A/N: This ended up being a chapter where I had no idea where I was going with it. lol! ENJOY!
Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or its characters. But this month I bought 5 new cds so I own those =)
For once I have no witty or profound introduction to this chapter of my life. I can't really think of anything to say. I'm just sitting on my bed, not believing what I just read. In a way I feel a tad bit bad and creepy for reading these letters. I'm pretty sure Paige didn't mean for ANYONE to see these letters, including Alex, but I pressured Alex and bugged her until she finally gave in. Wow, I'm a jerk.
So the big question right now is: What should I do? I obviously I can't just go into Alex's room and be like "Hey so I read the letters. Pretty interesting stuff eh?" That is not an option and it's also VERY stupid move. Ugh, life is so complicated.
I fall back onto my bed. I'm staring at the ceiling, like all people do when they don't know what to do. I wonder how many cracks are in the ceiling. Maybe I'll count the cracks instead of talking to Alex. Yep, that sounds like a good idea.
Upside, inside out she's livin la vida loca. She'll push and pull you down, livin la vida loca.
I let out breath of relief. I'm saved by the ringing cell phone. I answer my cell.
"Thank God," I say immediately.
"I'm guessing I picked the perfect time to call?" Beth asks.
"Yes, yes you did. Where are you?"
"I'm outside your house."
"Wow, you're like a mind reader."
"Come answer the door please."
I hang up my cell phone and practically run down the stairs. I open the door and there's my lovely girlfriend standing in front of me. I wrap my arms around her.
"What'd you do this time?" she asks me.
"Why do assume I did something?"
Beth places her hands on her hips and gives me a pointed look.
"Ok, point taken," I say without her saying anything.
I close the front door and Beth and I go up to my room. I close my bed room door and collapse onto my bed. Beth sits down next to my exhausted body.
"¿Qué está equivocado?" she asks.
"I feel like a jerk and a creeper," I tell her.
"Don't you always feel like a creeper?"
I look at her. Beth puts her hands up.
"Lo siento, lo siento," she apologizes. "I guess this isn't the time to joke."
"Remember that letter I gave Alex back at the airport in LA from Paige?"
Beth nods her head. "Let me guess," she starts. "You hassled and bugged Alex until she gave it to you to read and what you thought was one letter ended up being numerous letters written by Paige confessing certain feelings and thoughts to Alex."
Holy… I sit up quickly and stare at Beth with my mouth wide open.
"You should close your mouth," she says and closes it for me. "Wouldn't want any flies flying in."
"How did you know?"
"Because number one, I know you Jordan Johnson. Number two, Paige told me she gave some letters so Alex. She didn't tell me what they said and quite frankly I don't want to know what they say."
I fall back again and place my arm over my eyes. "Am I a horrible person?"
"No. A little nosey, yes but you're not a bad person."
"Ugh, then why do I feel so bad?"
Beth takes me arm off my face and is looking at me. "Jordan Johnson, do you know why I love you so much?" she asks.
"Because I'm hot, I have a wicked personality and my ass is FANTASTIC."
Beth tilts her head. "Wow, I have no words for that."
"I do have a fantastic ass though."
"Ok fine, you have a fantastic ass. But besides that, I love you because of your heart." Beth points to my heart. "You have such a big heart and that's wonderful. You care about your friends and family a lot but sometimes all that caring makes you put your nose where it doesn't belong."
"I just… I don't know. When it comes to Alex and Paige things are just…"
"Interesting yet complicated?"
I'm nodding my head. "I feel like it was a lot easier when they were just friends and never dated."
"Things always become complicated and messy when love is involved. That's just how life is. But you and I both know that in the end love with work itself out."
"Do you think Alex and Paige still love each other?"
Beth shrugs her shoulders. "I don't know," she answers. "I can't speak for either of them and honestly I don't think they know how they feel about each other, especially Alex. But Jordan, you have to give Alex time and space to figure it out for herself. You can't push your opinions and thoughts on her. It's her life and Alex has to make her own decisions whether you like them or not."
Beth is right, as always. I need to give Alex space and time to make her own decisions. Ugh…
I smile at Beth. "Bethany Perez, do you know why I love you so much?" I ask her.
"Because I'm hot and 99% of the time I'm right," she answers and smiles cheekily at me.
"Exactly."
I lean up and Beth and I share a kiss.
"I'm going to go talk to Alex," I tell her.
She's nodding her head. "I have to go anyway. But I'll call you later to see how everything went."
"Ok. Want me to walk you to the door?"
Beth is shaking her head. "I know where the door is. You just go talk to Alex."
As Beth heads out the door I walk to Alex's room. I knock on the door.
Knock, knock.
