The next few days Morinaga really didn't show up at the University at all. Souichi knew exactly why, but didn't really understand it.
He, again, couldn't concentrate on his work at all. Now they were a matching pair with Kimura. Souichi decided that he leave his experiments for a while. He didn't want to mess it up even more.
One night, Souichi was at home. He tried to do some paperwork but gave up soon.
He sat in the living room by the table. His elbow on it, and his head rested in his hand. He crumbled 6 cigarettes into the ashtray, then flicked the tobacco pieces all over the table.
What a waste… It was expensive. And I'm the one who's gonna clean it up…
"Fuck!" He blurted out in his frustration. Then someone rang the doorbell.
"Morinaga?" He jumped up and ran to the door and opened it. "Mo…"
"Hi-hi! It's sooo nice to see you again, my favorite karaoke partner!"
Souichi rolled his eyes and shut the door without a word. Of course, he still has his keys. He would just come in…
Then Isogai rang the doorbell again. Souichi went back to the door and opened it.
"What?"
"How can you greet your friend like that! I'm hurt, you know."
"I don't see any friend here."
"Ouch. Nah, come on, will you let me in?"
"Why would I?"
"You said I can stay at your place for these few days while I'm in the area."
"What the hell are you talking about? I never said anything like that! Get lost!" He wanted to shut the door, but Isogai stepped on the doorstep.
"So you were just as drunk as you sounded… anyways, I'm here on business for a while, and I didn't book a hotel, so please let me in." He just pushed Souichi aside and went into the apartment. "I was so looking forward to your very favorite kouhai's cooking. I was very impressed last time. Where is he?"
"You think I know?" Souichi stood in the doorway with folded arms. He was ready to explore any moment.
"Huh? He's out? Well, whatever. How are you two doing?"
"Shut the hell up!" Souichi slammed the door and went into the living room after Isogai.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"He's not here! He's not out, but he left! He moved out! I don't fucking know where he is!"
Isogai seemed to be kind of shocked. "What happened?"
"You really think I want to talk it over with you?"
"Come on! We're friends."
"No we aren't! Now get lost!"
"Hey, that wasn't too nice. Look I really didn't book a hotel, I can't go anywhere, you have to let me stay here." Souichi was really mad, but he knew Isogai enough to know that there was no way he can kick him out if he wanted to stay.
"Do whatever the fuck you want." He turned to walk away into his room.
"Thanks! Then, um, where can I stay? Can I use that room?" Souichi looked back, he saw Isogai pointing innocently at Morinaga's room.
"No!"
"Is this yours?"
"No."
"So his."
"So what if it's his?"
"You tell me." Souichi wasn't going to answer; he gave up.
"Fine, use that room, at least I won't bump into you every minute!" he yelled "If you make any more noise than necessary, I'll kick you out. And if you want to eat something, order a pizza, 'coz I don't have anything. And order one for me too." He went into his room and shut the door behind himself.
"Wow, what a friendly atmosphere." He reached into his pocket for a flyer of a pizzeria he was given on the train station, and ordered two family-size pizza and beer. A lot of beer.
While Isogai waited for the pizza, he unpacked his things he needed at the moment, then switched on the TV. Souichi almost immediately came out of his room.
"I believe I said I'll kick you out if you make any noise!"
"Any more noise than necessary, you said. But I really can't watch TV without the voice, so it is necessary."
"Arrgh!"
"Hey, why don't you stay a little? You could tell me what happened…" He winked at him.
"You wish."
"Nah, really, I even ordered pizza and beer."
"Fine, let me know when it's here." he said, and went back to his room.
A half-hour later the doorbell rang again; Isogai went for it, and came back with the big pack of food and beer.
"Sou-kun! Beer's here!"
"Finally!" Souichi flew out of his room.
"Here," he offered the pizza. "Have a beer, too."
"Ah, thank god!" He grabbed a bottle and opened it. He drank almost the whole bottle with one gulp. Isogai just watched, he thought he might drown into it. Souichi already reached for the second one.
