A/N: Finals, family, looking for a job, summer school, Glee, no inspiration. You pick which one you think kept me from updating this story. This is one of those chapters that I didn't want to write but needed to be written to continue the story so I hope you like it. =)

Disclaimer: What even happened this season on Degrassi?

You never forget your first love. First love is defined as "the first person you ever had feelings for. It doesn't matter if it happened when you were five, or fifty-five. It doesn't matter if he or she loved you back. All that matters is that at one point in time, he or she was the first person you ever loved and wanted to be with."

It's a week after the whole birthday fiasco. My father skyped Alex and me later that afternoon after my grandparents chewed us out and said we were both grounded. He said that they way we behaved was unacceptable. Of course being that my father is in a different country and I'm a college student living on campus, the grounding meant little to me.

I'm walking, well limping, to the park near my grandparent's house. I know Alex is there and I need to talk to her. We haven't had an actual full-fledge conversation since our WWE match last week. There's so much to say but things that probably neither one of us want to say. I'm standing on top of the hill and I see Alex sitting on the bench near the pond. Well I guess it's now or later. Now would probably be best.

I'm limping down the hill, wincing with every step I take. My knee still hurts from the fight and my deep purple black eye has started to heal.

"Hey," I greet Alex.

She turns around and looks at me. "Hey," she says back.

I sit down on the bench next to her.

"I see your knee is still messed up," she says.

"Yeah well usually when one gets kicked in the knee and then falls on it, it doesn't heal that quickly," I tell her.

"You deserved it," she says simply.

I sigh. I really don't want to argue with her.

"Christie Shultz."

Alex looks at me, confused. "What?" she asks.

"I came out of the closet to my mom when I was ten years old. My mom said she already knew and she would love me no matter what. When I entered middle school I refused to hide who I was so I came out of the closet to everyone. Of course with it being middle school some of my classmates hated me because they didn't understand and their parents would judge me and say I was a bad kid although I was polite, made straight A's in school, and had participated in numerous activities with their kids since I was three."

"Jordan what does this have to do with anything?"

I hold my hand up, silencing her. "Shh, let me finish. The middle of 6th grade Christie Shultz entered my life. She was smart, funny, nice, and really popular. She was always really nice to me and for that I liked her. I became infatuated with this girl. I approached her one day after school when no one was around at the corner of the courtyard where no one could see us. I told her how I felt about her and I hoped she wouldn't think I was weird since I had a crush on her. Christie actually surprised me by telling me she didn't think I was weird and then she kissed me."

"Wait," Alex says. "You were 11 when you first kissed a girl?"

I shrug my shoulders. "I matured fast. We started "dating" after that. Not much happened, not much could happen. We were in middle school and Christie was still in the closet because no matter how popular you were it was not ok to be anything other than straight in middle school. We eventually broke up which broke my little 6th grader heart."

Alex is looking at me still not sure what my little story has to do with anything.

"The point is, I still think about Christie and I still miss her. She was my first love and there'll always be a special place in my heart for her." I place a hand on Alex's shoulder. "I'm saying that I get it. Paige was your first love and you still miss her. I get that Alex, I do but I'm trying to help you get over her and the way to get over her is not by dating some girl that looks like her and whose name is pretty damn close to hers."

Alex is looking at me intensely. She's starting to weird me out. "Did you ever think that maybe I really like Sage? That maybe her having the same hair and eye color as Paige and her name being close to her has nothing to do with my feelings for her?"

"But Alex, the coincidence," I start.

Alex shrugs my hand off her shoulder."Yeah I know but Sage is the one that approached me in the club that night and I didn't even know what her name was until I left the club and she put her number in my phone. She's really nice and I like hanging out with her. Also, she thinks I'm funny."

I quirk an eyebrow. "She thinks you're funny?" I ask. "Wow this girl must be crazy."

Alex playfully punches my arm. "I can be funny."

I chuckle and nod my head slightly. "Sure you can."

We've fallen into silence. Not awkward, but no comfortable either. I guess I should say what I need to say.

"I'm sorry for keeping Paige's call from you and for telling her not to call you back," I tell Alex.

Alex shrugs her shoulders. "I just don't get why you did it," she tells me. "I know you told me it was to protect me but you keep acting like I'm the same Alex from last year that kept making mistakes left and right. Jordan, I've changed and you have to stop treating me like a lost puppy."

