Chapter 25

A place where we belong

"McKinley High, New Directions" said Rod Remington, screaming.

"Congratulations, you guys are awaited in New York in less than two month for Nationals. Congratulation again." said the judge, applauding.

Then, Rachel couldn't stop herself and jumped on stage. She tried to find Finn who was pretty easy to spot due to his height.

When he saw her running toward him, he walked to meet her. He welcomed her arms wide open and held her for what seemed to them eternity. Eyes closed, they savoured the real moment they were leaving at this very moment, after harsh months apart, after fighting, after mean words, but, this very instant, nothing counted for them, but the presence of one another.

They were interrupted by the others who came to congratulate their captain. Rachel reluctantly let go of Finn. She went back to her seat, in the audience, letting her ex teammates celebrate all together. That moment, for a painful minute, Rachel regretted leaving; she wished she could still be part of their something special.

They came back to her, a giant trophy in hands. Finn sat next to her.

"This is part yours. I couldn't have sung my song like I did without you in the audience." said Finn, taking her hand, kissed it.

Rachel was about to speak when Mr. Shuster interrupted them. He invited them to his house for Pizza.

They all cheered and went to their teacher's house to celebrate.

They all ate and talked for hours. Rachel told them about how great life was for her in her new city, but she told them that she was missing them too, all of them in their own way; she missed their individuality; because, in her school, everybody were only trying to look and play the part.

She met Kevin, the new guy who was really nice and got to know Blaine a little.

All dinner long, Finn had remained at her side. He often glanced at her and smiled, his shining half-crooked smile, his eyes full of stars and she could only look at him in the same way.

The students started to leave at nine.

At nine thirty, Kurt came to see Finn. He told his brother he was leaving. He asked Finn if he wanted to go back home with him. The tall guy responded that he would help Mr Shuster cleaning up. Saying it, he looked at Rachel. Then, Kurt understood he had other projects.

Kurt and Blaine came to see Rachel. They both held her and thanked her for the luck she had brought with her from New York. Kurt made her promise to send them tickets for her play's premiere, she kissed them both and said goodbye.

Rachel and Finn started to help Mr Shuster cleaning his place, but soon Mr. Shuster showed them the door, saying that they had more interesting things to do than helping him to clean this mess. Mr Shuster asked Rachel if she needed a ride home, but Rachel told him that she was about to ask Finn. More than happy to hear it, the boy shook his head happily. Then, he went to put on his coat and held Rachel's for her. She put it on and went to Mr Shuster. She told him goodbye and thanked him. He thanked her for coming and told her that she would always be welcomed to visit them. Finally, she left the house with Finn.

Finn drove to her house silently and slowly, he wanted their encounter to last as long as possible. However, he didn't know what to say; he didn't want to put a foot in his mouth like he had the tendency to do.

Ten minutes later, they arrived in front of the house and he stopped the engine. He slowly opened his door and she did the same on her side of the car. They met on the sidewalk and walked together to the door, looking at each other shyly, as if they were a young new couple in love.

Then, Rachel fumbled into her coat pocket, got her house keys and entered the house, but as she was about to get in, Finn grabbed her and kissed her.

"I needed to do that, I couldn't wait anymore." said Finn as he took a step back.

In only response, Rachel took his hand and dragged him inside, closing the door behind them.

Once inside, they both took off their coats and put them on the couch. Then, Rachel went to the kitchen and prepared two hot chocolate, she knew that Finn would be thrill about it.

Finn remained in the living room and sat on the couch, hands sweaty, heart beating fast. He was wondering what she was doing in the kitchen. Nervous, he rose off the couch and walked toward the bookcase.

Few minutes after, she came back to the living room with two full cups of the smoky liquid. Finn was looking at the movies displayed in the bookcase.

"Is this the play you are going to be in?" Finn asked her, holding the DVD.

"Yes, it is." said Rachel, holding his cup to him.

Finn put the DVD down and gently took his cup from Rachel hand, taking his time so their hands would brush against one another.

"Have you ever seen it?" Rachel asked Finn, sitting on the couch, sipping her hot chocolate.

