Tosh walked into the hub and headed straight to Jack's office. She opened the door and waited at the opposite side of the desk until Jack finished his call, ignoring his raised eyebrows and quizzical look in his eyes.
"Yes, sir, of course. I'll send those files over asap. Yep, I know that, sir, but I also have a city to defend so you may have to wait. Thank you. Right then, until next week then." Jack ended the call, placed his phone on the desk and knotted his fingers in front of him.
"Toshiko." he said, a smile on his lips.
"Jack." She replied shortly, holding her bag against her shoulder.
"What can I do for you?" he asked, his smile turning into a frown.
"It's not for me. You can sort out that door that you ploughed your way through."
"Excuse me?" Jack huffed a laugh, his frown deepening.
"Ianto's door. You know, the one you knocked down. Make the call and get it fixed."
"I always thought I was the boss around here? You know, the one in charge."
"Most of the time you are, but you've always asked for initative, so here it is, Captain."
"Tosh-"
"Jack, is it not bad enough that he's lost the love of his life so far, that he's betrayed all of us, that he's trying to cope with all this on his own? Just do one thing to help him, please?" Tosh's anger dissipated, her expression and voice changing to a small, gentle caress to Jack's ears.
"Please, Jack."
"How is he?" Jack asked after a moment, his own expression falling to one of guilt.
"He's hardly coping nor eating. He was asleep when I left." Tosh sighed and reached for the chair in front of her, slumping into it easily. "He so lost."
"I know. Believe me, I know."
There was something about Jack's tone of voice that said that he really did understand, and Tosh filed it away in her mind under the peculiar things Jack says.
"How can we help him, Jack?"
"You are helping him. You're looking out for him, aren't you?"
"Of course. He's only young, he shouldn't have to be going through this."
"See, you're helping him. By supporting him like this you're making sure he'd looked after. I bet you took groceries round? And coffee?" At Tosh's nod he smiled, "You're a good friend, Toshiko Sato."
"It's not enough though, not really."
"It's enough for now. He'll talk when he feels ready."
They sat in silence for a moment, looking away from each other and to the floor.
"I can't judge him." Tosh said in a small voice. "I tried to save someone I loved by making something with the potential to kill so many."
"No, you can't. But none of us can."
Tosh nodded, glancing at Jack. He looked like shit too. And that cut on his lip had opened up again, bleeding slowly. She watched as his teeth sank into the lip and pulled at the skin, opening it up even more.
"I'll sort out the door myself, I promise." Jack whispered after another few minutes, before moving to stand beside Tosh.
With a hand on her shoulder and a grateful expression, Tosh looked up at her Captain.
"You're a good friend, Tosh."