Wow okay so I really felt like writing today. in fact I might even update again after this but Idk yet haha. So I hope you guys like it!

I DO NOT OWN VICTORIOUS

"Shapiro!" I scream as Robbie tries to run into a classroom to hide, "I'm driving you home. Let's go."

"Does Rex have to sit in the trunk again?" He whines as he follows behind me. He already knows the answer. We cross the parking lot and as we approach my car I pop the trunk. He places Rex in the back taking an unnecessary amount of time to make sure the stupid doll is comfortable. Once his door shuts I peel out of the parking lot and onto the road.

"Jesus, Jade. I don't even have my seatbelt on."

"Okay no more whining. You're voice gives me cramps." He begins to say something but pouts instead. He fidgets with his hands in his lap. The kid really is lost without his puppet. We drive in silence for a bit longer before he starts, "So why am I here-"

"How do I get Vega to talk to me again?" I say with my eyes on the road.

"Tori? Why do you care if Tori talks to you?"

"Was that my question? No. How do I get her to talk to me?" He clears his throat and thinks for a minute, "To be honest Jade, I don't know. I've never seen Tori this upset before. I mean it's been almost a week and she still hasn't broken down and talked to you. What you did was pretty shitty. She was going to enter that thing in the art show."

"How was I supposed to know that!?" I yell. He puts his hands in front of his face in terror, "It was just a stupid painting."

"Obviously not to her. And let's be honest, even if you had known about the art show, it wouldn't have stopped you." I sigh. He's right. I was too involved with my own emotions at the time. I was trying so hard not to admit what had been there the whole time that I might've ruined my chance at something normal.

"Is that why you and Beck broke up?" He asked shyly.

"Kinda." I pause trying to form the right words, "Everything was too forced. I forced myself to love him and to hate her and now it's all falling apart."

Robbie is about as emotionally stunted as I am so he pats my arm before hiding them back in his lap. He's always been my secret friend. We've known each other since 8th grade and I saved his butt from quite a few bullies. He, of course, saved me from my own bully. Myself.

He was the one I ran to before Vega showed up. When Beck and I fought, Robbie would help me figure out a way to fix it. He knew just about everything. He's kinda my best friend but we don't talk about that because he's too much of a dweeb for me to be seen with. Walking around with Cat's sparkles and sunshine is one thing but a mop headed, puppet toting dork is another.

He didn't know about the Vega thing yet. I didn't wanna talk about it until I knew for sure. I still don't so he'll have to wait. I pull into his driveway and let him out.

"Ya know Jade, if you're really sorry just tell her."

"I've tried that dumbass."

"Yea but have you really?" I look at him like he's an idiot before it clicks.

"Robbie Shapiro if I didn't find you so utterly repulsive I just might kiss you." I say with a smirk and an eyebrow raise. "Hurtful but you're welcome." He replies slamming the car door and heading inside.

I get home and whip out my laptop. I get started right away on my plan. This is the only way I can make it up to you Vega. I hope it's enough.

"Cat. Get off of me. "Jade's voice is calm for once. Cat lets go but still has a smile plastered on her face.

"Sorry Jadey, I'm just so glad you're gonna do this for Tori!" She shouts before Jade's hand covers her mouth. "It's a secret Kit Kat. Can you keep a secret?" Cat nods with Jade's hand still on her mouth.

"Good. You and Shapiro are surprisingly the only people I trust. So you'll have to help me." Cat nods enthusiastically and claps her hands, "I love helping!"

"I'm aware Cat. Just make sure you get her into the black box by 5th period." The redhead beams brightly, obviously excited by her mission. Jade smiles weakly and heads off in the other direction. She just hopes this works.

"TORITHERESA MONSTER IN THE SCHOOL AND WE HAVE TO HIDE AND RUNAWAYVERYFASTNOW." Cat appeared out of nowhere yelling nonsense while I grabbed my things from my locker. Robbie covered her mouth with his hand and laughed nervously, "What she means is, uh, we need your help scrubbing fake barf off the walls in the theatre!"

Cat licked or bit his hand and he let go, "Robbie that was even worse than what I said." She half whispered at him slapping his arm.

"What's going on you guys?" I ask.

They look at each other then back at me. There is a slight pause.

"PLAN B!" They both shout before manhandling me and dragging me away. "Help! Help me! I'm being abducted!"

"No she's not!"

"Everything's fine." They yelled at the passerby's staring in shock.