"No! Never seen it!" said Finn, sitting next to her, taking a sip too.

"Do you want to? I mean, it's a long musical and you probably want to go home and sleep after the long day you just had." said Rachel quickly to Finn, but hoping he would stay.

"I'd love to stay and watch it with you." said Finn looking at her lovingly and patting her hand.

Then, Rachel left her hot chocolate on the living room table, took the DVD in one hand and dragged Finn with the other one.

"We will be more comfortable in my room and you'll be able to sleep if you are tired." said Rachel, dragging him upstairs.

A lot of things were going on in Finn's mind, but sleeping wasn't one of them. He let her dragged him upstairs, praying he would be able to control himself.

Once in her room, Rachel set the clock at 3 AM. She had to be back to NYC early next morning; she had given her word to Mrs. Simmons and she wanted to keep it. Rachel wanted to be sure to wake on time if she fell asleep, which she doubted as long as she was with Finn; she wanted to take advantage of his presence as much as she could.

After setting her clock, she put the DVD in the lector device. She came back to her bed, took off the quilt from her bed, she took off her shoes and spread herself down on the bed. Then, she invited Finn to lay himself next to her. Without hesitation, he took of his shoes and did as she said.

Then, she waited for him to be rightly settled next to her and pressed her head on his shoulder. Seeing that he wasn't pushing her away, she circled his torso with one arm. She stretched to close the light and pushed play.

After the movie, they both stretched and Finn turned his head to Rachel. She stretched to open the light.

"It's a beautiful movie Rachel, sad, but beautiful. You'll be perfect in it." said Finn stretching some more. "You are playing the Maria role, right?" asked Finn unsure.

"Yes! It is a wonderful role to start with and I hope to make my teacher proud. Matt and I are working very hard to make our partnership as real as we can." said Rachel, turning herself to face Finn.

"Who's Matt?" said Finn, frowning.

"He portrays Tony. He is really good." said Rachel, wanting to compare her co-start to Jessie St-James, but kept herself to do so, knowing that it could lead to an awkward moment between her and Finn.

"Do you guys will really kiss and have hot steamy scene on stage." said Finn, as he rose a little from the bed.

To answer his question, Rachel rose a little from the bed, met Finn and kissed him passionately. He responded to her. Soon she was straddling him and she stopped the kiss, but her face reminded centimetres from his.

"That was for real Finn! On stage, it can look like this, but no one ever made me feel like you do, inside me I mean, and I doubt no one will ever do Finn, through good times and bad times, you are my heart Finn." said Rachel, caressing his face. "And if it does look like this on stage, it can only mean one thing; I am imagining you doing It." she said as she leaned to kiss him again.

They kissed for few more minutes, than Rachel pulled out, out of breath; feeling a little hard something on her waist. It only made her breath heavier. She imaged them having sex and she surprised herself to really want it to happen. She wanted him right here, right now and when Rachel Berry wanted something she was actually getting it.

"Could I ask your help in another domain Finn?" she said, slightly licking his lips.

"Anything." Finn said, moaning.

"Make love to me Finn!" she said kissing him passionately and pushing him harder against the mattress.

"What?" asked Finn stunned, stopping kissing her, not sure he had heard right.

"I want to know what it's like to be loved and I want it to be with you." Rachel said looking lovingly at him, caressing his cheek. "I never imagined by first time being with anybody but you, Make…" said Rachel before being interrupted by Finn.

"You don't have to plead for it Rachel and you won't have to ask me twice." said Finn attacking her mouth aggressively. "I dreamed about this so many times for the past months." He added between two fierce kisses and taking his shirt off.

They made love.

They kissed each other, aggressively, but still lovingly. After caressing his torso, she reached for his belt and he took his pants off. Then, still wearing his boxers, he undressed her gently, taking time to kiss every ounce of skin he exposed. As he took off her underwear, he kept looking at her with nothing but love in his eyes. She was so beautiful. Then, he took off his boxers quickly and pulled the cover over them. Then, above her, he kissed her gently, kissed her neck, her breast and came back to her face, her lips. Then, he starred at her, touching her hair.

