Kurt pulled back from Sebastian, "I so sorry, " Kurt started to become panicked, "I shouldn't have done that.." and before Sebastian could speak Kurt ran from the room.

"Shit." Sebastian started to shake his head mumbling to himself, "You dumb ass. Why didn't you say something?"

"Never took you for someone who talked to themselves." Mercedes smiled at Sebastian as she sat back down next to him. "He's panicking. Give him a few minutes and then go talk to him."

"And say what? He's made it clear that kissing me was a mistake by running as fast as he could. You want me to go in there and make a fool of myself by telling him how much I like him and I wanted to keep kissing him? I know I'll tell him that I want to make him happy and how he takes my breath away? Do you really think he's going to jump into my arms? Because I don't. I know I'm not good enough for him. I also know that, that kiss was relief from all the shit he's been through the last couple of weeks. If you'd been sitting there he would have kissed you. The best thing for me to do is to leave and pretend none of this ever happened." Sebastian rubbed his face with his hands.

Mercedes wanted to knock both Sebastian's and Kurt's heads together. Having only seen the pair together for the first time this evening, she could see they both really liked each other. She also knew Sebastian is the first guy to get closer to Kurt in last few years. Any fool could see the spark between them, that's how Sebastian had got his part on the show. Mercedes had several conversations with Santana about her worries over Sebastian since Santana mentioned he was starting to fall for Kurt. But tonight as she watched him watch Kurt's old home DVD's she saw for herself what Santana had told her about. And if Santana and Kurt could see past the past so could she. She wanted Kurt to find love again and if that is with Sebastian then she wasn't going to let them walk away before giving this thing a chance. "Walk away then coward. Try not to slam the door on your way out."

Sebastian look at Mercedes in shock, "What the..."

"I mean you can say all that shit to me but your to scared to say it him. Do you think I won't tell him? Maybe you're not really good enough for him then? He needs a man in his life who's not afraid to say how he feels about him not some pussy scared of his own feelings."

"What the..." Sebastian sat with his mouth open.

"Kurt's terrified of connecting to someone again because of what Blaine did on him. I can tell you now what's going on in his head. He's most probably kicking himself for losing control. Not for one second does he believe you'd actually want him. He really doesn't believe he isn't attractive." Mercedes wiped a stray tear from her eye as she spoke of her friend, "Right now he's trying to figure out a way to explain his actions without losing you in the process or letting you know how he feels because he thinks it's all one-sided. So you need to decide what you want and if it is Kurt you need to fight for it. If it isn't Kurt try to remember he's a lot more fragile than he let's on." Mercedes got up and walked back out to the kitchen saying a silent prayer that she had said the right thing.

Kurt sat on his bed staring at the wall. His mind whirled with conflicting thoughts.

He had kissed Sebastian and it felt good. Then he remembered all the times Sebastian had told him how he was too girly and how he hadn't been good enough for Blaine. Of course Sebastian had changed and he had told Kurt how all the things he said was all bull. But in the back of his mind he felt there would always be some truth to the words. Over the years it was the one thing everyone in his life had pointed out even his Dad when he told Kurt to stop wearing his girly figure hugging jumpers.

But Sebastian had kissed back for a second but that was most probably a reflex reaction. Maybe it was a pity kiss, of course it was. Sebastian had seen how upset he'd been earlier, of course it must have been pity.

Kurt wondered how he was going to get past this. He could tell Sebastian it was just heat of the moment relief, then Sebastian wouldn't feel the need to have the 'I like you but I just don't like you that way' talk.

He debated calling Mary and asking if they can postpone filming for a day or two. He knew they were ahead on the schedule because he worked with an amazing team of people.

Kurt could hear muffled talking coming from the other room and then it went silent. As soon as he heard the knock he knew it would be Mercedes, he slowly walked to the door and pulled it open. But it wasn't Mercedes standing there with a cup of tea and a sympathetic smile.

"We need to talk."

"Sebastian I really don't know what to say. I shouldn't have kissed you and it won't happen again. So if there's nothing else please leave alone to get over my embarrassment." Kurt went to close the door as Sebastian placed his arm against it to stop its movement.

"You might have nothing to say but I do and for once you're gonna sit your cute ass down and listen instead of hiding ." Sebastian walked passed a shocked looking Kurt and sat on his bed, "Now sit and listen and then if you want me to leave and never mention what happened again I will. This way only three people will ever know and you don't have to die from embarrassment of people knowing that you kissed me."

Sebastian was trying his best to be strong and confident but inside he was terrified of Kurt rejecting him. This feeling in his gut was one of the reasons he didn't do relationships or meaningful relationships. In the past he had slept around but once he left high school and started college he changed. Sebastian dated a couple of guys but he never let things get serious. He always backed off once the word feelings started to get mentioned.

Sebastian could honestly say that he'd never really felt for someone the way he was feeling for Kurt.

A very nervous Kurt sat next to Sebastian, "Looked we don't have to do this. I shouldn't have kissed you. I know it puts us in an awkward situation because of work but if we just forget it happened then it's okay."

Kurt continued to ramble as Sebastian slowly moved forward and as Kurt paused to take a breath he pushed his lips onto Kurt's. Kurt slowly kissed back and let instinct take over.

