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Bella's POV

"Jacob Black!" I shout walking down the hall to his room, with Sam behind me.

"Jacob! Open this door this instance!" I say knocking on the door rapidly. I figured I gave him enough time to know that I was here and to put on clothes if needed. So I reached for the doorknob to open it but it didn't budge.

"Damn it Jake." I mutter frustrated.

"Here let me." I jump at the sound of Sam's voice forgetting that he followed me. He takes the knob and twists it all the way until it makes an audible click signaling that he broke the lock. Opening the door we both see that he wasn't here in the first place.

Where could he be? I think. I walk around his room and see that it was a typical guys' room with clothes all over the place. And who knew if the clothes were clean or dirty.

"He may be out in the rain because after Quil left Jake followed after." Sam says.

"Which way did he go?" I asked hoping not the woods since it was pouring buckets out there.

"I'm pretty sure he went to Quill's." My guts told me he was lying, but I why would he lie about it? I'm sure Jake had enough brains not to go into the woods at this time either.

"He better be, or else he's going to get it when he comes back." I said as I pick up some of his clothes and throw them in their respective hampers.

I hear Sam snort and walk out of the room, while I was cleaning Jake's room. (AN: I know this sounds weird that she is cleaning Jake's room but I'm one that if I'm upset or frustrated I clean up. So that is how Bella is like.)

I pull out my phone and see that it was now 7, it was getting darker and Jake wasn't back yet. And I was getting beyond worried.

I walk out of Jake's now spotless room and to the living room where the boys were watching a basketball game, Spurs vs. Celtics.

"Who's winning?" I ask Embry sitting on the chair behind him and play with his hair.

"68-64 Spurs." He answers gloomy.

"You got that right. Rondo's going down!" Jared whoops. "Come on Green!"

"Shut up Jared, Allen just needs a three and one. Then tie." Embry says confidently.

"Ten bucks Spurs win." Jared says simply.

"It's on." Embry replies shaking as the two boys shake on it.

"Boys." I mutter under my breath.

"Pizza will be here in about 10." Sam tells all of us as he sits down next to me. The only vacant seat in Jake's house. His body was so close to mine our legs were touching and I could feel chills-good chills-run throughout my body.

It's just Sam Bella. Chill. I think to myself as I take a deep breath and let it out slowly. Worry about Jacob whose out in the cold rainy night and how he might get pneumonia.

Ten minutes into fourth quarter, with two more minutes and we hear a knock on the door. I turn my head in the direction of the door and stare at it. I wait for one of the boys to stand up and get it but remembered that a game was going on.

"I'll get it!" I say giving an exaggerated huff.

"Thanks Bells." They say in unison their eyes never once leaving the screen. Pushing myself off the couch, and my once very comfortable position, I grab our combined money from the counter and pay the pizza guy.

Knowing they weren't going to get up and go to the kitchen to get their food. I brought it to them putting it on the small table in front of the T.V.

"Come on Pierce!" Embry yells standing up in excitement and hunger.

"Clock go faster!" Jared yells at the T.V. with food in his mouth.

I laugh shaking my head at the scene in front of me.

Taking a slice of pizza I watch the final seconds of a Celtic player miss the shot. (AN: Why Pierce!)

"Yes! Woohoo!" Jared yells doing a happy dance as Embry pulls a ten from his wallet. Next to me I hear Sam laugh quietly eating his food, I look at him and laugh along with him agreeing with him how ridiculous the boys were.

"I told you they didn't have it in them to win. Nine wins straight!" Jared laughs as he puts his money in his wallet.

"My turn to watch something." I say getting up and reaching for the remote. No one was helping me so I stood up saying, "Wow thanks for the help-" I cut myself off when I saw that the attention was towards Jacob.

Sam's POV

When Bella went to reach for the remote we heard, and smelt, Jacob coming in his house quietly.

"Wow thanks for the help-" she says cutting herself off when she sees us staring at Jacob.

"Where were you?" she says upset.

"No where." He responds.

"Were you in the rain?"

"No, I wasn't." He says sarcastically.

"Don't pull that tone on me Jacob." She says sternly her eyes now slits. "I saw Quill going home from here, he was worried." We all could see Jacob's eyes soften at the mention of his cousin.

