Sorry for the delay, but things happened yesterday that I couldn't really control and I didn't have time to write. But I'm back now, so it's ok right? And finally, it's the end of the angst. Writing angst is tiring.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the chapter and please leave a review:)

Chapter Fifty One

The heavens opened and it poured that day, the day of Jacob's funeral. There was twelve people in attendence that day, counting the priest. James had decided to stay at home instead and look after Jennifer and Henry, while Will went along with JJ. It was just like Emily expected it to be, dark, dreary, bleak, not a word was said between any of the mourners, she couldn't think of a better word to call them, and everyone was glad when the coffin was laid into the ground. Jacob Slade would never bother them again.

''Emily how old is Jennifer exactly?'' JJ asked. She was sitting down on the couch in Emily's house, they were allowed back in again, and had Jennifer in her arms. She was tickling her and Jennifer was laughing and smiling. ''It's like, three months isn't it?''

''Three months and one week. Why do you ask?'' Emily replied from inside the kitchen.

''She's batting at my hair for some reason. Henry didn't do that until he was four months old.''

''Well maybe my child is smarter than yours,'' Emily smirked.

''Hey! Henry is perfectly smart!''

''Of course he is, I'm just saying Jennifer is smarter.''

''I'm going to forget you ever said that. She always grabbed my hair, and yours, but now she's batting at it. She never did that before.''

''Maybe she wants the clip in your hair,'' Emily suggested as she walked into the living room and leaned over the back of the couch. JJ was currently wearing a rather large purple butterfly clip in her hair, given to her by Garcia for her birthday. Although it was beautiful, it was rather extravagant, and she really only wore it to please Garcia.

''Maybe, do you like purple Jenny?'' JJ smiled and Jennifer laughed back.

''Or maybe she likes butterflies,'' Emily said, as she twisted a lock of Jennifer's dark hair around her finger.

''Oh don't tell Reid. He'll have taught her all the different types of butterflies by the time she's two.''

''He's already trying to teach her the alphabet.''

''Already?''

''He said it will help her development or something like that. I wasn't really listening.''

''When did he say it?''

''About two weeks ago.''

''Ah. You were thinking about James weren't you?''

James still hadn't recovered from the Jacob incident, and that was over a month ago. Emily knew it would take time for him to heal, but he had made no progress whatsoever. He nearly got worse. He avoided eye contact with her, never touched her, and he threw himself into his work. His heart wasn't in it when interacting with Jennifer either, and Emily couldn't forgive him for that. Ignoring her was one thing, but ignoring Jennifer was unacceptable.

Jennifer had gotten to the age when she could recognise faces, and everytime she saw someone she recognised, she smiled. The more she knew the person the bigger the smile. She had her biggest smiles for Emily and JJ, next was Garcia, Rossi, Reid, Morgan, Hotch, and last James. That shocked Emily. James did spend time with her, but not enough. He wasn't putting the effort into their time together. It was like spending time with your partner but all you do is watch TV. It wasn't quality time.

''I can't help it JJ. I'm worried about him, I'm mad at him, I'm concerned for him, all at the same time. You knew he was ignoring me, but now he's doing it to Jennifer. That isn't right,'' Emily said sadly. JJ made room on the couch and beckoned for Emily to sit next to her.

''Em I'm sorry. This is a big thing that happened, it will take time, but this...this shouldn't be happening.''

''I know. The bed feels so big, and cold. He sleeps on his side, practically halfway out the bed, facing away from me when before we used meet in the middle and I'd fall asleep with my head on his chest and his arms wrapped around me. That hasn't happened in weeks JJ.''

JJ listened patiently and with a great amount of concern. Emily could tell by her eyes that JJ cared, and she was extremely glad of JJ's friendship.

''Last week in bed I touched his shoulder and he flinched JJ, he flinched. That...that hurt JJ,'' Emily said, tears forming in her eyes. One lone tear rolled down her cheek slowly,and JJ gently wiped it away with her thumb.

''I know what that feels like,'' JJ said, thinking back to the horrible time when James and Emily were apart, and she and Emily were fighting.

