Disclaimer: Pretty sure J.K. Rowling isn't a college student, and since I just got back from class, I'm gonna have to say I'm not her. Darn, all these characters belong to her, but if she wants to give me a nice Christmas present, I would gladly accept these boys with nothing but bows and bells on.

A/N: Uh-oh, Lily got James in trouble, well you know maybe James helped with that. What will he do, he doesn't want to sleep on the couch?

Chapter 19

December 1977

After sometime of me ignoring Lily's attempts to cheer me up, she had left. I didn't know what else to do, and I wasn't going to class. I didn't care if I was the Head Boy or not, they were more important. I put my hand in my pocket and felt the familiar piece of parchment. I pulled it out, and really only wanting to see what they would say, I tapped it with my wand and uttered, "reveal your secrets." Elegant script started to scroll across the page.

Messr. Wormtail would like Mr. Potter to remember that no matter what happens, he is still Wormtail's brother.

Messr. Moony would like Mr. Potter to know that he is a jackass, and can rot in hell for all Messr. Moony cares.

Messr. Padfoot would like to agree with Messr. Moony, and add that it should be the ninth level for he is a betrayer.

Messr. Prongs would like Mr. Potter to remember that he is the biggest idiot in the world.

I really couldn't say I disagreed with any of those comments. "I solemnly swear I am up to no good." Slowly, almost as though Messrs. Moony and Padfoot were trying to stall the process, the map began to slowly reveal itself. "Please," I sighed, "please be in the dorm, please." I begged. My eyes first shot to where our dorm was, and my heart nearly broke. They were there, and though I had watched their dots do what they were doing now before, I had always enjoyed it, not this time. In the past, when it seemed their dots were sharing the same space I used to get a thrill, almost as though it was my right to fantasize about what they were actually doing. Now, I was saddened by the fact that they were having hurt sex, and I was the one that had caused that hurt.

"If he, who actually knew what it was, can fall so easily out of it, why couldn't we?" I heard as I walked through the open door of our dorm room. They weren't having hurt sex, they were just sitting together, their backs facing the door and thus me. I stopped so I didn't interrupt their conversation. "I mean, can we, if we don't even know for sure we have it, hold onto it tighter?"

"Are you saying you're not sure your in love with me?" Sirius asked as he took his head off of Remus' shoulder.

"No, I know I love you, but it's just, never mind. We just try harder." He said, and Sirius placed his head back on Remus' shoulder.

"Cheer up love," Sirius ordered, though his own voice sounded sad.

"I don't want to cheer up, I just want him to explain." Remus said, and I heard him take in a deep breathe.

"It's not the same kind of love," I said from my place at the door. "It's not the same kind we have for Peter, but it's more like the kind you have for her Moony. It's not what we have."

"If it's that simple, why didn't you tell us?" Remus asked, and it seemed as though Sirius had nodded. Remus hadn't even flinched when I started talking, though Sirius had.

"You knew I was here?" I said as I crawled onto our bed. Remus nodded, and Sirius shook his head when he turned to look at me. "I didn't know how you would take it. But you have to remember it really is you, you're all I want." I said as I kissed Remus shoulder, and turned to look at Sirius.

"I don't believe you," Sirius said, backing away. "James, you've always been a bit spoiled, selfish. Here's your opportunity to have everything you ever wanted."

"Sirius, I already told you that this..." He interrupted me before I could go any further.

"I know, but this is your chance to have us, who you say you need, and the girl you had a crush on for three years." He finished.

"Do you want me to go end things with her?" I asked. "Moony if you will let me fight for us, I will." I offered.

"No," Remus sighed and laid down on the bed, still facing away from me.

"But you love her," Sirius reminded me.

"It's not that kind of love, I'm in love with you. Sirius, do you understand that. I love my parents, but you wouldn't get upset with me for saying that would you?" He shook his head. "I love Peter, but you wouldn't get upset with that either, right?" He agreed. "Why Lily, why the girl that I don't even want to be with, sure it's nice being with her, but it can't compare to being with you, why does that bother you?"

"Because," Sirius started.

"There was a time you used to say it," Remus continued.

"And you used to mean it the same way you mean it when you say you love us." Sirius finished. I made an "oh" sound as I began to understand what this was doing to them.

"Do you want me to end things with her, and go find someone else?" I offered. I'd still have the door, but I wouldn't have the girl that I had used to tear out Remus' heart before.

"No," Sirius answered. "She's the only one that knows, understands."

"Which is one of the reasons why I love her." I said, hoping he would get it. I was so proud when he actually did.

"It's like, it's like..." he stumbled trying to find the right words, but he got it.

