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"So you're leaving? Just like that?" Kensi asked her sister as she watched her pack up her clothes
"No not just like that" Lindsay told her "It's a great job offer"
"It's far away" Kensi reminded her
"It's New York that's everyone's dream" Lindsay smiled
"Not mine" Kensi told her "Why do you have to leave so quickly? You don't even have an apartment yet"
"I'm going to stay with Uncle Freddie until I get a place" Lindsay shrugged "They said they needed me urgently"
"So does Lt. Jenkins" Kensi said to her "You're doing so great at this lab here I'd bet you'd be running it yourself"
"I don't want to run a lab Kensi" Lindsay told her "I want to help people and put the bad guys away"
"Well there's no shortage of that in New York" Kensi mocked "I'm just worried that's all. You don't know any of these people you don't have a place or friends"
"It will be fine" Lindsay promised
"What if something happens to you?" Kensi questioned, "How are we supposed to get there?"
"You take a plane" Lindsay teased "I'll be fine I've spoke to the lab supervisor and he seems very nice"
"Oh then this is all ok then" Kensi mocked
"Come on Kens, what do you want from me here?" Lindsay asked tiredly "This is a fantastic opportunity to work with great people at one of the best Crime Lab's in the Country"
"I just don't want you to go" Kensi said to her "I need you here"
"You're a grown up Kens" Lindsay reminded her "You're going to be leaving College in a few years, getting your own place- getting married"
"I don't want to do that alone" Kensi said to her
"You wont" Lindsay smiled "I'll be back to visit and if you ever feel like facing your fear and leave Bozeman for a few days you can come visit me"
"Not going to happen" Kensi told her seriously "I like it here"
"Well so do I" Lindsay told her
"No you don't" Kensi admitted "You haven't liked it here since that night and everyone knows it"
"That's not true" Lindsay defended
"Yea it is and everyone knows it and no one blames you for it either" Kensi said to her "I don't know maybe if I were you I'd run away from this place too"
"I'm not running away I'm just moving on" Lindsay said to her
"I'll miss you" Kensi said giving her a hug
"I'll miss you too" Lindsay said
"Well I guess I could help you pack" Kensi said pulling away "You're not really taking all of this are you?"
"Well I wanted to" Lindsay sighed "But I'm not going to have room"
"I'll hold on to some of this stuff" Kensi smiled then looked serious at Lindsay "For safe keeping of course"
"Of course" Lindsay mocked
"What about this lamp?" Kensi asked picking it up but it dropped out of her hand
"Careful-" Lindsay started as she heard the crash
"Lindsay" Mac said for the third time but it was the first it registered to her
"Hi" Lindsay said as Mac walked up the steps of the porch
"You alright?" Mac asked taking a seat on the bench next to her
"Yea I couldn't sleep" Lindsay admitted "I've got to much on my mind"
"I could imagine" Mac nodded "Where's Danny?"
"Sleeping finally" Lindsay smirked "You should probably sleep too you look tired"
"I'll sleep if you do" Mac said to her seriously
"I can't sleep and I don't think I'm going to be able to until I know what happened to my sister" Lindsay told him
"You know Lindsay there is a chance you might not get the answers you're looking for some people never do" Mac told her
"It's like you told me when I first started" Lindsay said to him "Sometimes bad things happen to good people-"
"-and you don't always get to know why" Mac finished
"I don't think I'll be able to rest until I know why" Lindsay told him honestly "I owe it to her"
"We got a warrant for the car" Mac told her and Lindsay looked hopeful "They're bringing it to the lab as we speak"
"I should be there" Lindsay starting to get up but Mac stopped her
"Any evidence like this should be handled by people not as involved as you" Mac told her
"Why you think I would mess up? Do something to compromise the case?" Lindsay asked a little hurt
"No you just might not like what you find" Mac said to her and she nodded "I know it's hard to just be a grieving family member but that's what you need to be right now"
"So what am I supposed to do? Sit around and wait by the phone?" Lindsay asked "I should be driving around in case she's hurt on the side of the road"
"Make some posters" Mac offered "Organize some search parties if you feel up to it"
"Where do I even start?" Lindsay asked him "This isn't New York there's woods and lakes all over Montana. I don't even know where she was going"
"Well I heard when Ryan's truck was bought in that they hadn't looked replaced so maybe we'll get some trace of it" Mac offered
"Did my mom set you up with a room?" Lindsay asked Mac changing the subject
"Yes I believe I'm bunking in Jake's room" Mac smirked and Lindsay smiled
"You should feel good about that he's was the cleanest of all the boys" Lindsay teased lightly
"I'm going to head in" Mac said standing up "You should too"
"I will in a few minutes" Lindsay promised then Mac walked inside
But Lindsay didn't go to sleep she took Mac's suggestion and decided to organize some local search parties. She had been on and off the phone all night and Danny finally woke up and found his wife downstairs writing a lot of information down
"Babe" Danny said walking over to her "What are you doing?"
"Organizing some search parties" Lindsay told him focusing on what she was writing
"That's a good idea" Danny said taking a seat next to her looking over what she was writing "Where are we going?"
