A/N: This is really just a filler b/c I'm working on a bunch of stuff due to finals coming up but I didn't wanna leave you guys hanging dry too long. and thank you to everyone that's reviewing. maks my heart soar =)

Disclaimer: I own a 120 GB ipod and 2141 songs. I however do not own Degrassi or it's characters. =)

They say that children who grow up as an only-child tend to be selfish, greedy, and attention whores. Does that even sound like me? NO! I can't even describe what I'm feeling right now. I mean I don't understand why my parents would choose now to have a second child.

"Are you trying to replace me?" I ask them.

My mom comes around the corner to hug me. "Of course not," she tells me.

"Jordan, we love you," Brian says. "And no one could ever replace you."

"Well then I don't understand why you're having another child," I tell them in confusion. "I mean no offense but you two are kind of old." I look at my mom. "Mom, you're about to turn 40." Then I turn to Brian. "And you're already 41. Do y'all really want to start all over?"

"To be honest, I'd love to see a little Brian Jr. running around the place," Brian says.

" Or another sweet little girl like you running around," my mom says while pinching my cheeks.

I sigh. "I need to go upstairs and process this." I go up the stairs with Alex following behind me. We enter my room and I slam the door behind us.

"Ugh!" I slightly scream.

Alex shrugs her shoulders and gives me a small smile. "Congrats on becoming a big sister," she says.

I throw my hands up into the air. "They can't do this to me! How could they?!?"

A confused look appears on Alex's face. "What are you talking aboot? This should be happy news for you."

"What? Why the hell would this be happy news for me? It's like they're trying to replace me. They're probably going to give the baby my room."

"You have three bedrooms in this house you're using as storage rooms! I highly doubt your parents are going to change your room into a nursery. You should be happy for your parents. Think of your dad and how happy he is. Your mom has you but your dad doesn't have a child that he can actually call his own."

I point to myself. "He has me!"

"It's not the same Jordan! Yes, you are his daughter but the man wants a child that shares the same genes as him and you can't blame him for wanting that."

"You don't understand how I am feeling right now."

Alex is shaking her head. "No, I don't. I don't understand how selfish you can be right now. I don't understand how you can be a brat right now. You have two loving parents downstairs who just told you probably the happiest thing that could happen to them and you and all you can do is sit here and complain. No I don't understand at all!"

I'm just staring at Alex now. She has no idea all the emotions running through my body. I sit on my bed and throw my head into my hands.

"I've been an only child my whole life. Brian has been my dad for seven years. I just don't understand why they would choose now to have a second child. Why they would choose to wait till I leave for college to have another kid." I look up at Alex. "So sorry if I feel like they're replacing me."

Alex sits on my bed beside me and places a hand on my shoulder. "Maybe they figured now would be a better time than ever."

I lay back and let my head land on the pillow. "I just want to forget this day."

"You and me both," Alex grumbles.

I'm going to be a big sister. I can't believe my parents are doing this to me…

Saturday Morning
There are rose petals falling everywhere. Why are there rose petals falling from the sky? Did the rain here suddenly turn into rose petals?

I look ahead of me. It looks like some girl is running towards me. Beth? She approaches me and places her hand on my cheek caressing it. I lean in to the touch.

"I miss you so much Jordan," Beth says.

"I miss you too," I tell her. "Why are there rose petals falling from the sky?"

Beth giggles. "You would ask that." Beth steps closer to me and rests her head against mine. "Let's be together forever," she whispers.

"I love you."

"I lo-"

"JORDAN!" some weird voice out of nowhere says. Why is the earth starting to shake?

I look back at Beth and she starting to fade. I try to reach for her.

"Beth! Please don't leave," I plead.

"JORDAN!" the mysterious voice yells again as the earth continues to shake.

I open my eyes and Alex is standing above me.

"God, I've been saying your name for like five minutes," she says.

I give her a dark look and growl. "Thanks for ruining my dream ass."

A confused look appears on Alex's face and all I can do is shake my head.

"I saw her on Tuesday," I tell her.

"Saw who?" Alex asks.

"Beth. I saw her at the park, swinging on the swings."

"And? Did you do anything?"

