Hey guys, it's been a while, but here is chapter 24. I hope you enjoy it, even though it isnt as long as i wanted it to be, but i wanted to post a chapter today, so without further ado...
About 2 months later
"Tris Prior," a nurse says, "we are ready for you." I grab Tobias' hand and stand up to follow the nurse to the room where I would have my fourth ultrasound done. "Take a seat, and the doctor will be right in."
The nurse leaves the room and Tobias helps me onto the meal table. It's not that high from the ground, but it's just high enough that I can't get on it by myself.
He sits across from me in a chair that looks just a tad too small. I lean over resting my elbows on my knees. I think about what the doctor told me a few weeks ago, 'So we will schedule your next ultrasound for July 27th. By then we should be able to tell the sex of the baby.' Before I know it Tobias is standing beside me running his hand up and down my back.
"Tris, do you want to talk about it?" He asks. His voice is sweet and soft.
I simply shake my head 'no.' I know this is just as hard for him as it is for me, but I also know that he is fairly excited for this child to come into the world. I am too, but I'm scared to find out what kind of a mother I'm going to be.
"Hey look at me," he lifts my head up to meet his eyes, "I know that you are scared. I am scared too, but all we can do right now is live in the moment. Take it one day at a time and I promise, we will get through this together." I let out a little smile.
"How do you always know what to say?" Rest my hand on the side of his neck and pull him in until our foreheads meet. "I love you Tobias." I whisper jut in case someone is listening.
"I love you too." He lifts his head slightly and kisses the top of mine.
Just a couple minutes later, the doctor comes into the room. "All right, Tris, if you would?" She says, gesturing to my shirt.
I pull it up so it shows my rounding stomach. The doctor put some gel on my belly and picks up the wand-stick thingy and starts swirling it around. I look up at the monitor to see the baby that is growing inside of me and all I can do is smile. While glancing over to Tobias, I can see a grin spreading across his face too.
He takes my hand in his and brings it up to his lips. "So are we wanting to know the gender?" The doctor asks. Tobias and I nod.
We wait while she moves the thing over my belly trying to figure out the gender. I am kind of hoping it's a boy. If I have a girl, I know Christina is going to turn her into a miniature her. I just think it would be easier to have a boy.
"So what do you hope it is?" She asks.
"I want a girl, and Tris wants a boy." Tobias answers for me. I had no idea he wanted a girl, but I guess it does make sense.
"Well, I hate to disappoint the mother, but you child is indeed a girl. Congratulations."
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Tobias and I get back to our apartment about and hour and a half later. He unlocks the door and I head straight for the couch. Tobias sits next to me and pulls me into his lap.
"Tris are you okay?" He asks.
"I'm fine. Why do you keep asking me that?"
"What do you mean?"
"For the past month and a half, all you have been asking me, 'are you okay?'" I look up into his beautiful blue black eyes, "I mean I love you to death, but you gotta stop asking me that." I feel like I'm being kind of harsh, but it is getting really annoying.
"Tris, I'm just trying to make sure that you have what you need. I want to help you." His voice is calm and collected.
I stand up from his lap, getting even more annoyed. "Four, I know you're trying to help, and I love that you want to help me, but I don't need it right now. I am very capable of taking care of myself." I can hear my voice starting to raise a little.
"Tris, I know you van normally take care of yourself, but you're pregnant now. You have a whole new life inside of you, and you need to learn that you need some help." Tobias is still calm as can be.
"Four, I don't need your help!" I yell.
"Yes you do. Tris, if you are busy making care of our daughter, who is going to take care of you?" It takes almost everything inside not to scream at him.
"Okay, first of all, this baby isn't coming out for another six months so I don't really have to take care of anyone yet-" before I can finish, Four interrupts me.
"Tris, that's not true. You still have to take care for her, even though she isn't born yet. You need to start eating right and doing small workouts. Nothing too big, just like small stretches in the mornings."
"Why are you trying so hard? Don't you understand? I don't want your help! You really don't get it. I can take care of myself, and if you tell me what to do one more time, I'm going to loose it!" My shouting gets louder and louder with each sentence.
"Tris I'm only trying to help!" Now he is yelling.
I walk off I to the kitchen trying to get away from him, but he just follows. "Tris, please, talk to me." He reaches for my hand, but I pull it away.
"Don't touch me." I mumble.
"Please! Please don't shut me out!" Tobias' voice is isn't calm, but it isn't angry either.
"I'm not trying to!" I scream.
"Then why are you acting this way?"
"Because I can't be a mother! I don't want to be. I'm only seventeen years old. I shouldn't be stressing about being a mother, I should trying to figure out if I love you. Or going to parties with my friends. I just want to be a teenager. I'm not ready to be a mother!" I have calmed a little bit, but not enough.
"And you think I want to be a father right now!? No, I don't! I want to go to parties too, and drink until I can't remember anything, and be stupid with my friends, but neither of us can do that now! We are in this together!" I forgot how scary Tobias can be when he is angry. He becomes a totally different person.
"Yeah, well maybe we shouldn't be!" I regret this the moment I say it.
"Maybe you're right." He agrees quietly.
"Fine! But if you leave, don't bother coming back!" I yell as he walks to the front door. He opens the door and walks out. I run after him, but stop once I stand in the middle of the hall and he is walking away from me. "I mean it Four, if you walk away, you're not coming back!" I scream at him until he turns the corner and I can no longer see him.
I walk back inside and collapse against the door, crying. 'What did I just do?' I ask myself. 'I just ruined the best thing I had going for me.'
My legs are pulled to my chest and my head rests on my knees with my arms covering my face. I don't know how I'm going to get through this.
Please dont hate me. It's all a part of the plan. I have everything planned in my head, i just need to write it out. So, with that out of the way, i wanted to talk about my posting schedule. lately i have been posting whenever i have time, or finish a chapter, but i decided to try and make this work. I will be trying to post a new chapter every monday and friday. I think this will be better for me personally because i have just been writing whenever i feel the need, and that isnt fair to those of you that actually read my work. Anyway, I hope you liked the chapter, even though it didnt end all that well for Tris.
I love you guys. See you Monday with a new chapter. BYE 3
