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Jaspers POV
I knocked on the door waiting for her to come,I heard her yell come in. I walked in looking around before I shut the door.
"Bella"
"Up here"...I look up and she's at the top of the stairs,I close the door.
"do you need help coming down?"
"Well,I think I might. I'm supposed to do it on my own,but going up was a lot easier."...I walked up the stairs and met her at the top. She was balancing with crutches.
"So hows it going Hun."
"I'm doing better"
"So do you want me to carry you down?"
"Could we just sit up here for a little bit? I have cable in my room we could watch TV."
"I'm up for that."...she slowly limped on the crutches to her room and I followed, she sat down on the bed and I felt unsure about sitting there with her not wanting to push it, instead I pulled her desk chair near the bed and sat. I glanced over at her to see her give me a weird look.
"What?"
"Why are you sitting in the chair? Sit with me on the bed,it's okay."...so I got up and sat on the bed with her, I sat on the edge. I wanted to get close to her,to touch her soft skin and feel her hair in my hands. It made me crazy being this close and not grabbing her up in my arms. She was flipping through channels when she stopped on MTV it was jersey shore. I had no clue she liked this shit. I looked over at her.
"You like this shit?"
"I like to watch it sometimes."
"it's stupid,look at them,that chick looks orange."...she laughed,it was nice to see her laugh and smile. I just wanted to kiss that mouth so bad. She kept watching it contently. I thought it would be OK to get more comfortable on the bed,I grabbed the pillow and fluffed it up and leaned back. I felt a little tired. Last night was a bad idea, I feel worn out now.
"You okay Jazzy?"
"Yeah just a little tired."...I looked over at her looking at me.
"oh alright then."...she didn't look away,just kept her gaze on me. I gave her a little smirk,she blushed and looked down with a smile. I didn't look away. I loved it when her cheeks go all crimson over something I did. She looked back up briefly before placing her attention back on the show. I moved a little bit closer to her. There was almost no more room between us. She placed her arm down at her side and I placed my hand on top of hers. She took a deep breath and let it out. I wish I could read her mind,figure out what she's thinking right now. I slowly and softly caressed her hand,she looked down at our hands with a hint of a smile on her face.
Bella's POV
Felling Jasper's hand on top of mine sent me into a spin,I felt my body tingle all over full of butterflies,as if they escaped from my stomach and went all over the place. The effect this man had on me was incredible. I wanted to tell him,let him know he was the one I wanted to be with but was I absolutely sure? I think of Edward and how he makes me feel how he say all those things to me,is he being truthful,I don't know. What I do know is the feelings this man right her gives me. I want to lean over and snuggle into him. I look over at him,he looks worn out,very tired.
"Are you sure your okay?,you look very worn out?"
"Sorry Bells, I had a long night."...I looked at him a little puzzled.
"What did you do last night that has you so exhausted?"
"I stayed up drinking?"...I was definitely curious now.
"With whom exactly?"
"I was drinking with um...Edward."...He looked down like he wasn't sure he should have said his name or told me at all.
"Oh I see,did you have fun?"...he looked back up with a smile.
"Yeah,it was fun. I missed having nights with him drinking and laughing."
"so no fights?"
"No none."
"you guys didn't discuss me did you?"...he looked down again, he lifted his head slightly looking at me through those gorgeous long lashes with those eyes that melt me,I felt like I needed to feel his arms around me. oh why did I have to fuck it all up.
"we did a little bit."...when he answered he snapped me back from my daydreaming.
"What was said?"
"Nothing bad,he asked if I came back home to get you back."...we were just staring at each other at this point, my need to know if he is here to get me back is sitting there waiting for an answer. He continued to just look at me. Ahhh I need the answer.
"And..."
"Oh you want to know if I'm home to get you back?,well I think you should know the answer. I told you already I would wait for you."...He did say that didn't he,how could that have slipped my mind. I swear I'm losing it.
"Wait so what did he say?"
"Well I don't want to say anything, I don't want him upset if he was saying things out of pure drunkenness"
"Jasper what did he say,drunk or not it must be true."...he had an unsure look on his face.
"I don't know Bella,I don't want to hurt you with his words."...He's starting to aggravate me a little at this point and I want to pounce on top of him and shake it out of him.
"I think I'll be just fine."
"Bella,now remember he was drunk."
"I believe truth come out more when a persons drunk, now tell me."...he turned slightly to face me more and looked right at me.