Emily seemed to know exactly what JJ was thinking and said ''Yeah but that was different JJ. I hate to say it but you did a bad thing. James didn't.''

''He doesn't see it that way. He thinks he's the bad guy.''

''I know, and I've been trying to show him that he isn't, but he won't listen. He won't even look at me JJ.''

JJ's heart broke a little and she scooted over closer to Emily. She put one arm around Emily's shoulder and pulled her in closer. Emily rest her head on JJ's shoulder and reached down and took Jennifer's hand. Her daughter smiled up at her and Emily remembered that there was some good in her life.

''JJ, it's gotten so bad that...that...that I've considered calling off the wedding.''

JJ's head shot up and she looked at her friend with wide eyes. ''Seriously? It's that bad?'' She had no idea how bad it was really, or exactly what Emily was feeling. She knew it was bad, but not this bad. She felt so guilty for not seeing this sooner, for making Emily go through it alone when she should have been doing something.

''Jay, how can I marry a man who won't even look at me? Won't even touch me, won't even look me in the eyes and say he loves me?'' Emily asked, knowing in her heart that if James didn't get better it would come to that.

''You can't...Emily I don't want that to happen,'' JJ admitted.

''Neither do I. But...Jayje I can't live this way. Neither can Jennifer. Her own father is practically ignoring her, and we're not even split up. We're together, we're living together, it's not like he doesn't get the chance to see her. He's here everyday, and he can't even look at her. I've...I've thought about leaving him. I don't want to, I really don't want to, but if he doesn't get better I can't see a future for us,'' Emily said sadly.

''Emily, it won't come to that,'' JJ told her, as she tucked a strand of Emily's hair behind her ear. She just hoped she wasn't lying to Emily.

''But what if it does JJ? What if it gets so bad that we don't even talk, that we don't even acknowledge each other's presence? It's like living with a ghost, I don't want that JJ. I miss my James, I miss his warmth, his kindness, his laugh, the twinkle in his eye, that smile he has just for me, I miss seeing him and Jennifer together, that was my favourite sight in the world JJ, and I'm afraid I'll never see it again. I know he's in pain, and I want to help him, I really do, but he won't let me. I don't know how much longer I can take this Jayje, I'm at the end of my tether, nothing I do will work. I have tried EVERYTHING, talking with him, just sitting there with him se-'' Emily moved her hands to block Jennifer's ears-''sex, hugs, his favourite food, a Redskins game, anything to get him to open up to me. The attempt to seduce him was a complete disaster, he took one look at me and left the room quickly. I just don't know what to do anymore JJ...''

For once, JJ was stuck for words. Emily had just opened her heart to her, and Emily didn't do that a lot. She had no idea just how much pain her friend was in, she was practically dying inside. JJ took her arm from around Emily's shoulders and took her hand. Emily lifted her head up from JJ's shoulder and looked up at JJ with sad, tired eyes. She wasn't wearing any make-up, she didn't see the point anymore, James never even looked at her. JJ hadn't realised that all the time Emily was talking she'd been quietly crying. Her cheeks were stained with tears. ''Emily I...I'm so sorry. I had no idea it was this bad. If I'd known I would have done something, I would have been there for you more, I would have held your hand and listened, just like I'm doing now. Talking must have helped, but not a lot. If I had known in time I could have prevented it from getting this bad, I could-''

''JJ, don't. You couldn't have done anything. I couldn't have done anything. The only one who can fix it is James, and he won't let us help him,'' Emily interrupted.

''Maybe there is something we can do,'' JJ said, an idea popping into her head. It was so brilliant she didn't know why there wasn't a giant lightbulb above her head.

''JJ what are you talking about?'' Emily asked.

''You said you tried to seduce him. Knowing you, you probably didn't do it right.''

''Hey!''

''But I can help. I will make you look so beautiful, so irrestible, so sexy, so lu-''

''JJ get on with it.''

''Sorry. I will make you look so good James won't be able to keep his hands off you,'' JJ smirked with an evil glint in her eye.

''Oh no. I know what you're thinking. This isn't going to happen.''

''Oh yes it is. We're going shopping Emily,'' JJ smirked. She grabbed Emily's hand and pulled her off the couch, Emily groaning and fearing what was about to happen.