"She's your best friend." Remus said as he sat up. "You wouldn't even kiss her if it wasn't for me." He said as he turned around to face me. I nodded, with a "yeah, duh" look on my face. "We're idiots." I shook my head at that. "No, we are, well I am. I feel the same way, I love Lily. She's my best friend, but I don't want to sleep with her. She's the only one I'd go to if that curiosity of what kissing a girl feels like got a hold of me."

"She's not sticky," I said and made them laugh. Ah, things were settling back into place. With them cheered up I narrowed my eyes at Remus and started to crawl across the bed towards him. Sirius, knowing what I was up to, started to join me in my hunt.

"No," Remus said as he started to move across the bed. "We have to get to class."

"Screw class," Sirius said as he continued to advance on our prey.

"Prefect," Remus said pointing to his self. "Head Boy," he pointed to me. "We can't screw class."

"We can screw each other and forget about class." I offered seconds before I leaped at him. I caught him across the chest, and we stumbled backwards. I hadn't been aware of how close we were to the edge of the bed, and when we stumbled we fell right off of it. Remus' head made a smacking sound as it collided with the hardwood floor of our dorm. "Oh," I said as I sat up, still straddling him, "are you okay?"

"Off," he growled, and I shook my head. "James," he warned. I had tried to look serious when he first told me to get off, but as soon as I felt his ache pressing against mine I couldn't keep away my smile. I rolled my hips against him, and watched as his resolve crumpled.

"I heard make-up sex was the best." I said as I leaned over, one hand on either side of his head, and growled into his ear. He whimpered, bucking his hips so that he could press against me. "We have to go to class." I reminded him, as I lifted my hips so he couldn't reach me.

"Screw class," he growled.

"Why Professor Lupin," I heard Sirius say from his place on the bed above us, "did I just hear you say, "screw class?"

"I'm not a professor," Remus answered.

"You could be," Sirius pointed out. "You could be my professor." Remus stretched his neck so he could look at Sirius, and I found the perfect opportunity to lean down and attack said neck in licks, sucks, and kisses.

"No way," Remus said before letting out a sigh when my tongue did that one thing he really liked. "I will be your prefect, but I am not being your professor." He offered, before whimpering when I pulled away so I could look at him.

"You know as a prefect, and me being the Head Boy, you're my subordinate." I reminded him.

"Oh," Sirius said with a laugh, "kinky office romance."

"I don't want to play," Remus growled before trying to buck his hips against mine. "I just want you, please." He added when again I moved my hips from his attempts. I looked back at him, and shook my head. "Why?" he breathed, having all but given up on trying to buck against me.

"You only want me," I answered. "You could lie there wanting me for hours and it wouldn't do anything to you. You could want me, and still go to class. You know that's not what I want to hear."

"I need you," he said with a smug smirk as he bucked up, and I finally let him reach the point he had been searching for. "I need you, I always want you, but right now, I need you James. I need you to suck my cock."

"Right here?" I asked looking around at the fact we were on the floor of our dorm. "Or would you like to move somewhere a bit more comfortable?" I cocked my head back towards our bed.

"No, I need you too bad to move." He answered, before reaching up and dragging my face back to his. We kissed hungrily, spurned on for our needs for the boy either under us or over us. "Wait," he said when I started to move my kisses from his lips to his jaw. "Sirius, get down here, and suck James." He ordered. "He did me last time while I did you, you never repaid him."

"Is that what you want James?" He asked a moment later. He had obviously gotten onto the floor with us, and was now leaning over me as he wrapped an arm around me and started undoing my tie. As he removed the piece of clothing from his angle, I did the same to the lover below us. Remus, being the tallest of us three, if only by a little, had long enough arms to help Sirius, while Sirius helped me, and I helped Remus. "You didn't answer me Prongs," Sirius said once our ties were gone. "Do you want me to suck you?"

"I always want you to suck me, so that's a stupid question." I growled as I felt his fingertips start moving across my chest as he flicked the buttons open. Again I did the same with Remus, and Remus did the same with Sirius. We didn't say more after that, Remus just watched us as we undressed each other, I watched Remus as Sirius undressed me, and I knew that Sirius was doing the same thing. We moved at the same speed, all of us tugging our victim's shirt at the same time, opening belts and pants. We all kicked off our own shoes, not that we needed too. We also all got rid of our own socks, it wasn't that we needed to, we just liked being completely and totally naked in front of each other.

As soon as we were undressed Sirius flipped so that he was on his back. Parting my legs, he slipped between them and pulled me so that he could lick the underside of me. I moaned before doing the same to Remus. For a second I remembered that my mouth, that was used to spewing out things like, "I love you" and "God that's good," and Sirius' mouth, that was somewhere between "I love you" and "suck me harder" were both busy. Only Remus, our sweet Remus that refused to cuss in a corridor when he stubbed his toe against a stone wall in fear of a first year hearing such things, was the only one that didn't have his mouth occupied.