"He said he loved you...but he wasn't in love with you."...okay that wasn't that bad, Edward isn't in love with me, that's good because the longer I sit here with Jasper I'm reminded why I chose him in the first place. I looked at him. His hand on mine his warm heart, his love for me and want for me,forgiving me for kissing Edward. I just wanted to leap over and kiss him.
"Bella are you okay,what are you thinking?"
"I'm more than okay,I understand now."
"Understand what?"
"what I might want,what I need to do."
"What is it?"...I just look at him and feel my cheeks flush. His face lights up and he smiles at me that amazing smile that brings back those butterflies that have escaped my stomach.
"do you wanna get out of here Darlin?"
"What?"
"Go for a ride?...in my truck?"...I definitely wanted to get out of here,and go for a ride. I didn't want to seem to eager.
"Yes that sounds good...um could you maybe help me get down stairs?"
"It would be my pleasure!"...I sat up more then reached over to grab my crutches.
"Wait...could I just carry you all the way out to the truck?"...my cheeks went warm just at the thought.
"Yes." ...I whispered. Jasper came over arms out stretched,he reaches under and scoops up my legs,I wrap my arms around his neck,his other arm supporting my back.
"Hang on tight darlin"...I squeezed my arms around him tight,I can smell him, it's a good mix of cologne,soap and just him. I could get lost in his scent alone. He carefully carried me down the stairs with ease. He took me in the living room and sat me down on the couch.
"I'll get your shoes"...I nodded with a smile. He came back with my sneakers knelt down on the floor and put them on me,lacing them up then standing. He walked away again and came back with my coat,he helped me get it on and zipped me up.
"Thank you"...I said as I looked up at him.
"Your Welcome,you ready?"...I nodded and reached up as he bent down scooping me up again,he walked to the door and I seen it was already opened,I never heard him open it. Damn he's good. He walked me out to his truck and with his hand still under my legs he opened the door with ease. Does he do this often I have to wonder. I giggle at the thought of him carrying girls around. He places me in the truck.
"What's funny?"...he looks at me with a smirk. I shake my head and look down,then back to him.
"It's just your very good at carrying me and opening the door and everything."
"Oh I see,I didn't know I was that good. Thanks!"...he laughs as he closes the door and goes back to the house closing the door then getting in.
"So where are we going?"...he starts the truck and we pull away. He just smiles without an answer.
"Your not going to tell me?"
"Nope"
"Why?"
"You'll like it I promise."
As we reach the dirt road I know exactly where we are,the crazy butterflies are back again,I can't help but smile at all the great memories we have here especially the last time we were here.
"You were right, I do like this very much."...Jasper pulls up and parks facing the waterfall, no one else is here just like last time,it's not warm yet people only like this place mostly in the summer. He turns the truck off and we are sitting in the quiet of the truck,we can hear the waterfall rushing.
He turns and is looking at me,I turn to face him. A pull down armrest with a cup holder is the only thing in the way of me climbing into his arms. As if he reads my mind he pushes it up where it goes into the back of the seat. Now there's nothing in the way. I want to jump over and have him hold me tight. Make all things better again. But my body wont move,I bite my bottom lip feeling a little frustrated,My hands are playing with the hem on my coat. Jasper has his hand on the seat and he's nervously tapping. I look down at his hand and he stops.
"Oh sorry."
"Don't be"
"Is it okay that we just sit here,or do you want to go somewhere else?,maybe just drive?"
"This is perfect,I like it here."
"It's our place"...he whispers,I can't take it anymore I want my hands in his hair,my mouth on his I want to suck in his bottom lip and I don't want to stop there. I let out a Mmm sound at the thought of it all. I look up and he's smiling at me, my cheeks go hot. He slides closer and places his hand right on my cheek.
"I love this."...I look down and smile,my hair falling around my face. Jasper puts his hand under my chin and lifts my face,I look right into his eyes and those crazy butterflies arrive right on cue. He tucks my hair behind my ear,gently caressing my neck. I swallow as I don't know how much more I can take not touching him. I take a deep breath and let it out. I slide over getting as close as I possibly could. Jasper immediate closed the gap between us. I looked deep into his eyes.
"Bella,I'm gonna kiss you."...My breathing started to quicken,I nodded my head,placing my hand on the back of his neck,my fingers start to reach up and tangle in his hair as he places his lips gently on mine,his hands are both on the sides of my face holding me. My other hand quickly finds my way to his hair as I run my fingers through it. I feel his tongue part my lips and I let him in,our tongues moving together perfectly,I can feel him start to let go and I quickly suck in his bottom lip,it makes a popping sound as I release it.
