*God Loves You*
He bit his lip and sighed, "I just... don't get it." Cal whispered to Gillian.
"Get what?"
"Whatever it is we had together."
"There was a line where we decided we would just be friends..."
"What happened to it?"
"Well... the day I got you back from Jack... the second time... we had been in the van and... you crossed the line but for some reason I didn't stop you... I think that that was the best decision I ever made... and right before we went into the hospital... we decided to take a chance and we kissed and... we finally got together. There were a few bumps in the road but everything was perfect until Jack... injured you like this."
"What would my last words have been?"
"Um... the address that you were at."
"Before that?"
"You said that you were okay... for now."
"Before that?"
"My name."
.:.
"A boy and a girl?" Cal asked Emily at the dinner table.
"Yes... and I want to name the boy Steven... I like that name."
"Any ideas for girls?"
"I like Riley... but i really don't know yet."
"Well that's nothing to fret over. How many months in?"
"Four..." Emily whispered.
"Are you excited?"
"Of course I am... I was just thinking about a conversation we had... before... you were hurt. We talked about what we would do with the kids and you suggested you could raise them as your own children... and my siblings."
"Yeah?"
"I want to take you up on that offer."
"Although I don't remember takling about it... it seems like a good idea... a brilliant plan I might add." He chuckled and gave Emily a hug, "Of course I will raise your kids."
.:.
"I don't know... I mean... he is just as nice and he is still my dad... it just isn't the same..." Emily whispered.
"I know what you mean. He isn't quite the same, but I am sure that eventually he will get used to us ad understand how he is around us." Gillian whispered.
"Will he ever be the same?"
"I don't... I don't think so, hun."
A small tear rolled down Emily's face and she pulled her knees to her chest, "I didn't want him to change..."
"Where is he now?"
"With Mr. Rick..." She whispered.
.:.
"Tell me about a good time from college" Gillian asked Cal.
"Yeah... let's see what you remember." Rick nodded and crossed his legs.
"Uh..." Cal said, closing his eyes and searching for a memory. "Oh I know."
"Make sure that I was part of it so we know if it's a real memory or not."
"Bloody hell... do you think I would lie about a memory?"
"I dunno..." Rick said with a shrug.
"Alright... can I start now?"
"Yeah yeah... go ahead." Gillian said, bringing her legs onto the couch and sitting criss-cross.
Cal smiled and began, "Ok... um... we were at a college party... uh... I can't remember which one, but i remember we were at the bar and drinking and a couple of girls... maybe a year or two younger than us... came over and started flirting like crazy and we ended up buying them drinks."
"We have bought alot of women drinks Cal." Rick said with a chuckle.
Cal made sure to note the fact that Gillian looked jealous, "Yeah, but I haven't gotten to the good part."
"Alright...?"
"And we were making oout by the pool on the lawn chairs and one of the girls was so drunk that she ended up falling into the pool and pulled us down with her and it was so hilarious! We all fell in and we were soaking wet and the funniest part was that we all ended up just walking back into the party and dancing crazily. We got so many people pissed beause we were making them wet. I even had some big guy pin me up to a wall and asked me my name and i said my name was Bob Johnson and he believed!" Cal chuckled and smiled at Rick, "Do you remember that?"
"Wow... yes I do and I can't believe that you do! That guy was so mad! He almost beat us both up! But you somehow managed your way out of it and his girlfriend thought you were hot so he made him let you go."
.:.
"You feelings are worrying you and they are hard to deal with so your mind is just blocking them off." Gillian tried to explain.
"Block them off?"
"It's a mental thing. You are scared of your feelings.
"I'm not scared." He said with a small speck of disgust on his face.
She laughed and said, "Oh of course not... it an inside thing... it's hard to explain.
Cal stared at her and sighed, "I'm scared?"
"Of your feelings... yes." She said with a small laugh.
"Could you... explain... more?" He asked hoping it wasn't out of place for him.
"Yeah... um... it's just that your mind doesn't exactly want to deal with your feelings. Because feelings can be out of control and confusing and scary. It's not unusual at all. Your mind is mentally pushing your feelings into a small room and blocking them off."
"But I don't remember actually doing that."
"No... but you are actually worried and your mind took the liberty of getting rid of the scary or unusual feelings. Your mind just wants to leave it until everything else has calmed down."
"How will I know when it's time."
"Cal... I think that it's time now... do you know what it's like to be in love with a man that doesn't know that he loves you?" Cal raised an eyebrow and she smiled, "Of course you don't..." She said. "It's frustrating. I want you to stop remembering and just think..." She whispered.
"What exactly do you mean?"
"You need to calm down and just let your feelings fly."
"I don't-"
"Don't talk... just think... knock down that wall and figure out those feelings."
He nodded and rubbed the extreme exhaustion from his face.
After 30 minutes of silence, Cal finally looked at Gillian. They had managed to get closer together and their legs were touching. He sighed and held her small head in his hands, "I did it."
"What?"
He bit his lip and leaned in, kissing her. She ran her hands up his back and into his hair. She fell towards him once he pulled away and he chuckled, "I figured it out."
"I can see that." She gave him a hug and smiled at him.
"Tonight will be the night that I fell for you again..." He whispered.
She could feel his warm breath on her face and she rested her forehead on his. He picked her up and pulled her onto his lap. She wrapped her legs around his waist and laid her head on his chest, "That makes me very happy."
A/N: So there you go! Those flashback are what happened inbetween! leav reviews please!
QUESTION!
What is your favorite song?
Always Midnight by Pat Monahan
Whiskey Lullaby by Brad Paisley
I'm Already There by Lonestar
If You're Reading This by Tim McGraw
Love Like Woe by The Ready Set
Every Little Thing She Does is Magic by The Police
If It's Love by Train
Her Eyes by Pat Monahan
My Little Secret by Cavo
Ghost by Cavo
Don't Trust Me by 3OH!3
... and SO many more! haha... wow... i could never name them all!
*God Loves You*