''JJ I don't think a lingerie store is the best place for a baby,'' Emily remarked as she looked around her and saw nothing but frills and lace. She wouldn't be surprised if her daughter turned out to be a stripper in Vegas.

''No, it probably isn't, but we couldn't find a babysitter and we couldn't leave her at home now could we?'' JJ inquired as she browsed through the lingerie the store had on offer. JJ was very excited, and almost ran into the shop. If anyone asked, Emily had two kids with her today. She really didn't know how JJ managed to get here, it was amazing what JJ could get her to do. She'd do anything for JJ, she must have magic powers or something. She had even persuaded Emily to drive her here.

''No...we couldn't. JJ can we get out of here quickly? People are giving me looks,'' Emily said as she passed a woman who looked at her as if she was the worst mother on earth. Which she probably was, seeing as she brought her daughter into a lingerie shop.

''Quickly? Oh god no. Emily we're trying to save your marriage here. It's not going to be quick. We have to be precise and thorough.''

''JJ we're not married.''

''In my mind you are.''

''I'd hate to live in your mind.''

''Why?'' JJ asked, slightly offended.

''I worry about you that's why. Although you are quite fascinating from a psychologist's point of view,'' Emily smirked.

''Oh ha ha, very funny. Ooh now Emily this one is so you. Really frilly, loads of lace, it just oozes sex appeal,'' JJ smiled as she held out a hideous hot pink chemise.

''That is so not me,'' Emily said as she looked the chemise up and down.

''Yeah you're right. It's more Garcia. Ooh what about this one? We got a sexy garter belt, and with it we have some stockings and a nice matching thong. Now if we could just find a nice top to go with it...,'' JJ murmured as she pulled out another item.

''Uh JJ? This IS the top,'' Emily said, pointing to two black fabric circles connected to the belt.

''These things? They're tiny! How are you honestly supposed to...oh. You put them on your n-...oh no, no no no no. We can put that back...wait, would you like to-''

''NO!'' Emily screamed, earning a few looks from people.

''Yeah, yeah of course not. That would be...actually that could work.''

''No way JJ.''

''It could! Men have this thing about breasts for some reason, and you have great breasts so why not show them off?''

''Well I can think of one reason. You'll insist on seeing me in the lingerie before James gets in.''

''Hell yeah I will! I have to make sure-...I get it now,'' JJ nodded. ''Yeah let's skip that one.''

''That's probably a good thing.''

''Mmhmm...ooh what about this one?'' JJ asked, showing Emily another horrible choice.

''JJ that's leather.''

''So?''

''It has a whip with it.''

''So? Show him who's boss!''

''It also has a chain.''

''We could...get rid of that.''

''JJ it's used in S & M.''

''Oh! Eww!'' JJ squealed, as she threw the leather item down in disgust while Emily laughed at her. ''I can't believe you let me touch it!''

''JJ don't you have to work?''

''No...''

''JJ.''

''Hotch said I could have the day off because I told him Henry was sick. So I'm all yours all day,'' JJ smiled sweetly while Emily groaned loudly.

They spent three hours in that shop until JJ eventually found one that she thought was sexy enough and one that Emily would actually wear. It was not an easy process.

''Ok Em you will look FANTASTIC in this. Now get into your bedroom and put it on, and make sure to come back out!'' JJ instructed her as they arrived back home.''

''Fine,'' Emily groaned as she handed Jennifer to JJ. ''Take care of her.''

''I will, I will. Now come on missy, try it on.''

''Ok. But don't make a big deal out of it ok?'' Emily asked as she walked upstairs.

''Me? Make a big deal out of something? Never.''

Emily came downstairs ten minutes later wearing a red satin corset with a lace trim, complete with suspender straps and a matching G-string. She never felt more humiliated in her life walking down the stairs to show her outfit to JJ. She stepped off the bottom step and walked into the living room where JJ was playing with Jennifer on the floor.

''You took your time,'' JJ remarked, as she picked up Jennifer and sat her in her lap. She covered her eyes and faced Emily. ''Wow. You look amazing.''