"Everyone's worried." He says not letting emotion seep into his voice.

"What is wrong with you?" She yells.

"Nothing is wrong with me." he says.

"Something is definitely wrong. You cut your damn hair." She says going up to him and running her fingers through his now short hair. My wolf growled at her touching another guy.

"You grew." She said softly.

"Yeah I did." He agrees.

"What are you on?"

"What!" Jake says appalled at the idea of her thinking he was on drugs.

"You heard me. The last time I saw you, you weren't like this. I mean you were big but not this big."

"Bella." Jake says seriously. "I'm not on anything."

"That's what they all say."

"I'm serious Bella. I'm not on anything I'm naturally like this."

"Then why didn't you return any of my calls or at least text me?"

I see Jacob look at me. His eyes pleading, silently begging me to let him tell her.

I give him and not that noticeable shake of my head. As much as I want her to know, I don't want her to know just yet.

"I couldn't. I've really been sick." He says his eyes looking into Bella's almost pleading for her to understand that he was telling the truth.

"Alright I believe you. But if I find anything in your room or on you. You better run." I look at the guys and see that they were having a hard time trying not to laugh at Bella since she thought he was on drugs.

"Get in your shower before you get sick again." She says giving him a light push towards the bathroom. He nods his head and I hear him collect is belongings and turning on the shower.

Jacob's POV (Yes he's in the shower...)

I cannot believe Bella thought I was on drugs. Sure it may have been funny, like how Paul them thought it was. But to me it wasn't. That is because my mom had an overdose.

Flashback. Jake is in sixth grade.

Dad came to pick me up from school today. That only meant one thing. Mom was too high to pick me up. I hated it when she picks up a pill or a package of powder. Things like D.A.R.E. (Drug Abuse Resistance Education...if you don't know what that means) taught me that drugs are definitely not worth it.

"So how was school today?" Dad asked as I buckled my seat belt.

"It was okay." I tell him pulling out my phone and see that I got a text from Kim asking to hang out later.

"Who's that?"

"No one." I said immediately.

"Uh-huh." He says looking at me and at my phone.

"Are you texting a girl?" He suggests bumping me with his arm.

"No!" I say blushing giving it away, causing dad to chuckle and give a low whistle.

"Be quiet dad." I laugh hitting my head on the window.

"Mom! We're home!" I shout opening the door and greeted with the disgusting stench of dirty clothes and smoke.

"Mom!" I shout again navigating my way around the packages and bottles.

"Dad where's mom?" I yell and turn to see him shutting the door.

"She should be in her room." He says.
I kick a pile of clothes away from my parent's bedroom and open the door. Mom was sleeping with different over the counter drug bottles, and empty packages, including open beer cans around her.

"Mom. I whisper. I'm home." I wait for her to wake up but she doesn't. She's such a light sleeper; even the quietest noise would wake her up. I nudge her and she doesn't move.

"Mom?" I call again a little panicked and shake her some more. Still nothing. Finally I grab her hand and check her pulse. There was none.

End of Flashback.

Opening my eyes I run my hand over my face getting any trace of soap on my face off. Shutting off the water I grab my towel off of its hook and wrap it around my torso.

My mind sometimes drifts off to that day when I found my mom dead because she overdosed. It hurt me when Bella asked if I was on anything. Sure the guys thought it was funny but they didn't know what happened to my mom. Bella did though; she knows I stay away from it because what it did to my mom. Bella probably is going to look closer to what I do now thinking I'm hiding drugs. But really I'm hiding the fact that I am part wolf. That's the reason why I'm so different, not because of drugs.