I'm nodding my head because I completely understand what Alex is saying. In my mind she's sort of still the same girl I met. Making mistakes and needing me to help her fix those mistakes. I look at Alex and see the person she's become. She dresses more like a grown woman now and she's let her hair grow out. Not only is her appearance different but so is her personality. She knows what she wants for her future and she's going after it.

"Let me make it up to you," I tell her sincerely. "How about we double date tonight, my treat?" I flash my million dollar smile.

"I guess since you're suggesting a double date that means you're still with Tammy."

I'm nodding my head. "Yes I'm still with Tammy."

"And you talk aboot me…"

"I like Tammy I do. If I didn't like her than I wouldn't be with her."

"But do you love her?" Alex asks with a questioning look on her face.

I shrug my shoulder. "Why do I have to love her to be with her?"

"Because if you don't love her that means you're still in love with Beth and you shouldn't be with Tammy if you're still in love with someone else."

"Maybe we should drop this before one of us drop kicks the other," I say sternly.

Alex is nodding her head. "Fine, but just know I think this is going to come back and bite you in the ass."

"Ever since I moved to Canada everything has been coming back to bite me in the ass," I mutter.

Later:
I'm not one of those people where I don't know how to apologize. I can say "I'm sorry" without cringing. I just hate that I have to apologize for doing something so ridiculous. Life has just been kicking my butt this past month.

I'm standing in front of Tammy's dorm room right now. She hasn't talked to me since Alex's birthday party. She hasn't answered any of my phone calls or my text messages. I saw some of her sorority sisters the other day and they all gave me the evil eye. I knock on Tammy's door, breathing nervously.

Tammy opens the door and she's looking at me with her hand on her hip. "What do you want?" she asks.

"I came to apologize," I say sincerely.

"What if I don't want to hear your apology?"

"Tammy just hear me out, please," I plead.

"Fine, you have 60 seconds."

I nod my head. "I'm sorry for the way I acted at Alex's party. I had way too much to drink, but that's not a good excuse. I'm sorry I acted like a drunken ass bitch and I shouldn't have said the things I said that night." I take Tammy's hands and hold them. "Please forgive me."

Tammy is just looking at me with an unreadable face. I think she's thinking about whether to forgive me or not.

"You embarrassed me and made me feel like crap," Tammy says in a hurt voice.

As if I didn't already feel bad enough, now I feel worse.

"I'm sorry. I know I can't take it back but I promise to never do it ever again because you don't deserve that." I pull Tammy into a hug and I can feel her relaxing into my arms.

"You're still not off the hook Jordy," Tammy mutters.

I chuckle. "I didn't think so," I tell her. "And that's why we're going out to dinner tonight."

Tammy backs away from me a little with shining eyes. "We're going out to dinner?"

I'm nodding my head. "Yep, you, Alex, Sage, and I are going to Olive Garden. My treat of course."

"So this is a double date?"

"It's my way of apologizing for my behavior at the party and I know nothing about Alex's new friend, or girlfriend, or whatever she is."

"Alright, but I get to order whatever I want."

"Of course, it would be too weird if you didn't." I kiss Tammy's forehead. "I'll pick you up at 7:30"

"Ok," Tammy says.

We quickly share a kiss and now I'm leaving. That wasn't too hard.

Later that Night:
I'm in Alex's room at my grandparents' house waiting for her to get ready. I don't know what's taking her so long, this isn't the first date she's been on with Sage.

"Alex come one!" I yell. "It's a Saturday night and no one cooks in this town on a Saturday night so Olive Garden is already going to be packed!"

Alex walks into the room while putting in her hoop earrings. "Maybe I want to look nice."

I raise an eyebrow. "It's Olive Garden, not Cypress Restaurant."

"Doesn't mean I still can't look nice," Alex says. Alex puts on some shoes. "I'm ready," she announces. She's wearing black dress pants and a button down loose red blouse with red dress shoes. I look closely at Alex's face. I think she's wearing makeup. Her hair is also curled.

I get up off the bed. "Ok," I start. "Look at you and look at me."

Alex looks me up and down. I'm wearing plain old jeans, a FSU shirt, white tennis shoes and my hair is in a simple pony tail.

"I look like I'm going to Olive Garden," I tell her. "You look like you're going to some fancy restaurant for a first date."

