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Jaspers POV

I felt as nervous as ever to walk in and see Bella again,I know now that I over reacted to her kissing my brother that night. I know she might have feelings for him but I can at least see if she can for forgive me for my actions. I stopped in town and got her some roses,I wasn't sure which color to get so I got them all. I stopped at the desk and asked where her room was.

I walked down the hall and found her room,I knocked lightly,just in case she was asleep. I heard her say come in. I walked in to see her face buried in a pillow. My heart was racing a mile a minute.

"Hello Darlin"...she sat up quickly she looked surprised to see me. Her hand went up to her mouth and she started to cry.

"Guess you weren't expecting me to come here. I brought you some roses."...I placed them on the table near her bed. She wiped her face and looked at me,then to the roses.

"Those are so beautiful. I thought you were coming home in a few days?"

"Oh Edward told you I messaged him. Is it okay I'm here?"...I wasn't sure if she wanted me here or not.

"Yeah it's okay,come sit down next to me."...I was a little hesitant but sat on the bed next to her.

"I'm sorry Jazzy,I never wanted to hurt you or have any of this happen."

"I know you are,and I'm sorry for over reacting to the whole kissing thing."

"Don't be sorry for that,I shouldn't have been listening to him and kissing him behind your back. It was wrong."

"I think back to it now, I could have handled it better. I shouldn't have lost my temper and hurt you."...I lifted my hand just slightly,wanting to touch her cheek,but I set it back down. Quickly without hesitation she wrapped her arms around me hugging me tight. I placed my arms back around her too,feeling her warmth,I squeezed tight. She let out a squeak. I then let go.

"I'm sorry it was to tight? couldn't breath huh?"...I let go looking to make sure she was okay.

"No,you know it wasn't. I told you once, I will always want you to hug me tight so I cant breath-"I interrupted her and finished that sentence. I remember it vividly.

"Because if I couldn't hug you tight I wouldn't want to breath at all"...she had a sad look on her face kind of lost. She looked at me then down at her hands,she looked as though she might cry.

"You remember that?"

"Of course I do."

"Bella do you think we can be together again?"

"I don't know right now, I need to be able to give you my whole heart. I don't think I can do that right now."

"I guess I can understand that."

"Wait aren't you in a relationship with someone right now?"

"Edward told you that too..hmm..well no I'm not with her anymore. She was very...well how can I say it with out sounding awful."

"She was a Bitch?."...I looked at her and smiled.

"Yes that she was,but more. She was mean and tried to get me to do things I didn't want to. She was manipulative,and a liar. I told her I was leaving to see you and she said if I left then she would tell the army I left for good. Lots of lies"

"So what happen."

"I asked to be transferred …away from her and her craziness,she had 2 other friends that were helping her too,very crazy."

"so your moving? When?"

"already did, well kinda, all my stuff is in my truck right now. Not much in it,I didn't have much anyway."

"so where was your transfer?"...I looked at her with a smile,hoping she would be happy to hear.

"Tacoma"...she looked shocked.

"As in Washington."

"Yep,it's about 3 hours away,not to far. Same drive time as Seattle"

"Wow,why didn't you ever do it before?...just transfer and move out here I mean"

"I was happy in Texas, it's where I went to college and started the army I had all my friends there everything I needed. Then Maria destroyed my friendships,everything. All because I wouldn't do everything she said and spend money on her all the time"

"She sounds really terrible,Jasper I'm sorry. How did you meet her any way?"

"She was stranded on the side of the road when we met,it was about a week after I returned to Texas,she was on the side of the road with her 2 friends. And not 1 of them could change a tire. I shouldn't have stopped."

"Your not one to just drive by and not help."

"Well she insisted on getting my number and of course I said yes. Lets not talk about her. How's your Dad?"

"He's good I guess, been in and out of here and working."

"and hows my brother?"

"um...well he's okay I guess. I argued with him today and he left here angry."

"what was the arguing all about?"

"about me not wanting to be with him about needing time to figure out what I needed to do."

"I see,so he's somewhere feeling upset?"

"Yeah I suppose he is"...she looked down and was twirling her hospital band around her wrist.

"You didn't mean it,you were telling him the truth,it's okay darlin."

"Is it okay Jasper,is it okay that I continue to hurt you and hurt him."

"I'm not hurt right now,you said you need time to figure out what you need. I can wait."

"what do you mean you can wait?"...I looked at her,I brushed the hair back away from her face as she looked up into my eyes. Her cheeks immediately turning a beautiful blushing pink.

