Thanks for reading so far! If you could review and tell me how I'm getting on that would be very much appreciated. This is my first ever fic so I'm not sure if I'm doing ok! The end of this chapter switches POV to Sian while the girls are having a conversation. This just allows you all to see Sian's reaction to the conversation. Hope this works! Sorry about grammer mistakes, sometimes I don't pick them up when I'm reading the chapter back through!

It was Saturday and even after spending all week together at school me and Sian spent the afternoon sitting lazily in the park. It was a warm day so we sat in strappy tops and jeans enjoying the only bit of sun the UK would get to see this year. I couldn't quite believe my luck. Out of all the people in our school I couldn't believe that Sian wanted to spend it with me. Feelings of self doubt often followed me but unfortunately the more time I spent with Sian the more often I felt them. I just didn't feel good enough for her.

"So how's it going with Ryan?" I asked her, I knew she hadn't seen him since we'd been round to his house but she was constantly on her mobile texting him.

She looked over at me with her sparking blue eyes. To me they looked beautiful but there was an element of sadness expressed in them.

"I dunno," she said searching for the right words to describe how she felt, "it's just not really much of a laugh. Our conversations are a bit boring and when I'm with him I feel like I'm constantly searching for something to say to stop it from being awkward." This made my heart skip lightly but I ignored the feeling that had become so prominent when I was with her.

"It's like," she continued, "when I'm with you and we're just hanging out I don't feel like I constantly have to talk nonsense to stop it being awkward. It's just effortless. But with Ryan I feel like I'm working harder than I do at school just to keep the conversation flowing. It's kinda tiring."

Even though her words comforted me I still felt confused. There she praising me and our friendship yet I still had no idea why she hung out with me. I was burning to know yet I was scared to ask.

"Sian, I want to... Ask you something it's gonna sound kinda weird!"

She looked up waiting for me to continue but the words stuck in my mouth.

"What's up?" she sounded intrigued.

"I dunno how to put it."

"Sophie it's me you're talking to. You know you can tell me anything." I considered her words for a second and decided I had to ask her or else it would drive me mad.

"Why are you so bothered?" I asked her.

"Bothered about what?"

"Well... like why do you hang out with me? I know that sounds really lame but it's just been getting to me."

She looked at me stunned for a second then cracked a smile.

"Are you being serious?" She laughed.

"Eh yeah I am."

"Really? This isn't like one of your jokes?"

"No."

"Really?"

"Sian, why are you finding this so funny?" I said slightly hurt. What was making her laugh at me?

"Sorry Soph. I just find that such a weird question. You're my best friend. Why wouldn't I want to hang out with you?"

I shrugged not wanting to tell her what was really on my mind but she could see right through me.

"Sophie, come on you can't just ask a question like that and not do any explaining. What would make you even think about that?" I felt completely out of my depth now. I didn't want to let slip how much she meant to me but at the same time I wanted to see if I meant anything to her.

"I dunno it's just you could be one of the most popular girls in school yet you choose to hang around with me," I said openly, "all the boys fancy you yet you choose to hang around with me. It just doesn't fit." I looked down to the floor waiting on her to agree with me but when I looked up into her eyes she looked flabbergasted by my outburst.

"Soph, you have to believe me. You're more important to me than anybody in the world. Any lad, even my own family. I hang around with you because we have fun and you get me. You know I have more fun with you than all our friends put together. I'd trade all of them for you. You have to believe me about that." She looked at me honestly her eyes glowing with a look of fondness that was all for me. I stared back allowing some sort of spark ignite between us. My stomach was flipping like pancakes and all I wanted to do was reach out and touch her but I couldn't pluck up the courage. I broke our gaze again feeling I would do something I would later end up regretting.

"Thanks," I said shyly.

"Any time best friend."

Sian POV

I couldn't believe that I just had to explain how much she meant to me. Didn't she know that already. I thought she would have known that I couldn't live without her. That every morning I wake up and get excited about spending time with her. If anything I didn't deserve someone like her. She was caring, sweet, honest and she didn't even know it. She'd never been given enough credit from her Mum and Dad and I know realised that they had lodged major insecurities in her.

As I continued to look into her eyes the warmth within them made my heart melt. She was beautiful. I wanted to tell her this but I knew that that wasn't really what friends did.

"Thanks," she said finally breaking our eye contact.

"Any time best friend." I felt these worlds were appropriate because the feelings I had been experiencing mere seconds earlier weren't feelings of friendship. I needed to reinforce in my own mind more than hers that that's all we were.

As my heart beat turned back to normal the weird moment passed too.

"Are you OK?" I checked.

"Yeah sorry, you know what I'm like. Sometimes I feel like I'm always in other people's shadows."

"Well you're not OK. Me and you are equal. Now lets get away from all this serious chat and go get some chips.