A/N: LOOOOOONG chapter today to make up for the whole day I was out and unable to write anything for you guys. But, just a warning, this a very adult chapter! Do not read if you're not ready to face guy-on-guy. To the others, have fun!

I should have a whole day to myself tomorrow, so there maybe more chapters. So be ready for that!

As always, I hope the majority of you enjoy (Like I said, adult chapter! I have warned you, please don't hate me! You reading this is all on your hands you sneaky little readers you!) Reviews are much welcomed, and stay lovely my readers!

(Light P.O.V)

It had been a rough day dealing with my father. He was still angry at me for not taking the job with L, but after I asked him if he would take it, knowing he had to give up his family and friends and loved ones, he quickly shut up about it. But then… he just stayed silent. I knew he was still angry, but did he really have to ignore me so blatantly? It was my choice, not his! And I believed I made the correct choice! I didn't want to lose my friends and family, and I sure as hell didn't want to lose Ryuzaki! Everything in my life was perfect the way it is, so why did he want to ruin that for me?!

My mother thought I made the right choice and was more than angry at my father for treating me like this. She knew how important this job was to me, but she knew how much more important my life was. She even tried talking to him but he just shrugged it off like it was nothing. He was making me feel terrible about the entire thing, even when I knew I was correct!

The whole walk to Ryuzaki's place was filled with thoughts on how I could make my dad talk to me again, but I couldn't see what I could do. Dear lord, if this was how he acted with something as stupid as a job offer being turned down, how was he going to react when he found out about me and Ryuzaki?! I didn't like that thought one bit.

I groaned to myself as I knocked on the door half-heartedly. My dad only wanted what was best for me, and an offer from L only came once in a lifetime! But… I just didn't want to be so far from the people I loved and cared for. I mean, my family would support me, yes, but who would I harass in the morning when Sayu wasn't there? And who would make my breakfast as good as my mother's cooking? And what about my friends? Yes, they were odd and made me want to tear out my hair some days, but they were fun and exciting, not to mention loyal and caring! Teri and Tamlen stood up for me when no one would when I was a kid, and Misa and Takada – yes, they were insane – but they were also incredibly loyal to me and cared greatly for me. Even Mikami was loyal to me and he was our newest friend! Who would I have to make me laugh and smile if I left them?

The door opened and I was pulled out of my thoughts after seeing Ryuzaki.

Him… who would replace him? No one. Because he was a one and only, and it took me a lifetime to find this feeling of complete and utter joy. How terrible I would feel knowing I gave up the one person I share a complete connection with, someone who listens to me and my thoughts and ideas, my hopes and dreams, and doesn't step all over me or lets me trample all over them! I loved this man! Why should I give him up for a stupid job!? To hell with L! He was a computer, no feelings or emotions, and worth no more than a few hundred dollars! This right here… this was priceless what we had. And to hell with my father who couldn't see the bond we shared together.

Ryuzaki smiled at me and took my hand. "Aren't you coming in?"

I shook my head of my thoughts. "Oh! Yes, sorry."

I followed him in, not letting go of his hand. I noticed something was off though. Wammy wasn't around.

"Where's Wammy? He's usually here to open the door instead."

Ryuzaki only grinned as he let go of my hand to close the door. "He'll be back tomorrow morning. He has some business to take care of concerning the Wammy house. He owns the entire place, you know."

"I figured as much considering the place is named after him." I chuckled out. I then realized the circumstances. "So, we're all alone then?"

He chuckled back. "Light, your observation skills have vastly improved." He said sarcastically. "Yes, we're alone. Does this pose a problem for you?"

I blinked at him. "Uh… no. No it does not."

Maybe a little…

Although it had been a month since we first started our relationship, Ryuzaki and I hadn't really… done anything. Not that it wasn't on my mind, but I wondered how it would all… well… begin. It was easy enough to ask him out, but… this? I mean… did you ask for it to happen? Did you make a date for it? As smart as I was, I wasn't a social kind of guy. I let things fall into place and take it from there. Having to ask for something was new for me. Not to mention when I took sex ed. no one told us how to… initiate anything. Did it just happen? Even more… who was on top? I mean, obviously the male in a heterosexual relationship, but with us? Was there a coin flip or something?

Ryuzaki cocked an eyebrow at me. "You seem off, Light. Are there troubles at home?"

I felt my body quiver a bit when he strode up to me. "I… suppose. My dad's really upset with me at the moment, so I'm kind of thrown off by that. My mom's gonna try and speak with him again, but I'm too sure it's pointless."

Ryuzaki hugged me closely then. "My poor Light. If you want, you can stay here tonight. I don't mind."