"We're not going anywhere" Lindsay told him and finally turned to look at him "It's best if you help with investigation here because there is no one in this world I trust more to work this then you"
"If that's what you want that's what I'll do" Danny nodded
"Thank you Danny" Lindsay sighed slightly
"What did I tell you about thanking me?" Danny teased lightly "But you really should get some rest before you start"
"No time" Lindsay said standing up "And I'm too wired to sleep. She really could be hurt out there and if she is I'll find her" she said with enthusiasm and stood up and ran up the stairs Danny just watched and hoped that Lindsay wasn't getting her hopes up for nothing. That's when his phone went off
"Messer" Danny said into the phone
"You should get down here" was all Mac said to him
"Should I bring Lindsay?" Danny asked
"No not yet" Mac said then hung up and Danny knew this wasn't a good sign
Bozeman Crime Lab
"What do you have Mac?" Danny asked walking over to Mac and David Jenkins
"Blood" Mac said handing Danny the file
"It's Kensi's" Danny stated looking over the file "Where was it?"
"We found it in the trunk of the SVU" David told Danny "It was obvious he had just replaced the carpet in there so we pulled it out and that's where we found the blood"
"It's a lot of blood" Danny said looking over all the details "Where is this guy?"
"He's being processed" Mac told him
"We still need to find Kensi before we can charge him" David Jenkins added
"I've got to tell Lindsay" Danny said to them
"Well I know she's leading the search at Madison River" David told him "Wont get cell reception down there"
"It's something I should do in person anyway" Danny said to them
Madison River
Lindsay and about two hundred local Bozeman PD officers were searching the grounds of Madison River that was famous for fishing. There were a lot of rocks and a lot of ground to cover. Lindsay and a few officers were searching upper Madison.
"Don't you think a fishermen would have seen her by now if she were here?" an officer asked Lindsay
"Probably but weather has been so there probably hasn't been a lot of activity here the last few days" Lindsay told him "It's worth a shot though"
"Yes detective" the officer agreed a few yards away near some rough rocks they heard a voice
"Hey I've got something!" an officer yelled. Lindsay and the other officers ran over
"Is it her?" Lindsay asked anxiously running over to the sight
"Maybe you should wait until we get-" the officer started
"Is that my sister!" Lindsay yelled but when the officer didn't answer Lindsay stepped passed him and laying in the rocks was indeed her younger sisters body "Oh my god" Lindsay muttered covering her hand over her mouth
"You should step back" an officer stated trying to grab her arm
"She's hurt!" Lindsay yelled "She needs help" she told him desperately
"You're going to contaminate evidence" the officer explained holding a tight grip on her
"She's not evidence she's my sister!" Lindsay yelled fighting back against the officer that was when other officers stepped over to restrain her
"She's gone Detective" an officer said to her slowly "She's been here too long, she's pale and her lips are blue-"
"She's just cold" Lindsay reasoned with them as the tears started to fall from her eyes
"We're going to take you back-" the officer said
"No, no way I'm not leaving her here!" Lindsay yelled
"Get in touch with David Jenkins and let him know we found the body" she heard an officer say to another one
"The body?" Lindsay questioned "That isn't a body her name is Kensi Monroe!"
"Please we need to do our jobs" the officer said forcefully but still in a mild tone "I understand that that's your sister lying there but you have to understand that we want to do everything in our power to help you and get the person that did this"
"Ok" Lindsay said slowly
"You'll get a chance to see her again but you know we have to process" the officer told her and she nodded slowly "I'm going to take you back up and an EMT is going to check you out"
"I don't need that" Lindsay argued
"Please you are in shock" the officer said gently putting an arm around and leading her away from Kensi
Bozeman Crime Lab
"….will be right there" David Jenkins said closing his cell
"Got something?" Mac questioned
"They found her" David said
"And?" Danny asked he knew it was a long shot she would be found alive but that didn't keep him from holding out hope
"She's dead" David told them "They found her at Madison Lake"
"That's where Lindsay was" Danny said
"She was there" David said
"We've got to go" Danny said rushing out the door with David and Mac following
As soon as Danny, Mac and David Jenkins reached the park there was a lot of police activity
"Where's Detective Monroe?" Danny heard David Jenkins ask
"Right over there sir" He said pointing to the back of an ambulance
"Linds" Danny said walking over
"Hi" Lindsay said weakly
"They had to give her a sedative" the officer who has been with Lindsay informed him
"What? Why?" Danny asked turning to an EMT
"She was very agitated" The EMT told him
"Of course she was she just found her sister dead!" Danny yelled
"Danny don't" Lindsay said taking his hand slightly
"It's ok" Danny said to her
"You should have seen her" Lindsay said shaking her head "She looked just them"
"Like who?" Danny asked holding her hand
"A victim" Lindsay said "We go to work everyday and process the body but does it ever really sink in that's someone sister or daughter?"
"We can't think like that" Danny told her "Or we'd never get the job done"
"She looked cold" Lindsay told him trying to look him in the eye "You should go down there and help"
"I aint leaving your side" Danny told her gripping her hand tighter "I'm not leaving you"
"I'd thank you but I don't want you to get mad" Lindsay said weakly but she was clearly teasing him in and Danny lifted her hand and kissed it.
"It's going to be ok" Danny whispered