Here is chapter 15 finally! Took me a little to write... Enjoy and please review!
" Exams, school... they are officially over in my life!" Oswald beamed.
" For you but not for me! You're so lucky, Os... I'm staying here for another two years. Unlike you..." And unlike Scorpius... She faked a pout. He lifted her off the ground and loudly kissed her.
" You're going to be ok, even if I'm not here..." he smirked.
Will I be ok when Scorpius gets married? No. Way.
" Wouldn't be too sure about that... I will be a poor 16 year old girl, wandering all alone the corridors of the castle..."
" Hugo will be there for you. Of that, you can be sure. He'll always be there for you. Come on, let's celebrate! It's our night off!"
As much as Lily tried, she couldn't see this as a celebration. More as a goodbye. She'd see Oswald again. He was a stable part of her life now. On the other hand, would she see him again? Maybe after an eternity or maybe never. Her mind wasn't ready to face such a perspective though. Her heart wasn't. Lily wasn't ready to let go. Not yet. Maybe not ever. As she passed by, hand in hand with Oswald, she met Scorpius with his fiancee Rosalie. They were having a chat with their Slytherin gang and she was laughing. She was obviously happy. Not only did this day mean that her Hogwarts chapter was ending but also that her Scorpius chapter was about to begin. Lily couldn't restrain her jealousy. Why Rosalie and not her? Why? Scorpius followed her with a longing gaze before she disappeared behind the corner.
That special night was coming to an end for the Gryffindors. It was nearly 2 o'clock in the morning and they were all heading back to their common rooms. Lily stopped in front of the Fat Lady portrait.
" Oswald, you go back inside and get some sleep. I need to do something before. See you tomorrow morning?" she smiled.
" Um, alright. I won't ask you what you're going to do but you're sure you want to do it alone?"
" Yes. It's just a little something between me and... the castle," she replied pensive.
" Alright. See you tomorrow then..." he kissed her goodnight and disappeared behind the portrait. Lily began wandering the corridors. Some people were still around but most had gone to bed. Hogwarts was falling into an eerie silence. While walking, she met Nott.
" Hey, Lily!"
" Kurt..." Her eyes taking a slightly suspicious look.
" I-I just wanted to say goodbye. Last day, last chance to settle... stuff, good memories. Plenty with you, you know?" He gazed at her intensely, his cheek colouring.
" Cannot exactly say the same but in the end... I guess I can forgive you... if it's what you want."
" We part as friends then?"
" As friends," she smiled and they hugged. Maybe she'd kind of miss him too. He was one of the only people who could remember her as her old self. She began recalling all the time spent together, her first kiss, her anger when he cheated on her... it all seemed meaningless now. Meaningless problems of the past.
She walked on, trying to leave everything behind her... No such a luck. Scorpius was right in front of her, lingering a few steps away in the middle of the corridor. He was standing still, countenance paler than usual. A ghostly image, suspending time, choking her breath. She tried to brand this image in her memory. The last time she'd see him within the Hogwart's walls. Maybe the last time in her life. She wanted to remember. When he looked at her, she felt brought back to the very first time she met him, on platform 9 and ¾, 7 years earlier. They were only children who didn't even know they'd share something one day. She was too busy whining with her parents because she'd only start Hogwarts in two years, which looked like ages back then. Deep in her thoughts, she didn't notice he had nearly reached her.
" Future is so unpredictable..." she broke the silence between them. " Every small action takes us on a different path. Whether it's the right one or the wrong one, there is no way of knowing it until you've reached the end of it..."
" This the end of an exciting one, then... and the beginning of a wrong one."
" An extremely wrong one..." she interjected, her eyes unfocused, lost somewhere unknown. She felt his nose brushing gently against hers. That was when she brought her eyes to his. So close, for the last time. They had never been more intense than in that moment. She kissed him because she'd never do it again. It was a sour kiss, full of bitterness and regret. He pulled away with a moan, his face contorted like a battle field of contrasting emotions.
" Come with me," it was more of a pleading than an order. She slightly nodded and followed him. To the unknown.
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The first light of dawn filtered through the windows of the Room of Requirement. Lily opened her eyes and looked around. A dull ache in her lower body made her groan. It took her a few seconds to realize what day it was today. End of year. All Hogwarts students would go back home. She turned to see Scorpius lying next to her. He was awake, his eyes dark, light-less. She searched his face feeling a growing desperation. How could she go back to Oswald after the past night? When he had given her a glimpse of heaven. Branded her in a way that couldn't and wouldn't be erased. His. Forever his.
" Are you thinking about McLaggen?" he brushed his lips against her neck.
" What gave it away?"
" Just your eyes. He's good. I've seen him with you. He loves you."
" I know..."
" As much as I hate him, he's someone who can make you happy. I'll regret admitting this for the rest of my life, but it's true..."
" Don't say more..." she begged. He got closer and kissed her. Lily tried to drench her memory in the act because it would be their last kiss.
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Lily woke up. A familiar voice told her they were about to get to King's Cross. She lifted her head from its cradle on Oswald's shoulder.
" Good morning!" he said jokingly. She had slept the whole trip back and still felt tired.
" I'll go get our luggage. Wait for me..."
When she stepped down on the platform, she saw her family and run to them. Albus soon joined her. For once, family felt like safety and shelter.
She walked back to Oswald and they exchanged a few words. They'd see each other again during summer. She kissed him goodbye and watched him leave.
The next step was the hardest. Scorpius was in front of her. He was motionless, surrounded by steam. The tempest in his eyes hit her full force. She wanted to run to him and feel again his arms around her but couldn't. Wouldn't. Time seemed to come to a halt and when her brother James took her hand and nudged her gently away, she watched her lover, her first lover become smaller and smaller: a misty ghost lost in the mist. All the time, they looked into each other's eyes. I will never forget you...
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Lily and Oswald met almost everyday that summer. He had passed his NEWTs with excellent marks and was off to work for the ministry next year. Lily got her results too and they were the best of the whole year.
She finally introduced him to her parents and they were actually quite happy about their daughter's choice. It was a warm day of August and Lily nearly forgot what had been going on in her mind in the past months. But the arrival of an owl broke the peaceful interlude. It was from Draco Malfoy. Not surprisingly, her aunt Hermione took and read the message. The inevitable had happened. She tried to feign indifference but her emotions were finally taking their toll so she excused herself and fled to her room. Albus came up shortly after. She cried in her brother's lap for a few minutes. If she was away for too long, someone would start wondering. She washed her tear-stained face and went back down. As she entered the living room, she saw her family chatting amiably with her boyfriend. This was the new chapter of her life: the wrong path. But she wouldn't give it away. She smiled and let the new script take over.