"I just want to look nice," she says again. "There's nothing wrong with that."

"Yeah, ok. Anyway, first we'll pick up Tammy and then we'll get Sage."

Alex nods her head. "Jordan, please don't embarrass me."

I point a finger at myself. "Who me?" I ask. "I would never…"

Alex crosses her arms and is giving me a knowing look. I throw my hands up.

"Ok, jeez."

We climb into my grandfather's car and drive to the campus to pick Tammy and Sage up.

Olive Garden:
Alex, Sage, Tammy, and I are sitting in a booth at Olive Garden right now. We're talking but it's mostly small talk.

"I don't know if I said this already Alex but you look really nice tonight," Sage tells Alex.

Alex smiles widely and I think she might be blushing. "Thanks Sage, so do you," she says.

Alex is looking at me giving me the "I told you so" look. Whatever, I still say it's a bit much for Olive Garden.

"So Sage, where are you from?" I ask.

"Miami," she says.

"Really?" I ask. "Why'd you decided to leave that exciting city to come to FSU?"

"Well Miami is one of those cities where after growing up in it every now and then you wanna leave the tourists behind and see something new. Plus it's nice to live somewhere now where I don't have to worry about my neighborhood flooding every time a big storm hits."

I laugh a little bit. "That is true. What do your parents do?"

"My dad owns a couple of car dealerships and my mom is a teacher."

"That's cool." I look at Alex silently telling her that I'm doing my job by not embarrassing her.

"So Jordan, Sage starts. "Can you tell me something interesting about Alex?"

Alex's eyes widen and she's looking at me. "I will kill you," she mouths.

"Hmm," I'm tapping my chin as if I'm thinking. "She's a wicked lacrosse player."

"Really?" Sage turns to Alex. "I didn't know you play lacrosse."

Alex shrugs her shoulders. "Nothing serious," she says nonchalantly.

"Well maybe we should play sometime," Sage says.

"You play lacrosse?"

Sage nods her head. "I play a lot of things." She smirks at Alex.

Alrighty then, I'm going to go ahead and say there was a sexual meaning in there somewhere.

"So how long have you two known each other?" Sage asks me and Tammy.

"Jordan and I have known each other forever it seems," Tammy answers.

"6th grade," I answer.

"That is a long time," Sage says. "When did you two get together?"

"January," Tammy answers. "But we've had feelings for each other way longer than that. It just seems that fate wanted us to wait." Tammy is rubbing my arm affectionately.

Alex and I are looking at each other probably thinking the same thing now. I don't know if its fate that wanted us to wait or maybe fate knew all along that we're not meant for each other and there's someone else out there for me.

"So Jordan I remember you mentioning the name Paige at Alex's birthday party," Sage says. "Who is she?"

Oh shit, oh shit. Alex is giving me this look telling me not to fuck this up.

"Um uh," I stammer. "Just this girl Alex and I went to high school with."

"Isn't she Alex's ex girlfriend?" Tammy asks.

"OW!" I yell. Pain, excruciating pain is running through my leg. I look at Alex, knowing she's the one that just kicked my leg. I cannot control what comes out of Tammy's mouth; she should know that by now.

"Jordy, are you ok?" Tammy asks.

"I'm fine," I say through clenched teeth. That's going to leave a bruise. "I have to use the bathroom," I tell the table. I look at Alex.

"Me too," Alex says.

We both get out of the booth. "Don't say anything interesting while we're gone," I tell Sage and Tammy while looking at Tammy.

Alex and I enter the women's bathroom and lucky for us no one else is in here. I turn to Alex and I'm shooting daggers at her with my eyes.

"Maybe you're a fast healer but I'm not," I tell her. "I don't need you kicking my healing leg!"

"Well maybe you should control your girlfriend."

"Number one, no one can control what comes out of her mouth, trust me. Number two, why haven't you told Sage about Paige yet? Keeping things from your girlfriend does not help build a strong healthy relationship."

"Oh hey Sage my ex Paige is this girl that I was madly in love with but broke my heart numerous times," Alex says pretending to be telling this to Sage. "And no offense Jordan but you should be the last one giving advice about healthy relationships."

