Ok, here's where the M rating comes in. If you're not over the age of seventeen turn back now!

How long I've dreamed

When they got back to Ryan's apartment Jessica wasn't surprised to find it in as neat of condition as his car. Everything was pristinely organized; everything had a place and that's the only area it was permitted to be in. Jessica didn't mind though, Ryan's OCD was just one of the things that she liked about him.

After looking over the options they decided on "Avatar," partially for the amazing action scenes and partially because it was probably the longest movie Ryan had in his collection. After Ryan popped in the movie they sat together on the leather sectional that Ryan had had since he graduated college. ("It's comfortable, you can't deny it." He had said to Jessica when she gave him a surprised look.)

At first, they sat next to each other but dared not touch. They could both feel the tension in the air, but didn't want to act on it right away. About thirty minutes into the movie Ryan slowly reached over and held Jessica's hand, intertwining their fingers. A few minutes after that Jessica leaned her head on Ryan's shoulder and he wrapped his arm around her shoulders and switched hands so he held her hand with his other one now.

Jessica then made the move she knew would be just enough influence to head things in the direction she wanted but not be too pushy. She took her free hand and rested it on his thigh, laying her fingers around the inside of his leg. She didn't squeeze, she didn't rub, and she didn't even place her hand high enough to feel his member, she just touched his leg.

Though she was no where near the sensitive organ, Ryan still felt his body react as a result of her touching a still very sensitive part of his body. Jessica could feel it, too. Ryan's pants seemed a little more taunt and his thigh was definitely warmer.

She looked up at him and he looked down at her, her blue eyes penetrating his soul. They leaned in together and their lips met once again. Their bodies moved together to deepen the passion behind it. Jessica climbed up and straddled Ryan's legs, sitting directly on top of his hardening member. Ryan opened his mouth and let Jessica be the more dominant one this time. Her tongue slipped into his mouth and explored the feeling of him, as his tongue intruded upon her mouth.

After several minutes they broke apart and sat there with their foreheads touching, looking deep into each other's eyes.

"I…I want….I want this Ryan." Jessica finally spoke, "I want you, I want to be with you, and I want you inside of me…..so bad."

Ryan looked into her ever beautiful blue eyes, "I want you, too, Jessica. You have no clue how long I've dreamed of this." And with that he brought her lips to his once more.

Jessica ran her hands over every part of his chest, abs, and arms. She began unbuttoning his shirt and then ran her hands over the incredible body beneath it. Jessica pulled away from their kiss to admire Ryan's well kept form. Ryan helped her pull his shirt off the rest of the way before he pulled her blouse over her head. Jessica had on a cami underneath and Ryan could see the beginning of a mutilated, bubbly patch of scar tissue on her right breast. Jessica must have been expecting this because she immediately whispered into Ryan's ear "I'll tell you some other time." before she started kissing her way down his neck.

Ryan slipped his hands beneath the cami, but Jessica stopped him when he tried to remove it.

"I'm not ready to show you that part of me." She said.

"Whenever you're ready, I'll wait until then. Now, how about the rest of you?" Ryan asked. She looked at him and began kissing him more. She allowed his hands to wander beneath the cami and her bra. Ryan could feel more scar tissue as his hands roamed across her breast, stomach, and back. He didn't care though, she could tell him about it when she was ready.

Ryan felt Jessica pull at his belt buckle, and just the mere thought about what was going to happen made him grow even harder. Jessica reached into his pants and took hold of his growing erection. Ryan moaned into her mouth and arched his back into her hands as she began exploring his body with her hands.

Ryan broke from the kiss and looked at Jessica. "I'll be right back." he said. She smiled at him as she crawled off his lap and lay down on the couch, so that her body was fully extended. Ryan could see every muscle in her body and how beautifully sculpted she was.

Ryan went upstairs to his master bathroom and dug through the drawers until he found the box he was looking for. He ran back downstairs to find Jessica waiting for him, her body glowing in the light of the TV.

He ripped a condom off the strip and set the rest of the box, along with a bottle of lube, down on the coffee table. Jessica seductively smiled at him in excitement. He leaned over her and kissed her more, all the while unzipping her pants. He stopped to pull her pants off the rest of the way, and was pleasantly surprised to see her lacey panties damp with anticipation.

Jessica sat up and started pulling at Ryan's pants. He helped maneuver to get them the rest of the way off. He leaned between her legs and kissed her more, while grinding their hips together so that their desires for each other rubbed together. Jessica began to moan just as she had in the locker room. Ryan knew she had to be ready, so he sat up and pulled off his boxers.

Jessica stared at him in amazement. Ryan may not have been the tallest guy, but he sure was well endowed. Jessica's body quaked in anticipation. She reached down and pulled her panties off, and he looked at her in her rawest form, like no one else had before.

