Chapter 30

Sophie pov

"Come in Sophie" Dr. W said to me as I went and sit down "How Nurse Terrence treating ya" he joked.

"All right" I muttered.

"Now, I had your mother on the phone about a week ago who informed me about the situation. I realize the situation seems solved. However you did suffer from a mental breakdown, along with a depression. These kinds of feelings don't just go away over night, even though the cause seems to have disappeared." He said to me as I nodded at him.

"Hold on a week ago, they had Matty a week, and they only came to visit me yesterday" my mind screamed at.

"So what I suggest is to go on with your treatment. Your stay in this establishment was supposed to be terminated in a week and I and other Doctors agree that we could let you go home then as planned. You've made a lot of progress, but I would still like to see you once a week and keep you on your medication for another 3 months." He said to me.

My mind was rambling. "I'm going to go home to Matty, I have to stay medicated, I have to leave Sian…."

"Sophie are you listening" he asked me as I looked up at him and nodded. "Good is there anything you'd like to add" he asked me as I shook my head.

"Right, then you can go and join the others in the playroom" he stated.

"Playroom…. fuck sakes" I thought as I left his office.

….

The door of the bathroom was slammed open as Sian ran in.

"Hey, what dyou…." I didn't have time to finish what I was saying as Sian crushed her lips against mine. It took me some time to react, but I soon joined in. her hands were pushing me backwards as we ended up in a cubicle. She pushed the door shut, without leaving my lips.

"Sian…" I mumbled against her lips.

"Don't… please just… touch me" she breathed between kisses. I didn't need to be told twice as I pinned her to the corner of the cubicle and started roaming my hands under her shirt.

She moaned uncontrollably as I started to unbutton her shirt leaving open mouthed kisses on her neck. I was drawing a line with my tong from her earlobe to her shoulder as I lifted up her skirt and brushed my hand over her knickers.

"Fuck Soph…." she breathed as my other hand was squeezing her breast under her bra. "Please, will you stop bloody teasing me and just fuck me" she ordered.

"Someone's eager" I whispered in her ear as I was pulling down her knickers very slowly. She gasped as I glided my fingers through her wet folds. I started rubbing her clit as she started moaning again.

"Shhhhh someone's gonna hear" I giggled, her chest rising more frequently.

"I don't care…. Soph I …" she whimpered when I slowly pushed one finger inside of her.

She put her hands against the walls of the cubicle trying to hold herself steady as I added another finger.

"I want to hear you scream my name" I murmured as kneeled down and let my tong join the assault lifting one leg over my shoulder and stroking her thigh. I sucked hard on her clit and started to quicken my pace only to have her moaning even louder.

"Harder" she muttered between breathes as I pushed my fingers more into her keeping up my pace. I could feel her tighten around my fingers, I knew she was close.

"Soph" she moaned, her body shuddering as she climaxed, my fingers covered in her juice. I quickly kissed her on the lips to muffle the rest of her moans as I let her come down from her high. I pulled out my fingers and licked them clean.

"Christ you're sexy when you do that" she said kissing me again.

"Come on let's go to my room before someone finds us here" I stated.

…

"Sian do I even wanna now how you got up here again, and how nurse Terrence hasn't come to check upon me once" I said to her as we were naked in my bed with the bedsheets wrapped around us.

"Like I said, I would help her with her gardening so she would let a couple things slide" she stated as I started smiling. "Why are you complaining" she said playfully.

"Definitely not" I said as I rolled on top of her and kissed her gently. "Sian not to ruin the mood or anything but are you okay. I mean you kind of ambushed me before, not that I didn't like it, but what brought it on" I asked her as she sighed.

"I went to see Dr.W, he told me about the new part of my treatment, and it freaked me out" she said sadly as I rolled of her and held her tight.

"Sian you should've told me instead of shagging me" I stated.

"I know, I'm sorry" she sighed as her forehead.

"It's okay, it's not like I stopped you or summit" I said as she smiled at me

….

"What's the new part" I asked her.
"Well I'm supposed to go and live on my own in 'the real world' for a week, then a month, then 3 months and if I cope all right I stay on the outside for good." She explained.

"Sian that's great" I said as I kissed her forehead.

"No it's not; I nearly get a panic attack by just thinking of spending a day outside of the institution. I don't know how I'm gonna handle a week let alone 3 months. I panic when I'm outside in the open" she stated.

"I know….When are you supposed to leave" I asked her

"2 weeks" she mumbled. "Please just hold me and tell me everything will be okay" she asked me.

"You're gonna be okay, you're gonna fight this fear and kick its ass" I stated.

"Can't you fight it for me" she pouted

"No, you know I can't. I'll be here for you, I'll stand by your side, but in the end you'll have to fight it. It's something you have to do on your own." I stated.

"When did you become so insightful" she muttered.

"The day I read 'Psychology for dummies'" I stated as we both started giggling. I kissed her passionately as she let her tong glide in slowly.

"I love you" she said as she pulled out of the kiss.

"By the way uh… thanks for the gift" I said as I was smirking.

"O god" she said as she turned away from me and lied on her belly.

"Don't by embarrassed, it was sweet." I said as I kissed my way up from her back to her neck.

"I'm never gonna live that one down am I" she moaned.

"No but its okay I don't mind you being a softy inside" I joked as she started groaning

"Don't worry babe your secret safe with me" I said as she turned around and pulled me into another kiss.

"Sian…. I have to tell you something" I stated.

