Zuko was laying on his bed, hands behind his head, staring up at the blank ceiling. He never ended up falling asleep. He couldn't sleep. There was too much on his mind. He felt lost all over again. Then there was a knock at his door and he sat up to see Iroh standing in the doorway.
"Am I interrupting anything?" Iroh checked.
"No," he denied shortly.
He entered the room and sat beside his nephew. "I'm glad everything went well in the Fire Nation."
"Me too."
"Did Katalina see Ozai?"
"She did."
"What did she say to him?"
He shrugged. "I didn't go into the cell with her, so I couldn't tell you what was said between them. But I can tell you that she was satisfied with herself when she came out."
"Good. She must've said everything she wanted to, then."
"Guess so."
"And did you see any familiar faces?"
"We saw Liam Busch."
"Liam Busch," he repeated. "Didn't you hate him the most out of—?"
"I never hated any of those guys," he cut him off. "And I didn't hate them because of Lina. They were all just annoying."
"Right, of course." He paused. "I want you to tell me the truth, Zuko."
Now he sighed, falling back onto his bed. "Nothing happened."
"Clearly something did."
"I'm an idiot, okay? That's what happened."
"What did you do that was so idiotic?"
He paused. "Where's Mai?" he then asked in reply.
"She's downstairs. Why?"
He sat back up. "Because this isn't something I want her to overhear."
"Zuko, what happened?"
His gaze was down. "I kissed Katalina," he then told him, his voice low.
Iroh's eyes widened a bit. "You kissed her?"
"That's what I said." He got to his feet with another sigh and began pacing the room. "Everything was going so well, Uncle! We were getting along and it was just like old times. Then I had to go and be a moron and kiss her. And everything fell apart from there! We didn't talk to each other or even look at each other for the entire trip back here."
"That's a long time to go without even looking at one another."
"Uncle, please, I don't know what to do."
"Well, did you two discuss the kiss?"
"She told me that she didn't feel anything; that it meant nothing."
"And you believed her?"
"Should I not have believed her?"
He shrugged. "What about you, Zuko? What did you tell her?"
"I didn't say anything about how I felt," he admitted.
"Why not?"
"Because I'm with Mai."
"Do you still want to be? And don't say yes simply because you and Katalina are fighting again."
He let out yet another sigh. "I don't know, Uncle. I don't know what I want. And I don't know what I should do."
"You don't think Mai deserves to know the truth?"
"I care about Mai. I do. And I've already hurt her once, so I don't want to hurt her again."
"It may be a little too late for that."
"Should I tell her?"
"That's up to you."
"Aren't you supposed to help me?" he asked in reply.
Iroh was taken aback by this question. "These are your relationships, Zuko. I can't decide for you what you do about them."
He ran his fingers through his hair distressfully. "I shouldn't have asked her to come along with me, Uncle."
"And if that's how you feel then that's how you feel."
He sat back down. "But should I feel that way?"
"Only you can decide how you should feel. Not me. Not Mai. Not Katalina. Only you."
Now he nodded. "I hate everything about this, Uncle. But I really don't think Lina would forgive me this time around."
"And is she in the right or in the wrong with that?"
He swallowed hard. "I screwed it all up."
Iroh put a hand on his nephew's shoulder. "You should try to rest," he told him in response. "A man needs his rest."
Zuko smiled sheepishly. "I'll try."
He smiled back and left. Then it wasn't long before Mai came in.
"Are you feeling okay?" she checked.
"I'm fine," he assured her.
"Did Katalina try anything while you two were away?"
"No, she truly didn't."
She nodded. "I believe you."
"Thank you."
She smiled sadly. "I'll let you sleep now."
And she turned to leave, but quickly turned herself back around. She went to Zuko and leaned over to kiss him. Then she left. And he watched the door as it slid shut before he lay back on his bed.
Compared to that single kiss Zuko stole from Katalina, that kiss with Mai was nothing.
