A/N:So the moment you have all been waiting for is in this chapter. hehe enjoy! and also it does go back and forth in time but you'll be able to figure out.

Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi.

I've always been a good kid. I've always been the kid that listens to her parents because I hate the look of disappointment they give me when I fuck up. I've always been the one who would be able to control my anger. But this time, this time I was pushed too far. This time I wasn't able to control my anger and now two disappointed and angry faces are looking at me.

I turn my head and look at Alex. She's sporting a black eye, swollen and cut lip, and holding ice against her side. I have a piece of meat against my eye and ice on my knee. Both my grandparents are staring at us, furious.

"I don't know if I should yell or let you two go at it again until one of you kills the other," my grandfather says.

My grandma has her hands on her hips and is staring at me. "Jordan Athena Johnson, I know your parents taught you better than this!" she yells. She turns to Alex. "And you young lady! I know my daughter and son-in-law wouldn't have taken you in if you weren't a good kid."

"It's not-" I start.

My grandpa raises his hand, silencing me. "Just tell me what the hell happened."

I cross my arms. Alex and I look at each other but neither one of us is saying anything.

"Oh so now you're in some type of agreement?" my grandpa asks. "Go to your rooms. NOW!"

Alex and I both go up the stairs into our separate rooms. I lay down on the bed but wince in pain. Falling on a pile of rocks really hurts one's back. I don't even know how this happened. I'm not even sure how everything got so fucked up. Obviously there's a reason why they say alcohol is bad for you.

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I started out yesterday like any other normal person would start out on the day of their best friend's, almost sister's, birthday. I was sitting on Alex's bed, starring at her sleeping face until she woke up. Alex slowly opened her eyes.

"AHH!" she screamed.

I grinned widely at her. "Hi," I said.

"What are you doing here? Besides giving me a heart attack."

"I just came by to say, Happy Birthday!"

Alex sat up and pushed me away from her gently. "A phone call would have been fine," she grumbled.

"Stop grumbling, today is your birthday." I brought the card I had been holding behind my back around and handed it to her. "Present time," I sung.

Alex gave me a shy smile and opened the card. Alex stared at the card and then looked at me. "Really?" she asked, pointing the card at me.

On the front of the car was a half naked guy whose package was almost bursting out of his underwear and the writing on the front said, Wouldn't you like him as your birthday present? "Well I did get you a stripper for your birthday."

"You better not have."

"I figured it would bring back the memories of your straight days. Besides, you didn't even open the card yet."

Alex opened the card and busted out laughing. "Too bad he's gay," she read. Then she opened the gift card that came along with it. "$50 to Target. Thanks Jordan."

"No problem," I told her and we hugged. "Well I've got to be going. I have a big paper that's due on Monday."

"You're doing homework on my birthday?" Alex sounded a bit hurt.

I placed a hand on her shoulder. "We'll hang out later tonight, don't worry."

At the Dorm:
I was sitting at my desk trying to focus on the finishing touches for Alex's surprise birthday party and not what happened in Miami. The rest of Spring Break is a blur. Alex started hanging out with the girl she met at the club, whose name I didn't know until last night, and I spent most of my time either drinking or having sex with Tammy. Let's just say the confrontation with Beth did not sit well with me.

Home, home on the range. Where the deer and the antelope play.

That was my grandparents calling me. I answered the phone.

"Hey," I said.

"Hey Stinky," my grandmother greeted me.

"Hi Grandma. What's up?"

"Well your grandfather and I have the house all set up for your party for Alex."

"Thank you Grandma, I really appreciate it and I know Alex will too."

"Of course sweetie. Alex is part of the family now. But Jordan, your grandfather and I do not want to come back to our house tomorrow with it looking like a mess."

"Grandma, don't worry about it. It won't get out of control, I promise."

"Alright Jordan Athena Johnson. I'm trusting you. I love you."

"Love you too Grandma. And tell Grandpa I love him."

"Alright, bye." My grandma ended the call.

I closed my phone. My grandparents were going to Orlando to visit my uncle, their son, and agreed to let me use the house to throw Alex a surprise birthday party. Nothing big of course, just some music, food, friends and maybe just a little bit alcohol which turned out to be a lot of alcohol. It was a Saturday night so I was expecting a good turn out.

After I ended the phone call with my grandma I heard knocking at my door.

"Come in!" I yelled.

The door opened and Tammy walked in. "Hey baby," she greeted me. Tammy walked over to my desk, leaned down, and kissed me on the cheek.