"Okay, what is it" she said as she sat herself up on one elbow.

"I leave in a week…. To go back home" I said as her expression was washed with sadness.

"It's not fair" she said as she put her head on my chest.

"What do you mean" I asked her gently as I was pushing some hair away from her face.

"We both get out at about the same time, and I won't be able to spend all my time with you" she stated as I started frowning.

"How come" I asked

"I have to live on my own remember" she stated but I didn't get it.

"So what? You can't have human contact during that or summit" I asked.

"No I do, I just…." She answered. "What" I asked her.

"I thought if we got out of here, we could live together" she said as she started blushing.

"Is that your way of asking me to move in with you" I smirked as she started sulking.

"Yeah, but I can't do that now because I'm supposed to live on my own" she stated.

"If it's any consolation I was going to say yes" I stated as she looked up at me.

"No, it's only makes it worse." She pouted.

"Babe we can do that after your treatment, the goal is that you try and live a normal life on the outside right?" I said to her.

"I suppose" she smirked shyly.

"Come here" I said pulling her into a kiss. I felt her smiling into the kiss as I deepened it.

'Sophie Webster is requested in the family room' came through the speakers.

"Right" is said as I jolted up. I looked over at Sian who was now to a point of sulking again.

"Will you stop worrying" I said to her as she got out of bed taking the bed sheets that were wrapped around her body with her. I went over to her and wrapped the sheets around both of us as I pecked her lips.

"I'm gonna need you to put on some clothes" I stated as I got out of the embrace.

"Whyyyy, can't I just stay wait here for you until you come back" she moaned.

"No, cause I want you to come with me. And I'm not gonna let you meet my family naked, especially with Chesney gazing at every cleavage he sees" I joked.

"What! You want me to meet your family" she asked me as I nodded. "Now" she almost screamed.

"Yeah so get dressed" I said smacking her bum playfully.

"But, I have sex hair and the clothes I'm wearing were just for you to take off, so I didn't really put much thought in them. Plus I smell….." she started rambling nervously.

"Sian" I snapped her out of her ramble by shaking her shoulders gently. "If you give both Chesney, and Matty a lollipop they'll love you and you look and smell wonderful" I stated.

"I don't have any lollipops" she said seriously as I started laughing.

"Come on, I love you so they'll love you" I said as I dragged her out of the room to the family room.

I entered the family room holding onto Sian's hand. Her hands were so clammy and her face looked like she was going to drop dead.

"Stop worrying, it'll be fine" I whispered in her ear as it seemed to help.

"Soph, we're here" I saw Chesney waving with Matthew in his hands. I felt Sian tightening her grip around my hand.

"Relax" I mouthed as I let go of her hand to greet Matty. I took him in my arms as he clenched onto his stuffed animal.

"Hello, awh I missed you so much already" I said to him as I was stroking his cheek. He held up mr. Bunny to me. "Look who we have here, you brought Mr. Bunny to show me" I said as he started nodding.

"Hey Soph" Chesney said as he kissed my cheek. I could see Sian's expression changing.

"Ches' this one here is the reason why I got transferred" I said as I pushed Sian in front of me. She was looking so shy.

"Hello, I'm Chesney" he said holding out his hand as she nodded.

"Sian" she answered as we all went and sit down. Matty started fussing and eventually crying.

"Hey it's okay…..Ches how long ago was it he got changed." I asked him.

"About 3 hours" he answered. "You want me to take him" he asked.

"No I wanna do it, you chat we Sian okay" I said. I was about to leave as Sian was holding me by my shirt, she was panicking. I kissed her head reassuringly. "I'll be back in 5 minutes okay" I whispered.

…

As I came back I saw Chesney and Sian laughing together. I smiled at the view, I knew they were gonna get along.

"What's so funny" I asked sitting down.

"Nothing" Sian said as they both burst out laughing again. I started shaking my head playfully.

"Whatever he's told you, don't believe a word" I stated.

"Don't worry babe, it's all good" Sian said as she pecked my lips. Sian's attention started going to Matty after a couple of minutes.

"What's that, o right that's just disgusting" she laughed as he was showing her an insect he picked up.

"Matty give that here, that's dirty" I said taking the insect and quickly dropping it on the floor. I shuddered.

"That is disgusting" I said as Matty was wiggling he's tong at Sian, who was laughing with him.

"Matthew, don't do that. That's rude" I said as I felt myself getting back into my old role.

"Not always, sometimes wiggling your tong like that can give people a lot of pleasure" she joked quietly. I widened my eyes and looked around in case anybody heard what she just said. The only one that was looking at me was Matthew while he was playing with my hair.

"Thank god, Matthew doesn't understand what you just said" I laughed as I caught Sian smiling at me in awe.

"What" I asked.

"Nothing, I just like this side of you" she stated as Ches started playing with Math. We were interrupted by someone clearing their throat.

"Dad" she said nervously as I looked up.

"Well I see that you're on time for once, come on let's leave these people in peace and talk ay" he said to her. He looked like a strict man, a rough man. Sian looked at me as she was hesitating.

"Go" I mouthed as she got up.

"She's nice" Chesney stated.

"Yeah she is" I replied.

"Soph, when you get out of here I'd like you to come and live with me. So you me and Math can be a family again ay" he smiled as I nodded. My smile faded a little as I saw Sian sitting on the other side of the room.

"She can come live with us too, if that's what you want" he stated as my smile reappeared again.

"I'd like that" I replied.