They dragged me kicking and screaming into the black box. Robbie sat me down in a seat and held me there while Cat tried to calm me down.

"Jesus, when I asked you guys to get Vega I didn't think you'd have to tie her up." A figure appears from off stage and heads into the light. Jade stands in front of me with a strange smile on her face. One that almost looks…remorseful?

"I'm leaving." I try to stand but Robbie and Cat both hold me down. "Robbie you're so weak! Just sit on her." Cat shouts. Suddenly his bony butt is on my lap keeping me in place, "This is weird for us both Tori. But it's for the best." He whispers.

"Guys, I'm serious. Let me go!"

"Not until you hear what I have to say." Jade says in a soft almost nice voice, "I've never been much for apologies or talking for that matter. So I had to write it out. I had to actually fucking script this thing because I'm so messed up I can't even be sincere on my own. This is a poem for you. Not a "roses are red, violets are blue" shitty poem. A real one that I hope…well just listen."

I don't say anything. Even though I know I don't want to hear it. I don't want to let her become my frenemy again. I sit there and I listen.

"Melissophobia:

The fear of bees.

When you're afraid of something, suddenly it's everywhere.

You can hear a buzz in a crowded subway.

You can feel a sting in an empty room.

I never liked the color yellow.

And my mother was allergic to bees.

So I never really saw them as more than a nuisance.

I've spent days indoors when I thought

I saw a streak of gold fly by my ear.

I have been an elephant afraid of mice.

I have been a river afraid of freezing over.

When you see her

She will be buzzing and bright and everything

you have ever dreamed about.

And you will be terrified.

You have spent your whole life in fear of this moment.

You have avoided it as much as you can

but there is no escaping it.

When you're afraid of something

Suddenly it is the only thing meant to be in your life.

My parents used to scream until their throats were sore.

My home was a smashed beehive.

Honey dripping from it's creases

hoping to hold it together.

When you're afraid of something

suddenly it only makes sense to want it.

I'm conflicted about your presence even now.

I still can't tell if you smell like honey or if your touch

is a bee sting.

Because you've left a part of me red and welting.

Melissophobia: The fear of bees

Athazagoraphobia: The fear of being abandoned.

Philophobia: The fear of love.

When you're afraid of something.

Suddenly, there is nothing else more important."

Jade finishes and she rubs her hands together before crossing them in front of her chest. Robbie gets off of me and drags Cat out of the theatre. I sit there in a stunned silence. For the first time ever Jade looks nervous. I am too but I'm also angry. Why did she have to tell me now? When I was finally getting away from her. When I was finally saving myself.

"Goddammit Jade." I say, tears threatening to spill over. She steps off of the stage and walks to the seat in front of mine. She sits and crosses her arms across the back of the chair resting her head on them. Her eyes are glued to the floor.

"I'm sorry I'm so broken Vega-," She starts.

"Please don't."

"I've been trying to get you off my mind for so long-,"

"Jade please just let me hate you!" she grabs my hands.

"But I can't. You're always there. You're always the one I want-,"

"I don't want to be anymore." My voice is so weak and my eyes are burning. Jade is squeezing my hands or I'm squeezing hers either way they're threatening to crush under the weight of all these confessions, "I tried so hard Jade. I wanted to be your everything but you wouldn't let me so I tried to be your friend. I tried to be your...something. And you said no."

"I'm saying yes now though Vega-,"

"I don't care. I can't be a puppet anymore. Not to you, not to anyone." I say tearing my hands away from hers. She's crying now too and it almost makes me happy. I want this to hurt her as much as it hurts me, "I'm tired Jade. I'm so tired."

"Please listen-,"

"I can't. Not right now." The look on her face is a mix of terror and heartbreak. My body hurts, my head is a mess. I'm finally getting what I wanted but at what cost. Do I even still want this? The lump in my throat says I do.

"Just… Can you just give me some time? A week. Or a few days. Just. I just need to think." A sliver of hope flashes across her eyes but I see her wipe it away along with her tears. She nods. I stand and turn to leave before stopping. I turn back to my porcelain prison and kiss her softly on the cheek.

"Vega. I'm so sorry." She says. I don't respond. I just stroke the top of her head and leave. I can hear her heartbreak in each step I take. But I keep going.

Okay. SO the poem Jade read is actually mine! I'm a slam poet in omaha. You can actually look me up on youtube. Just PM or if enough of you really wanna know I'll just put it in my next update. Please don't steal it from me but if you wanna use it just ask! I don't mind. :) Please review and junk. thanks guys 3