"Ok, no attacking me tonight. Right now we're talking about you, not me. You're going to have to tell her about Paige sooner or later. I'm not saying you should tell her everything that went done between you two. Hell, you don't even have to tell her about half that stuff that went down between you two, but you do have to at least tell Sage about her. You can't keep Paige a secret, you can't keep your past a secret."

"I know,' Alex says. "I just wanted to wait till I absolutely know what it is I'm doing with Sage. I mean our relationship isn't exactly set in stone right now."

I sigh. "Do you like this girl?"

Alex nods her head. "Yeah," Alex answers,

"She's isn't another rebound girl like Carla was, is she?"

Alex is shaking her head no. "No, she isn't. I think I could really fall for this girl."

"Then I say go for it. Just don't hide who you are. I'm not saying tell her everything now but at least tell her who Paige is."

Alex is nodding her head and I know we both agree on that now. We're heading to the door, about the leave the bathroom.

"Jordan wait," Alex says.

I turn around. "Yeah?"

"Break up with Tammy," she tells me in a serious tone.

"Alex…"

"I'm not saying this because I don't like her and I'm not saying this for your sake but for her sake. She's obviously falling in love with you. She's probably already in love with you."

I'm shaking my head, disagreeing with Alex. "Alex, you're crazy. Tammy and I have only been together for three months. Not even three months yet."

Alex is shaking her head disagreeing with me. "You can tell by the way she looks at you Jordan. Tammy is looking at you the same way you and Beth use to look at each other, the same way I use to look at Paige." Alex walks up to me and puts a hand on my shoulder. "Break up with her now or you're going to break her heart and you and I both know you won't be able to live with yourself knowing you broke someone's heart."

I grab Alex's hand from my shoulder and pat it.. "I appreciate the advice but I think you may be reading too much into it. Now let's get back out there before Tammy says something really stupid that neither one of us will be able to explain or make up for."

We both leave the bathroom and head back to the booth. Alex and I both sit down in our previous seats. Sage smiles at Alex and Alex smiles back. Aw they look cute together. I look at Tammy and she's smiling widely at me. She can't be in love with me right? Right?

Later that Night:
Dinner was a blast, besides the random comments from Tammy. Sage actually seems like a pretty cool girl and although she's looks like Paige there are significant differences between the two. For example, Paige is really into fashion where Sage is really into sports. She says she's a big fan of the Miami Heat and then her and I got into a discussion about which team is better, the Lakers or the Heat. We all know the Lakers are the greatest basketball team in the world. Then Alex interrupted us saying that basketball is boring and hockey is better. So then we got into an argument about which sport is better with Tammy saying little to nothing the whole time.

We're in the car now and I'm dropping everyone off. I reach Sage's dorm first.

"First stop, Dorman Hall," I announce. I'm looking into the review mirror to the back seat where Alex and Sage are sitting together.

"I know Jordan is your ride home but do you maybe want to come inside and see my room?" Sage asks sort of shyly.

Alex looks to at me through the mirror and I wave her off.

"If it gets too late and you need a place to crash then just call Amy and she'll pick you up and either take you home or take you back to the dorm room," I tell Alex.

Alex is nodding her head and smiling. "Ok," she tells me. "I'd love to see your room," Alex tells Sage.

They're climbing out of the car. I roll down the window as they're walking away. "Don't do anything I wouldn't do!" I yell out the window.

I can't see that well because it's dark but I'm pretty sure Alex just gave me the finger. I laugh and now I'm driving Tammy and me to her dorm.

"Sage seems nice," Tammy says as we're walking to her room.

"Mhm," I say agreeing with her.

Tammy unlocks the door and we walk into her room. As usually her roommate isn't here.

"Is your roommate ever here?" I ask her.

"No," Tammy answers. She raises an eyebrow. "Are you complaining?"

I smirk at her. "Of course not," I tell her. "I'm just pointing it out." I bring Tammy closer to me and kiss her. As usual this kiss is getting heated and it's about to turn into something else. Tammy pulls away and I pout.

She's looking into my eyes and I do not like the look she's giving me. Oh no…

"Jordan," she starts. "I love you."

SHIT!

A/N: So in about three chapters Paige will finally make an appearance yay! Also I was thinking the other day and it came to me that some of you might have questions about Jordan's past. So I'm allowing everyone that reviews to ask one question about Jordan if they want and I'll answer it. I'll try to post the next chapter ASAP! =) please remember to review!