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Chapter 5

"Ah Sophie why don't you take a seat" de Dr said

"What's he smiling about" I thought

"I suppose you've settled in all right? The others not given you any grief" he asked

I stared at him, but I quickly diverted my gaze to the window. A hummingbird caught my attention

"Now I realize the events that brought you here are a serious matter. I'd like you to go to our interactive meetings 3 nights a week….." I heard him talking but couldn't get my attention away from the hummingbird

Flashback

'hush little baby don't say a word, mommy's gonna buy you a hummingbird….' The music from the musicbox went on.

I felt my chest tightening, I couldn't stop the tears from coming. I couldn't breathe, god it hurts so much. I fell to the ground and held my arms around me tightly scared my body might fall apart if I didn't.

I heard the key in the door. "sophie we're here babes" I hear Rosie yell. "Sophie! Love where are you?" I closed my eyes "o please don't let them come in his room." I pleaded

"Sophie? Shit. MOM!" Rosie yelled. "Hey, hey look at me. Sophie! You've got to stop doing this to yourself" she said as she hugged me tightly.

"Sophie" mum burst in. "o, love no. I told you not to come in here anymore, it only hurts ya". She said as she stroked my hair.

'I should've, I … I tried to say. I couldn't breathe let alone talk without a sob interrupting.

Mum cupped my face. "Now you listen to my little girl, it was not your fault, you weren't the blame, nobody was" I sobbed even harder. "Love, whatever he says it's not your fault okay? You've got to stop blaming yourself for this" I sobbed for hours it seemed. I hid my face in my knees as I was rolled up in a little ball in the corner of his room.

And then I just stopped I stared in front of me and just stopped.

"Rosie I'm really worried about her, it's been 3 months now" she said "yeah well mom, would you be over it in 3 months" she muttered ….. "No" mum answered.

I saw then coming over. "Sophie? Come on I'll make us a brew." Mum said to me. I kept looking in front of me, staring at space. "Sophie?" Rosie said. But I didn't wanna talk anymore, I did enough of that and it didn't get me anywhere.

End of flashback

"Sophie? Are you listening to me" I saw the hummingbird fly away and was snapped out of my dream. "Sophie!" I looked up at him. "Ah, so glad you're back with me" he smiled.

"So this is your card for the interactive meetings we have, it's on Tuesday s, Thursday s and Saturdays at 7pm sharp" he said happily. "Well suppose that's it for our session of this week, I'll see you next week at 3pm" I said as he led me out.

I held out the card. It was a card with a smiley on it and children playing together. "What it this, it's like a unicorn throw up on it.

As I start walking back to my room I'm held by my wrist. I furrow my brows and turn around. "Oh sian"I thought as I smiled.

"Hey" she said

I smiled again, my eyes travelled up and down her body

She cleared her throat. "Shit was I staring that long at parts of her body that weren't her face, shit, shiiit!" I thought

"uhm fancy a game of ping pong?" she pointed at the ping pong table

I smiled again and followed her in the room. She handed me a pallet and we started playing.

After an hour or so playing, I was beginning to feel fed up. Even though I was winning by 11-4 may I say?

"I think I've had enough of you kicking my but at ping pong for one day, don't you think?" she sniggered.

I nodded. It's like she could read my mind

She shuffles awkwardly over to me. "You're really good at it yknow, bet's not the only thing you're good at" she said playfully as she winked at me. Is it me or are we really close right now. God my heart is beating like hell, I'm almost sure she can hear it.

"weeeeeeh" someone screamed

We jumped apart. "Jesus" Sian screamed

She looked at the two boys with anger a throw her arms up in the air " o well thought it was you two, here you have tweedeldee and tweedeldum sophie" she said whitout looking at me.

"the two most annoying and obnoxious boys you'll see here" she said still giving them the death glare.

"No boys allowed here yknow, go before I get gertie" she threatened.

The boys quickly left the room. She turned her gaze back to me as it softened. "Sorry bout that they just get under my skin"

I smiled and nodded

I wanted to go to my room, so I got up and left. I could feel her eyes on my back as I approached the door. So I turned around one last time and waved.

Her furrowed brow was quickly replaced by a smile and she waved back.

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As for LJ, somebody asked me yesterday. I tried to do that before I put it on fanfiction but I kept messing something up :p