''Really? I feel...unclean.''

''Which also means dirty, which is what you're supposed to feel!'' JJ said excitedly as she looked Emily up and down.

''JJ?''

''Yeah?''

''Stop staring at me.''

''Ok. But Em you look so hot. He won't be able to resist you.''

''I hope so.''

''Oh Em, he will. Heck, I'd have sex with you. I'm having a VERY hard time resisting myself.''

An awkard silence filled the room as JJ realised what she had just said.

''I'm going to go upstairs,'' Emily smiled nervously.

''Yeah, yeah, do that! I'm going to go uh...home with Jennifer now. Good luck Em,'' JJ winked as she gathered up her things and left the house with Jennifer.

''Oh I'm going to need a lot more than luck,'' Emily muttered as she slowly walked upstairs.

James came home at around half seven tired and sore. He had a hard day at the gym, he don't know how many clients he had, and he had at least six classes, and they all wore him out. All he wanted was a hot bath. God, he was becoming a woman.

He thought it was odd that Emily wasn't downstairs. She was usually either making dinner or watching TV about now. Maybe she was upstairs changing Jennifer's diaper.

Jennifer. Everytime he heard that name he felt a sharp pain in his chest. He knew he had been ignoring his daughter but he didn't feel like he deserved her. He failed her and he failed Emily, he didn't deserve this life he had. He didn't deserve to come home to a loving, beautiful woman and a gorgeous baby. He didn't deserve their love.

He trudged upstairs wearily, and walked into his and Emily's bedroom to take his clothes off. He had gone against the bath idea and just opted for a warm shower, but he got a shock when he opened the door. Emily was sitting on the bed in sexy lingerie, smiling at him seductively.

''Hey handsome,'' she purred as he stepped into the room. He stared at her in disbelief, why was she doing this? He didn't deserve this, he hadn't done anything special, he had failed them. Why would she dress up like this then?''

''Em...Emily what are you doing?'' he asked as he stepped in further.

''What do you think I'm doing?'' she asked, getting up off the bed and walking over to him.

''I..I don't know,'' he answered as she stopped right in front of him. She put her hands on his chest and kissed his neck. She had his favourite perfume on, he loved it when she wore that perfume. Usually.

''Use your imagination honey,'' she purred into his ear and he resisted the urge to flinch. She ran her tongue down his neck and bit gently on his earlobe. He felt his body tense up, and when she stuck her tongue in his ear that's when he snapped. He moved away from Emily over to the other side of the room. Emily stood where she was, feeling hurt.

''Emily I can't...I can't...I really can't,'' he mumbled.

''Why not?'' she asked as she turned around slowly to face him.

''I...I...I need to take a shower.''

''I can join you.''

''No! I mean, no, t's better if I do it myself,'' he said quickly as he grabbed a towel and ran into the bathroom.

''Oh. Ok,'' Emily whispered, as she looked down at the ground, disappointed and hurt.

''You mean he DIDN'T devour you? Emily, you looked HOT. Like, majorly hot. I was even getting turned on. How could he say no to that?'' JJ ranted the next day. Emily had told her all about what had happened. She had felt hurt ever since James had rejected her, there was this pain in her chest that wouldn't go away. She knew what it was. Heartbreak.

''No, he didn't. He took a shower,'' Emily said dejectedly.

''A cold shower?''

''No, a hot shower. A very hot shower. I turned it on this morning and it was boiling.''

''Oh Emily...I'm sorry,'' JJ said as she reached out and took her friend's hand.

''Thanks JJ...I just don't know what to do anymore Jayje. I know I said I would give him another chance but I don't know if I can take it. JJ, I'm close to leaving him,'' Emily confessed.

''No, Emily you can't. You can't just give up like this. You have to fight for you relationship, you don't want Jennifer growing up without your daddy do you?''

''No...''

''Then fight Emily, fight!''

''I don't think I have it left in me JJ.''

''Of course you do! You're Emily Prentiss! You survived getting hit by a truck, a 2 x 4, a deranged cult leader, an insane maniac who kidnapped us, Emily you can do anything!''

''JJ, I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting a losing battle. I can't see any other option than just to leave. I still have my apartment, I can go there.''