I open the door to my room and see that is spotless and straightened. There were no clothes on the floor, the drawers were closed, and bed fixed. I sure didn't leave my room looking like this. Despite how I was felling right now, I smiled thinking about Bella cleaning my room like a mom usually does to their son. After all these years knowing Bella (AN: Pretend she stayed in Forks and Charlie fought Renee for her to stay) she always was looking out for my well being. Since our dads were so close, practically BFF's, we were close too. She made sure I didn't go into the wrong crowds, even if she didn't see what I did in school because of our different districts. She made sure I did my homework, my chores. She even started cooking for me when she was old enough, and when they came to our house or us to theirs. Pulling on my boxers I sat on my bed. Bella became more of a motherly figure than my own mother. That is mean to say but it's true. Dad though did step in and tried to help, but I knew it was hard for him. Juggling many different jobs at a time, grieving over the death of his imprint, and trying to take care of him and me physically. I could only imagine how tough it was for him. Maybe that's why I love Bella. It was never true love; I loved her because of what she did for me. She became like my mother, and she is just two years older than me. Bella took on the motherly role for me, even if she wasn't conscious of herself doing that. Pulling on my sweat pants I laughed. I don't love Bella like that. I never did.

Bella's POV

After I sent Jake to take a shower, I instantly felt guilty for what I had said. I didn't mean to imply anything when I said that.

"Hey are you okay?" Sam asks. My eyes focus on to him and see concern in his eyes.

"Yeah. I'm fine. Just worried."

"He's a good kid. He won't do anything that stupid." He tells me confidently.

"I know." I murmur under my breath. Sam gives me an encouraging smile that lifts my mood a little.

"Bells are you gonna pick the movie?" Jared asks going trough Jakes collection.

"Yeah I am." I say passing Sam, grabbing a slice of pizza and look through the movies.

"No we are not going to watch that." Paul states shaking his head back and forth as I lift The Vow.

"Come on Paul." I whine. "It's supposedly a good movie."

"Why not watch 21 Jump Street?" He says pleadingly. (AN: Pretend all these movies are on DVD)

"No the Vow." I tell him I was not going to not watch this movie when I had it in my hands now.

I look at Paul and wish I had Jedi powers to influence him to watch the movie.

He huffs defeated and says, "Fine you can watch your stupid love movie."

"Thank you." I say and like a little girl I squeal and hug him. I pop the disc into the DVD player about to press play but Jake was not with us yet.

"Hold on I'm gonna get Jake." I tell them giving the remote to Embry.

I walk down the hall and knock on his door.

"Come in." I hear him say.

I push the door open and find him sitting on his bed in sweats with his towel around his neck.

"Hey. What's up?"

"I just wanted to apologize for what I said out there a while ago." I tell him but he just waves it off.

"Don't mention it Bella. You just want me making right choices, kind of like what a mom would want from their kid." He says sadly looking up at me.

"Jake. I know all you remember about her is the bad. But she was a great person for a while." He looks at me like 'are you crazy'. "I know she didn't do such great things at the end but for one she gave birth to you. She fed you for the beginning of your life, woke up to feed you when you were only a baby." I sit next to him in his bed. "Jake?"

"It's just hard to see that I mean the only good memories I have of her are very few. My mind only remembers the bad. When she started...experimenting with everything. Dad always tried to put in a good word for her when she passed. But I could never see it."

Tears came into my eyes and I felt sorry for him. He never did see the loving side of her.

"She's always going to be your mom you know that right? No matter how you remember her she's always your mother don't forget that."

We sat in silence for a while until I decided to break it.

"She was actually a pretty cool lady before...everything." I tell him, he doesn't look at me but I knew he was listening. "I remember when she used to cook cookies for us after school. I would always beg dad to bring us here to have cookies because she was the best cook." I told him quietly wishing that Jake's mom was more like how she uses to be.

"I hate this." He fumes and I was caught off guard. "I hate how everyone has good memories of her. She's my mother! And I don't even remember anything good about her. All I know is her drug life and how much it messed her up." He was now standing pacing the room. "Bella you don't know how much I want to love my mom. I try to keep all the happy memories of her from others, but they don't stay. When I think of her, the first thing that comes to mind is her drug problem. I never get pass it. I feel horrible." He says softly and before he turns away from me I see his tears spill.

"Come here." I tell Jake.

"No it's okay. I'm alright." I hear him sniffle. I look up to him a little worried.

"Really I'm fine. I just haven't talked about it for a while now." He says looking at me and his tears now gone. I was about to tell him that it's okay to cry, even if he's tough looking and everything. But I didn't because his stomach growled.

I chuckled and stood up, "Let's get some food for you." I tell him lightly slapping his stomach.

