felt so right this time. His lips left mine so he could say something to me, his hands slid off of my face and I stood beside him waiting for him to say something...

"You should probably be getting back to bed Pond" he whispered

"I don't want to..." I replied

"Why not?" he asked

"Cause..."

He was waiting for an answer why does he have to always be so impatient?

"Yes? (!)" he asked, reminding me I was talking my time

"Because Rory's snoring...again" I said

"Oh tell me about it ! I can hear him almost a mile away...literally" he laughed

"But you do know why else I don't want to go to bed?" I asked him

I wasn't interested in Rory in a sexual way. It wasn't something that happened all of a sudden, it gradually happened after I met the Doctor again. I didn't mind kissing Rory. However I didn't feel love or admiration, I felt I was satisfying him and as I said before I love him, I truly do - but I'm not in love with him like I am with the Doctor.

"Don't you Doctor?" I teased

"What?" he asked with a puzzled look on his face...

God he could be so stupid at the most important times when I need him to pick up on something that turns both of us on!

"I want to stay up because..." I sighed, he still hadn't got it, all I got was raised eyebrows "Because you're here" I whispered

"Oh" he sighed. I hope that sigh was a good sigh. He never said anything, he looked to the floor for a second and I started to doubt what I had just told him.

"Is that a bad thing?" I asked

He still said nothing but stare at me and watch as my hands danced across his shoulders.

"Do you not want me to..." I grabbed one of his suspenders with my left hand and placed my other hand on his chest and looked up at him to finish my sentence. "Stay here with you?"

"I do but not with your husband sleeping down the hall" he replied

Rory! I forgotten all about him for a moment there... I was so distracted with the Doctors eyes. The first ever time I looked into those eyes was when i was only a little girl. The eyes i wanted to stare at forever and ever. I couldn't do that though, I have to accept the fact that I can't have him...I can't have the man I love, or the um..alien that I love. He proved a point though, I feel guilty already for what I've just done, I've kissed him again behind Rory's back.

"Yeah you're probably right" I sighed as I removed my hand from his shoulder, I realised I had to start doing the right thing from now on even if it's not what I wanted or intended to happen.

"Yeah" he agreed, making the situation seem more awkward for himself.

As I turned around started walking up the steps, I could hear him sniffling a little. He made me want to cry too sometimes, especially now. I turned to face him he was standing there staring to the floor. I felt for him, I really did. He must feel an awful lot worse than me. Him watching me and Rory kiss and hug and whisper sweet I love yous to each other. He had even seen Rory's dream about me being pregnant, it genuinely scared him. He recalled it as a nightmare before he realised that we all had suffered from the same episode. It had hurt him more than it did scare him.

"Doctor?" I asked as I stopped in the corridor

He raised his head to look up to me as I turned around to see him before I went to bed.

"Yes Pond" he asked

"I do love you. You do know that don't you?" I asked him

"Yes I know Amy" he replied "And I love you too"

He knew that I had meant it in a romantic way as did I when he said it. I was in utter shock as to what had just happened. We finally confessed our feelings to one another out loud in words. Did it finally happen? It hadn't happened in the way I had pictured it. I thought he would tell me on another planet at sunset when it was quiet and no one else was around, not in the console room when my hubby was asleep down the hall.

"Good night Doctor" I whispered as I gave him a weak smile and got one in return

My throat was turning dry, I felt as if I couldn't breathe. I took a deep breath and walked down the corridor leaving him behind all alone. I walked back slowly to my bedroom. Tears fell from my eyes. I opened my door, there lay Rory sleeping peacefully. I leaned on my door to stare at him - sighing, I wanted to smile at him and look forward to spending my remaining days as his wife but I couldn't. I felt guilt. All I felt was guilt and pity. I quietly closed my door and crawled into bed beside him. I lay my head on the pillow to try and get some shut-eye. I sniffled only a little which was enough to wake him up.

"Amy?" he asked

"Hm?" I asked

"Are you ok? What's the matter" he asked sitting up in the bed, to see me facing away from him and keeping my eyes fixated on the wall as I didn't want to look at him. If I did he would see my tears and would be concerned about me.

"Yeah" I replied

"Are you sure?" he asked me once more

"Yes Rory I'm fine, now just go back to sleep" I hissed

"Ok" he replied turning back on his side to fall asleep again. During the night after he'd fell asleep I laced my fingers with his and murmured "I want to be ok...I really do"

I stared at the photo of me and the Doctor on the wall beside me visiting Space Florida, I looked into his eyes once more and I fell asleep. Dreaming about what tomorrow would be like and about a certain someone.