Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling probably has people that can drive her all over the place, I sadly do not. Though today I could have used one. So, again, I can't be her, though I wish I was. All of these characters belong to her creative imagination.

A/N: I hope you all haven't decided to hate me and so stopped reading my story. If you have, please shoot me a review telling me how I awful I turned it. If you are still into the story, please shoot me a review telling me how you are feeling about what I'm putting our boys through. And once more, don't have me after this chapter.

Chapter 13

March 1977

If I could get a time-turner, and find the moment when the mistakes started happening more frequently I would. The question is, where would I take us. Would I have a conversation with Remus about how keeping us a secret was a bad idea? No, being in the open about it wouldn't have changed the fact that our actions could take us to Azkaban. Would I have told myself to wait to get Sirius to our room before I gave him the best suck I had ever given him? No, I loved the way his scream of my name had echoed in the alcove. Would I have made us get up and go to class after our romp? Possibly, yes if I could turn back time that is what I would have changed.

"I don't like this." Sirius pouted as I walked towards the door of our room. It was the day after the fiasco in the alcove, and I was about to track Lily down in the library. I knew she was there, because I had looked at the map to find her. I walked back to him, and ran my hand through his shaggy hair, making sure to scratch that spot he liked behind his ear.

"I don't either." I sighed as his eyes closed so he could enjoy the stroke of my fingers. "It's just the only way. You know I wish I didn't have to right?"

"I don't know James," he sighed, and my hand stopped its movement. "I don't want to think it, but I can't get this voice out of my head that keeps telling me, "he probably just did this the last six months so that he could get with her in the end." My hand more then stopped its movement, my hand completely went away from him as though I had been burned.

"Do you think so lowly of me?" I asked dropping to my knees so that I could see his face. Remus was sitting beside Sirius, with his legs crossed and facing our dark-haired lover.

"No," Sirius sighed, still looking away from me. "You just have to remember what my life was like before this James." He said in a small voice that broke my heart.

"We only know being left," Remus said. "We know you love us, and we know you're not leaving us, but still..." He shrugged as he trailed off.

"We don't have to do this," I told them, turning both of their faces so they could look at me. "We can still do my idea." I offered one last time.

"Run?" Remus asked. "No." He shook his head, and I let my hand slid down his face as I let him go.

"We're the Marauders, we lie, and hide, but never run." Sirius said, and Remus and I laughed at the comment about our fight the day before. It isn't like we had never fought. As just friends we had fought, once to the point that we almost ended our friendship. I'm glad Remus and I were able to find it in ourselves to forgive Sirius the year before, or we probably wouldn't have had this one. He had foolishly let slip the way to get into the Shack to Severus Snape on a full moon night. I had saved Snape before Moony could hurt him, but we had still been upset with Sirius for nearly a month about the things that could have happened. We had had fights, more like bickers, even over the year, but they were usually dealt with quickly. Except for that one fight where we didn't speak to each other, if we had been upset with each other as just friends we would punch each other until we got it out of our system. I liked the way we dealt with our disagreements better now, almost made you want to get in an argument just so one of them would drop to their knees and show you how wrong you were.

Before I left I kissed both of them softly but passionately so that they could remember that I loved them, everything I did, I did for them. Then with my bag thrown over my shoulder so it looked like I had gone there to study, which come on, this is me, I don't study. I went down to the library, threw Madam Pince a charming smile, she eyed me cautiously. I wondered for a moment if teachers and staff had found out as well and Dumbledore forgot to charm their minds as well. Then I remembered the last time I had met the librarian in her sanctuary of books, and laughed as I continued going to where I believed Lily to be. She was there, sitting hunched over a report, I figured it was the one Slughorn had given us the day before.

"Ello Lily," I said with a smile, and sat next to her. "This seat taken?"

"No, please join me." She answered with her own smile. The one I had worked a large chunk of my life at trying to get. "How are you, everyone's mind is charmed so that only Peter and I know, but still, how are you?"

"Loaded question," I said as I breathed a sigh. "School might not know anymore, but that doesn't mean the ministry doesn't. Everyone went crazy afterward, and Dumbledore said that a couple of people sent letters off to their parents about it. We have a meeting with the minister in Dumbledore's office tomorrow. Actually, that's why I'm here Lily." I figured it might be better to just get it over with.