I felt another quiver, but this time in my stomach region. Honestly, the man could say just about anything at this moment and weird stuff would be happening to me for no reason.

His touch was feather light as he traced small circles on my back. "Wammy left me enough food to share. You're more than welcome to stay with me if you need some time off from your parents."

The small touches were sending shivers up my spine. "I… guess I could stay. I see no reason why not. Are you sure, though?"

He took my hand again and he led me towards the stairs. "I'm pretty sure, Light."

At this point I felt scared. I didn't feel fear too often, but this scared me. Him guiding me up the stairs, holding onto my hand tightly, making every part of me shiver like it was freezing in the room. My stomach was flipping in both excitement and fear. If I knew what I was doing, then maybe this would be different…

We made it to the top of the stairs and I'd completely lost my voice. I wanted this to happen, more than anything! Hell, I'd imagined this happening for a week now! I was desperate at this point! But… he had more experience than me… he knew what he was doing! What if I didn't live up to the others in his past? What if he was disappointed? Jesus, what if he laughed!?

These thoughts and more raced through my head as he opened the door to a room with a king sized bed. At this point, my imagination was running wild with impure thoughts. Just me and him… all alone… together in a king sized bed…

No worries about other people walking in…

No clothes…

Just us…

I finally let go of his hand. "I can't!"

Ryuzaki was surprized. "Oh? Are you alright? You seemed rather excited while we were walking up the stairs."

"I am! And I want this! I really do! It's what I've wanted for over a week! But… I just… I'm…"

I couldn't say it! I was too afraid he'd laugh at me. I mean… a man who had taken part in this activity a few times in his past, carelessly giving away his virginity, versus a kid who knew nothing about this or how to take part in it… I would think he wins in this debate! I was too sure he'd laugh!

He merely grinned though. "You're afraid." He said bluntly.

I finally caved getting a bit angry. "Yes! I'm afraid! Okay! Are you going to laugh now!? Well, go ahead!"

I didn't mean to raise my voice, but dammit if I wasn't embarrassed about this! I'd never been more afraid in my life, and now…!

He took my face in his hands and pulled me in for a kiss. I'd been shivering so badly from the fear that the moment he kissed me I calmed down and could feel my heart beat return to normal.

He backed away a bit. "Light, it's perfectly natural to be afraid. I was with my first time."

I blinked. "You're kidding me. But I thought you said…"

"Yes, I lost my virginity to a one night stand." He admitted. "But the bastard had me liquored up pretty good so I wouldn't be afraid of him. Fucker got away with it."

His hands left my face and I felt his fingers intertwine with mine. "Light, I'm not going to do the same to you. In fact, I like that you're afraid. It means you're having doubts. And if this is the case, then I'll leave you alone."

"But I'm not! I want this!" I said excitedly. "I just… I don't want you to laugh if I do something wrong."

He took my face in his hands again. "Do you really believe that I'm so immature that I'd laugh at you for something you've never done before?"

I shrugged, not really knowing.

He gave me a peck on the lips. "I promise you, I won't laugh. Something like this shouldn't be taken lightly, I understand. But, if you really want this, you have to trust me when I tell you I won't make fun of you. I love and respect you too much to do that to you, Light."

I nodded, lifting my hand to his. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't be such a baby about this…"

"Light," he said sternly, "you're still a virgin. How should I expect you to be anything but nervous? But believe me, it'll be fine. And we can wait if you want to…"

"No." I interrupted, making him smile cheekily at me. "And it's not because I want to get rid of my virginity. It's because I don't want to wait any longer. I know I want this… but I'm still…"

"I get it." He smiled out. "We can take it slow, if you want."

I nodded again. "But there's still one more thing; who's… well… you know…"

He chuckled a bit. "On top?"

I cringed into myself. "Yeah… that."

He started kissing my jawline, sending shivers down my spine once more. "We'll cross that bridge when we get there."

I never really noticed before, but in the moment Ryuzaki was very… masculine, compared to me. I mean, yes I was the initial man of this relationship. I got him roses, complimented him, made him feel better about himself. But at this moment, with him having more experience, I could suddenly see how much of a masculine figure he could be when it counted.

And some part of me liked it.

His lips moved to mine and I suddenly felt weak in the knees. What if I liked being submissive? Just… letting him have his turn? He was slightly older than me, and stronger to boot. He knew more, was a bit taller – when he stood straighter – and treated me like a child most times. So… why not?

He sat me down on the bed, realizing he would be the one calling the shots.