Sebastian gently pushed forward wrapping his arms around Kurt slowly easing Kurt onto his back. They continued kissing as Kurt let out a soft moan. Sebastian broke the kiss but held their place as he looked into Kurt's eyes, "I like kissing you. I only want to kiss you. Us kissing is not a mistake. I'm not going to let you push me away do you understand?"

Kurt nodded as he stared at Sebastian, "I..."

"No I'm talking now." Kurt nodded again, "Good. I know this is hard for you and believe, it's hard for me to. But you and me have something. I get we're both terrified of what we're feeling and that we could screw this up before we even get started. But a good friend of ours told me that I should tell you how much I like you and how I want to make you happy. And she was right when she called me a coward. I am so scared you wouldn't want me that I was prepared to walk away. But I can't live with what if's and the thought of you finding someone else makes me feel sick." Sebastian closes his eyes and takes a deep breath, "Kurt, I know we got off to a crappy start when we met and I hope you've seen for yourself how much I've changed over time. I think you are absolutely gorgeous inside and out. I know you don't believe that but I'm sure you can feel the effect this is having." Sebastian pushes his groin down a little harder onto Kurt's thigh watching as Kurt starts to blush, "I can't promise it's going to be an easy ride because you know it's us. But I think if we don't try then we will always regret it and I know you love a challenge." Sebastian smiled at Kurt.

Kurt's eyes scanned Sebastian's face for a moment, "I want to but..."

"No buts. We're both sacred remember. I'm just as vulnerable as you. Don't you see that you have all the power here? I've laid myself open to you, well as open as I get. We can take it slow, get to really know each other outside of the past and work."

"We can try." Kurt smiled at Sebastian and lifted his head and kissed him.

Mercedes smiled as she pulled the door closed and made her way back to the living room.

EIGHTEEN MONTHS LATER.

"This is your fault." Sebastian yelled at a laughing Mercedes.

"Okay white boy if you say so."

"If you hadn't made me tell Kurt how I felt then I wouldn't be about to embarrass myself in a restaurant full of our family and friends and not forgetting the million and one paps outside the place."

"I hate to tell you this but this was your idea not mine I just helped put it together. I can cancel everything just as quick, just say the word coward."

"I'm not changing my mind and stop calling me that."

"Stop acting like a pussy and I will." Mercedes phone beeped. She took a quick look at the message and yelled to everyone, "Get to your tables everyone he'll be here in five. Mr H you and Mrs H duck behind your menus or he'll know this is more than the end of season wrap party." She then turned back to Sebastian, "Santana is going to make sure he's the last one through the door so be ready. Screw this up and I'll cut you."

Sebastian took a deep breath and nodded at Mercedes. He stood just opposite the entrance door and waited. Santana entered the restaurant first blocking Kurt's view. "I really don't how you could get the date wrong on that photo shoot. I could have taken my time getting ready and come with Sebastian." Santana ducked out-of-the-way revelling Sebastian dress in a black tuxedo standing in front of Kurt, "Oh you look very nice. Did I miss the memo about dressing tonight?" Kurt slowly looked around the room.

"No babe you didn't," Sebastian swallowed the lump in his throat and reached into his breast pocket, "A year and a half ago I manned up and told you how I felt about you and though we were both scared about being together, we decided to give us a go. I for one am so glad we did. I know we both went into this thinking it would be hard and I think we were just as surprised as everyone else about how easy it's been." Sebastian dropped to one knee and present the black ring box in his hand as Kurt's hands went to his mouth to cover his surprise, "Kurt Elizabeth Hummel, I have known for a while now that I can't imagine my life without you and that there is no-one else in this world I would want to spend my life with. So please would you do me the honour of becoming my husband, Kurt marry me?"

Kurt felt the tears well up as he looked at Sebastian on one knee. He looked up again and noticed his Dad and step-mom smiling at him. He looked back at a now panicked looking Sebastian and started to slowly nodded.

"WE CAN'T HEAR YOU BOO." Mercedes yelled.

Kurt began to stutter, "Y..Y..Yes, I'll marry you."

The whole place erupted in cheers as Sebastian jumped up and pushed the ring on Kurt's finger. Kurt held out his hand looking at his ring and then looked at his Dad who nodded at him and then back at Sebastian. "It's the ring your Mom gave your Dad. Burt said your Mom would want you to have it."

Kurt smiled, "Did you ask my Dad for my hand in marriage?"

Before Sebastian could answer Burt had made his way to the couple, "Yes he did. I thought he was going to pass out at one point."

"Well I spend the whole trip to Lima with Santana telling me about your gun collection and how no guy was ever good enough for your baby boy."

Kurt looked at Sebastian, "When will you learn not to listen to her. Now shut up talking and kiss me." Sebastian wasn't about to argue as he pulled Kurt close.

Santana slowly made her way over towards a waiter holding a tray of full of full champagne flutes, "I really don't thinking you should stick around do you?"

"I work here if you haven't noticed."

"Now I'm sure if we explained to your boss they'd understand. Must be gutting seeing what could have been if you'd not been so self-absorbed."

"You picked this restaurant on purpose."

"Now, now Blaine do you really think I'd stoop so low. Oh and don't forget Mr H is here , I'm sure he'd love to catch up with you." Santana started to laugh and walk away as Blaine rushed back towards the kitchen.

The End

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