"You think I can help?" She wondered as her brow raised. I nodded.

"Only if you want to, and you might not." I warned her. "You're with Cormac, so..." She interrupted me.

"Cormac is a cheating bastard, that I won't ever be talking to again." She said quickly. I raised my brow this time. "Seems you aren't the only one that likes to go for romps in alcoves around the school. While I was on patrol last night, by the way tell me how Remus is in a minute, I heard a couple behind a tapestry. I looked and there was my boyfriend snogging Stacy Melloncraft senseless, which really he didn't have far to go, but..." My jaw had dropped at the news. "Of course I dropped him at that second and took fifty points from Ravenclaw, considered taking points from Gryffindor, but I didn't know why I had to be punished as well. She has a detention instead." I had to laugh at Lily's smug look.

"Nicely done Evans," I congratulated. "Remus is, well you know how Remus is." If Remus' theory on being allowed only one best friend had been correct then Lily was to Remus what I was to Sirius, you know before all of the sex, and love, and golden magic balls.

"How can I help you?" She asked after shaking her head sadly at the thought.

"We need a door, or I need a door." She raised her brow at the way I worded it. "Do you remember how I said that the boys and I were coming out of the closet?" She nodded. "Well, we have to go back into the closet. Dumbledore has an auror friend that thinks if the minister sees that one of us has a girlfriend that he'll let this incident slid. If not, well then we get to go spend sometime with dementors."I finished my explanation with a twitch of a smile. Lily's mouth dropped at the news.

"You need me to be your door?" She asked when the idea of dementors and Azkaban was no longer taking up space in her mind. I nodded. "I have to act like a girlfriend to you, but you're in love with two boys, and you probably go to bed with two boys every night, and you do things with two boys that you should do with your girlfriend." I nodded again, thinking she was going to say no.

"I'll be the best boyfriend I can be, just don't think of what I do with...them," I wanted to say my husbands, but I knew that I couldn't She didn't need to know that, just like they didn't need to know about the kiss we had shared earlier that year. "As cheating. Besides," I said needing to find something humorous about this situation. "I'm a bi, not a gay, I can have a relationship with both girls and guys."

"And exactly what do they say about that logic?" She asked with a laugh.

"Remus would probably agree, Sirius would have my ass and not in the way I'd want him too." I said, and then froze to see how she would take that comment. When she just laughed harder I joined her.

"I'll do it," Lily agreed when we sobered. I smiled gratefully at her, and leaned in to give her a kiss of thankfulness. Just like the one we had shared in January it was soft and lasted only moments, but it was still nice. The very night Remus told us he liked us, Sirius and I had wanked him, and from there the physical aspect of our relationship had been hot and heavy. I think we all figured that since we had been best friends for five years before that night it was acceptable. With Lily things would be taken slowly, and I wasn't completely sure that was just because I was in love with Sirius and Remus and she was just a door.

The next day we had our meeting with the Minister, and Lily joined us. She told him how ridiculous the accusations were that he was making against her boyfriend, his best friend, and her best friend. Those were her words. When the Minister brought out the pictures of our necklaces, she described them as perfectly innocent friendship necklaces, and that Remus had been friends with Sirius and I for several years before they had become friends. When he pointed to the hand holding, she said that we were very touchy-feely friends, but just friends. With the facade of my girlfriend there to practically represent us, the Minister left us alone. He did make a threat that he would be watching us, just like I had known he would.

I would never say that the days I spent with Sirius and Remus were mistakes, they were not, they were the happiest days of my life. There were days when I said being with Lily was a mistake, and others when I thought it was fun. Sirius and Remus had always been my best friends, and when we added to our relationship it just made it better. Lily was the sweetest girl anyone could ever ask to be there girlfriend, and many times I felt guilty that I was keeping her away from all of the other boys that could have treated her well, only to have another relationship behind the world's back. I say it this way because Lily always knew.