"My, my, Mr. Yagami." He said in a lower voice than usual, making me shudder in excitement. "I thought for sure you'd fight me to be on top. To be honest, I'm quite used to bottoming. Then again," he leaned in to whisper in my ear, "I like the thought of being dominant for a change."

That did it.

I must be a masochist or something but the way he said that made my pants tighter and my body shiver. Maybe it was because I was so used to calling the shots that having someone else dominate me… turned me on. As much as I loved being the one to be in control, knowing Ryuzaki was the same way… it made my desires even more alive than before.

He laid me down on the bed then, having removed my coat swiftly. The moment he began straddling my legs he noticed the slight stiffness in my lower region.

"Well, well… Light Yagami, a woman's man, and perfect husband material… likes to be dominated." He mocked slightly, causing me to grin a bit. "I'll have to take note of this."

I could still feel my heart racing, but I calmed down quite a bit from before. "And you just love to watch me squirm, don't you?"

He shrugged, leaning down to lock his lips with mine, speaking in between breaths. "I admit… its rather nice being the top for once… makes me feel all warm inside."

I placed my hands on his hips, guiding him closer to me. It was the wait that was making me shudder now. The anticipation of what was to come.

His lips didn't leave mine as he slowly unbuckled my jeans. Before pulling them down, however, he moved his hands up and under my shirt, pulling the fabric up and over my head as quickly and swiftly as he was able to without ruining the moment.

I guess he liked what he saw because something in his eyes changed from the regular, dismissive look, he usually gave me. It was intense, passionate, striking, and spine-chilling. It was the look of someone who hungered for another, and I wondered to myself if I'd make the same look after tonight when I was with him. I somewhat hoped for this.

His lips connected to my neck and I lost myself almost completely to the sensation. There were nips and licks, and very skilled movements of his tongue. Right around now was when I lost control of myself and hurried to unbuckle his own pants. But, of course, this didn't fly with Ryuzaki.

He took my hands and pinned them to the bed. "Impatient, are we?"

I didn't answer. I just continued to feel my heart race and my breath grow shallower.

He leaned down and feathered a few kisses over my lips. "Are you quite done going slow, Light? If so, I'm happy to pick up the pace a bit."

I could feel my pants grow tighter at this, and I knew he could feel it as well.

His grin grew more into a sneer. "I'll take that as a yes."

He let go of my wrists and removed his shirt completely. Despite his small frame, he was rather toned. Not buff – thank god – but… toned. Nothing too tight, and nothing flabby. Just… toned.

He locked lips with me once again and I lost myself in the skin to skin contact. I was so far gone into this state of pleasure I barely noticed Ryuzaki slip his hand down my pants. But it didn't take me long to figure out what he was doing.

The sudden burst of pleasure at his touch was almost too much for me to handle. I admit to there being times if self-pleasure with myself, but having someone else take charge was something completely different.

He kissed me lightly when I became rigid at his touch. "Calm down, my love." He whispered to me, adding the pet name as a joke of sorts.

I finally calmed down a tad, but went rigid again when he pumped. This was insane! I'd barely gotten anywhere with him and this was almost too much!

He sat me up a bit, his pants riding lower now that they were unbuckled. "Light, you chose to bottom for me. And, in fact, you made one of the better choices. If you were on top, I'd have to walk you through everything and the experience wouldn't be quite as… intense. It's better that I show you what to do."

He let me go after a few pumps and I almost whined. How dare he tease me like this! How dare he leave me shuddering for more!

He locked his lips with mine, pulling my pants down and throwing them to the floor along with my boxers. I was beginning to think he liked humiliating me in this way. Me being completely naked, and him still having his pants on.

He chuckled a bit and I got worried. "And you thought I'd laugh at you."

"E-excuse me?" I asked, shivering a bit.

He grabbed me again and I felt myself twitch at this. "Believe me when I say this, Light, but I think you're the biggest I've had."

I blushed profusely at this. "You're such a bad liar."

"What do I have to gain from lying to you, Yagami? I meant what I said. You're the largest I've had. My last partner was tiny compared to you."

I knew I was blushing, but now I was certain I'd gone completely red. "I… don't know what to say…"

I felt his lips on my neck, watching as he slid his own pants off. "You don't have to say anything, Light. Just enjoy the compliment."

The moment he was completely undressed, I seized up.

In comparison between him and me… he was much more deserving of being top than I was. I didn't want to tell him, but god dammit did he have all the luck in the size department! I didn't even want to think about how much this was going to hurt me…

But… it was…

I once again got lost in the skin to skin contact the moment he locked lips with me again. I was so far gone I barely registered the click of a bottle and the weird, slick feeling entering me. When I'd fully registered what was going on, it was too late and an almost blinding pain hit me.