I give Alex the "what the fuck" look. "Do anything? What the hell would I do? She broke up with me."

"Do you still love her?"

"Sometimes that's not enough Alex."

Alex holds up a hand like she's saying "stop". "You mean to tell me that I had to confess my feelings to Paige and totally get my heart broken yet you don't have do to the same thing with Beth? That's sort of bullshit and fucked up in my opinion."

"Our situations are not the same Alex."

I open my bedroom door and proceed to head downstairs. Alex is following me.

"Bullshit they're not the same. We both love girls who don't want to be with us."

I turn to face Alex halfway on the staircase. "Beth broke up with me! She gave me no reason what-so-ever and just broke my heart." I point to Alex. "YOU broke up with Paige because you felt the
need to figure out your future without Paige. Plus we all know why Paige isn't with you and that's because she's scared. Paige is always fuckin scared. But I have no idea why Beth broke up with me.
So yeah, our situations ARE different."

I walk into the kitchen and my parents are sitting at the table with a breakfast buffet in front of them.

"What's all this," I ask.

"Well your mother and I decided that today would be the perfect day for a breakfast buffet," Brian says with a wide,yet nervous, smile on his face.

"Is this breakfast really for the family or is it for the snot bucket that's growing insides Mom's stomach?"

My mom rubs her stomach protectively. "Jordan…" she says as if she's warning me.

I sit down in my seat. "I was just joking. Listen Mom, Dad, I'm not saying I'm completely 100% happy about this pregnancy but it's not like we can reverse it. I mean yeah, part of me is excited to become an older sister but another part of me can't help but feel hurt because it's like you're replacing me."

Brian opens his mouth to say something but I raise my hand to stop him.

"I know you're not but I can't help but feel like that. And Dad, I know you're excited because it's like your finally going to have your own child."

"You're my child Jordan," Brian jumps in.

"Yeah, but there's a difference between adopting your stepchild and having a child that has your genes. It's ok, be happy. I just want to disappear when the baby arrives. And I get to keep my room."

My parents laugh at the last part and a smile appears on my face.

"Wow," Alex says. "I feel weird that I just sat here for that intimate family moment."

I throw an arm around Alex's shoulders. "You are family Alex."

We all dig into the food and begin to eat.

"Wait," I say, sort of pausing breakfast. "How far along are you?"

"Eight weeks," my mom answers.

"So that's like two months right? So this baby will be born in June?"

"Yeah. You'll be here for the birth," Brian says.

"Good. I'll set the kid straight with the ground rules right away."

Everyone starts laughing, like a just told a funny joke. Too bad I'm actually serious.

Later That Day:
Alex and I are just walking. We're not really walking anywhere but we just felt like getting out of the house.

"It's going to snow here soon," I tell her.

"Yep, I'm waiting on the first snowflake of the season," she says seriously.

"No offense but that is kind of weird."

"Yeah I know."

I sigh because I'm about to bring up the topic both of us have been avoiding. "What are you going to do now?" I ask her.

"I'm not sure," she answers, knowing what I'm talking about.

"Well you have to break up with Carla. It's not fair to her or you to stay in a relationship your heart isn't in."

Alex is nodding her head in agreement. "Yeah I know. Plus I think she's just been slumming it with me anyway. But what am I going to do about Paige? I want to be with her, I do, but it's so hard when she keeps running away."

"I think Paige loves you too Alex. I mean back there in the alley yesterday it seems like she was going to say it but she got scared again."

"I don't understand how she can be scared about the same thing over and over."

"Expectations maybe. It's hard for some people. I think it's because we're not in high school anymore and since Paige is no longer in college she has to face the "real world" and she's afraid of what the "real world" will think of her relationship with you."

Alex stops and looks at me with a raised eyebrow. "How are you so smart about this?"

I shrug my shoulders. "I couldn't save my relationship, so I have to at least save yours."

We start walking again. "You could always call her and talk to her," Alex says.

I'm shaking my head. That just sounds like a bad idea. "I can't do that. I'm not going to put myself out there for her to just hurt me with no reason."

"Ya know you're not being fair. You can't expect me to always put myself out there for Paige and you don't put yourself out there for Beth."

