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Bella's POV

I woke up,seeing I was in Edwards arms. He never left. I sat up a little,kissed him on the cheek. He woke up right away,stretching out his arms and wrapping them around me again.

"Good morning"...he said.

"Good Morning, I can't believe you stayed."

"You wanted me to,I can't believe we didn't get in trouble."

"I don't know if anyone came in last night."...Edward unwrapped his arms and climbed out of the bed.

"I have to check my phone."...he went and grabbed his phone from his jacket on the chair.

"Oh that reminds me,I need to call my mom."

"Yeah you better do that."...I watched as he checked his messages,then picked up the phone next to me and dialed my mom. She was so excited to hear me.

"Hi mom"

"Oh Bella,I'm so happy to hear you. How are you today?"

"I'm doing really well so far. I just hate being stuck in the hospital I cant wait to go home."

"I'm just so happy your awake and well again. Has your father been by yet today?"

"No not yet,Edwards here with me."

"Oh really? Your Dad says he's been there a lot."

"Yeah he stayed the night here with me."...she did a little squeal sound.

"So you two getting really serious then?"

"I'm not sure yet mom,I might need to call you later."

"Oh yup I understand. He's right there huh?"

"Yeah"

"Okay well I want you to call me later then and we can talk. I miss you so much Bella"

"I miss you too mom,love you"

"love you too"...we hung up and I looked over to Edward who was sitting in the chair looking deep in thought.

"Hey there, you okay?"...he snapped out of his thoughts and looked up at me. He held up his phone.

"A few messages,one about my interview,they said they would like to meet with me again."

"That's fantastic,and the other messages,were they good?"...He was looking down at his phone,he looked upset,a mix of mad and frustrated I think.

"What was it?"

"Well you'll find out either way I guess."

"Find out what?...whats going on who left you a message?"

"It was Jasper,he decided he does want to see you,and he wants to see the family. He'll be home in a few days"

"Oh I see,well that's not so bad."

"It is to me Bella."...he looked up at me I could sense he was more upset than he was showing.

"what do you think is going to happen when he comes here? I wasn't being a good girlfriend or a good fiancee to him if I can even call myself that. It's not like he's coming to say he wants me back after hurting him. I really don't know why you want me. I clearly can't make good relationship choices."...I was shouting at him at this point. Feeling upset, I feel my self beginning to cry. I feel like an emotional mess.

"Your the only girl I ever wanted to be with. Don't upset yourself."

"I am upset, I first hurt you and then I hurt him. I can't be with either of you."

"You don't know what your saying right now Bella."

"Yes I do. You say you love me,but how can you love me, how can you sit here and say that after successfully breaking up my relationship with Jasper."

"Bella you love me too. You kissed me too. It was mutual."

"Your right I did,I kissed you and it was so stupid. I shouldn't have-"...The door flew open and a nurse was standing there.

"Why are two shouting in here?...Mr Cullen we were nice enough to over look the fact that you stayed over night,but we wont tolerate the shouting."

"No, I'm sorry,I was just leaving anyway. Good bye Bella"...I watched as he grabbed his jacket and walked away past the nurse and out the door. I just broke down and cried. The nurse came over and asked if she could get me anything. I told her I was hungry. So she left to get me some food. I figured that would get her to leave, I didn't want to see any one.

I cried for a while,I must have blew my nose a dozen times and used up at least 2 dozen tissues,I didn't know what to do about these two men. I know I love them both. I know I don't deserve either one. Edwards been by my side every single day,wanting me to wake up. He's loved me forever,I just treated him like shit,I did it years ago and I did it when I got back with Jasper I did it today. I treated Jasper wrong when I was kissing Edward and enjoying it. Why can't I just be normal and choose one person to love. My door opened,the nurse came in with a tray of food. I was pretty hungry. She set it on the rolling table and brought it over my bed.

"I went down personally and got this for you,your dad was here yesterday with a veggie burger for you,I'm a vegetarian too. So I got you some food I like."

"Wow,thank you so much."

"I see you've used up some tissues."...she cleaned up the tissues and threw them away.

"Yeah I guess I did."

"are you feeling better now?"...I felt my self starting to cry again.

"Oh no no,I don't want you to get upset again."

"Its complicated."

"Try me,I've been through some complicated stuff."...I looked at her name badge,I felt stupid for not knowing her name but I didn't know anyone's name. It said Leah Clearwater. Oh my gosh how did I not recognize her before.

"are you Sues daughter?"

"Yeah I am. I know we haven't seen much of each other I didn't think you would recognize me at all."

"No I didn't really,I just looked at your name. Hows your mom?"

"She's okay, Your Dad has been here everyday or working so she's been kinda lonely."

"oh yeah I'm really sorry about that."

"oh don't be sorry. So tell me whats got you so upset? And eat while you tell me."...I started to eat a little bit of a salad while talking in between bites. I explained everything to her,she wasn't shocked or judgmental. She never once told me I was crazy or out of my mind. We talked for about an hour. We got to really know each other. It was Leah's story about how she was in love with someone too but he fell in love with her cousin. It was a shock to me when she said her cousin was Emily my physical therapist. She said it took a lot of time to get over the fact that he loved her and loved Emily and that he chose Emily. I asked why she thought he chose Emily over her and she explained that after a while she no longer felt like she was loved by him. His whole heart wasn't hers anymore. She no longer showed interest in him and stopped calling,stopped trying to make him love her with his whole heart. After talking and finishing up my food Leah realized she'd been gone far longer than her lunch break allowed. She apologized for having to leave but I understood. She said she would see me later.

