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Paul's POV

"You don't have to tell me." Jake says sensing my uneasiness.

"No it's alright." I tell him rubbing the back of my neck in nervousness.

"The reason why umm Sam tells the others who turn not to go by family, friends, or people we love are because..." I pause, breathing in slowly; I blink rapidly trying to keep my tears back.

"Umm it's because when I first changed it was right in front of my girl friend. Or I guess you can say ex." Jake looks at me extremely shocked but curious. He's always curious about everything I think.
"Why were you so mad?"

"We just got into a fight. I found out she was cheating on me." His look was pure astonishment.

"I know." I tell him.

Not a girl in my life ever cheated on me. No one cheated on Paul Lahote. But Emily is the only girl that did. I just used them then left them, moving on to the next girl that passed by shaking her bum in my face.

"What happened to her?"

"She was standing too close to me and I got upset when I found out who it was and I phased. She now has scars marking her face from the corner of her eye to the end of her jaw."

When I described to him what her face now looked like his jaw dropped.

"You did that to Emily?" I nod silently.

"So you see why we don't want you near Bella?" Embry tells Jake.

"Yeah but I'll be able to see her after I control my anger, right?" Jake questions very hopeful.

"We'll see." Is all Sam says and silently make our way to Sam's while my mind was in the past.

Flashback

I was going to the party that I told Emily wasn't going to go to and saw her kissing this rat faced kid named Simon. It wasn't one of those kisses you share with someone you just met which only made me think of one thing. She's cheating on me! Going up to the boy I ripped him off of her.

"Get off my girlfriend." I tell the boy. He looks up at me pushing up his glasses and shrank in fear.

"What are you doing here Paul?" She asks ashamed that she got caught.

"Well I wanted to surprise my girlfriend, but I see she wouldn't have been that happy about the surprised." I growl at Emily and Simon.

After that I leave the party and walked out as I make my way to my house with Emily behind me.

"Paul wait!" I hear her shout. But I don't wait I keep going until I'm several yards away from my dark house.
"What Emily?" I shout at her. "Why did you follow me here?"

"I wanted to say I'm sorry." She mumbled her hair falling in her face.

"Oh you're sorry? That's really pathetic Emily."

"I-I didn't know you were coming soo I just picked up my…boyfriend… from Forks."

"How nice of you. Did you give him a big welcome to La Push?" I give her a suggestive smirk but sound very harsh. She blushed, and wished I was back at the party so I could rip that kids head off.

"You fucked someone while we were dating!" I growled. (Sorry for the bad word! For anyone who doesn't swear and just a warning some bad phrases are just around the corner.)

"Well I mean I thought you were seeing Angela since you two always are cozy by each other in school." She said getting mad herself.

"Just because I'm flirting with someone it doesn't mean that I'm banging them in the janitor's closet!"

"I thought you were so I figured we were even."

"Just because I have a new girl every other week it doesn't mean I cheat when I'm dating someone." My anger slipping from my grasp and I feel myself start shaking when I get really angry.

"Paul. Calm down okay. You're shaking. I'm sorry." She says once again.
"Sorry doesn't cut it!" I roar and them I hear a high pitched scream.

End of Flashback.

For the rest of my life now whenever I see Emily at the store her face reminds me how much a monster I am. The legends never did say anything about hurting people but I will always feel guilty about what I did.

When I finally came to my senses and found that I was a wolf, Sam and Jared was there. They saw me and then Emily crying cradling her face in her hands and I remember smelling blood. Lots of it. We had to make up a lie to the nurses at the hospital that a bear got to her and we were just coming from a picnic in the woods. After she became more aware of her surroundings and saw me she started screaming. I wouldn't blame her. The only thought that she probably had of me was I turned into a monster and ruined her face. When she looked in the mirror, the screams got louder and sounded more horrible. She cried so hard I didn't think she'll have any left to shed.

That's when I learned more about what I am. I learned how to control my anger but sometimes it slips, and I try to phase away from everyone even from my Pack brothers. One can never be too careful.

Sam's POV

"Paul? You okay?" I turn around and see Jared asks putting a hand on his brother's shoulder.

"Yeah, I'm fine." He says shaking his head as if he was thinking about the past.

"It was an accident." Jared says softly even though we all could hear what he said.

"So I can't even see Quil?" We all shake our heads no. "Man that sucks."

"But he'll join us soon." Embry says.

"How can you be so sure?" Jake murmurs, sounding doubtful.

"Quil is a direct descendent so he'll phase soon." I tell him and then Embry's phone rings. Not bothering to look at the Caller ID he picks it up.

"Hello?" He says into the phone.

"Hey Embry, its Bella." The sound of her voice perks me up and I can see Jake was happy to but then his face fell.

"Hey Bells, what's up?"

"I was wondering if you've seen Jake he got off the phone with me clearly upset." She says and I can hear her voice crack. Embry looks up to us and covers the bottom part of his phone.

"What do I tell her?" He whispers hurriedly.

"Just say he came down with a fever." Paul says coming up with a brilliant idea. "We're always hot so if she came down to feel him it would feel like he was burning up." Embry nods his head and talks in the phone.

"Bella you still there?"

"Yes."

"We just got to Jake's house and he's running a fever we're making him chicken noodle soup." Chicken noodle soup? Really did he have to add that?

"Okay just wanted to make sure he's alright." Bella said a sounding a little tired.

"He's fine Bella don't you fret." Embry says.

"Thanks Embry. I'll talk to you later."

"Bye Bells." Embry says and closing his phone.

"Tomorrow we'll teach you how to control your anger." I say at once since it was about time for Paul and me to go on patrol.

"How would you do that?" Jake asks.

"You'll find out." Paul smirks rubbing his hands together. Welcome back Paul.

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