"I am ready Finn." she said parting her legs wider to give him more access.

Then, he entered her slowly looking at her face, hopping it wasn't hurting her too painfully. He didn't know what being with a virgin was like. When, he saw she was adjusting, he pushed a little further and moved slowly into her. Finn stopped his movements when he heard few sharp cries.

"It's okay Finn, I knew it wouldn't be a walk in the pack, but I know it's going to become more pleasurable if you keep going. " said Rachel sharply.

So, Finn kept going, but he kept hearing the sharp noises and tried to forget them, but he couldn't stop thinking that he was hurting her.

"I love you Finn." Rachel finally moaned.

That moaned was all it took to Finn to speed up and finally give in to passion, his and hers.

Rachel hadn't slept that night. After making love 3 times with Finn, the first two times had been really quick, she was fumbling into his sweating spiked hair; she was watching him sleeping.

She was already up and dressing herself up when her clock buzzed. She tried to close it before waking Finn up. Unfortunately, he grabbed her from behind and brought her back to bed. He placed himself above her and kissed her.

"Good morning baby." said Finn, yawning. "Ready for another round?" he said kissing her again and trying to pull her shirt off.

As much as she wanted to surrender to Finn's request, she couldn't. Furthermore and deeply unwillingly, she had to crush his dreams and hers.

"I can't Finn, my train is leaving at 5 and I got to be at the train station in less than one hour." said Rachel, gathering the strength to get out of his grip.

Then, Finn came back to reality. He rose from the bed and put his boxers back on.

"I thought you would stay a little longer since we..." said Finn standing almost naked before her.

"We made love, but it doesn't change the fact that I am going back to NYC." said Rachel, avoiding his gaze and his body not to break into tears.

"No, I know you'd go back, but you will come back, won't you?" said Finn taking her hand.

"I don't know Finn." said Rachel, a tears falling from her eyes.

"But we are a couple now Rachel, we made love." said Finn, whipping her tears.

"No, Finn, we can't be one; I am Rachel and you are Finn, but we can't be an Us, at least for now, not when we are so far away from one another." said Rachel, turning her back on Finn. "I can't ask you this Finn." said Rachel, leaving the room and going back downstairs.

Finn took back his clothes and got dressed. Then, he ran downstairs. There, he saw Rachel sitting on the couch, hanging up as she started to cry. He stood in front of her and extended his hand to her. She took it and jumped into his arms.

"A part of me doesn't want to go Finn, but I have to." She said crying even louder. "You have to let me go." she added, stepping back from his arms.

"What do you mean when you say that I have to let you go?" said Finn, taking her by the shoulders.

"Live your life even if it means one without me!" she said sniffing.

"I can't Rachel and even if I could, I don't want to! You are a part of me and you'll remember me all your life; I will never say farewell to you, not forever. I am letting you go, but you will come back to me, Rachel Berry, or I'll be the one coming back to you." said Finn, almost shaking Rachel.

Then, they were interrupted by a car horn. Then, Rachel took a step back.

"It's my cab, I got to go." she said to Finn, whipping her tears.

She walked to the door, bringing her bag with her. She put on her coat. Finn imitated her. He took the bag from her hand as she went out of the room.

"You know I could have given you a ride to the train station." said Finn gently as he looked at Rachel locking the door of the house.

"I didn't want to make things harder than they are." said Rachel, walking to the cab, followed by Finn.

Rachel opened the door of the cab. She took her bag from Finn's hands and put it into the cab. Then, she sat in it and closed the door quickly behind her. She lowered the glass and pulled her head out off the cab. Finn took advantage of her move and lean to kiss her, he kissed her passionately.

"You can't forget me Rachel and neither can I; it's as simple as that. You are my missing puzzle piece and I am yours, deal with it! I know I am not the sharpest tool around, but I am sure about this." said Finn as the car's engine started. He finally backed up.

"I love you Rachel Berry." screamed Finn, seeing the cab going away, watching his heart leaving for New York.