She knew that I went to sleep in the same bed as Sirius and Remus, and woke up with them. She knew that I made love to them at least once a day, sometimes just in our bedroom other times in the alcoves around school. She knew that I wore a necklace that marked me as theirs, and they did the same. She knew that I loved them, and that it wasn't possible for me to love anyone as much as I loved them. She was okay with being my door. Sometimes I would treat her more like my girlfriend, by taking her to Hogsmeade, and spending time alone with her. She was the one that actually tried to make it easier on me by dragging Remus and Sirius along to the library, something Remus never minded. Sirius said that I had done something unforgivable by bringing another brainiac, study-addicted, geek into our circle. Remus and Lily would both whack him upside the head for this.

I always knew, but I never really cared. It was usually things that Remus asked of me that lead to my mistakes. He was the one that asked me to keep it a secret. He was the one that asked me to get a door. If, God forbid, I was ever to say being with them was a mistake, which it wasn't, I don't know if I could really blame Remus for that. Remus did not ask us to be with him. Remus did not even want to tell us who he liked. Remus had actually said that he was planning on telling us that September, not the who, just that he was gay, and was going to start dating. The day he said that I had tackled him and shown him exactly why the way things had happened was much better than the way he planned. One day in May was no better when Remus asked me to do something I didn't want to do.

"How far have you taken things with Lily?" He asked as we sat out by the lake, just the two of us. Lily had forced Sirius to go study for one of his finals. He had not been thrilled with this idea, but after a little encouragement from Remus and myself he had consented. I tossed a rock into the lake and spun around to look at my husband with a fierce expression.

"What?" I growled, and he put his book down, making sure to mark the page with his bookmark. He always yelled at us when we folded the ear down.

"How far have you taken things with Lily?" He asked unwavering as he locked his brown eyes with my hazel. My jaw dropped as I wondered how to answer that question. A few kisses, always soft, always short, nothing more was the truth. The real thing that had me in shock was why my husband wanted to know how far I had gone with my door.

"No where near as far as I go with you daily." I finally answered. He cocked his head to the side in that, "I'm about to give you a lecture so you should probably stop me," way he does. So the, "you should probably stop me," was something I had added to his warning, but still.

"James" He finally said.

"No," I held up my hand to stop whatever he planned on saying.

"James," he repeated, ignoring my hand. I pouted, he never ignored the hand. "You've been together for two months, I don't expect you to have gone as far as we have. We've been together for eight months, and there was that whole best friends for five years thing, and the whole, we're all red-blooded males, as well." I laughed at this. "Have you snogged her?"

"I've kissed her." I answered.

"You've chastely kissed her, I've seen that. You usually greet her as well if Sirius and I are with her, you just usually greet us a bit more enthusiastically." He said with a hand wave at his choice of words.

"Do you want to know if I've had her tongue down my throat, or how about my tongue down hers?" I growled, he didn't waver. He didn't nod at this either, but the look he gave me was enough to know that had I worded it differently he would want the answer to that question. "No, my tongue only belongs in two people's mouths. She isn't one of them."

"Yes she is," he argued. "Three, it is okay James. I can see it, you care for her." My eyes narrowed. He was asking for us to get in a fight, and this time I wasn't going to be showing him he was wrong by pulling him behind the tree and wanking him. "Don't look at me like that, it's true." I shook my head, turned away, picked up another rock and flung it into the lake.

"She is turning into a very good friend, that I kiss in front of people." I bit back as I turned around.

"She's falling for you." He said it so simply, like he had said everything else during our conversation.

"I know," I sighed as I closed my eyes.

"It is not fair to her." I looked back at him.

"You're the one that told me I had to." I shouted.

"I did not," he said calmly. "I said you didn't have to."

"Only to make me happy, first you said I had to. I did, because it would make you happy. When are you going to get it? Your happiness, Sirius happiness, are my first priority. If I have to have a door to make you happy, guess what I'm going to do." I said with a sharp look. He smiled and motioned me towards him. I walked towards him, and looked at him suspiciously. He tugged on my shirt until I leaned over and kissed him. "Yes, your happiness," I sighed as he let me go.

"Be a good boyfriend to her too James." He said, and I sighed again.

"I'm trying, but..."

"No, do." He said shaking his head. "Do." I nodded and knew that it had been long enough. Lily and I needed to step up our relationship. If people that knew we were together questioned its sincerity, how would people that only checked up us every once in a while feel about it?

A/N: So, what are you thinking? Good? Bad? What the HELL? What's for dinner? Not that I can answer that last one for you, but I still love hearing from you all.