Ryan picked up the condom but before he could open it he saw something that made his heart drop. The expiration date printed on the back of the package indicated that the condoms had expired four months ago. Ryan sat there and groaned in disappointment.

"What's wrong?" Jessica asked, worried she had done something wrong.

"Um, well apparently these are no good." Ryan responded, handing the condom to Jessica so she could read the date printed on the back. She looked at it briefly and then threw it aside.

"Ah, we don't need it." She said and began trailing kisses over his chest and abdomen.

"What do you mean we don't need it?"

"Look" Jessica lifted her left arm and ran her hand over the bottom side until she found what she was looking for. She squeezed her skin and the muscle so that a match sized flexible stick appeared on the surface.

"What is it?"

"My birth control" Jessica responded and giggled at the confused look on Ryan's face. "It's an implant. Instead of taking a pill every day I got this hormone implant so now I can't get pregnant for three years, even without a condom."

"Oh, ok." Ryan had heard something about this from his sister but never really knew what exactly it was.

Jessica smiled at him and picked up the bottle of lube. "Well, I'm glad I taught you something for once." She poured some lube into her hand and then gently took hold of Ryan. Ryan couldn't help but moan and his eyes rolled back when she touched him. Her cold hand on his hot erection was the most incredible feeling ever.

"So are you ready, Mr. Wolfe?" Jessica asked seductively, kissing Ryan deeply.

"Only if you are, Dr. Stone." Ryan responded and kissed her back.

Jessica leaned back onto the couch and Ryan climbed on top of her. He looked into her eyes and could see the anticipation.

"If you ever want me to stop just say the word and we're done. I don't want to hurt you, ever." Ryan told her as he kissed her neck.

"I will." Jessica responded breathlessly.

Ryan guided himself into her entrance. He was only a few inches in and he could tell she was really tight. It felt so amazing already. Ryan couldn't think of a time he had sex without a condom, the skin on skin sensation was incredible. Clearly Jessica agreed when she moaned and arched her back as he pushed in.

Ryan went slowly, so they could savor every moment. When he was about halfway in, Jessica's moans turned into a pained gasp and he felt her body tense. Ryan stopped and looked at her. She had a pained expression on her face.

"Pull out a little." She said. Ryan pulled back an inch or so and the pain left Jessica's face. She laid there breathing heavily for a moment.

"Sorry, it hurt, a lot." She looked apologetic, almost scared, and Ryan didn't understand why.

He kissed her forehead and said, "It's not your fault. I told you to stop me whenever you wanted. Do you still want to keep going?"

"Yeah, just be careful." Her blues eyes held so much emotion in that moment. Ryan wanted to capture their essence and keep them forever.

Ryan kissed Jessica again and ever so slowly pushed in more. He looked at her face to check to see he wasn't hurting her, again. Jessica looked at him and nodded for him to continue on. Soon he was buried up to the hilt inside her. Ryan just sat there for a moment, letting Jessica adjust to his large intrusion.

"My god, Ryan," Jessica gasped between breaths, "You're huge!"

Ryan chuckled, smiled at the beautiful young woman, and he kissed her softly. "And you're just about the tightest thing I've ever been in." Jessica smiled and they both laughed at their pathetic dirty talk.

Ryan started rocking his hips and moving his member around inside Jessica. She let out a pleasured moan and ran her fingers along his sides, sending a shiver down his spine. He progressively started moving faster, until he could comfortably thrust in and out without causing Jessica pain.

"Oh god Ryan!" Jessica moaned.

"Do you want me to go faster?" Ryan asked her, anticipating her question.

"Oh god, I don't know. Maybe….or maybe not…..No, just keeping doing what you're doing. Oh god, it feels so good!" Then she moaned so loud Ryan was sure the neighbors would hear, but he didn't care, they didn't know what they were missing out on.

After much thrusting and grinding, and what felt like hours to Ryan, they climaxed together, Jessica screaming Ryan's name. When it was all said and done they laid there, a tangled mess on the couch. Ryan slowly pulled out and lifted Jessica. He rolled over so that she was lying on his chest, and just held her.

"That was incredible." Jessica said sleepily, "You're amazing."

"Well you're pretty good yourself." Ryan said and kissed the top of her head. He stroked her back and soon he felt the rhythmic movement of her chest that indicated that she was asleep.

Ryan laid there with Jessica in his arms. He didn't know what would happen between them now. His feelings for her were so strong and he didn't want to let her go. But they couldn't, it was against every department rule and they would surely cause a major compromise within the lab.

Jessica twitched and whimpered in her sleep. Ryan got the vague impression that she might have been having a nightmare. He continued to stroke her back and soothingly said "It's ok Jessie, I'm here and I always will be."