I heard Ryuzaki chuckle once again, and looking over to him I noticed he hadn't yet entered me properly.

He moved his fingers a bit and I hissed. "God Dammit, Ryuzaki! Why the hell…!"

He only chuckled. "Light, you're a virgin. An incredibly tight one at that. I want this to be as painless as possible for you, and that means preparation. Believe me, it would hurt a lot more if I didn't. Now just relax, and let yourself get lost in the feelings. The more you loosen up the better."

I tried to do as told, but damn it hurt! I wasn't able to fully concentrate on calming down until I felt him hit a spot that made me almost scream in pleasure.

Another chuckle from him. "Well, that was easier than I thought."

I was shivering now, unable to keep my mind off the intense feeling in my abdomen. God, if this sent me into a spin, what would…?

I didn't have time to wonder.

I felt him enter me and an intense stinging sent me into a scream. Ryuzaki tried to muffle it a bit with a kiss, but it was so hard to ignore the pain. I thought he said he was preparing me!

I finally stopped screaming and he backed off from the kiss. "And here I thought you were ready." He joked.

I looked up at him angrily. "You couldn't give me a warning or something?!"

He snickered. "If I did that, you'd just tighten up again. Believe me, you were more than prepared. However, if you don't loosen up a bit, I might be stuck here for some time. I suggest you calm your breathing."

I felt myself unwind a bit and sink into the mattress, allowing my breath to slowly come to normal speeds. It was only then did the pain and sting of him inside me dissipated into a dull ache. Now that I thought about it, this was an excitement for the ages for me. I'd actually done it! I'd given myself to my one and only.

I looked up with a small grin on my face, noticing Ryuzaki looking at me with the same smile.

He held up my legs, but I took control of them again and wrapped them around his hips, pulling him in closer to me.

The moment he was within reach, I pulled him down for a lengthy, passionate kiss, practically begging him to never leave my side. The moment we broke apart, I could feel my mind go wild with desire.

"Keep going." I demanded.

He didn't have to be told anything more.

The first few thrusts hurt, but the more the time passed the less pain there was. Soon enough, there was nothing but pleasure. Although it somewhat seemed wrong, I thought about how angry my father would be if he knew I was doing this… and it heated my blood more! Knowing I was doing something he hated more than anything, disappointing him, making myself a living mistake in his eyes…

…doing something I wanted to do…

It was invigorating!

Ryuzaki noticed my enjoyment I suppose and picked up the pace, pumping my own arousal as he went. If only he knew what was going on in my head.

I didn't care anymore! I didn't care about my father's approval! To HELL with his approval! All I needed was this! This bond I shared with someone I loved! This perfect moment of pure bliss and excitement! This was what I needed more than any job with L! More than a wife or kids like he'd dreamed for me! This here… this bond… this absolute and utter perfect moment was what I needed! And to share it with someone I loved more than anyone!

I felt my stomach tighten and I knew what was going to happen.

"Ryu… I can't…" I couldn't even speak at this point.

He locked lips with me for a final time before answering, "I know… I feel it too."

Within moments I came, Ryuzaki following right behind. It was probably one of the most intense moments I'd gone through in my life.

But I was so happy I'd done this.

I felt him pull out and I felt an utter loneliness when he left me. But he was right there beside me a second later, making me smile happily. Having him right there, enjoying the aftermath of it all, the pure bliss and contentment with the world… it was all so beautiful.

That animalistic look in his eyes was gone now, but in it's place was a calming bliss that made my heart skip a beat.

He noticed me staring at him. "What is it?"

I was out of breath, but not unable to speak. "You're so… god, how do I compliment a man?"

He chuckled weakly, as out of breath as I was. "What would you use to describe a woman?"

I grinned back at him. "Beautiful?"

He took my hand in his. "I'll take it."

I finally felt myself give weigh to the feeling of exhaustion. Ryuzaki noticed this and pulled the covers over us, holding me a bit closer to him.

I grinned wider. "Will you be staying by my side tonight?"

He hummed. "Why not? I quite enjoy your company. Plus, I'm not in the mood to stay awake tonight."

I chuckled. "So you choose to be an insomniac?"

He shrugged. "Sometimes."

I rolled my eyes, cuddling closer into his chest. I was too tired to fight with him tonight. Tomorrow morning I'd give him a whack to the head. Well, after a shower maybe. I was not going home without being even remotely clean. Tonight, though, I didn't care. I was too happy to care. What was there not to be happy about? I had a good man, a good time, and an even better memory.

I smiled to myself. I hope Ryuzaki enjoyed being top tonight, because next time was all me!