I looked up at her. "All I get is a kiss on the cheek?" I asked, disappointed.

Tammy smiled at me and leaned back down. We started to kiss and I placed a hand around her neck and deepened the kiss. I stood up and sort of push her back against the bed. I started kissing her down her neck, already in the mood.

"Jordy, we don't have time for this," she half-moaned.

"Oh we always have time for sex," I told her. "It's called a quickie," I whispered in her ear.

Tammy pushed me back. She looked a little flustered and I smirked at her.

"Are you sure you're not up for that quickie?" I asked.

"As much as I would love that we have other things to focus on," she told me seriously.

I walked back toward her. "But at the party when everyone is busy we can sneak upstairs to one of the empty bedrooms." I placed my hands on her waist and raised an eyebrow. "And it wouldn't have to be a quickie."

"Maybe," she said.

I kissed her and then pulled away. "I'll take that as a yes." I walked back over to my desk and sat down focusing on the list I had.

Tammy stood behind me and placed her arms around my neck. She placed her head on my shoulder and looked down at the list.

"How's it going?" she asked.

"Well everything is pretty much done," I told her. "I just have to get to the house and make sure everything is set up correctly."

"That's good. It's really nice your doing all of this for Alex."

"Well she is my best friend and almost sister. Plus she's been through a lot and I want this birthday to rock her socks off."

Tammy kissed me on the cheek. "I bet it will."

She's the girl all the bad guys want. Yeah, she's the girl all the bad guys want.

"Hey hey birthday girl," I said when I answered the phone.

"Hey," Alex said. "So you won't believe who just called to wish me a Happy Birthday."

My body froze, afraid of the answer. "Who?" I asked.

"Marco Del Rossi," she told me.

I sighed in relief. "Well that was nice of him," I told her.

"Yeah and Ellie called earlier this morning and I just spoke to your mom and dad."

"Who are almost your mom and dad."

Alex chuckled, the thought of us about to be sisters made us both laugh. "Yeah, mom says that the baby is doing great and dad told me not to party too much tonight. Which reminds me, what are we doing tonight?"

Brian would be the one to slip up. Alex had no idea what we were going to be doing. She had just got done hanging out with that one girl and I had Amy keeping her busy for the time being. "Go to the hottest club in Tallahassee," I told her.

"I wasn't aware that Tallahassee had hot clubs."

"All of Florida has hot clubs."

"If you say so. Amy just pulled up, so I got to go. But I'll see you later?"

"Yeah. Oo and let Amy but you a nice dress. It'd really make her happy."

"We'll see. Later."

"Later." I closed my phone, ending the call. I turned and looked at Tammy. "Let's go to the house and get everything set up."

"Ok."

Tammy and I left my dorm heading to my grandparents' house to set up for the party. A party that would reveal things that should have stayed hidden.

I get up from the bed and walk over to the mirror in the corner of the room. Oh my God I look bad. I also look stupid with a piece of meat on the side of my face. I take the meat off my eye.
OH MY GOD! My eye is dark purple and swollen like crazy. I can barely open it. I also have a bruise on my right cheek. Well I look very unattractive; thank God I don't need to try to pick up any girls. Although after last night I'm not even sure if I even have a girlfriend anymore.

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Tammy and I were at the house making sure everything was being set up correctly.

"So why do your grandparents have a sound proof room again?"

I shrug my shoulders. "Do we really want to know the answer?"

Tammy shuttered, probably thought about the possible answer. "God no."

We were in the sound proof room with people helping us set up. My friend Andrew was setting up the speakers and the DJ table. My friend Josh approached me.

"Did ya get the alcohol?" I asked him.

"Yeah me and my brothers got it," Josh said. Josh is in Kappa Alpha Rho fraternity, or as most of us call them, KAPs.

"How much did you get?"

"We have five kegs and enough alcohol to make two tubs of jungle juice."

"This is a birthday party, not a frat party," I tell Josh. "We need more juice than beer."

Josh threw his hands up. "You didn't specify what to get. You just told us to get alcohol."

I place a hand on Josh's shoulder. "You're lucky I like you and your brothers so much and that I need alcohol and people to serve it."

Josh gave me an All-American boy smile. I told him to bring the alcohol in and to set it up. I looked around the room. The decorations were being put up by Tammy's sorority sisters and the food tables were set up and there was enough space for a dance floor. I called catering to make sure the food and cake were ready and were going to be here on time. Everything seemed to be going according to plan. I was ready to party.

