A/N: Sorry for the short chapter right now... but there's more to come. Don't worry! :)

Hope you enjoy!

(Light P.O.V)

I sat there in my thoughts, not even eating my breakfast. My mother always made my favourites for breakfast, but today I didn't feel like eating. My stomach was flipping too much to eat. Anytime I thought about my project, or Ryuzaki in general, my stomach flipped. It was so weird and uncomfortable, but at the same time I liked it. I didn't know what to do about this, and not knowing was getting me upset.

My father joined us for breakfast ten minutes after we started eating. He was happier than his usual self now that he had a few days off work to spend time with us. We were even planning a family outing this weekend. As much as I'd missed my dad and wanted to spend time with him, I didn't know if I'd be able to concentrate if this was how I was feeling. The tightness in my chest, my stomach flipping, and my head was beginning to go fuzzy now too. I'd never felt like this before.

Sayu noticed my utter lack of care towards my food. "Hey, so, if you aren't going to eat your fried tofu…"

She didn't have to finish. I pushed my breakfast to her and she smiled happily. "Thanks Light!"

I didn't respond, and I'm too sure this is what caught my parent's attention. However, my father had one more thing to try and get me out of this reverie.

"So, Light." He began. "Apparently L is working on a case here in Japan. If I can get into contact with him through Watari or the deputy director, maybe you could meet the computer himself." He joked.

I only hummed at this. "Alright, I guess."

Sayu chuckled a bit, almost spilling out her food. "Wow, Light you have a chance to meet L – the guy you've worshipped since you were eight years old – and you say 'Alright, I guess,'? You must be sick or something."

"Indeed," my mother started. "Are you feeling unwell, Light? Is there something going on at school?"

I thought about her question but had no way to answer it. Yes I was feeling unwell, but I didn't want to tell her my symptoms. Maybe I could pass off a lie… maybe a small fib that wasn't really a fib.

The thought came to me, and I looked up at her. "I… well… I kind of recently found out that someone in my friend group is… err… well, you know… 'Playing for the other team' if you will. And I'm not sure how to really go about this information."

"No way!" Sayu squealed. "I knew Tamlen was gay!"

I sighed. "Sayu, keep your mouth shut about this. I'm the only one he's told. And it's not Tamlen," I admitted. "It's Ryuzaki."

There, not exactly a fib. He had told me he played for more than one side. The only thing is, I already didn't care. I just didn't want my parents asking me questions about my own health at the moment.

My mother smiled at this. "Is he? Well that's so great for him!"

My stomach stopped flipping when she said this. "Really? You're okay with… that?"

"Light, he's comfortable with himself and his sexuality." She said happily. "There's no shame in that."

I shrugged. "I guess, but it's still…"

"Weird." My father ended, shaking his head. "I knew I got a strange sense from him. How utterly disgusting."

"Soichiro!" My mother chastised. "He's a good boy, as smart as our own if I might add. There's nothing wrong with his sexual preference."

"Yeah dad," Sayu added, "don't be so jaded."

"I'm sorry," he said sternly, "but I can't see how two men can find happiness together in the form of a relationship. It's not natural and I frankly think it's wrong. I wouldn't say this to him, and please, welcome him into our household as your friend, Light. But make sure he realizes that you aren't anywhere near interested in him. I won't have my son ruining his life like that."

"Soichiro, how dare you!" My mother started up. "Are you saying that if Light was gay, you wouldn't love him anymore?!"

"No, I'm saying I'd set him back into his place and tell him being gay was not an option."

"It isn't an option, dad!" Sayu argued. "You can't choose your preferences, you just… like them! It's like how I like cheese pizza, and you like pepperoni. I can't make you like just plain cheese, and you can't make me like pepperoni."

"Sayu is correct, dear." My mom simmered down. "And in the event that Light did prefer men over women, and you couldn't do anything about it, what would you say?"

My father paused and that made my heart sink a bit. "I can't answer that. I am not put in the position to make this decision, and I never will be. Now can we drop this?"

I stood up from my seat and grabbed my bag. "This conversation is spiraling out of control now, so I'm going to school. We'll talk later."

"Light," My mother called, following me to the door.

At the moment I opened it, she stopped me.

"Son," she began, "no matter what, whoever you prefer or whatever choices you make, I will always support and love you."

She put a hand on my cheek and kissed my forehead. "Don't forget that."

I didn't really say anything to her. I just left the house feeling more confused than ever. The flips in my stomach continued once again and my chest tightened even more. I started to wonder what my father would say if he found out something like that about me. Would he really care so much if I dated a guy? If I maybe experimented a bit? I mean, where was the harm in experimenting? In finding out what my preferences are? Maybe a guy was better than a girl in some ways. How could he know if a wife was better than a boyfriend for me?

The entire walk to school my head was filled with these thoughts. Thoughts of experimenting and finding out my true preferences. I thought for the longest time that I liked girls, but then when I tried dating one they were only annoying to me. Then there was Ryuzaki, who made me feel like I was walking on air all the time. Something no woman had ever made me feel. The beautiful and lengthy talks that made me feel like I wasn't alone, the common interests around justice and peace… it was all so perfect.

'What if I did experiment with Ryuzaki? Asked him out or something? Maybe I could find out what I like so much in him.' I thought to myself. 'And… maybe he likes me. Would that be so bad?'

Of course, no one could know about this. It was just an experiment, was all. Like… trying out a car from a dealer before deciding on it.

But, how did a guy ask another guy out without sounding weird? Was there a protocol? A special hand signal? I was so unsure.

I got to my school, finding Ryuzaki at his locker, and I felt my heart stop while looking at him. What was the catch with him? Why did I want him? If I liked a guy shouldn't it be someone more… well… like me? Handsome, smart, good personality…

But then I remembered what Ryuzaki told me when he admitted to liking men. He'd said he was a pansexual. Someone with no real commitment to either sex. They just fell for someone… because they liked them. So… maybe I wasn't straight or gay. Maybe I was pan. I just fell for Ryuzaki because… I liked him.

Coming to this realization, my stomach stopped flipping. Now it was just my chest that was hurting. Like my heart was squeezing inside of me. The flips in my stomach turned into a fluttering feeling. Butterflies maybe?

'An experiment, Light.' I reminded myself. 'Go out with him once and see how it turns out. There's nothing wrong with experimenting. It's how you figure out what's right and wrong.'

I smiled to myself, heading over to the dark haired man before me. One date couldn't hurt me. And I had all week to prepare to ask him.

How difficult could it be?