"Well…" I'm looking for something to say but Alex is right. It's not fair that I tell her to do something but I'm not doing it. "This summer."

"What?"

"I'll do it this summer. It's going to be hard to win Beth back during the school year when we're seven hours away from each other. I'll win her back in the summer."

Alex holds out her hand to me. "Deal?"

I take her hand and shake it. "Deal."

Sunday Back In Florida:
I'm back in Florida. The rest of break was uneventful. In two weeks though I'll be back home for a whole month.

I'm searching the crowd for my ride. Amy said she was going to pick me up but I don't see her anymore. I get out my cell phone and call her.

"Hello?" Amy answers the phone.

"Where are you?" I ask.

"Someone else is coming to pick you up. I had a doctor's appointment that I forgot about."

"Well who is coming to pick me up?"

"Jordan!" I hear a voice calling me.

I turn to see who called me name. You've got to be kidding me.

"Please tell me you didn't," I say into the phone,

"Have fun," Amy says quickly and hangs up the phone.

I pick up my bags and walk to my ride.

"How was your break?" Tammy asks.

"It was great," I tell her in a monotone voice. "How was yours?" You can clearly tell that I don't care.

"It was great but I'm glad break is over because I missed you." Tammy smiles at me.

I want to like this girl, I do. But she just creeps me out a little. I throw my bags into the back seat of her car and get into the passenger seat.

As we're driving I feel something resting on my knee. I look down and there's Tammy's hand. Alright, this is not ok. Not on any level. I pick Tammy's hand up off my knee and drop it on the hand rest.

"Stop trying so hard," I say.

"What are you talking about?" Tammy asks.

"Pull the car over."

Tammy pulls the car over and puts it in Park. She's looking at me now and I sigh.

I turn in my seat and look at Tammy."Listen Tammy I know you've had this kinda nice, kinda cute, semi-psychotic crush on me since the tenth grade but you have to stop. You try way too hard. You make it hard for anyone to like you because you're so quick to try to take things to the next level. And sometime you go too far with the flirting. And also if I didn't like you in high school then what makes you think I would like you now after I moved to a different country and had a relationship with someone there."

Tammy is just looking at me now, like she's not sure what to say. Oh no it looks like her eyes are starting to tear up. Please God no, I don't do well with crying girls.

Tammy sniffles and…there's the water works. Fuck my life.

"I-I'm s-sorry," she stutters through her tears.

I lay my head back on the head rest and put my hands over my eyes. I'm silently praying to God to let this all be one giant horrid nightmare.

"I can't help that I like you so much," she says. "I mean I've had a crush on you since the 8th grade but of course I couldn't let people know. But then in the tenth grade I was just so tired of hiding in the closet and I thought that maybe if I finally came out then you'd want to date me. But you just kept ignoring me. I mean it's like being popular wasn't enough so I tried harder with you.

"Then you moved to Canada and I was pretty much heart-broken. I mean I dated other girls while you were gone. I even slept with some girls but you were always there in the back of my mind. And then I saw you on the FSU campus and I figured this was God giving me another chance. I…"

Oh my God, she's still talking. Part of me feels so bad for this girl but another part just wants her to shut up. How do you shut up another person without sounding mean? I lean forward and…. GREAT!
Just effin great! I'm kissing Tammy Mason. Somehow I ended up kissing Tammy effin Mason. She's not the bad of a kisser to be honest. This actually feels kind of sort of nice. At least I don't want to gag.

I pull away from the kiss and Tammy's eyes are still closed.

"Tammy?" I shake her a little bit. "Tammy!"

She jolts out of her bizarre trance. "Wow," she says.

I turn and look forward. "Just drive please."

Tammy puts the car back into drive and now we're driving back to campus. She's smiling and humming a happy tune. She place her hand on my knee again.

What the hell did I just do?

A/N:

Y'all decide what I do in the next chapter. You have two options.

Option #1: the next chapter will be all about Jordan

Option #2: I can pull a Degrassi and not bring up the Jordan-Tammy story line until way later into the story and go ahead and jump into Don't You Want Me pt. 1 & 2

So YOU decide!