''No, Emily please, stay and fight,'' JJ urged her.

''JJ I want to fix this more than anything else in the world, but I can't. He won't co-operate with me, he won't look at me, nothing. It's like talking to a brick wall.''

''But you love him.''

''I do. And I'll always love him, but sometimes even though you love each other you find yourselves growing apart.''

''Emily please, I'm begging you not to do this.''

''JJ I don't want to but I have to! This is the hardest decision I've ever made! It's torn my heart in two but I can't go back now! I can't live like this anymore! I've made up my mind, I'm leaving him.''

''Emily-''

''Don't try to argue with me JJ. Look, I gotta take a shower, can you look after Jennifer?''

''Yeah, sure, of course. But Em, are you sure?'' JJ asked one last time.

''I am Jayje,'' Emily said sadly.

''...Ok. I don't like it but I will support you. You can always stay with me, you know that?''

''I know.''

Both women were silent for a moment before JJ said ''Em, this will be hard but I'm here for you. Always. And so will Garcia, Morgan, Reid, Rossi, even Hotch. We're all here for you.''

''Thanks JJ.''

''It's not a problem Em. But go, have your shower. I'll be right here.''

James came home earlier than usual that day. It was a slow say at the gym, all his classes were over and he had no more appointments. He saw no use in sticking around so he just head home.

He arrived back home and was puzzled to see Jen's car there. She should be at work. He opened the door and found Jen sitting in the living room playing with Jennifer.

''Jen, what are you doing here?'' he asked. She looked up at him with a stony expression on her face. Something was wrong. ''Jen what's wrong?''

''What's wrong? WHAT'S WRONG! What's wrong is that you've pushed Emily away. You've ignored her, you've made her feel like she doesn't matter. She is in pain James, she doesn't know what to do anymore, that's what's wrong,'' she fumed as she stood up and faced him.

''What? Jen what are you talking about?'' he asked her.

''She feels like you don't care anymore. She thinks you don't want her. You've been ignoring her AND Jennifer, and she's hurting James, she's hurting. You won't even look at her, you won't touch her, how do you think that makes her feel?''

''I...I...bad,'' he sighed, kicking himself mentally for being such an idiot.

''Yeah, it doesn't make her feel good. James I know you're in pain over everything that happened with Jacob but you have to open your damn eyes and realise how it's affecting Emily! She doesn't blame you for any of this, she doesn't hate you, which is suprising considering how much of an idiot you've been. She still loves you, and she always has loved you.''

''I love her too Jen.''

''Tell her that. It's no good telling me.''

''I will. It's just...I'm a killer Jen, I don't deserve her.''

''James I'm going to tell you something. I've killed people. Two people. I killed the guy that shot Garcia and I killed the guy that kept Emily and I captive. Sure it hurts that you've taken away someone's life but they were bad men. So was Jacob.''

''But I let him into our house! I'm supposed to protect her!''

''She doesn't blame you! No-one knew how dangerous Jacob really was, so stop beating yourself up over it! Pay attention to Emily, to Jennifer and get over it!'' JJ shouted.

''You're right,'' James admitted.

''Of course I'm right.''

''I've been an idiot, I deserve whatever's coming to me.''

''You wanna know what's coming to you? She's thinking of leaving you,'' JJ informed as she calmed down after her rant.

''What? She...she wants to leave me?'' James questioned. He knew he had to do something now. He couldn't lose Emily, he needed her. And he would do everything to get her back.

''She can't live like this anymore. She's in so much pain, she thinks leaving you is the only way out.''

''But...I can change Jen, I can change.''

''I know you can. Tell her that.''

''I will...I will. Where is she?''

''Upstairs. But James Edward Slade, you better do everything you can to win her back. She's the best thing that ever happened to you and if you mess this up I will NEVER forgive you,'' she warned him, walking up to him and grabbing his shirt collar.

''I will, I swear.''

''Good. Now get up there and make love to your fiancée!'' she ordered him. He ran upstairs and into his and Emily's bedroom, where she was at the closet with her back to him. He closed the door behind him and she turned around, hurt clearly evident on her face. She looked as if she was about to say something, but she turned back instead and continued what she was doing.