Isogai blinked. "Enjoy."
…
Two pizzas and a shitload of beer later Isogai was lying on the floor. He balanced a beer-bottle on his forehead. Souichi was lying on the couch, staring at the ceiling.
"Naah, Sou-kun… tell me. Tell me, tell me…! What did you do to him?"
"Noneofyourbusiness."
"Comeoooon… we're buddies! You have to tell me!"
"We are sooo not buddies."
"We are! We even sing karaoke together!"
"Say karaoke again, and I kick you out."
"You're drunk, Sou-kun."
"No, you are."
For a moment, Souichi though Isogai won't nag him anymore, but he continued.
"So he moved out…"
"He did that."
"So… where is he living now?"
"Hell if I know…"
"He didn't tell you?"
"Not really…"
"But what did you do to him?"
"Nothing."
Isogai put the bottle on the floor from his forehead, and sat up, looking at Souichi. He was concentrating for a moment, not to puke when he begins to speak.
"And nothing means…?"
"Nothing means nothing! Mind your own business!"
"His problem was that you still haven't told him you liked him, wasn't it? Come on, why don't you admit that you are just as crazy about him as he is about you. He's such a puppy."
"There's nothing to admit!" Souichi sat up too. "It was just a stupid deal anyways."
"Is that so?" Isogai looked down on the pizza boxes. "Hm… Then it's good that he's gone, isn't it?"
"He's gone…" Souichi echoed him and laid back on the couch, and threw his arms over his head.
"Shouldn't you be happy then?"
"Probably I should be."
"You don't seem to be happy, though…"
"Shut your mouth."
"Sou-kun, you should be a bit nicer to people…"
"Shut up."
"Nah, don't be so rude. I like you, you know. You're such a character." he teased.
"Don't say a guy you like him! Are a fucking homo too?"
"No… I'm 100% heterosexual…" but he frowned a little, as his friend, Kurokawa came into his mind. Then he shook his head.
"Good." said Souichi.
"But if I were, I'd jump on you, you know."
"Shut your mouth, fucker!" Isogai laid back on the floor, too, then asked:
"When are we going to sing karaoke again?"
"Never."
"You're such a killjoy!"
"I'm gonna sing karaoke on your funeral. I even dance on your grave if you want me to."
"Sou-kun, you are so entertaining!"
"Shut up already."
"Okay."
"Is there any beer left?"
"I don't think so…"
"Go buy some."
"Eeeh?"
…
Few days later…
Souichi was sitting in the living room. His notebook and some papers before him; he was doodling something, but didn't even focused on the papers. He could only think of that night in the lab with Morinaga, and what happened there; they haven't met since then. He was very deep in his thoughts.
Isogai came out of his - formerly Morinaga's - room, and headed for the kitchen. As he passed by Souichi, he stopped and looked down on the papers.
"Sou-kun, it's a masterpiece!" Souichi glanced up at him apathetic, then down at his paper. "You should keep it. It's pretty."
He then realized that he scribbled full the whole page with the kanji for "mori". He rolled his eyes and crumbled the paper.
Then smoothed it, to see what that paper was.
Fuck… it's was from my report.
"Do you long for the nature?" Isogai asked from the kitchen.
"Would you stop nagging me?" He shut his notebook, rose to his feet and headed to his room. "I'm tired, I'm going to sleep."
"Night Sou-kun." said Isogai, chewing some Morinaga chocolate-bar, and wondered if it was a coincidence that Souichi bought that.
(note: I swear there is Morinaga-chocolate, but I couldn't link it. :()
…
The doorbell rang. Souichi ran to the door, opened it and there he was.
"Morinaga…"
"Senpai, I can't do this anymore, I miss you so much!"
"I miss you too!"