"Thanks Bella. For being here for me." He tells me giving me a hug.

"I would always be here for you." I say to him putting my little hand against his cheek, and find it hot like an oven. "You're hot." I tell him after a while as we just stood there in an embrace.

He laughs letting me go. "This is why I also keep you around, you boost my ego."

"No you're heating up." I say getting worried. I put the back of my hand against his forehead finding it equally hot, and then his chest and arms. "Go take medicine." I order him pushing him towards the door.

"Bella I'm fine. Seriously you're such a mom sometimes. I love you for that, and sometimes I hate you for that." He laughs but serious at the same time.

"Well I love you too Jacob. But right now, no matter what you say you're gonna take medicine, eat some pizza, and if you want you can watch the Vow with us."

"Fine." He responds pouting and walking out the door and dragging his feet on the floor.

"Okay shut up everyone." I yell trying not to encourage the boys' childness. I grabbed a couple of my blanket I got from the closet and pulled it around me.

"You're cold?" Paul asks from next to me.

"I'm shivering."

"Well I can warm you-never mind." He starts playfully then stops mid sentence causing me to laugh.

"Start the movie?" Sam asks handing me the remote.

"Yes!" I yell dramatically taking the remote from his hand and pressing play. I see Embry stand and shut the lights and sit at my feet. I stretch my hand out because I usually play with his hair when we watch movies. I look at Paul who was one of the closest to me, but his hair was way too short to play with. Then I look at Sam's where the nape of his necks had a bunch of curls and the length of his hair was like Embry's. My fingers were itching to touch his hair...and him. I nudge him with my elbow and he looks down at me.

Leaning up I whisper in his ear. "Is it okay if I play with your hair?" He laughs quietly but nods his consent.

By the end of the movie I had stopped bawling and just had tears swimming in my eyes.

"Is it your week?" Paul asks.

"No it's not!" I laugh but slightly offended, as Sam passes me the tissue box.

"You have to admit it was sad."

"The first part of the movie!" Paul says.

"The only part that I thought was sad," Jared said. "Is when she forgot that she was married. Then Channing's face was just broken. I mean his own wife didn't know who he was." All the guys nodded agreeing with him, but I agree that that was the saddest part of the whole movie.

"Well what time is it?" I ask yawning and putting my hands in the air and stretching.

Jake takes out his phone and shows me the time. 9:15.

"I'm going to call my Dad." I tell him taking his phone and going in the kitchen.

"Hello?" I hear a tired voice on the other end.

"Dad? It's me."

"Hey what's up?" He asks clearly awake now.

"I just wanted to tell you that I'm going to sleep over Jake's house tonight."

"Okay thanks for calling me to let me know. Tell Jake his Dad is at the Clearwater's."

"I will. I'll see you tomorrow then."

"Yeah. Night Bells."

"Night Dad." I say hanging up the phone.

"Jake I'm sleeping over is that okay?" I ask walking back into the living room.

"Yeah sure no problem. You can use my clothes and you know where everything else is." He says as the other boys stand up.

"We should get going to." Embry says walking to me. "I'll see you later." He tells me kissing my cheek.

"Alright, get home safely." I tell him.

"Bye Bella." Jared says kissing my cheek.

"If by any chance you sneak into Kim's house tell her I said hello." I joke kissing his cheek.

"I sure will." He laughs.

"We'll see you in the morning. I would like scrambled eggs, a lot of bacon and four bagels, thank you very much." Paul says.

"In your dreams, I'm not a morning person so don't expect me to be up before ten." I tell him kissing his cheek.

"Night Bella." Sam says coming up from behind Paul.

"Night Sam. See you later." I tell him going on tippy toes to kiss his cheek.

They all walk out the door and the house is now nice and quiet.

"Okay Jake I'm going to take a shower than sleep. Don't come near me until after ten thirty if you want to be alive."

"Alright. Wake you up at six. Will do." He laughs kissing my cheek. "I'll be in my room if you need anything."

"Night Jake." I tell him.

"Night Bells."

AN: How do you guys like that? Was that alright? I the next few chapters I want to get Sam and Bella together is that too early or is it like about time? Let me know what you think. Even write how you want things to start...anyways review thanks!