Hours Later:
Everyone was in the party room waiting for Alex's arrival. I told Amy to bring Alex to the house around eight. I checked my watched and sighed angrily. It was 8:15, I'm really anal about time. Just then I had gotten a text message from Amy.

We're here.

"They're here!" I told everyone. "I'm going to go get Alex so everyone try to hide behind each other or something.

I went to the front door to greet Amy and Alex as they were walking in.

"Hey!" Alex greeted me in surprise. "I didn't expect you to be here."

I threw my hands up in the air. "I just wanted to say Happy Birthday and help you get ready for the club." Amy raised an eyebrow at me. Yeah I knew that was a bad excuse but I couldn't think of anything else at the time.

"Umm ok," Alex said, sounding like she believed me. "There are a lot of cars outside."

I nodded my head. "Yeah, the neighbors are having a poker night at their house. You know how Mr. Payne is with his poker."

"Oh yeah. Your grandfather said that Mr. Payne still owes him $100."

"Shit, Mr. Payne owes me some money," I told her.

Amy cleared her throat and looked at me, signaling that I needed to get on with getting Alex to the party. I nodded my head and smiled at Alex.

"So we need to go to the sound proof room because I have something in there for you."

"Ok…" Alex said unsure.

I walked to the room with Alex and Amy following behind me. I opened the door slowly and let Alex walk in before me.

"SURPRISE!" everyone jumped out and said.

"What the hell," Alex said.

"Happy Birthday!" everyone said and the DJ started playing Justin Timberlake's SexyBack.

Alex walked down the stairs and everyone started approaching her and wishing her a happy birthday. I had invited my friends from school that Alex knew, Alex's friends from her school, and some
people who just wanted to party and would bring birthday gifts. Alex wore this huge grin on her face which resulted in me wearing a huge grin on my face.

I went to the alcohol stand while Alex was still talking to people. Josh handed me a camp of jungle juice and I drowned it and immediately asked for another. Josh gave me a weird look.

"No looks from you mister," I told him. "I'm paying you to serve and pour, not judge."

Josh threw up his hands in surrender. "Yes ma'am," he said and poured me another cup of jungle juice.

"Jordan!" I heard someone yell over the music.

It was Alex and she was walking toward me with the girl from the club back in Miami. I put on smile, bracing myself for an introduction.

"Jordan this is Sage, Sage this is Jordan," Alex said, introducing us.

I looked at the girl a little taken aback from her appearance. She seemed preppy and her hair was dirty blonde and at that moment I couldn't tell what color her eyes were but I later found out they're green. My first thought about her name was, "What the fuck is her name?" Yeah, I was taken aback from that and I pretty sure my face showed it.

"Yeah, it's not a very common name," Sage said.

"Yeah, I can't say I know too many Sages." I quirked an eyebrow, contemplating what I just said because it sounded weird. I shook Sage's hand. "Well it's very nice to meet you."

"Likewise," she said and smiled.

I clapped my hands loudly. "Well I will be right back," I told the couple. I walked over to the DJ stage and told the DJ to cut the music and then I took the microphone. "Alright party people it is time for
the moment we have all been waiting for. Time for birthday cake!"

Tammy and her sorority sisters walked into the room carrying a cake with 19 lit candles on it as we all started to sing to Alex.

"Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday dear Alex! Happy birthday to YOU!"

Alex had her hand covering her mouth and her eyes were shining. My heart felt warm and I couldn't stop smiling. I was ecstatic that Alex was happy. Alex closed her eyes to make a wish and then blew out all the candles. Everyone clapped and wooted.

I walked up to Alex with the microphone in hand. "Now unfortunately we are not in Canada but in America but that doesn't mean we can't follow Canada's laws just for this one night," I told Alex and the crowd. Josh's frat brother Chris brought a cooler to my side. "Now for those of you that don't know, in our hometown of Toronto the drinking age is 19. Seeing as Alex is now 19 and Canadian she is now legally allowed to drink. So I had a very special present shipped here from Ontario." I opened the cooler and lifted a bottle out. "Here is a bottle of all-natural premium beer from Cameron's Brewing Company." I opened the bottle and handed it to Alex. "Drink up homie."

Alex drunk the bottle and when she was done we all cheered like she had just won a contest. We started cutting up pieces of cake as the DJ went back to playing dancing music. I went back to the bar and grabbed another cup of jungle juice and a look from Josh.