Morinaga pulled Souichi close, and kissed him. Morinaga ran his hands down to Souichi's ass, and was kissing his neck. Souichi could only moan, what was only fuel to the fire. Souichi grabbed Morinaga's hair, and they broke the kiss just long enough to take off each other's shirts. They started fidgeting with each other's belt, but Souichi pressed himself into Morinaga so hard, they barely could take it off. He wrapped his hands around Morinaga. Morinaga pulled the rubber band free from Souichi's hair, then he grabbed Souichi and lifted him, holding him up against himself by his ass. Souichi wrapped his legs around Morinaga's waist and buried his face into Morinaga's neck, kissing it.
"Oh, god, Senpai!"
Morinaga carried Souichi into his room and laid him down on the bed. He tried to stand up to take off his and Souichi's pants, but Souichi still held him with his legs, and wouldn't let him go. He held him tight against his body, as Morinaga ground his groin into Souichi's and they both groaned louder and louder.
"Senpai… ah… Senpai!
"Morinaga… ahh…love you… I love you!"-
Souichi woke up panting so hard, he thought he's having a heart attack.
"What the hell was that?"
He sat in his bed, panting, sweating.
Why am I having this kind of dreams?
Did I really tell him that I…?
I have to take a shower…
…
Morinaga sat up, blinking amazed in the darkness.
"What a weird dream."
Can't he just leave me alone at least in my dreams? Shit, I guess it's better if I go to the bathroom with this…
…
A week later
Morinaga's last day at the University came. His friends gave him an impromptu farewell party. They had fun. They laughed, drank – only juice of course - and ate some cute cupcakes which a girl, who was probably secretly in love with Morinaga, made.
Souichi sat in his lab and listened to them as they laughed almost constantly.
I can't let him go just like that… What should I do? I don't want this!
Souichi made up his mind; stood up, and stormed out of the lab. He headed for the next room, where Morinaga and his classmates were.
"Tatsumi-senpai! Sorry if we're too loud, we just…"
He stepped to Morinaga and grabbed him by the arm.
"Would you excuse us for a sec? Come!"
"Senpai wait! What is it?"
He dragged him out of the room, and brought him into his lab.
"Kimura, get out."
"'Kay!" Kimura ran out in an eye blink, and Souichi shut the door and locked it, then turned to face Morinaga who looked more confused than ever.
"What the hell are you doing, Senpai?"
"I want you to come back."
"What?" He wasn't sure he heard correctly.
"You heard me."
"I don't understand a thing!"
"I want everything back as it was!" he declared.
"Well I don't want everything exactly as it was."
"You have to come back." Souichi was adamant.
"Senpai, I already signed the contract with the company. I can't come back."
"I know, I didn't mean the University. You have to come back to me. Move back."
"I can't do that."
"Why?"
"I can't! I can't because for me it's nothing but painful to be with you! I'm not willing to bear with it anymore."
"You can't do this to me."
"You made me do this." He rubbed his face in his frustration and sighed nervously. "But you know what? I would forget everything for your one word! But you would never say that, you're just not that type! Even now I would happily forget and forgive everything, because after all the shit I still love you!"
"So do I!"
They both froze.
"Huh?" Morinaga cocked his head; again he wasn't sure he heard it correctly.
Souichi's eyes widened as he realized what he just slipped out. "What? No. N-n-no. I didn't say that."
"No! You can't take it back! I heard it!"
"I didn't say anything!"
"Yes, you said you love me too!"
"I never said that!"
"Senpai!" he sounded like a teacher when he rebukes a student.
Souichi looked a bit frightened at his own words, and whispered "I said that…"
Morinaga stepped to him, took his hands, then kissed him. Souichi didn't protest, but when their lips parted he said:
"We're at school, you idiot."
"Senpai! I missed you so much!" He giggled at Souichi's words, and embraced him.
"Yea… I… um… me too." Souichi was stammering, not sure what and how to say. He moved his hands around Morinaga, who buried his face into his senpai's hair, breathing in his scent, and whispered almost painfully:
"Why have you waited so long?"