It was nice to talk to her,I needed to talk to someone about it all. It was becoming hard to figure out who I loved with my whole heart and if I did love one with my whole heart would they love me with their whole heart. I looked over at the clock and seen that I had about a minute before Emily was here to take me to physical therapy. I grabbed the remote to the TV and flipped through the channels lazily,not really stopping on any channel specific. I heard the door open and Emily came walking in along with the doctor. I turned the TV off and sat up more.

"Hey Bella"...Emily greeted me.

"Hi...Why did you bring the doctor?"

"Oh he has good news for you."

"Really,what is it."...I said,thinking I need some kinda of good news.

"Well Bella I don't see any reason why you have to stay, if you want you can be out of this hospital tomorrow,providing that your dad or someone can bring you back for your physical therapy."

"That's really great news,I know I can get him to bring me. No problem."

"Great then,I'll get all the paper work going and we'll try to get you out by the morning."...he came over and I shook his hand.

"Thank you."

"Okay Bella,you ready?"...Emily said as the doctor walked away.

"Yes I am"...She helped me get into the wheel chair and she took me down to the room. Jacob came right over when he seen us come in.

"Bella you remember Jacob from yesterday right?"

"Yeah I definitely remember Jacob...Hi"

"Hey again Bella,how are you today?"

"Well I'm doing good,just found out I can go home tomorrow."

"Ahh good,we have some great motivation today then huh."

"Yeah,I'm ready to go today."

"What do you want to do today?"...I looked around but was still focused on the spinning cycle.

"I want to go for the cycle again today."

"alright then,lets do it."...he clapped his hands together and was all pumped up and excited. I just laughed. Emily just let Jacob take over.

"I'll be back in 10 minutes Bella. Jacob behave."...she said with a smile.

"Okay Emily see you in 10"...Jacob just picked me right up out of the chair and carried me over rather than pushing me in the chair. I wrapped my arms around him,I knew I was blushing. How silly was that. He sat me down gently,I placed both feet on the pedals and was ready to do this.

"Alright Bella,now go slow and try to push with your right foot as much as you can."

"Okay"...I took a deep breath and tried,it was moving but only a little. I tried to concentrate more,it only moved a little. I let out a frustrated breath.

"That's really good Bella,you did great."

"No I didn't do that great Jacob. I couldn't get it to go around."...he placed his hand on mine. it was very warm. Kinda nice. I looked up at him.

"You can call me Jake, and you did fantastic."

"Hey I thought I told you to behave Jacob."...he quickly let my hand go.

"Sorry Emily,she did really great I was just being nice."

"Yeah ...uh huh. I think there's someone over there in need of your assistance."

"You did great Bella,I'll see ya later."

"Bye Jake"...he smiled as he walked away.

"Hmm so It's Jake now. I'll have to remember that."...I laughed.

"He was just being nice Emily."

"Jacob is nice but he's also a huge flirt."

"Yeah I guess I can see that. It was okay though."

"okay lets see how you can do. Show me what ya got."...I took another deep breath and pushed my foot on the pedal. It moved about the same as it did a minute ago with Jake.

"That's really great Bella,much better."

"I barely moved it."

"It's good you can move it that means your brain is working to tell you to move it."

"okay I want to try again."

"that's what I like to hear."...I concentrated hard took a deep breath, stared at my leg and told it to push...I pushed again and again it moved a little bit. I let out that breath. It was hard.

"You did great again Bella,do you want to try anything else today?"...I looked around but really just wanted to go back and wait to see if Edward would come back. But instead I thought I should try to push harder.

"Um... yeah,can I try the bars?"

"Yeah absolutely"...she grabbed a wheel chair and helped me in,then rolled me to the balance bars. She stood directly in front of me.

"Okay now your gonna be using lots of upper body strength and your good left foot to help,are you ready?"...I nodded,she helped me stand and I grabbed the bars,it was hard but I got in a few wobbly limps.

"That was really great Bella. I'm going to turn you around and we'll go back to the wheel chair."...only the chair was gone. Emily huffed and got upset when she seen it was gone. I seen Jacob come right over to help.

"Need some help Bella?"

"Oh hey,I guess so."...He took me from Emily's arms and scooped me right up.

"Oh my gosh Jacob, I could have got her just fine."

"Awe it's okay Emily I like being carried around,thanks again Jake"... He just looked at me with a little smile on his face. She walked over and found another wheel chair. He kept looking at me kinda in a daze.

"okay JAKE put her down."...Emily snapped

"Oh sorry Bella"...he set me down in the wheel chair gently.

"It's okay,see ya tomorrow."

"Bye"...Emily wheeled me down the hall back to my room.

"I'm really sorry about Jacob,he must like you."

"He's nice,but I don't want to lead him on or anything,I just want to be his friend."

"That's fine,he gets like that around pretty girls."...she laughed,then got me back in the bed.

"I'll see you tomorrow Bella,you had a good day. Tomorrow will be even better."

"Thanks Emily,see ya tomorrow."...I rolled over and sunk my face into my pillow,it smelled of Edward. I shifted and flipped it over. I didn't want to smell him on my pillow. I closed my eyes and thought of what I need to do next. I decided to just focus on me. No more trying to figure out who I love. I can't give my whole heart to either one. I heard a light knocking on my door. Since when does anybody knock on my door. Without opening my eyes I just said come in.

"Hello Darlin"...the familiar voice was a shock and yet a comfort. I sat right up and looked at him. He was holding about 2 dozen roses,all different colors. I placed my hands over my mouth and felt tears forming in my eyes.