''Emily,'' he started, nervously making his way over to her.

''What?'' she asked icily. He winced at the viciousness of her words but continued making his way towards her.

''So Jen told me to have sex with you...''

''Did she? And what else did she say?''

''She said-Emily what are you doing?'' he asked as he saw Emily loading clothes into a suitcase.

''Packing my bags,'' she answered.

''What? You're...you're leaving?'' he said slowly, and he could practically feel his whole world crashing down around him. He'd been such an idiot.

''James I can't do this anymore. I-'' she said but she was cut off by James' strong hand grabbing her arm and him pressing his lips to hers. Even though she was incedibly pissed at him she still loved him and kissed him back with just as much passion. Once air became necessary they broke apart, both breathing heavily. He looked deep into her eyes and knew there was still a chance, he just had to fight.

''Emily I've been an idiot. I've been doing what I've been doing because I felt like I didn't deserved you. I'm a killer and I let him into our home. I shouldn't have, I didn't know how much danger I put you in and I hate myself for that,'' he began.

''James I don't blame you for that,'' she said as he took her over and sat her down on the bed. He knelt down in front of her and held her hand.

''I know that now. But that still doesn't excuse the fact that I'm a killer too.''

''James, I never wanted to tell you this but I've killed two people in my line of work. They were the bad guys, and I don't view myself as killer. I was just doing my job. And so were you, you were protecting me and you were protecting JJ, you didn't kill him in cold blood.''

''You've killed people?''

''Yes, but I'm not a killer. Neither are you.''

''I...ok. But I've still been an idiot. I've ignored you and I hurt you. Believe me Em, I never wanted to do that. I would never intentionally hurt you. You mean more to me than anything in the world, I would die for you and Jennifer. I know now that you forgive me for letting Jacob in, but I want to know if you can forgive me for the way I've treated you over the last few weeks.''

''I don't know James...''

''Please Emily. I'll do everything I can to make it up to you, I swear. I'll love you, and I-'ll-you've taken your ring off,'' he remarked as he looked down at her hands.

''I was going to leave. It's over on the dresser,'' she said, pointing over to it's location.

''Listen to me for five minutes, please. Emily I love you, I've been an idiot but I'm done with feeling sorry for myself and I've grown up and become a man. I never wanted to lose you, but if you walk out this door and never look back I'll understand. But I don't want you to. I need you Emily, you complete me, I'm a better person without you around. I was too wrapped up in myself to realise how much I hurt you but I've woken up. I'm begging you, look I'm even on my knees, to stay with me and give me another chance.''

''James how do I know you're not just saying this?''

''You don't. You'll just have to take my word for it. Do you trust me Emily?''

''Yes.''

''Then you believe me when I say that I love you and never want to hurt you again? And you believe me when I say I will spend the rest of my life making this up to you? And you believe me when I say I'm the luckiest man alive for meeting you? And finally you believe me when I say I want to marry you so much I might die if I don't?''

''No, don't die...''

''Do you believe me?''

''Yes,'' Emily sighed.

James smiled and ran over to the dresser and retrieved the ring. He knelt back down in front of Emily and held her hand. ''Then Emily Prentiss will you marry me? Again?'' he asked her.

She paused for a moment before smiling and nodding her head. He slid the ring onto her ring finger and kissed her. She moved so that she was lying on the bed and he was lying on top of her. Just before they got into anything too heavy he broke away and looked down into her eyes.

''What?'' she asked, smiling.

''You're beautiful,'' he smiled, and he gently stroked her cheek.

She closed her eyes and leaned into his touch before opening her eyes again and looking up at him. ''Remember JJ told you to do something?''

''Yeah?''

''What was it again?'' she asked, smirking.

''She told me to make love to you,'' he answered, placing kisses down her neck.

''Then what are you waiting for?''

Jennifer had fallen fast asleep half an hour ago and JJ was now sat on the couch reading a magazine. She hadn't heard from Emily or James in two hours. Suddenly she heard a bang from upstairs and assumed they had made up. Either that or she had killed him.

Yay! They're back together!