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Sophie POV

I spent all of Sunday in a state of panic. I wanted to go round and see her but I took Rosie's advice and agreed to give her a bit of space. On Monday morning I waited for Sian to come round to my house before school, like she did everyday so we could catch the bus together. But she didn't. When I got to school I saw her with our group of friends already, she must have got here early to avoid me. I went over to them and joined in on the conversation but I felt false. I just wanted to speak to her. But she wouldn't look at me. The rest of the day was similar and so was the rest of the week. Me and Sian would be together within our group of friends but she made sure we were never alone together or she never sat right next to me. It felt like a kick in the face. I felt jealous when she was around the other girls. She laughed and joked with them like she had done with me and it hurt. It hurt to see how easily she could replace me.

Sian POV

I knew I was a complete and utter bitch for doing this but I just couldn't speak to her. If I did then I would probably succumb to my feelings for her. If I was near her all I wanted to do was talk to her but I didn't let myself. In fact all I wanted to do was hold her and tell her I was sorry for being a jerk and that I loved her but I couldn't. I wasn't brave enough and I doubted myself to much. So I put on a brave face and pretended that she didn't exist when in reality inside my head all I could think about was her. She meant everything to me and it scared me. If we did get together and things messed up then I would lose my world because in time I knew my feelings would only intensify for her. They were already so strong. It was better to distance myself now before I felt anymore in love with her.

I needed a distraction from her and I realised I had the perfect person

Sophie POV

The week had been probably one of the longest of my life. School was so dull without Sian constantly by my side. Jealousy seemed to make time tick by so slowly. On Saturday morning I decided to stay in bed rather than face another day without her. As I snuggled into my duvet my door flung open.

"Right get up now," I heard Rosie's voice order.

"Rosie just go away will you?" I said sleepily.

"Come on Sophie it's 1 o'clock in the afternoon. I am not having you sulking anymore."

"Is it? Oh well," I said not really caring.

"Soph if she won't talk to you at school them you're gonna have to go speak to her yourself. I bet she'd just being a wimp. Be brave Sophie I know you are." She was practically begging me.

"Why do you care so much?"

"Coz I actually care about your happiness. And you're well boring without Sian."

"Thanks," I muttered as she flounced out of the room in her usual Rosie manner. But she was right. I did need to speak to her. At least try and get her speaking to me again so then maybe we could go back to being friends. I missed her so much.

The walk to Sian's usually only took 15 minutes but I was dragging my feet and nearly turned back twice making the walk feel much longer. I got to her door and hesitated a few times but finally raised enough courage to ring the door bell. There was a lot of movement and scurrying until I saw the blonde figure finally open the door.

"Hey," I said to her nervously.

"Hey Soph, sorry but this really isn't a good time."

"When is Sian! Coz you don't talk to me at school, you don't come round my house anymore. You act like I don't exist! Please, please just talk to me." I barged past her giving her no choice but to let me into her house. I walked upstairs into her room before she could stop me. There was no way she was escaping talking to me. I'd stay here till we had spoken properly.

I opened the door of her bedroom but the site that met my eyes was not a welcome one. Ryan was lying on her bed with his top off looking very pleased with himself.

"Oh hey Sophie," he said casually not realising that him being there has just torn my world in two. "Thought you and Sian had fallen out?" Anger boiled from my insides. I felt sick, sick with envy and jealousy but most of all sick with disappointment and sadness. She didn't love me.

"Is that what she told you?" I said aggressively. I was about to continue but Sian cut me off before I could say anything else.

"Erm Ryan, would you mind leaving for a while? Me and Sophie need to have a chat." He looked pissed off but agreed to go. There was an awkward silence as he put his top back on. He then walked over to Sian gave her a hug before leaving.

"Aww isn't that nice. Bagged yourself the perfect man there. Thought you said you didn't really like him?"

"Yeah well things change," she said shyly her eyes not reaching mine, "so what do you want?"

"I wanted to sort stuff; our friendship. I miss you." Sian softened at my words but she shook herself then looked at me in the eyes.

"There's nothing to sort out. We've just grown apart that's all."

"That's absolute crap and you know it. Sian do you really want me to say it out loud because I will." She said nothing.

"We Kissed," I said to her slowly, "We very nearly did more than that too. And it wasn't just one random kiss. We spent all night together wrapped up in each other's arms."

"Ok ok I get it. It was a mistake. I'm sorry." My heart sunk, she didn't want me.

"So that's it is it? We're just gonna ignore each other for the rest of our lives?" I said to her angrily.

"Something like that." She still couldn't look at me.

"Sian, you're my best friend, for the last 5 years we've spent nearly every waking minute together."

"I don't need you anymore OK Sophie. I have new friends now." Finally her words hit me. She didn't need me anymore. I wasn't good enough for her and she had finally seen that. It wasn't even a surprise. All my life I hadn't been good enough. I'd never been good enough for my parents compared to Rosie and now Sian finally confirmed something I already knew deep down. I couldn't think of what to say so I said the only 3 words that were inside my head.

"I Love you," I said weakly.

"I'm sorry," Sian answered back. I could feel tears build in my eyes but there was one more thing I wanted to know before I left.

"Have you slept with Ryan?" She hesitated for a second.

"Yes."

That was it. The final straw. I turned around leaving the only person I had ever loved behind me.

Sian POV

"I Love you," I heard her say weakly. These words broke my heart in two. 'Come on Sian' I thought to myself. 'Be brave and tell her you love her back.' But I couldn't. I was too scared of the way she made me feel.

"I'm sorry," they were the only words I could think of. I was a coward. I could see Sophie was on the verge of tears.

"Have you slept with Ryan?" Her words stunned my brain for a second. Should I lie? If I lied then I knew she'd never forgive me and that would mean I could run from my feelings for her. Me and Ryan hadn't even kissed. He'd tried it on a few times but I couldn't do it. I didn't like him like that. And he had been sitting topless coz he'd spilt water all over his t-shirt. Nothing had happened.

"Yes." I said quietly. She believed me; she believed the lie that slipped out of my mouth. She'd finally lost all her courage and walked away, leaving me feeling like the world's most selfish bitch. I was. It was as simple as that. But I was petrified of the way she made me feel. My Mum and Dad had taught me one thing and that was that relationships never worked. It was better to be with someone like Ryan who made me feel safe then be with Sophie who I knew could rip my heart into a million pieces. But as I stood there I finally realised my mistake. I was too late. Sophie was already in my heart more then I had realised. The pain of losing her finally hit me. All I could do was curl up into a ball on the floor and cry.

What a mess.

Hope you liked it. I know most of you want them to be together straight away but this is my take on how I think their situation would have unfolded

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