"I'll wait for you to love with your whole heart,if it's me or if it's him,I want you to know I will wait to find out"...

I watched her as she looked at me with those same beautiful brown eyes I fell in love with so long ago. I wanted to take her in my arms and hold her,to kiss her,to make her mine again and take it all back. Never get so upset never have Edward drive her home. But I knew that was all over it happened and I couldn't do anything about it. I didn't want to get to close and have her get upset. We just stared at each other. That seemed like enough for now,until she realizes who she loves. Then she reached for my hand. Our fingers intertwined and locked. I turned her hand over as I held it and kissed it. There were no words nothing said for a while as we just held hands and looked at each other. Every so often she would smile at me and I would smile back.

"I should go before someone comes by and sees us together like this."

"Please don't go yet."...she squeezed my hand tighter.

"I can come back tomorrow."

"Actually tomorrow I go home."

"Can I come by and see you at home then?"

"Yeah you can do that,my dad will be home until about noon then he has to work,"

"okay so I'll come over around 12:30"...she lit up with a smile.

"That sounds really nice."...I let go of her hand and stood up to go.

"I'll see you tomorrow Bells."

"Wait"...I looked at her.

"Yeah?"

"Can I at least get another hug?"

"Of course."...I leaned down to give her a hug,I didn't make it into a full hug. My eyes were locked onto hers. Quickly with out much more thought our lips were pressed together. It wasn't a long kiss. I didn't care, it was a kiss and it was her. I leaned down further and squeezed her tight into a hug.

"I'll be at your house tomorrow at 12:30."

"See you then."...I walked out and back to my truck. I thought I would head over to my parents house now,I was going to stay there for 2 weeks before going to Tacoma, finding my new place and getting settled in on the base there. I just hoped Edward wouldn't want to start any fights with me.

As I drove up the drive way I seen a shiny new Volvo parked in front,it must be what replaced the old one. I parked next to it and got out. I grabbed a few of my bags and went in. I can tell mom's been baking again it smells like a bakery in here. I dropped down my bags and took off my shoes. I seen my mother come around the corner throwing a towel over her shoulder. She looked so happy to see me,she came right over and hugged me tight. Before she even let go my sisters both came running up and hugging me too. I was nearly knocked over. Our mother let go and wiggled away.

"okay girls give him some room."...they let go.

"Sorry Mom,sorry Jazz,we were just excited to see you again."

"It's okay girls I've missed you too."...they ran off and my mom was smiling and looking at me like she always does when I come home after a while.

"I just came from seeing Bella."

"Oh yeah! How is she today?"

"she's well,she looks good, said she's going home tomorrow. I'm going to see her after she gets home tomorrow afternoon."...she looked at me a little worried.

"Do you think seeing her and spending time with her right now is good? I mean maybe you and Edward should give her some space ."

"She seemed very happy to see me mom,she said she wanted me over tomorrow. She wants to talk. I don't think there's anything wrong with that."

"Well as long as she's comfortable with it."...she seen my bags by the door.

"Did you bring me some dirty laundry too?"...I looked down and laughed.

"Yeah just a little."

"Give it to me then."

"I can take it to the laundry room."

"Okay fine. I'm glad your home again for a little while."...she walked away towards the kitchen. I walked with my laundry to the laundry room. I tossed the bags on the floor and walked back to get my other bags and go to my room. I looked over in the living room and seen Edward playing the Xbox. I hesitated for a second,then walked in and sat right next to him. He nudged me and I laughed.

"Hey Brother,how are you?"

"I'm hanging in there, just stealing some cars,having shoot outs with cops."...I looked at him confused for a minute until I realized he was playing grand theft auto.

"You had me thinking you were really doing that shit dude."

"Ha..me really. I'm so boring."

"You want a drink?"...he paused his game and walked over to the liquor bar in the corner.

"Yeah, you know what I like." ...he came back with a scotch on the rocks for me a whiskey for himself.

"What should we drink too?"...holding up my glass,I sat thinking of something.

"Um..how bout life?"...he shook his head.

"No no, how about to brotherhood."

"Brotherhood it is."...I clinked my glass with his and we sipped our drinks.

"so tell me how is everything,mom said you had to transfer cause of some crazy bitch."

"Oh she was terrible, she just couldn't face the fact that I didn't want to be with her anymore and she did everything in her power to make my life there hell. My friends were believing her lies and it got so bad I had to just pack it up and go. It'll be better living closer to everyone any way."

"until they tell you where you have to go next to fight?"

"Yeah there's that too"...I took a larger sip from my scotch this time,letting out a deep breath.