Alex opens the door.
"You have got to be kidding me," she says. "After everything that has happened today and after you practically forced me to let you read the letters Paige wrote you're really going to try to talk to me?"
"I'm sorry," I apologize. "I've realized that I need to let you make your own decisions because this is your life and I can't keep forcing my opinions and thoughts into it. I have to let you live your life."
Alex crosses her arm and leans against the door frame. "Continue…"
I sigh. "I was wrong when I kept bugging you to let me read the letters Paige wrote. This whole thing between you and Paige should just be between you and Paige, not me. But know that everything I do is because I care about you AND Paige. And I know that we've all gone through some major crap lately and we're still going through stuff but I know everything will work out for itself in the end."
Alex is nodding her head. "So this means…"
"I will be staying out of your love life unless you invite me in," I mutter.
"Ok then."
"One more question though."
Alex raises an eyebrow. "Alright, ask away."
I take a breath. "Are you in any way still in love with Paige?"
Alex sighs. "I'm in love with Sage."
"Ok."
I walk back to my room as Alex closes her door. Anyone else notice that that was not a definite answer? I'm just sayin. I'm not going to push it but that was NOT a definite answer.
Couple of Weeks Later:
Question, why does one wear to a movie premiere? I mean do I want to look classy or casual? And if classy then how classy? Or how casual? Ergh, this is slightly frustrating. I'm standing in the mirror just in my underwear and a wife beater, debating what to wear.
Tonight is the Mewesical High Canadian premiere. Of course I am going AND I'm walking the red carpet. Of course my lovely girlfriend will be joining me and Alex will be walking the carpet as well. Well at least she's allowed to, I don't know if she'll actually do it.
Knock, knock.
"Come in!" I tell the mystery knocker.
Alex enters my room. "What does someone wear to a movie premiere?"
I turn and look at her. "Ya know seeing as we have both been to a movie premiere you'd think we would know what to wear to one of those things."
Alex is nodding her head. "Except that wasn't a big premiere and back then we were in high school so we didn't really care that much."
"That is true. Maybe just a pair of jeans and a t-shirt? Be casual, not classy?"
"Maybe that's a little too casual? I don't know. I'm not very good when it comes to these kinds of things. You know that was always Paige's job."
"Yeah well apparently that really is her job now."
Alex raises an eyebrow. "Really now?"
I'm nodding my head. "According to Beth, Paige is now Jason's personal stylist."
"Hmm, I didn't think a guy like Jason Mewes would need a personal stylist."
I shrug my shoulders. "Well Paige needed a way to put her foot in the door so I guess Jason is helping her out."
"That's nice of him," Alex says with as little emotion as possible.
"Knock, knock."
Alex and I both turn to look at who is standing in the doorway. Wowza!
"Jordan, you should close your mouth before a fly flies in," Beth says and smiles.
Beth is looking HOT. She's wearing a purple lace-inset rouched dress with matching heels and this is one of those rare occasions where she's wearing make-up, not that she needs it.
"Wow, you look…wow," I tell her.
Beth blushes. "Thanks Paige helped me pick it out."
"Well she did an amazing job."
"Thanks hon!"
Whoa, where the hell did Paige just come from? It's like she appeared out of nowhere. Like a magician! And she's holding some clothes. I notice Alex's body sort of stiffens.
"Now because this is a red carpet event you and Beth need to match so I got you a matching purple short sleeve dress shirt and a skinny black tie because I know how you like to wear ties when you wear a dress shirt and I suggest black dress pants and those half inch shoes you own. Since your girlfriend looks classy you need to look classy."
Paige is holding the shirt and tie out to me. I take the clothes from her.
"Uh thanks Paige," I say.
"And Alex since you don't have a date and I know you don't like to do formal very well I picked out these dark barely boot Zelda slim fit jeans and this red chiffon flutter-sleeve top," Paige tells Alex.
Alex crosses her arms. "I didn't ask you to pick out any clothes for me Paige," Alex tells her.
"But I did," Beth says quickly. "I wanted us all to look nice and I know you two can never decide what to wear to events so I asked for Paige's help."
Now I don't know if that is completely true or not but I love how quickly Beth said that, to defuse whatever little fight was about to happen between Paige and Alex.
"I didn't ask for a stylist," Alex tells Beth.
"Alex just take the damn clothes," I tell her.
Alex takes the clothes Paige is holding out for her.
"Thanks," she mutters and walks to her room to change.
Paige turns back and looks at Beth and me.
"Well that went great," she says sarcastically.
I shrug my shoulders. "Could have been worse," I tell her. "There could have been some yelling."
Ow! Elbow in the side, elbow in the side. I turn and look at Beth and she's just smiling. Elbow to the ribs is not fun.