Souichi didn't answer just tightened his arms around him. He was about to cry, but gather all his power, and held back his tears.
They were like this for a few minutes, then Morinaga said:
"How about I say goodbye to my friends, and then we get out of here?"
Souichi's cheeks flushed hard. "Uhum…" He nodded, but added mumbling: "that's really the only thing you can think of, isn't it?"
Morinaga smiled, because he could tell, that Souichi had said that rather just out of habit, but without any anger in his voice.
They disentangled themselves of each other's arms. Souichi unlocked the lab, and as he opened the door, Kimura, who was sitting in the doorway, fell back into the lab, onto their feet. Morinaga almost burst out laughing, but Souichi's blood pressure increased dangerously.
"I did not hear a word…" said Kimura innocently.
….
Souichi put on his jacket and went for Morinaga.
Morinaga thanked the farewell party, and said good bye to his friends. He stood in the doorway and started to say something more, but then Souichi came, didn't even stop, and just grabbed him by his cloths and dragged him out of hallway.
"Ek! Senpai, wait!" Once they were away from the crowd, Souichi stopped and turned to face Morinaga.
"You haven't answered." Souichi was blushing, as always.
"To what?" Morinaga looked confused.
"If you are going to move back into our place…"
Morinaga broke into a wide smile, and said happily. "Yes, I move back."
"Good." Souichi tried to sound stolid, then turned back and started to walk, but Morinaga stopped him.
"But… I have conditions…" he quoted Senpai's own words from a few months ago.
"What?" he looked at him suspiciously.
"We have to get rid of that lock on your door already…"
"You bastard…" Souichi stormed out of the building and Morinaga ran after him laughing.
…
They arrived home, Souichi opened the door, and they went into the apartment. Morinaga kicked the door shut and grabbed Souichi's arm, spun him around and kissed him.
"Hey" Souichi tried to push him away a little, but without much effort in his movement. Morinaga pulled him closer and kissed him again.
"I missed you so much, Senpai." he whispered in his ear, which sent a shiver through Souichi's body. Morinaga led him to the couch, pushed him down on it, and dropped down onto his knees in front of him. He leaned in to kiss Souichi again, and slid his fingers through his senpai's hair, then down to his chest, and unbuttoned his shirt. Then brushed his lips over his neck, his collarbone, his chest; then he was kissing his belly while his hands went down to Souichi's groin. Souichi breathed heavily; whimpered and moaned. Morinaga undid Souichi's pants and briefs, then brushed his fingers over Souichi's shaft. He licked his lips and took him in his mouth.
"Ahh, wait…n-no…" Souichi tired to protest, but his breath caught in his throat. He got a handful of his kouhai's hair, and tried to stop him. Morinaga ran his hand up to touch Souichi's jaw, and brushed his lips with his fingers, then slipped one in the man's mouth.
He worked his mouth up and down on Souichi's cock, and Souichi was just about to lose his mind. His hands still in Morinaga's hair, stroking it. He dropped his head back. He was already so close; he tried to push Morinaga away, but he was so lost in the sensation the man gave him, he couldn't form any word to protest; he only groaned louder and louder. He tensed every muscle, and instead of pushing Morinaga away, he gripped his hair, and pushed his head down and held him in place while he came into his mouth. He cried out so loud that everyone in the building had to hear him. But at the moment he couldn't care less about it. He was panting hard, his eyes closed. Morinaga straightened his back, tried to catch his breath. He licked his lips and smiled, then leaned forward to kiss Souichi who was very close to unconsciousness. He stroked his senpai's hair, and watched his expression on his face. He was about to say something when he heard someone from his old room.
"Way to go, guys!"
Morinaga's smile froze on his face; he gave quite a grotesque sight. Souichi suddenly came to his senses, and looked at Morinaga, his eyes widened as the realization hit him.
"Fuck!"
"Senpai?" Morinaga sounded ominous.
"I-I-I can explain everything…"