"Shut yo face frat boy," I ordered him.

I should have stopped then but I didn't want to. The alcohol started to have its affects on me. I started feeling a little light headed and giddy, I could walk straight though and to me that meant I was ok. I went looking for Tammy and found her talking with Rebecca.

"There's my beautiful girlfriend," I half-slurred.

"Are you drunk?" Rebecca asked with attitude and disgust in her voice.

I narrowed my eyes at her. "That depends, are you a bitch?"

"Jordan!" Tammy exclaimed.

I threw up a hand. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked. I mean I already know the answer."

Tammy started pushing me away. "Ok that's enough from you," she told me. Tammy pulled me off to some corner. "How much have you had to drink?"

"Not much," I told her. I pushed a strand of hair behind her ear and got closer to her. "I've missed you."

"Jordy…"

I started kissing her neck, if I remember correctly they were sloppy kisses. "Ya know we could go upstairs right now and no one would notice," I said trying to sound sexy but probably sounded stupid.

Tammy put a hand out pushing me gently. "You're drunk," she said simply.

I shook my head, disagreeing with her. "I'm not drunk," I told her. "I could perfectly ride a bike right now." I leaned in to whisper in her ear. "Or you could ride my fingers."

"Ok ew," Tammy said in what sounded like her preppy snob voice.

"Oh, but any other time you're all over this," I practically yelled.

"Jordan, you need to stop drinking," she said sternly.

"No I don't!" I yelled and threw my arms up into the air. "Because this is my best friend's birthday party. It's a celebration!" I drank the last bit of juice left in my cup and crushed the cup. "This is who you wanted to be with so get use to it!" I told her and walked away.

Somehow I found Alex and Sage in the crowd and approached them. Alex noticed me and a grin suddenly appeared on her face. Alex engulfed me in a giant hug, knocking the wind out of me.

"Thank you so much!" she said.

I waved my hand at her like it was no big deal. "Anything for my best friend and almost sister." I turned my attention to Sage. "So Sage can I ask you something?"

"Sure," she answered.

"What color are your eyes?"

"Um, green. Why do you ask?"

"Hmm, no reason." I looked at Alex and raised my eyebrow at her. Alex looked back at me which a confused look on her face. "Sage is really close to Paige."

"Who's Paige?" Sage asked.

Alex looked at me, a look that was probably telling me to shut up. But the alcohol kept me talking.

"This girl back in Canada, funny story actually…"

"No one wants to hear it Jordan," Alex interrupted me.

I remember trying to say something and then Alex grabbed my arm and pulled me outside.

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "What?" I ask innocently. "I just wanted to tell a story."

"No one wants to hear about Paige," Alex said angrily.

"Are you angry because she didn't call you?"

Alex's face fell, telling me I was correct.

"I'll tell you why she didn't call you, because she's afraid."

A look of confusion appeared on Alex's face. "Afraid of what?"

I laughed a little, drunken laugh. "She called back in January and I answered the phone. I told her if she ever called you again I would change your number and make sure she never got it." I
continued laughing like a drunk idiot.

Alex quickly approached me. "Why would you do that?!" Alex asked angrily.

"Because I was protecting you, duh."

Alex started walking away from me and I followed. She turned around and looked at me with anger in her eyes. "No, you're not invited back in!"

A look of confusion appeared on my face. "What? What do you mean I'm not invited back in?"

"This is my birthday party and you are no longer welcomed!" Alex went in and slammed the door in my face.

I slumped down on the porch wondering what I had done wrong. At some point I fell asleep, still sitting out on the porch.

Next Morning:
I woke up to the most killer headache in the world and ice cold water hitting my face.

"What the fuck!" I yelped as I jumped up.

Alex was standing over me with a hose in her hand, smiling. "Morning," she said in a fake sweet tone.

I stood up. "What the hell is your problem?" I asked angrily. "Why would you wake me up like that?" I started looking around me. "And why the fuck was I sleeping outside?"

"Hmm well let's see, you decided to get drunk off your ass last night and admitted that you kept a phone call from me so I kicked your ass out of my party and you fell asleep out here."

I started rubbing my head, bits and pieces of the night coming back to me. "I kept that phone call from you to protect you."

"Protect me from what?"

"Protect you from Paige! Look at you!" I said pointing to her. "You're seeing some chick who looks like Paige and whose name is Sage. Really Alex? Come on!"