Hours Later:
Alex, Beth, and I are in a limo right now on our way to the premiere. Yes, we're that important that we get a limo. Paige is riding with Jason since she is his stylist AND personal assistant. We're all wearing the clothes Paige picked out for us. Yes, even Alex is wearing the clothes Paige picked out for her and I must say that Alex looks pretty nice.
The limo stops which means we have arrived. Technically this is our first red carpet walk. I'm excited.
"Why are you so excited?" Alex asks.
She must have noticed the giant smile that's been on my face the whole car ride here.
"Because I'm going to be walking the red carpet and I look good," I tell her. "My clothes are amazing, I have a FANTASTIC smile, and I have a hot girl on my arm."
Alex leans into Beth. "See how Jordan just made you seem like an accessory?"
Beth raises an eyebrow. "Are you trying to start trouble Alex?" she asks her jokingly.
Alex shrugs her shoulders. "It'd make this night interesting."
Oh I have a feeling this night is already going to be interesting. The driver opens the door for us and a flood of light immediately enters the limo. Alex is the first one to step out, followed by Beth, and then me.
Wow, there's a lot of paparazzi here, more than there was for Jay and Silent Bob Go Canadian, Eh! Alex steps onto the red carpet and Beth and I follow her hand in hand.
"Girls over here! Over here!" I hear random paparazzi call out.
Beth and I stop to do a few poses. I'll admit I like having my picture taken. I can even see Alex stopping every now and then and smiling.
"Jordan Johnson! Jordan Johnson, over here!"
Wait, who is actually calling out my name? I turn my head in the direction where I heard my name. Wait, is that Perez Hilton? Oh shit…
"Umm I'm going to go talk to Perez," I tell Beth.
A look of concern appears on her face. "Are you sure?" she asks.
I nod my head. "Yeah, totally."
I walk over to Perez and his camera man and put a smile on my face.
"My my, if it isn't Jordan Johnson," Perez greets me.
"To be honest Mr. Hilton, I'm surprised you know who I am," I tell him
"Of course I know who you are honey. You're the girl who ruined Paige Michalchuk."
Oh shit. I chuckle nervously. "No dude, I believe that was you."
"Well I heard that you and Paige were buddy buddies back in high school but I guess that changed in Hollywood."
Perez puts the microphone in my face. "Paige and I have been friends since we were 16. We've gone through more trials and tribulations than most friendships go through but we've made it through each one together."
"So are you denying you're the one that sent the incriminating audio of Miss Michalchuk acting like a diva?"
Oh my God.
"Perez, is that you?"
Paige once again comes out of nowhere and appears by my side.
"Hello Paige," Perez greets Paige.
"Perez what are you doing on that side of the rope? Will you not be joining us inside?"
"Oh I will Paige. I just wanted to interview some people first for my blog."
"Well you can interview but we'd really appreciate it if you didn't harass people. Thanks hon."
Paige grabs my arm and pulls me away from Perez. Once we're far away enough from him she lets go.
I exhale a breath of relief. "Thanks Paige, I really appreciate that."
"Listen hon, I know you're the 'source' that tipped off Perez that day. I'm not mad at you because I deserved it. I was a bitch back in LA and I needed to be knocked off my high horse. You just did what needed to be done."
Wow. "Umm yeah. Listen Paige-."
"We can talk later hon. Right now Jason would like to see you."
Paige leads me over to where Alex, Beth, and Jason are standing. Wow, Jason looks really nice in his outfit. Jason is wearing relaxed black pants, with a white casual fit western shirt, and white shoes.
"You look pretty snazzy there Mr. Mewes," I tell Jason.
Jason runs a hand over his torso."Yes, I know," he says and laughs. "Paige helps me look good."
"That I do," Paige replies.
"Manny! Manny! Over here Manny!" I hear the paparazzi yell.
We all turn our heads and see Manny and Jay walking down the red carpet. Manny is wearing a gorgeous indigo mesh-strap crossover banded dress and Jay is wearing a very nice suit. I turn my head and look at Paige.
"I'm gonna go ahead and say you picked out Jay's outfit," I tell Paige.
Paige is nodding her head. "And Manny's as well."
"Whose outfit didn't you pick out?" Alex asks.
"Kevin's," Paige says and points.
We all look in the direction she's pointing at. Yeah, Kevin is wearing shorts with a black and white bowling shirt.
"He said he was a grown man and could pick out his own clothes so I let him," Paige tells us.
"Next time don't," I tell her.
We all head inside to watch the movie. First time in a while that Alex hasn't shouted at Paige. We're making progress.
A/N: Next chapter there will be a wedding! =)