Guy made me wait at the Castle for hours after Robin had gone. He claimed it wasn't safe for a lady to be out in the streets alone at night with outlaws on the loose, I should not be too tempted by using the Nightwatch-man as a weapon against people I do not like. He is only trying to court me into thinking he is caring, kind and compassionate. The things I have seen when I was the Nightwatch-man make me know this will never be true and that I could never love such a man.
Seeing as Guy kept me so distracted I was unable to write what happened in Robins escape. He threw his sword around as usual and showed off. I did not realise I was smiling at him until the gate shut and Robin turned his head back to me and blew me a kiss. I simply sighed in annoyance at him in reply, but my feelings for him are growing by the day and this thought scares me. I am glad I have fallen for a man who is kind and stands up for what he believes in, but I wish it was not so dangerous for us to be seen together. I do not know when I will be able to see him next but I fear it will not be soon enough.
I feel shameful. I hear that Robin has shot an innocent man and yet my feelings for him do not disappear. This morning a tax man was walking through the town and suddenly an arrow shot through the air hitting him in the heart and killing him in an instant. The Sheriff is flaunting the news all over Nottingham and soon the whole village will know and cease to trust him. The flame for him that I feel is stronger than reason and cannot be dampened by this or any crisis. I wonder how deep my feelings really are….
I am still not sure if he has any love for me. Today he hit me with an arrow to get my attention! How dare him! The he accused the Nightwatch-man of killing the tax collector and is convinced in his theory. I told him of his stupidity but honestly, why do I bother? He just said "How do you know?"Over and over. More and more people are being killed nowadays so I have told Robin I will try to get into the castle. Sadly this means charming Guy and that is the thing I wish to do least. I must go as my carriage to the Castle waits.
Of cores my charm is yet to fail! Guy took the bait and I write this from my room in the castle now. I have noticed a strange man lurking about the castle corridors. I questioned Guy about him to find, to Guys annoyance, that he is the new master at arms and his name is De Fortney. There is something oddly menacing about him and I am doing my best to avoid all contact. I am unable to feed the poor tonight and I fear for Robin's safety as Guy has sent the dogs loose on him. I shall try to contact him in the morning.