"That was amazing"...he looks at me,as he runs his hand down my cheek slowly,placing his other hand around me resting it on my back.
"Kiss me again Jazz"...without a second thought his mouth is again on mine quickly. We kiss with so much passion ,I feel the butterflies as they are wildly excited with every movement of our mouths together. I feel the love he has for me pouring out into me and I hope he can feel my love too. I slowly release our kiss this time he sucked my bottom lip in and let it go. I smile and let out a little giggle.
"Did you feel the same way I did just now?"...I look at him and can't believe he just said that.
"Yeah I think so"...I take his hand,our fingers intertwine. He watches as I do this.
"Do you feel anything when I do this?"
"Like an energy?"
"yeah,like an energy,do you feel it?"
"Yeah I can feel something."...I place my mouth on his and slowly kiss him running my tongue along his lips and then release.
"did you feel that energy when I kissed you?"
"Yeah I feel it all over when you kiss me Bella."...I smile and kiss him again wrapping my arms around him. Putting to much force into it,as he falls back into the door. Jasper sits us back up,this time he grabs me and puts me on his lap as we sit in the middle. I wrap my arms around his neck and his arms are around my waist.
"Are you alright Bella?"
"I'm perfect,exactly where I should be."...I snuggle into him and take a deep breath,I feel so comfortable so relaxed,knowing Jasper can feel our love just as much as I can makes me feel so at home.
"I will miss you when you leave."
"I'll miss you too but I wont be far. And we can Skype with video now."...I almost forgot about the gift I got him.
"I was sure you threw that away."
"No it's actually in my room at my parents house right now."
"Hmm"...I thought briefly of how we could have naughty Skype dates and then just tried to push that thought away.
"What were you thinking?"
"You don't want to know."
"yes I do,tell me"
"it was kinda naughty"...I blush.
"Oh really, were thinking that we could do naughty things with our Skype cams?"...was I crazy or is he reading my mind,that's twice now.
"Yes"
"Bella Swan,do you want to strip for me?"
"I would for you"...this conversation was getting hot quickly. Jasper squeezed my thigh and I quickly was feeling the need for his hands to be on me everywhere. Quickly he lifted me and set me beside him.
"Whats wrong?"
"Nothing,I just wanted easier access."...I looked at him with question. But before I could say anything more his hands were at my jeans,he undoes the button then unzips me. My breathing quickens I want to feel his touch more than anything right now. I raised my hips slightly to let him know I need more.
"Slide over and lean your back on the door"...I did as he said. His hands grabbed my legs and placed them on the seat,my breathing still quick and full of want. Jasper takes my shoes off and tosses them on the floor,he then grabs my jeans and takes them off in one swift move leaving me there in my panties. Suddenly feeling very warm even with no pants I unzip my coat. Jasper then runs both his hands up my legs and squeezes both my thighs. Feeling his warm hands on me I let out a moan. I know I'm wet and want him all of him right now. He traces his fingers along the top of my panties,teasing me with every touch.
"Please"...I breath out,he has a smirk on his face. His fingers reach along the side of my panties,I lift my hips again. I need more so much. He knows this and I feel his fingers making circles on my clit. It feels amazing,I feel his fingers move lower and go deep inside me quickly. I place a hand on the front dash and the other on the seat. I let out a moan and say his name. He continues to move his fingers inside me,I feel myself coming undone. I can't hold on much longer as he continues,I raise my hips slightly,Jasper keeps working in and out of me more and more,his fingers deep in me touching me just right.
"Come for me Bella."...Just as he says my name I can feel my self come,all my muscles tightening around his fingers as I'm pushed over the edge I cry out in pleasure. He slowly takes his fingers out. I let out another stuttered moan. I'm out of breath as he helps me up then helps me get my jeans and sneakers back on.
"That was"
"Yeah I know Darlin. Next time will be even better."...Next time damn I hope I get more than just those magic fingers. I need all of him.
"Do you want to go home?"
"No I just wanna sit here and look at the waterfalls for a minute."...I looked up to see all the windows were steamed up. We both laughed. Jasper started up the truck and pushed a button and in seconds the steamy windows were clear again. I slid close to Jasper and he wrapped his arms around me he kissed me softly. I felt safe and comfortable as we looked out at the waterfalls.