Alex pointed a finger at me. "Don't judge me Jordan, you have no right! Look at you! You're off fucking some girl you don't even like because Beth broke up with you." Alex started laughing. "Talk about pathetic!"

I started to get angry and approached Alex. "Pathetic? You want to talk about someone being pathetic. I had to take your ass in because you were planning on moving to Ajax because Paige kicked
your sorry ass out. Now that's pathetic." I scoffed at her. "You're pathetic."

Alex shoved me. "Take it back!"

I shoved her back. "Make me."

We started pushing each other until we both fell off the porch. Alex was on top of me and then I pushed her off.

"You're pathetic Nuñez," I said with venom dripping from my voice. "You're trying to get with some girl who reminds you of Paige. Shit, even her name is almost the same. Who the hell names their child Sage?"

Alex chuckles angrily. "Well at least I'm not drowning myself in alcohol while fucking some girl I don't even like. Wow, you're reminding me of my mother. Now who's more pathetic, me or you?"

"Still you. All you did in Miami was bitch and moan about how Paige hadn't called you." I started fake-crying, mocking her. "Boohoo, cry me a fucking river."

"Well maybe if someone hadn't kept a phone call away from me!"

"If I had told you that Paige called and said she misses you, you would have done the same thing you always do. You would have ran back into her arms and taken her back without even thinking about the consequences. I'm not sorry for what I did because I know I was protecting you."

"Protecting me? PROTECTING ME?!?" Before I even saw her fist I saw stars.

The punch caught me off guard. I covered my eye and gaped at her. Then something inside of me woke up.

"AHH!" I yelled and punched Alex back, right in the mouth. We started going at it, throwing punches and kicking each other. Most of our punches landed in each other's faces while the kicks landed in our legs. At one point I landed my fist right in her eye. I was on top of Alex yelling at her as she struggled.

"You're my family Alex!" I yelled. "Family protects each other!

We rolled and I landed in a pile of rocks, hence why my back hurts. Alex grabbed the collar of my shirt.

"I don't need you protecting me all the time," Alex said.

"Yes you do, because you keep making the same damn mistakes over and over." I pushed her off of me and she landed on her back in the grass.

"You act like you're so goddamn perfect Jordan. Obviously you're not or else Beth wouldn't have broken up with you."

That sent me over the edge. Anger overtook my whole body as I ran over to where Alex was and just started hitting her.

"You don't know anything!" I yelled as I started to cry angry tears.

Somehow Alex was able to push me off of her and put me in a head lock.

"Let me go Alex!" I yelled as I started elbowing her in her side.

"What is going on here!" I heard my grandpa yell behind us.

That's when my grandparents ran over to us and had to pry us apart. My grandma was holding me back while my grandpa was trying to hold Alex back.

"I'm going to effin kill you Alex because you don't know shit!" I yelled.

"Calm down Jordan!" my grandma yelled.

I wasn't thinking clearly. All I had set in my mind of hurting Alex for what she said.

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I'm looking at myself in the mirror, staring at my black eye. I touch the area and wince in pain. That shit really hurts. I open my bedroom door to go to the bathroom to get some stuff for my bruises. Alex is standing in the hallway as well.

She's holding her side and icing her eye. I don't know who looks worse, me or her.

"You look like shit," she says.

"Yeah, well so do you."

Alex sighs. "You shouldn't have kept that phone call from me. Especially this long."

"And what would you have done if I had told you Paige called?"

"I don't know, called her back."

I chuckle and shake my head. "Tell me Alex, why'd you even come to Florida? If it was to forget about Paige then you're doing a pretty shitty job."

"Jordan-"

"No Alex, listen. Paige kicked you out. She chose her job over you and then proceeded to KICK you out. No offense Alex but don't you think that's just a little fucked up? Besides if Paige really missed you don't you think she would have tried calling you again?"

Alex is just looking at me, saying nothing.

"Go ahead and use the bathroom. It seems like you need it more than I do." I'm walking back to my room.

"Jordan," Alex calls out my name.

I turn around and look at her.

"Stop drowning yourself in alcohol and stop being with Tammy if you don't like her. Just because Beth broke your heart doesn't give you the right to break Tammy's."

I don't say anything to her. Instead I go to back to my room and once again I'm looking at myself in the mirror thinking about who I've become.

A/N: So I don't exactly knwo what I'm going to do with the next chapter but I do know it will be more Alex centric and only two more chapter left in their first year of college because for real for real we need to move forward in time. mhm