"Hey boys"...we both looked up to see our mom standing there.

"Hey mom"...I said.

"Getting along I hope"

"Yeah were good,were just talking."...Edward held up his drink.

"Oh okay,well don't drink to much,your father wont be happy to see his good scotch and whiskey all gone..again"

"We wont"...Edward just rolled his eyes.I looked at my empty glass. Edward grabbed it before I could get up and poured me some more and topped his off.

"Thanks,I dunno if I should drink to much."

"why you have somewhere to drive,I'll get Alice to take us."...he laughed out loudly. I think he was drinking before I got here.

"Man how many of those have you had to drink?"

"I think this is about 3 or 4 I dunno. Hurry and catch up with me."

"alright game on"...I slammed the drink I had then went to the bar and lined up 3 shot glasses and grabbed the whiskey,pouring three shots. I down them 1 after another quickly,then let out a loud woohoo.

"There ya go Jazz man, now your bout caught up."...I was feeling really good at this point. I grabbed my glass and put some more scotch in it with a little more ice and walked slowly back to sit down.

"You know we should go out."

"Huh,no we can drink here."

"Pfff whatever Jazzers."

"Damn bro can you say my name?"

"Jazzer,bahaaha."...I looked at him and pushed into him.

"nope try again"

"Jasssssss per."...he put emphasis on the p and spit on me. I smooshed my hand on his face.

"Eww dude you spit." I put emphasis on the word spit and spit back. We both laughed so hard.

"Oh my gosh are you guys drunk?"...we both look over,it was Alice standing there. Edward stood up or tried to, I watched as he stumbled over to her.

"Baby sister. Will you take us to the bar?"

"Your so stupid Edward."

"yeah Edwad."...he looked over at me and laughed so hard.

"Did you call me Edwad"...

"yeah I guess I did"...I walked over and filled my glass up again.

"what ever Jizzy."

"Oh no you did not just say that to me."

"what you don't like me calling you Jizz."...no ones said that to me since 7th grade when someone thought it would be funny to nick name me that. It always pissed me off.

"Oh you two are impossible."...Alice threw her arms up and walked away.

"She's no fun."...Edward fell to the couch,he grabbed the remote and looked at it closely like he couldn't see the buttons. I slowly walked back and sat down with my drink. Setting it down on the coffee table I took the remote away from him.

"what are you doing with this."

"Changing channels, go to HBO or something."

"You don't need to get all close to it like you love it. Just push this button"...Edward started to laugh as I was flipping through random channels. Finally stopping on a movie we both weren't sure about. I sat back and chilled out next to him. Watching the unknown movie. I reached for my drink and he asked me.

"So are you here to get her back again?"...I sat back and looked over at him.

"I don't know, I know I love her very much."...I think we both sobered up a little at the thought of her,or maybe not. I know I felt a bit unclear and foggy at the moment.

"I love her too,I just don't think I'm in love with her."...I looked at him as he said it.

"I'm in love with her,she makes me feel all"...my drunk self just threw my arms around trying to imitate butterflies or something to that effect. Edward started laughing again.

"she has you feeling all crazy Jizz"

"Awe dude shut the fuck up with that."

"Sorry I had to get it in one more time. So yeah she makes you feel."...he threw his arms up and did the same thing as I did. I had to laugh.

"I think we had enough to drink. We look like were insane."

"I know I feel like I'm crazy"

"Its okay."

"your right."...I placed my glass back down still full. We watched the stupid movie. About 10 minutes later he was passed out. I continued to watch the movie and felt my self getting more and more tired. I closed my eyes.

It was the sun shining from the windows that woke me up and had me squinting my eyes tight. I realized I was leaning on Edward,we had a blanket on us. Someone was taking care of us. I sat up and seen Alice sitting with Bree on the floor.

"Hey girls"

"Hey Jasper,feeling okay this morning or should I say almost afternoon."

"oh shit what do you mean afternoon, what time is it?"

"its actually noon now."

"oh shit I gotta go."...I jumped up,Edward sat up still groggy and threw the blanket over his head. Feeling my head pounding and my stomach turning I ran to the kitchen grabbed some aspirin and swallowed it with a huge glass of water. Then grabbed my bag and rushed up the stairs. I quickly showered and dressed then hurried down to my truck. I heard some one say cya later but don't know who it was.

"I pulled into Bella's driveway next to her red truck, hoping that being here wasn't a mistake. That by wanting to be near her more wont drive her away. I took a deep breath,then got out and went to the door.