"Shit," he growled after a minute. "I'm not a fucking lollipop James, stick me in your mouth and fucking suck. I didn't ask you to lick me clean like you would a fucking plate, I told you to suck me." I grinned, before putting my lips around his head and sucking, just as he had asked. I almost had to back away when Sirius did to me as Remus was truly ordering I do to him. "Don't you dare," Remus growled as he put his hand in my hair and tried pushing me down farther on him. I knew he was only using an ounce of his strength to keep me in place. If he wanted to he could push me as far down as he wanted and been the one to fuck my face, but even when he was horny and talking dirty, he still had this ability to be gentle, or as gentle as Sirius and I wanted him to be.

"James," he growled after I had teased his head for a little while, not nearly as long as he had let me just lick him. I knew what he was warning me of, and so I took him in until he hit the back of my mouth, and wrapped my hand around the rest of him. He had to hold me back again when Sirius took me even deeper into his own mouth, throat. "Hmm," he moaned as I moaned around him. "Sirius if you want me to feel really good, do that again." Sirius did as Remus suggested, and again I moaned around Remus. "Fuck it feels so good Sirius, almost like you both are sucking my cock. You know your in control of him and what he does to me like that don't you? Like it when your in control don't you?" Sirius moaned around me as if to answer in the positive, and I showed Remus once again how in control Sirius was as I moaned around him, and brought another to his lips.

"I want you to try something James," Remus said after he had felt me bob up and down him for a little bit, my hand joining in the movements. The moaning hadn't stopped, every time Sirius' tongue flicked against me when he let me almost all the way out, or when he pulled me back in so deep I knew I was no longer just in his mouth, I moaned, groaned, tried to sigh. Whenever I made a sound, Remus echoed it. "Tell me you love me while I'm in your mouth." He said pushing me down so that I couldn't bob. I had to hum the syllables he wanted to hear, but it had the desired effect. "Oh shit," Remus groaned. "God, do it again," I did as he asked. "Fuck, Sirius you try it, tell him you love him." Sirius held me in his mouth, the spot where I wasn't in him deep and he couldn't flick his tongue against me, and hummed those words. Remus was right, it felt damn good, and when Remus echoed my sound of approval Sirius did it again. "Yeah, I love you two too, so damn much, so fucking much." Remus groaned as we hummed it against each other.

"One more time and I swear I'm going to come. You better be ready James, because when I shoot into your throat, you're going to do the same to Sirius." His wish was my command, and I was so glad it was, because I had been trying to figure out how to hold it back for too long now. I hummed those words against him one more time, and once I felt him start to shoot into me, I shot into Sirius. "Fuck. Jame. Sirius. Love. You." He shouted, echoing my own thought perfectly as we came. He had to hold me down when I started shooting into Sirius, because me head so badly wanted to roll back from the pleasure.

"I think it is unfair that I am the only one that has never come just by the sound of a voice out of the three of us, until today." Sirius said as I fell to the side, so I didn't collapse on his head. Remus propped himself up on his arms, and I turned to look at Sirius. His stomach was glistening with his own come. "I'm not even sure how it happened," Sirius continued, though the way he was looking at his stomach made me wonder if he was actually talking to us. "I think it was the "I love you's", but I'm not sure. I mean, we've said I love you before and it didn't get me to come. I need stimulation, and now I don't. What's wrong with me?" I was too busy watching Sirius and his little rant to notice that Remus had crawled over to where Sirius was lying.

"You weren't supposed to come," Remus told him. "I was supposed to come, James was supposed to come, and as soon as I had my bearings, I was supposed to suck you." Sirius whimpered at the unfairness of it all. "James got to taste one of us, you got to taste one of us, and what about me?" He shook his head before leaning down over Sirius' stomach and licking our lover clean. I was sure, that if it wasn't for the fact I was spent, I would have been ready for another go just by the scene playing in front of me.

"Aren't you three glad the only one in the common room was me?" Peter asked as he walked through the door we had left open. Remus, Sirius, and I looked up so quickly I was surprised none of us got whip lash. "And clean your mouths, God." He groaned as he shook his head at us. Sirius and I laughed as Remus stuck his tongue out and licked his lips in a big show kind of way. "Ew, you're such a fag," Peter laughed as he rolled his eyes.

"You can't smoke us." Sirius pointed out, before we all started laughing with Peter. If anyone else dared to call us that they would be reminded what a swirly felt like. Peter didn't mean it, and Remus had asked for it, so it was just a joke. It didn't happen often, but on the off days Peter did walk in on us, or we didn't clean the shower out as best we should have, he would sometimes call us fairies, fags, or ponces. It was just a joke, we knew it, and I think in someways it made him feel like he was still a part of the group. He and Lily were the only ones that knew, Lily was my door, and Peter was the one that got to take the mickey out of us.

A/N: So what are you thinking? Sorry it wasn't very rough sex, but was it still good?